2015 left me with some good advice...

life is not nice
life is not fair
life does not care
life does not share
life does not love
life is a ***** and she's tough!!!

I just pray 2016 has mercy on me,*

because I've had *enough

I was born wild
looked after by one burdened cloud.

I grew alone,
strangers always came to vandalize my home.

The others died,
in a ****** open field they left me.

I am a bound tree.
Dying to be uprooted,

Waiting to be free
expectation has become my misery.

Day by day I decay,
I can't continue life this way.

dark hair
dark eyes
dark skin

darkness within.

dark personality
dark humor
dark smile

dwell with me in darkness
for a longer while.

dark love
dark ***
dark heart

you said I was your light
and I can't see how,
when I was born BLACK!

*dark from the very start.

I didn't ask to be born into this world
there's too much pressure
being someones babygirl.

Delicate, with dignity
I once was
but I turn into a freak
as dawn transforms into dusk.

At night,
I close my wide eyes
and darkness consumes me entirely
no more light.

I defeat God's will,
there is no more fight
no more worries,
little to no care.

Atlas I transform

until a mothers worse
*nightmare

In the land of love
I will be your angel
and you could be my dove....

In another lifetime
I could be yours and
you would be mine....

If Earth became Heaven
we would get married
woman and man....

*Too bad it does not exist,
only lust and temptation
that I sometimes find hard to resist....

Without love I'd die
even when it's bad
even when it makes me cry.

Without ***
I feel undesirable
my body seems useless.

This way of living has caused
my heart, soul, and spirit much pain.
Yet, love is never lost,

*only shame is gained.

I attach myself
to multiple hearts,

searching for my soul
through their many parts,

*** is a like completing that puzzle
only to realize, a piece was missing
from the very start.