should i be upset or happy?
it's been so long since i was proud of me
guess i won't know, and it's definitely not the first time
i've let myself down again, but i promise i did try
this feeling eats me up all the way inside
i don't know what will become of me, or if i'll make it out alive

i guess that's how it is now
my feet used to soar above ground
but my wings don't work the same anymore
i guess there's nothing else i can do
but drown my sorrows alone in my bedroom
hoping for a miracle to walk through the door

and i know i should accept it, but i don't want to
if they can do it, doesn't that mean i can too?
unless there's something wrong with me
maybe this isn't where i'm meant to be
i've come so far, isn't it too late to back out?
is this my turning point or the part where i break down?
is this just for today, or is it the rest of my life?
if it is, isn't there something i can do to survive?

they don't know that i feel like dying
they don't know about the nights i spent crying
and if one day, i'm actually gone
take this as a lesson to learn from

That familiar stinging feeling
The kind that makes it hard to breathe
Something must be wrong with me
'Cause it comes back like every week
I write my feelings down, then rip the paper out
Nothing makes sense, everything's misaligned
Maybe I should stop saying things out loud
So I can stop beating myself up at night

I'm a glass vessel
Empty and fragile
I only exist to be displayed
Biding my time, waiting til I break
We both know I will one day
On the day I do, will you stay?
Would you glue me back together or throw me away?
I guess it doesn't matter 'cause I won't know anyway

Maybe I should break my own heart
So I can see what the fuss is about
You say hurting me is so hard
But that didn't stop you, did it now?