Loss is unwanted
A dreadful time
The selfless become greedy
Sulking to keep what's theirs
..or had been
Out of sight, still lingering
Mind and heart full
Wishing on a miracle
Cradling memories
Cursing life, delusions clarified
Fragility of life hits  
Hope lost with no sign of return
Life goes on
Heart burning in the midst
How ironic
The one lost is free,
The survivors left behind  
Guilt, melancholy, anger
Creating an evil blend
Counting days, for when their own wud end.

It wafts in the air
Meadows and plains
Dandelion seeds in a bloom
Eagerly awaiting the rains
A warm fuzzy feeling
Dwells with new beginnings

Like a crack
That's how happiness ends
Breaking the mirror
Sorrows creep out
Sudden and Swift
Hit you without a sound
Creeping up on the loved ones
A moment of enjoyment turns
Scars and tears invade
A home once warm
Unable to react, eyes well up
Regrets left in minds
Mistakes of the past resurface
The future uncertain
Darkness looms over
Engulfing a home like shadow
Omens become clear
A thing of joy with sadness in pursuit
That's when u know death's been near

Treat me with kindness
My heart's not made of steel
Brimming with emotions
It's conditioned to feel
Your ignorance causes alot of harm
Incurring a cold gaze, once warm
Words inflict new scars
Right when old ones had begun to heal
Reminiscing our moments together
Those memories i seal
Hold them dear in my heart and mind
Your pristine self, i fail to find
Time spent together, i miss the most
Your affections and soft demeanor
Reminisce it all now that it's lost
Nowadays you only seem meaner  
Craved your attention and care
All that would vanish with time, who knew?
The slight hate doesn't stay hidden
Reminder of past pours in
Your actions left for me to dwell
Like a bad burn on the skin
Tears well up unknowingly
Paralysis of past becomes one with present
Keeping ahold of my love
The you of today is the one I resent
Am i that unlovable, u seek others
Find comfort in everyone, but us?

Shadows lurking around me
in broad daylight they creep
As i turn to glance
they disappear in a sweep
My peripheral scares me now
Watching them twist and bow
Who are they, what do they mean?
In following me, why are they keen?
Perhaps some game about which I'm unaware?
The kind which gives one a big scare?
Filled with curiosity, all alone i wait
In hopes to spot them, myself as the bait
wish to chat, if given a chance
That is, once they stop their playful prance
No means of contact
i ought to look out
Leaves me wondering
what our connection is all about
Unknown, where do they remember me from
Originated from the fields of calm
or the plains of storm?
Anxiously i wait for their arrival
like a guest for the host
Are they really shadows?
Perhaps, some forgotten ghost?
I rush outside hearing their silent sound
In hopes it's me who finds them, not the other way round

When at my worst
Conceived it
Like a present
Received it
As a lesson
Believed it
Estranged me frm the dark side
Made me rethink
Longed for another chance
The world changed in a blink
Thoughts did turn
Epiphany blessed upon
Washed ashore, once fated to sink

You and your things gone
Seconds seem to last forever
Ticking time, present stuck in the past
I seem to miss you more than ever
I was late and you left
It all seems weird and scary
A touch lingers on my fingertips
Feels like a nightmare
As I try to keep you forever
In mind and heart  
Wake me so I embrace you once more
I write and write, multiple times
To a destination with no address
In hopes it finds you
To relay what's unsaid
An emptiness in our lives you've made
With the space we took for granted  
Your peaceful farewell, a relief to all
If that's really what you wanted..