i don't think
you're supposed to get over it
i believe healing
is learning to live
in the chaos
being comfortable
in vulnerable
breathing in fire
without it burning as much
being able to love
from a distance

z.f.

like a bee
your name
still stings
still buzzes
around me
but just like
honey
it is still
so sweet

z.f.

i still search for pieces of you
in Sunday mornings
someone else's blue eyes
or lengthy snapchat stories
and i'm not sure why
i guess i still hope
to see you around
or somewhere close by

z.f.

i am no sunny day
i'm a ******* rainstorm

z.f.

i am not cold
just an absence
of heat
i am not sad
just an absence
of happy

z.f.

you think
you can cut me off
for endless weeks
then spring up
and come back to me
whenever you please
like cutting down a tree
and all of its roots
then suddenly
replanting seeds
for a tree that won't
grow back to you

z.f.

i cannot
be your friend
and love you
at the same time
i know i'm a gemini
but i cannot
be two people
at once

z.f.