your plans and actions;
giving time and space
will everything stays the same?

please send all the love letters that i've made for i have poured my heart and soul upon writing it

try not mourn for me and be happy for i am finally free from all the things the tormented me—

trading your soul just to revive this decaying body;
the deafening silence;
unwanted thoughts and endless tears

ang mga paa'y dinala ako sa tapat ng aking bintana
doon nasulyapan ang kabilugan ng buwan at pagkinang ng mga tala
ngunit ang isipa'y nananatiling balisa; tila naghahanap ng himala
'di malaman-laman kung saan at papaano mag simula

aking hiniling sa nag-iisang bituing nagniningning
na sana'y dinggin ang aking panalangin
nawa'y pakinggan ng uniberso at tuparin ang aking mga plano
ituro lang tamang landas kung saan ako tutungo

ngunit balewala lahat ng hinaing kung mananaig ang daing
'wag pilitin ang sarili; hintaying sumiklab ang apoy na nanalaytay sa'yong puso't damdamin
'wag ikumpara sa iba ang sarili 'pagkat ikaw ay may sariling istorya rin

madilim man ang landas ang iyong tatahakin; kumpiyansa sa sarili'y matatangay pati na ng hangin
ang mga buwan at ang mga tala'y makikidalamhati sa'yong pighati
ngunit ang kanilang pagningning sa kabila ng bumabalot na dilim ang magsisilbing ilaw—
liwanag at daan na magsisilbing palatandaan na darating din ang iyong araw

please, stay
and don't go away
it's still you
i remember
when the sun
shines brightly

hindi na mapakali at panay ang tingin sa paligid
ang pagod at antok ay 'di na maikukubli
segundo, minuto at oras na ang lumipas
ni anino mo'y 'di na matinag; mata'y malapit nang tumiwalag
ang isipan ay kung saan-saan na rin napadpad
iisa lang naman ang nais isigaw ng pusong matiyagang naghihintay
makita kang muli at ang puso't isipan ay mapapalagay
lahat ng hirap na dinanas ay 'di alintana dahil ito'y maiibsan

--

at dumating na sa wakas ang araw ng pagpapasiya
ang dalawang pusong nangungulila sa presensya ng bawat isa'y
nagtagpo at nagsama

ang muling pagkikita nila'y punong-puno ba pananabik at saya
salubong na mainit at mahigpit na yakap at matamis na halik
ang siyang nagpawi sa mga sandaling hindi sila magkapiling

--

saksi ang mga tala at ang buwan
pati na rin ang mga tao sa paligid na walang kaalam alam at pakialam
sa muli (at huli) nating pagkikita,
mahal.

i should've known
that there's something wrong
as soon as i walked outside through that door
is the same time you've reached your hand and fell unto the floor
the moment i released my grasp onto your wrist,
a new slit was made 'cause you couldn't resist
and i should've known that night was the last time
I'd see your name on my phone

come! rest your bones in me
hush! your soul is safe with me
let me take you out of reverie—
your worries and insecurities
for i will be your home
thou shall not be alone

afraid of the unknown
never ending thoughts
about you—
leaving me
alone

untold stories;
bottled up emotions
to break your heart
wasn't my intention

tired and almost died;
can i leave this pain behind
smiles and all the lies?

your kiss still lingers
as my body shivers
can't tell you, my lover
that only way to make me feel better
is to be on my side forever
and together, we will make love
and no, we won't break up
'cause as the sun rises and
the moon says hi and shine into the darkness
we will make things up and everything's gonna be fine—
you and I together in time.

crying softly as
my heart tears up in pieces
finding out all the mistakes
collecting details

runnnin' in circles; it won't stop movin'
blinded by these train of thoughts—
from them hating me to you, leaving me
can somebody help me—i'm drownin'
but only I can save me from this misery;
break these chains that keeping my vulnerability;
make a change—turn negativity to positvity
'cause girl, i'm missin' you so bad;
please don't get mad
i'm still learning how to control this thoughts
even if i don't know 'cause i should have
just want to make myself better
wanna love myself so i can love you forever
although others may think it doesn't exist
you're the best plot twist i'd ever received
and i'll choose you every day no matter what they say

nagsisilbing liwanag sa gabing mapanglaw;
pahinga sa mabilis na pag lipas ng mga araw
sandigan sa bawat trahedya ng aking buhay;
sandata na nagbibigay lakas sa bawat laban;
sa bawat unos at delubyong maaaring daanan
o aking tahanan,
hawakan mo ang aking kamay at sabay nating
haharapin ang bawat pasanin na ibabato sa'tin
'wag pansinin ang mga sabi-sabi at usapin;
hayaan na lang itong mawala kasabay ng pag-ihip ng hangin
iyo na lamang pakinggan ang aking sasabihin:
ikaw ang aking panalangin at puso ko'y walang kasing saya
ngayong ikaw ay nasa aking piling

fear suddenly creeps in
as i walk in slowly
in a room full of nobody—including me

fast forward to time
where we are falling in love
without breaking hearts

i've found you, my home
let me rest inside your arms
and don't let me go

tired and restless souls
so lost with their own shadows
finding their way home

pilit at pilit na sinusupil
ang karasahan na kumikitil ng buhay
ng mga taong na wala namang kasalanan
ngunit tuloy pa ring pinagdidiinan
hindi dapat tayo masanay na ang trato sa bawat isa'y 'di pantay-pantay
lahat tayo ay may karapatan at dapat lang na ito ay ating ipaglaban
lalo na sa panahon ngayon na kung saan
ang hustisya'y para na lang sa iilan
imbis na paglingkuran ang samabayanan,
kinukurap ang mga pera sa kaban
ng mamayang dugo't pawis ang inilaan
nagmimistulang mga mang-mang sapagkat wala silang kaalam-alam
na ang kanilang panginoong pinaglilingkuran
ang siyang kumakamkam sa kanilang mga pinaghirapan

who says i'm goner—
that i can't live without her?
still hurts; it's over

just save your goodbye
i don't want to hear a lie
escapes from your mouth

muling nagkasalubong—
nagtagpo sa 'di inaasahang panahon
ang alala ng kahapon at ang ngayon
binati nila ang isa't isa
may konting kamustahan
ngunit 'di na muling babalikan
ngayong naghari na liwanag sa dilim
lahat ng sikreto't mga lihim;
damdaming pilit na kinimkim
ay akin ng itatapon
hindi na muli magtatago sa kulimlim
ng kahapon sapagkat ako'y nakaahon
na sa masalimuot na pangyayari noon

and you stayed
just like you've said
but life's just that terrible
and made my life miserable
never thought of us falling apart
but you just broke my heart
by leaving and letting me go
and that empty promises
now turned into ashes

we're fading away
and I can't do anything
just to make you stay

akin na lamang ikukubli
itong nadaramang 'di nagpapahuli
alam na sa sariling mali
dapat lang na ito'y itanggi
o, ang aking hiraya—
ikaw ay liligaya
sa piling ng iyong sinisinta
at ako'y
magiging malaya
at magiging masaya (na lamang)
para sa inyong dalawa

sing to me all your sweet symphonies
let your worries—reveries turn into
a beautiful, melancholic melody
that will send me off to sleep
and as i wake up, i weep
i relived the memory
of you, of us; our story
now it's just a dream that
i'll cherish throughout eternity

say, will you let me stay for tonight?
i just want to feel that warmth while being wrapped up inside your arms;
shower me with your soft and deep kisses then whisper to my ear and tell me, "everything will be alright as long you're right here by my side".

say, is it too much to ask you to don't let me go and convince me not to leave you?
i always think that i'm not good and worthy enough to be kept by you and you keeping some trash like me.
you're the best thing that ever happened to my life so please, would you still take this roller coaster ride with me?

thousands and millions of possibilities
in this world full of uncertainties
two souls collided unexpectedly
is it worth the shot to call it a story—
a love story that might end up tragically?
oh, i wasn't in a hurry
hope you're not in a jiffy
let's take our time and find out
if this—us could work out
eventually.

it's three in the morning
night's done; sun's almost rising
surviving this life by escaping;
closing my eyes while forgetting;
convincing myself that it's okay
not to have you right beside me
while remembering how we spend
the whole night makin' out and kissing

every night, there's this concept:
we're making scenarios in our head—
I, wishing I was dead
you, chasing someone you could never forget
and we'd tell them—they should've killed us instead

hindi ba't nagpaalam na sa isa't isa
aking tinanggap kahit 'di alam ang dahilan
kung bakit at paano nagawa; ika'y hinayaan na lang lumisan
nais mang tutulan ngunit ayaw tanggaling ang karapatang piliin ang daan
na iyong napagdesisyunan

naging mahirap sa umpisa—tanggaping
tayong dalawa ay dumating na sa katapusan
at hindi na kailaman pang mababalikan ang nakaraan
parte na lang ako ng mga alaala na kung saan masaya tayo sa piling ng bawat isa; gumawa ng sariling mundo ngunit tulad ng lahat ng kwento, lahat ay nagbago;
nandito na tayo sa huling pahina ng libro

ngunit bakit nandito pa rin yung
sakit?
sa t'wing naaalala kang paminsan-minsan
marahang napapapikit na tila bang ngayon lang naramdaman lahat ng pait;
nasisiraan na ata ako ng bait
naitanong na naman sarili kung bakit
sa puso ko'y ikaw pa rin ang
nakaukit?

i know, i have to
you're better off without me
i'm letting you go