The only thing
One is ever simply given
is a mortal vessel
by which
One can experience and interact.

None will ever
simply give thee up
what One wants:

One must get up
and go out
and seek it
Oneself.

Tired
I can't explain it any other way
Not sure what's going on around me
I'm in a cloud today

Frustrated
That's what I am
I can't seem to do anything right
And I don't like where I stand

Deceptively calm
That's how I seem
But if you pushed me too far
I might start to act mean

Angry at myself
That's all I'll ever be
Nothing that I feel inside
Can affect anyone but me.

Exhausted
My raging emotions do this
I just can't see why I run
When it's for peace I truly wish

Tired
I'm back where I began
I'm sick of trying to do it all right
So from my knees I will stand.

and all of my demons?
they look just
like
you.

like the moon draws in the vast ocean,
I felt you walk into the room.

I got the wrong parts
I got the wrong heart
I got the wrong toes
I got the wrong clothes
I got the wrong joints
I got the wrong points
I got the wrong face
I got the wrong place
I got the wrong eyes
I got the wrong prize
I got the wrong date
I got the wrong fate.

My frozen heart
Thaws quickly
because you
are my apricity

he swore
he didn't have a gun
"Kurt Cobain"
etched in stone
on this songless night

(C)2001, Christos Rigakos

It burns in the back of your mind
And feels like you swallowed
A bag of stones
And now they're weighing down
On your insides.

Th meditation doesn't help,
Neither does the medication
The music feels empty
And the days seem darker.

Today seems bleak,
Tomorrow seems even bleaker.