How do I love you this much?
After everything you never say?
How does this still hurt?
Every second of every day?
How do I still miss you?
As I lie here in bed alone?
Will this ever be over?
Will I ever get to come home?

Yes, you were my beauty
And I was your beast
You taught me how to love
I taught you to be wild and free

But I was still only a beast
And that's all I would ever be
Unless the spell was broken
I needed you to say you loved me

As my time began to grow shorter
I could see that you were hurting
And I loved you with all my heart
So I had to set you free

But before the last pedal falls
Come back and say you love me
Before the last pedal falls
Be my beauty and I'll be your beast

Maybe you know it
Or maybe not
Maybe you have noticed me
Or maybe not.

But I really Don't blame you
For not recognising my love for you
But I wish someday
You would know it better than I do.

Yes, you.
Yes your touch, your warmth
Your slow steady breath
Your hand at home in mine
Your head resting on my chest
Yes the sounding of your voice
The feeling of your silence
My lips upon your lips
As our hearts both race with violence
Those never equaled eyes
Overflowing with life color
The dancing of your laugh
As it grows into a thunder
Every memory not yet shared
The adventures yet to come
And growing old together
As we watch the setting sun

I wasn't like you.
I never had a choice.
When it came to loving you.
It's just who I am.
I wasn't like you.
I wish now that I was.
I would walk away.
Just like you did.

Where the hell have I been
Gone or hiding
I wont feel bad
But i wont shine through
I wont do much for you
When im in the hallway im gone
Im invisible, a bad painting, wrong song
I havent loved myself ever before
I wouldnt buy self love if it was sold in a store
I wont message you twice, but three or four times
I wont feel a satisfying flower in my void
You wont bloom or save my world
Even if you couldnt id say no
Im happy here in misery, the same as before
So shut me down cause its all my fault
Stop it before i spell it out
Nothings held together, itll slip out like a card
On the top of the kings, on the top of my scars
If the world was ending id find a hope, light a joint and cut the rope
Would i feel happy like a mocah on a winters day
Like a fireplace in a study space
Like leaving here without a trace

When you hear her name
I could see the color of your eyes changed
I could see your smile faded quickly,
And your laugh were silenced in a second

When you see her
I could still see how you would lost your breath,
I could still see how you would stop holding my hand,
And your body shaken did not know what to do

But I know
I know you have been hurt
I know you were still with her even if you were with me
And in the nights you were hoping for her to call you back

I know
You would walk away from me if she asked you
You would hurt me if she wanted you
I was no one, no one but a temporary shelter

Your body left your mind in her, and who am I to take them away from her
Maybe your physical realm is here, but you are still with her
I was foolish to even try to compete with her, hoping that I would win you
When in fact, there was no competition

*She has won you