Do you think of me when you look at the moon
When you marvel at it's fullness and beauty,
Do you feel my absence?
Is my memory etched into your soul like you promised it would be?
For eternity?

Man it's been too long
I hope you made it into heaven
I gotta say though, that was a ****** thing you did leaving
I missed your funeral, I'm sorry i couldn't say goodbye
I mean i was there but i was too young to fathom the concept of death
How do you tell an 8 year old that you'll never see your father again
You put your wife in a really tough spot bruh!!

I know it dying wasn't on you but **** man!!
I was mad for a while but I understand
There's no rest like resting in the Lord
Wish i could tell you about this world you left me in
Your little girl is ok
Since i never got to, here is your ulogy man

Hey dad, your lil girl ain't so little anymore
I miss you, we all know little girls need their father
I gotta ask you, how'd you think this was gona play out
I needed you but not in ways you might think
You married you a superwoman man, that woman is resourceful
The only thing i lacked were memories of you

Your baby is all grown man, your wife did a banging job!!
I know i said dear dad but really, this is an appreciation for your wife
I miss you but she made sure i never missed the values you would have instilled
You married you a superwoman man, that woman is strong
She slipped into that dual role like she was born for it
I guess what I'm trying to say is
Out of all the gifts you could have ever given me, mum was the perfect gift

Hey dad, thank you for your choice of a wife
She's the greatest mother i could have ever asked for!
In the mean time, explore all the pretty places in heaven
You'll show me around

Your voice etches deep into my core
Caressing it with winter’s edifice of ice
It finds home in my heart
My heart beats to the rhythm of your sound now
A monologue amongst dialogues
Sound proves to be an analogue of unheard,
Sound is impervious
Yet you spoke a language of love like you know what it means
In a world of love, what is knowledge?
Do you know what you know?
Could reality be just a fragment of imagination?
I can feel your breath on my soul
Rearranging the very fabric of my being
You put me on the precipice of ecstasy
As the winds commands the forest into harmonious whispers
You command my attention, i oblige
Your gaze inspire me to fly
What is it about my soul that you love so much?
Your gaze pierce into me
You've searched deeper than i ever could
There's a chill to it that keeps me warm
Take me home
Holding me isn't enough anymore
Although comforting, i need more
I can't seem to touch you
I've kept the facade but proverbial is not enough anymore
Show yourself!

I have been broken
My arms around me
Trying to keep myself from falling apart
I am tired
I want to let me go
But I am terrified
Terrified that no one cares enough
To pick me up

There is a universe where a love you deserve awaits
Why do you hold on to the one that hurts you
Why do you stay where you aren't needed
Why do you force love where none exists?

I want to make you a promise
Let go
Walk towards a place that accepts your love as it is
Unfiltered, raw and magical
There is nothing as liberating as the freedom to be yourself

A world where the love you deserve does exist
Allow it to find you

I sit by my self
Talking to moon
Constellations crown me the Queen of Soliloquys,
The universe applauds!
Heaven is proud for i am who i am
On purpose and
Without permission!