Pretty face, it’s about you isn’t it?
Pretty lies staring at me in those eyes,
I see the dark clouds over your heart
You’re wrong yet you like it, huh???
Crazy to see what kind of woman you are

Say anything & everything, just having your way over here
It’s the fake love for me that won’t keep me here
If you ghost me but play like you love me publicly,
Then are we really together?
There’s no happy ending in this fairytale called- “forever”

Never felt,
Never felt love where you stood
Never felt,
Never felt love where you stood

You know it’s time to go
Don’t amp up your ego
Don’t worry about the romance
You know you’re the definition of a real man

Focus back on your dreams
People depending on you, focus on that team
Just regroup and relax
Your wife will reveal herself, and you know that

I know your heart’s scarred
Yes it *****, but it must end
Just trust me, Zay, you don’t belong to them
Let go you’re not the problem

Look in the mirror and smile
There’s know need to be angry
If it’ll be awhile, then it’ll be a while
Remember you got God, Jesus, and me (you)

Dear God ,

When people ask you to deliver a gift,
how serious are they willing to accept it?

When people ask you to bless them,
how patient are they willing to wait?

When people ask you for forgiveness,
how fast are they willing to burn it?

When people question your existence,
how come they believe demons are real right out the gate?

When people refuse to accept their wrong,
how much blame are you receiving for your innocence?

July 7, 2077

-Let me tell you why I was mad, bruh
-Fans are always pushing for more than enough
-Rumbling their voices during games and such
-So i burn their opinions through this blunt
-We give it our all, even when it is rough
-Earlier, that’s why my anger was build up
-Sometimes those voices get to my head, thinking to much
-So I get high to let it go, let it go, let it go

Dear God,

I want to be vulnerable real quick because I know it’s unacceptable in today’s world for a men to be.

One day back in my college days,
A man tried to force himself on me at a party who I considered a friend.
He low key kept serving drinks to me and my home girl so I would eventually black out.
He would grab a small piece of my shirt a certain way that had me thinking & question -“What is he doing?”
His focus and objective was only me. Not her.
Lucky for me I knew when to stop drinking and notice the odd vibe he was giving off.
After we left, he called me the next morning confessing his feelings + what he wanted to do to me.
Knowing I was straight. I told him I only love women, period.

So I’m telling this story today to forgive him.

October 1, 2016