I am sorry so sorry for the way that i left your heart in the shambles that of my hands that gripped too tightly for so long as the pieces fall around me i try to piece them back together but what i have done cant be forgotten so why do i feel that i shouldn't be the one to beg on my knees and it should be you that looks into the soul  have longing for so long since my steps to you took me farther from myself can i give you this new heart if i can be the one who left the imprint of tears in the deep black void of what i destroyed that had been the beat of life

Do you break the silence can you hear the hope crack as my tears roll along the lines of my cheek you gave the words that my heart held on to for the entirety of my life I came to your life as the breath left your chest why have you left me I can no longer feel my heart it is dying as the days go on I have never felt the ducts of despair run dry you gave me the way of happiness so why can't I hold you to climb from these pits that I lie oh god the walls oh god the light both are closing in and away

I stare to the sky I see the smile of those I have loved as I try to cry for the thousandth time I close my eyes and want the tears to roll down my cheek pitter patter the rain drops falls upon my cheek I see now and I thank you for my tear you may have given me the endless sadness that I feel but even among the brightest of stars you are still able to be the only one who can point me the direction I need as I go move my feet and the rain begins to pour I feel the wind push me back why is this you wanting more

Crack the whip that bleeds me dry and look me dead in the eye can you see the sorrow can you see the anger I have gone numb to their grasp as they have washed me again and again so why do your eyes finally look like they care is the crimson river that steadily falls my skin or is that you can no longer find that which makes you the powered I know what I can now feel that smile on my face that goes from ear to ear

I look out on to the rolling plains that captivate me and I begin to stroll along the knolls and as I begin to the fire begins to spread out from my feet and within moments the entire field is a blaze and I see the distant images of the people burning and beginning to melt apart but there is silence and peace why is this so intoxicating of a feeling but as I begin to drink it in the screams break me back into the reality I stare at so even with all my tears for you why can't I put it out I can't save anyone am I truly what I believe

Through the wind that howls on the precipice  of my emotions I stand on the edge of this bluff feelings like I am standing tall but who do I fool for when this jester is riding high there is one person who can't see he is bluffing and that is the man who stares back at me as I fall from grace the wind begins dilute my screams faster and faster I come to reality and seeing that I stand looking to amibiton I concede to this cruelty that fantasy has wrought

I am looking to all these faces and I can pick you out every time with the smile that you once drew me in with and where the lies once erupted from your mouth hidden behind that voice which I cherished and now when I look to you I see the husk you left behind and as I hold on it I realize slowly that it is just a husk I am sorry that you are no longer who you were the thing my naivety fell for and as I see walking away from me I reach out to see if there is something left behind my hand goes through like the ghost you are I now Here on my knees trying to hold back wanting to tell you everything and as my last tear falls down my face I come to grips that my dreams of are nothing just like me