I feel stupid
I was selfish, I was mean
I'm sorry
Please give me one last chance

I got tears to your eyes!
I can't believe I got tears to your beautiful eyes!
When I didn't think before I spoke
I said things I shouldn't have even mentioned

I feel so stupid when I think about it
I can't describe how I feel after I woke up from my "Agressive Land"
I'm feeling daggers stab my heart,
Even in my sleep;

How could I be so mean, so selfish, so stupid
In my opinion, sorry is meaningless
Compared to what I said and did to you
I wish life had a button or even a time machine to take it all back
And bring that pretty and warm smile of yours.
The one you used to do when you  looked at me

But, Oh Well, I can't
So would you please accept this sincere apology from my heart?

I was so selfish that I would always mess everything up
Yet;
You always forgave me

I keep hurting you all the time,
Even though you're just trying to do what's best for me.
What's for my own benefit.

I beg you for one last chance
I promise I will do all it takes to clean the pain;
And I know now, your heart is like a crumbled piece of paper;
Even if I uncrumble it with my best apology,
It will still leave signs behind...
I wish I thought of that from the start,
I'm Sorry

The moment you walked inside my door
I knew that I don't need no more
You have transformed my life into paradise
Heaven must have programmed you

The moment you fell inside my dreams
I realized all I had not seen
You make me happy just by your presence
Heaven must have programmed you

You are like a four leaf clover;
Hard to find, lucky to have
For your sake, I would pay any price
For you I can even turn light into dark
It's your special day so make it grand

No one can make me smile the way that you do
Without you I feel so low, so sad, so blue
Your eyes take me to a world unknown
I know!! I'm blind in love with you

You worked your charm the first day we met
Your face is something I can never forget
I'm so glad were close friends
Without you I find myself so blue

Times might change;
The universe might change;
But my love for you shall never fade
You are worth melting for
You are brighter than the sunshine
And calmer than the moon
You brighten up our mornings
And also our afternoons
You are so special to us; words can never ever explain

If one fine day your feeling lonely and without a friend;
Come to me, I'll remind you that our friendship has no end
If one fine day you want someone to listen to you;
Come to me, I'll listen so that you won't feel sad too
If one fine day you just wanna runaway;
Come to me, I promise I'll  show you the right place

Not because you love bradley or Chris or even Channing, I understand you
Not because you were born in April, I love you
Not because you scold, I respect you
Not because your strong, I'm close to you
For it is the care and concern you show

Dearest kinda,
You are an irresistible charm,
We promise to always be their for you,
We will always cherish you in our hearts,
Within you, I found the perfect friend, someone who I know will be their till the very end;
Today must be your birthday,
Because the sun is shining bright;
And the clouds that were hiding it are nowhere near sight;
You're a wonderful person kinda and a special friend too
You deserve all the best and I do too;
I hope that today is filled with happiness and your dreams come true;
Happy Birthday Kinda!
Even the amount of stars in the sky and hair strands on your head can't describe the need of you for me and the love of it too;

Tired of trying
Sick of crying
I might be smiling
But inside I'm dying

Sadness and pain deep inside me
I locked it away and hid the key
I don't think I can ever share it
You would look at me in a different way
I swear it;

The only one who knows, is me
I fake a smile everyday
For I couldn't stand you to see me this way
I try burying my tears deep inside
But sometimes I fail
So excuse me

If I ever show you what's truly inside
I'd runaway and never come back

And yes, yes! I know! It's that bad

It's like a torture that never dies
Pain of living hurts me deep inside

Voices in my head
Telling me I'm much better off dead;
Should I have ended it from the beginning?

I feel like I'm wearing a mask
Trying to hide these emotions inside me;
Faking happiness, just to please you is nearly impossible
But, too bad, that's what I go through everyday
Trying to prevent drowning in my own tears

One day everything might get better
Who knows?
What I know is that, that day is certainly not today;

Tired of trying
Sick of crying
I might be smiling
But inside I'm dying

I still remember the day we met
We were too shy to say much or to act much
We just stood there;
It’s funny
The way we saw each other back then
For now we’re more than just friends
We’re having the time of our lives;
Our bond is extremely special
It’s unique in its own way
We have something irreplaceable
I love you more and more each day
We’ve been through so much together
In all those moments we shared
I will never forget how much I loved you
Neither how much you cared
I still wonder how different I thought you were
I’ve always wanted to be your friend
But something just wouldn’t let us
And I hope you can comprehend.
But now you’re like a sister to me
My hand sinks in yours,
The depth of a sea
Low;

You are a book
That we read,
We flip the pages till our brains could not manage
We laughed at your stories
And we cried at your tails
But there was never a time,
When your lines gave us brain damage

Day and night you give me light, whenever I'm out of sight
You always ask the breeze, to wipe away all my tears, whenever I can sense the fear
You are the sun that lights my day, and the stars that brighten my day
You are like a firefly that kisses me goodnight

Me without you is like a year without April and a car without its tires
Me without you is like a phone without a dial, a heart missing it's beat, and a clock without a tick tock
Me without you is like a sentence with no spaces, a fire without heat, a circuit without its wires

When you're sad and depressed I will be here to put a smile on your face
When you're angry and frustrated I will be here to calm you down
When you're hurt and in tears I will be right here to mend the pain
When you're lonely and have no one, I will be here to comfort you
When you're feeling unloved and unwanted i will be here to tell you how very important you are
When you're having a bad day I will be here to let off your steam and yell at me
When there is something on you're mind or no one wants to listen to you I will be here to listen and help
When you're lost in confusion I will be here to help you figure things out
When you feel like you're going crazy I will be here to bring you back to sanity
When you're scared and frightened, I will be here to protect you and make you feel safe
When you are full of worries I will be here to worry with you
When you fall down I will be here to help you up but of course after laughing my face off
When you're so overwhelmed and need to get away I will be here with open arms so we can runaway together

I promise I will never leave you're side no matter what not today not tomorrow or not ever

We love you Celo
And this poem is for you to know
God made us besties
Because no mother can handle our craziness, nor our flow