Sometimes I wonder in life where I went wrong ?!
I followed the rules I played along.
Through all the ******* and things of that sort,
I never complained I was a good sport.
So why does it feel that I always get the short end of the stick ?
Its like I'm given something and its taken back just as quick !?
They say to be happy someone always has it worse,
but this isn't a one day occurrence I was born with this curse.
Always feeling alone with nobody by my side .
I'd give up and call it quits if it weren't for my pride.
On the outside it looks like sunshine like I have it all together.
Smiling and nodding saying "its going to get better" .
I'm starting to lose feeling in this thing they called my heart.
ITs getting so numb, bruised, tattered, and falling apart.
I ask you Dear God just why these feelings for me?
Can't my heart just be happy, flowing and free ?
Why do I always struggle with the things inside my head ?
My Mind full of thoughts my heart emotionless and dead.
Walking through life, emotionless and scared.
I didn't know it would be like this, I wasn't prepared.
My eyes are now empty no more tears left to cry.
Just please answer my prayer God and please tell me why !?!?