Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
18
Zoie Marie Mar 2018
18
washed down my anti-depressants with a can of cheap beer
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
"No blame, to have our future together forget the past."
Lost with my thoughts at 1 am and I've forgiven myself and you. Fully.
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
It's 3 am and here's where I lay
In our old bed
On the same day
I miss your weight on the other end
And how you would hold my hand
My laptop is updating
So I can watch Netflix
To try and get past this
I miss your voice
I miss your love
I feel completely lost
With out you around
I hope eventually
We will hear the sound
Of eachothers voices
In real life
I'm coming down
From this high
I feel like crying
Maybe I'm dying
I've told myself 3 times I'm okay
Just so I can face the next day.
This ******* hurts man
Zoie Marie Nov 2017
“I pushed him away too. I hurt him. But if he can’t handle me at my worst he certainly doesn’t deserve me at my best. You gotta treat yourself as if you’re the finest most fragile piece of jewelry and take care of yourself“
Poetry isn’t always poetic my love
Zoie Marie Sep 2019
You make me write again
What have you done
iM BACKWARDS


My thoughts twisted
My words lost
My heart broken

Head over heals
A lost term

Falling for you
A beautiful sentiment

One day

We say

But what if never?

What if forever?

Lets find out
Together.
Zoie Marie Jan 2018
I know you’re somewhere
Out there
But I found another
Near here
He makes me smile
He makes me laugh
He makes my realize
Life is meant to last
I miss you my dear
That may never go away
But man
I must say
This mans taken my heart
Straight into his hands
So delicate
Not what you would expect
From a man
He holds my soul
Deep in his eyes
As I watch
My sadness dies
We go on adventures
Get stuck in the mud
Walk for 4 miles
And need to call someone
No matter what we do
I never complain
Because together
We are one and the same.
Life gets better, you find new beginnings, new love, and new happiness
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
good intentions lined with multiple bad decisions is my existence
Zoie Marie Dec 2016
I wanna be alone
but not completely
I want attention
But freedom
I want to be free
To be me
To live how I want
With who I want
When I want
Ill sleep next to
How I want
When I want
How I want
I am me
and
I am beautiful
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
"I guess human decency lacks
In the midst of heartbreak"
Art
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
Art
You destroyed my necklace
Like you destroyed my heart
*******
This isn’t art
This is anger
This is sadness
This is everything in between
Well **** it
Atleast I’m finally me
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
I fell asleep
With my volume on
And my phone next to my head
Just in case
You tried to reach me again
It's been a few days
Now can't you see?
Please just
Unblock me
Zoie Marie Sep 2019
Been awhile
Since I’ve gotten to write
My life
Has been so full of spite
Not sure
Where to run
It seems
I’m unhappy with everyone
Thought I forgot my login... nice to be able to write again
Zoie Marie Nov 2017
You’re all I think about
Day in
And
Day out
You’re my world
My galaxy
My everything
Why do I love you?
Why can’t I move on?
I try
But it just feels so wrong
Everyday
I get the gut feeling
To drive and see you
But isn’t that
The last thing you want me to do?
Thehighlo
I love you so
I’ll be stuck
College
Teaching
All alone
Because you
Where my golden stone
You held me to the earth
When things went crazy
And now I have to learn how to do that
Without you
My baby.
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
You're a beautiful person
Inside and out
You're a beautiful person
Don't mind the doubt
You're a beautiful person
Don't listen to what they say
You're a beautiful person
No matter the day
You're a beautiful person
Despite the pain
You're a beautiful person
On a rainy day
Love yourself he asked. So I will.
Zoie Marie Sep 2019
Stuck in the years
Elementary
Middle
High
We are adults
We push
We fight
We always come back
My happiness
Lies in your mind


You know everything
Beginning to end
Like a story
My life
Lying
In your memory

Please don't leave
Not again
We made it this far


You hold
Everything
Who I was
Who I am
Who I will be

All

In

Your

Hands
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
You probably deserve someone better
Hell I know you do
But no one wants to wake up next you
As much as I do
Your arms sleepily wrapped around me
Your head on my chest
Your bed head
Always making me smile
But now we're miles
Away from eachother
I miss your touch
I miss your scent
I miss your attitude
I miss you.
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
I'm blocked again
Why does this keep happening man
Please tell me it's just cause your drunk
I've had enough
This back and forth
It really hurts
I need to read your writing
I need to see your words
My stomach hurts
Again.
Zoie Marie Sep 2019
“**** him.
**** me.”
4 words yet so much meaning
Zoie Marie Sep 2019
People think im a child
20 minus 10
You don't know what i have seen
What i have felt
Abused
Broken
Addicted
We all have made decisions

Mine haunt me
My dreams
My thoughts
My daily life

Abuser
It was amazing
The control you took
You pushed me past my limits
I loved it
I was AdDiCtEd

You left me
Broken
Lost
Confused

Yes i'm drinking.
What's new?
It always makes me think of you
"you don't need that"
"really Zoie? another one?"

I should've listened.
Now i'm addicted.
I guess i turned into an alcoholic without your guidance
Zoie Marie Aug 2017
My mom always told me
Don't light that Zoie
You don't know who you'll be
You might ruin your fantasy

The spark from that lighter
Could put out the spark in your heart

But I lit it mom
It tasted like jade
I felt the edge
I may not live to 99
But I know what pink tastes like
How marb burns faster
Camel slightly slower

That spark from the lighter
Erupted a spark in my mind

I'm free
You're no longer part of me
You tore my seams

It singed them back together

I'm independent
An individual

Pink No.9
I've been set free

The lighter burned your ties to me
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
I don't know what I did to deserve this
Used and confused
My body isn't a toy to play with as you please
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
I’ve come to the conclusion
If you don’t love me for me
It isn’t meant to be
I’ll still always love you. But I don’t expect you to feel the same.
Zoie Marie Dec 2016
Confidence is key
you're beautifully lost in your own mind
your beautiful heart
your beautiful soul
tragically lost
in a world of tragically lost minds
we don't know
which way to go
which way to turn
we scream
hide
fight
with our own minds
Zoie Marie Dec 2016
colored, cut, and gauged
i rebelled
i hated you
but god i loved you
i don't know what i am now
hair short
life mixed
i'm lost
but i'm happy
knowing you're gone
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
Let's start from the top
Your hair messed
From the touch of my fingers
Your eyes glistening from the sensation
You run your hand down my body
"No touchie"
Let's not forget
We both have control
But in this moment
It's unnecessary
Your touch sending shocks up my body
Like no other
You show me another
Another side to what's left
Our clothes ripped off
Not knowing whose sweat is whose
While all I can think about it you
And how you look
Dominate in nature
Submissive at heart
Let's not stop at the start
Just feel my heart
It's beating through my chest
I don't want it to rest
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
You think *** with her
Would be better than *** with me?
Just try daddy.
Day
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
Day
Listening to indie
Wondering if your thinking of me
Are you thinking of me right now
While you sleep
Do you dream of me?
The pain of leaving
Was like a freight train
My heart aching
But I'll smoke the pain numb
Till I'm so ****** I'm dumb
I'll cry for awhile
I'll be docile
But eventually I'll go out
I'll have fun
I'll compare you to everyone
Their attitude
Their moves
I'll dream of you
I'll sleep to the memories of you and me
Stories like movies in the mind of a stoner
I hope you're okay
I hope you're fine
Because my love
You're smile brightens the worlds day
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
What is death?
Is it solice?
Is it regret?
Is it the ultimate ending?
Sometime id like to find out
Sometime soon perhaps
I ruined myself
I ruined my chance
I ruined my happiness
Where’s my new beginning?
Where do I start?
**** dude
Is death an art?
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
Someone pour me a drink
You finally made me think
About the choices I've been making
The distances we've been requiring
I'll ******* miss you
Trust me I already do
But you go do you
Since you already do
Do you care what I think?
Do you care how I feel?
You won't hangout
But you'll let me drive you around
Let's get ******
Have our memory be a good one
I don't want to drive you
Just to be left in the dust
But I'll drive you anyways
Because that's what caring does
Let's hangout rather than just 20 minute drives.
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
As my fingers trace your skin
As I take your clothes off with my eyes
I cave for you
Beads running down in sight
7 times in one night
12 drinks down
We both still know what we want
Even after
we still try to lay together
You pull my skin
Leaving bruises
In the most beautiful of ways
Scratches proving
No one knows me like you
Black hair or blonde hair
You still know what to do
You trace my lips
All the way down to my hips
I trace your chin
All the way down to the fin
Fin meaning
We know where this is going
We know how this ends
Passionate
Intimacy
Something I've only shown you
Recently
It's addicting
It's real
I won't try to run
Because why would I
The ultimate freedom is being with you
End
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
End
Why can't someone love me
The way I love you
The never ending
The so true
How can you let go
How can I let go
When this is all I've ever known.
Everything hurts.
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
I'll do whatever you say
Just take this pain away
Everything hurts so deeply
I mean
Atleast this ended neatly
I miss your touch
I miss your love
I'm sorry I wasn't enough.
I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
I miss
Your words
Your touch
Your mind
Feeling you from within
Soul body and mind
It wouldn't be lying
If I said I was still in love with you
Because it's so true
I read your words
I feel your emotion
Feeling our hearts ache in unison
I know we both want
One more hug
One more second of love
Because enough is never enough
If you only wish to share it with one.
Emotions don't make sense
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
The emotions fade
I'm alone again
I get confident
And it fades
How did you get me?
So in love with you
I don't understand
How much I need you
It's undeniable
I'm exhausted
And wish to be in your arms
I'm tired of the hangovers
Tired of the drinks
I just need
You
And
Me
20 minutes of ******* lead to days of needing you
Zoie Marie Sep 2019
You have a beautiful heart no matter how black you think it is
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
He held me while I cried
He knows sometimes I just wanna die
But this distance
May prove
That we need eachother
No matter how far we move
This solitude I sit in
All I can think is how to improve
Who I am inside
Who I constantly fight
I'm fighting for light
In a brain full of lies
I'm going to continue to fight
Till the day I die
To show not only you
But the whole world
How I can pursue
My happiness
Fight for my love
Fight for me
Fighting for light
In a brain full of lies
I know who i am
I know who I should be
I'll let her free
And show the world me
I'll win the fight for light
In a brain full of lies
I'll make it truth
I'll make it new
I'll show you
I'll show them
Who I am
No longer fighting for light
In a brain full of lies
Self-deceit is self suicide.
Zoie Marie Nov 2017
I’m so happy
I’m gonna cry
I’m so happy
I finally don’t want to die
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
I’m off work
I need to see you
Every night I wonder
Do you need to see me too?
Zoie Marie Nov 2017
“For you” he whispered when he gave me a final kiss
Now that’s a feeling I’m always going to miss.
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
I miss you
Can’t you see?!
This separation
Is killing me
It’s your eyes I wish to get lost in
Your voice I wish to hear
But you’re gone my dear
And now I fear
I’ll never hear from you again
Never smell your sweet scent
I saw you
I panicked
I freaked out
I went manic
I wish you could just see
How much you’ll always mean to me
You said you’d help. And now I’m more lost than ever.
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
I know who I am
I know what I need
Tomorrow I apply for RCC
Can’t you see
I did exactly what
You said I need
Zoie Marie Nov 2017
It’s not actual fun unless it’s quite possibly life threatening.
I’m finally living my life. Not just surviving in it. Plus I’m a Gemini so it’s even better.
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
"I'll wait for you to respond, even though you've gone"
Zoie Marie Nov 2017
You said you died
When I was happy without you
But baby
I’ve always been in your view
But I’m done
Moving on
Finally
If you can’t see
What I’m worth
Then you don’t get to see
Who I become
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
I sleep with my volume on tonight
Because all I wanna to do
Is hear the words
"I need you"
I sleep in hope of what we might be
Call it instanity
It won't be the same this time
But I promise you'll hear your name the next time
Our relationship will blossom
Others will question
"What got em'?"
It's called trust
It's called love
Something we must never let go of
You're my one
You're my all
Baby
I still fall
For the sound of your voice
Even in my mind
"Your hearts racing"
"It's because I'm in love with you"
Well my sweet love
I'm in love with you too.
Good night. Sleep well.
Zoie Marie Jan 2018
I sit outside
A smoke at midnight


Meh
I guess life is alright

I kinda miss our fights
On these kinds of nights

But I’ll listen to you
I’ll let go

4 states away
They won’t know

Who we are
What we had

I hope this fresh start
Makes you glad

I’ll stay here
I’ll find my way

It won’t be easy
It won’t be simple

But I’m left with no choice
I’m without your noise

Good luck my dear
Follow your dreams
And have no fear.
It’s midnight and I’m suddenly coming to the conclusion I’ve been left with no choice but to let go.
Zoie Marie Dec 2016
i see my make up stains
still left on my pillow
i miss you in the loneliest
parts of the night
i'm happy with him
but so lost without you
it sounds so wrong
it feels even worse
i'm so lost
what do i do
i keep running from these heartbreak stains
but no matter how far i run
they always find me
these shattered memories
shattered hearts
everything i ever wanted
everything i never will have
Zoie Marie Oct 2017
I’m stress eating ******* for leaving, I need you.
Zoie Marie Nov 2017
Happy thanksgiving my dear
Tomorrow would have been one year.
Zoie Marie Sep 2017
Welcome to Oregon
Where you see a girl crying in her car
at a gas station
you light her smoke
and give her ****
Not very poetic
But very beautiful
Next page