Warm dragons breath, breaths fire on my cheek
Statues of knights just beyond my reach
I soar the sky just to fight the urge to stay grounded
I drift I drag I draw
Closer to my prey

Why oh why do I perch so high
If only to fall without wings
is it so I can call
being up so tall
I can beg and plead
to the heavens I can see
Don’t let me drown in the clouds so swollen   Don’t let me fall from the perch so tall

I feel hallow
I am a shell of a human
I have no ambition, motivation, or goals
I lack an essence that a person needs to get by       Why will no one blow life into me
I was a child once, born of a crazy world
This world made me
I am not without the world
But unlike the world there is nothing inside me
And unlike the world I fail to be seen
I am alone in this world
If I cannot be then I will retreat to where I came
I will fall to ash and become what I never could

Sadness feels like a hug from a friend
It is familiar
It envelopes me and makes me uninhibited
I can just be because being won’t get any worse      It’s like I have nowhere to go
I don’t have to be afraid of falling
because I’ve already fell and now I’m on the ground
Safe and sound
Happiness feels like being on a ledge and looking down with a ladder right next to you
Higher or lower
There is no guarantee except that of risk

I cannot make what is of what should.
I have no control.
I am not a breath of life but a kiss of death.
I fall between the cracks into the void.
I have abandoned the notion that I can get better.
I am just bad.
I cannot make what is of what should.