I kissed you goodnight
But I didn't know we would ever see
Tomorrow's morning light
Because it was the dark that set you free

Here we pass
Into the abyss
Not lovers, strangers, or friends
Unbound from selfish ties
Only one
Small inkling of humanity
You are broken again
I free
There is nothing
In the darkness
Only the faint shimmer
Of what once
Would soon be

A door is closed.
Oh there were years lived in your leaving

The mind goes
And the husk, it follows

Like the smoke, still stinging my eyes
And the coolness of the harvest air fresh upon my tongue
You fill my senses
As only a full moon can

Time.
She bids no words come forth
If my chest split open
Let my screams swallow me
Yet the Eternals
Would find shame in my humanity
For they have no part
In the drying of tears
Or bones that knock together

The number of days I have lived
As a foreigner in my own way
My own place
And the days I hold in my heart
That I could count upon one hand

What happens in our lives
And what changes us in our lives
Both a weight, and a measure, though neither sit upon the scale

The call in the night has fangs
She has sunk her teeth into me before,
I am soft
And my flesh is but an offering and a sacrifice
Still you bite the hand that feeds you
With your own fingers twisted together behind your back
Yet the clasps that contain my soul
You reach for them with your fingers
Sad you did not know the sun had warmed them
And now you will not touch me
For fear of being burned

You who have shared sheets and bread alike with me
Still you do not know what is the fire lighting in my belly
Yet you curse me for the flames on my tongue
All will be well
The weight will lift
With the fog in the morning
My mountains will sing me another hope
And I will bind it upon my chest
To be one with a promise
If it is broken
So it breaks me

Tell me you can see it in my eyes
I cannot bare to ask for help
Yet I beg, big blue saucers to your moon
We will never say goodbye
It doesn’t make us any less separate

I am an old an ancient galaxy
Traverse me at the speed of light
Still you will only see me as I was
Never as I am
Who’s time is it now in the dark

God knew we would be sinners
He saw us turn our backs
Like it was our last day in the garden
Now we rage against him
It will not be our final war

You pour your anger out
Liquid fire spilling across your lips
Not what I imagined
When I asked for passion
When I prayed for peace

You must go
We are no good for each other
It isn’t safe here
We aren’t human anymore
We never were

Simple written lines
Scars fade over time
The tick of a clock
The warmth of a sock
A candle with a flame
A life without pain

Oh vain compassion
And spinning compass
Who do I turn to
Who do I trust

Underneath the skies
Underneath the stars

*A eternity lies buried

Through the realms we go, to hell
Places that do not kiss and tell
Secret river, in hades realm
Bough to stern, a rocking helm
Deeper to a buring core
The fire of life burning ore
Specter, spirit, who can know
The darker way we go

Could I hold your weight?
Could I compare?

Baby would you notice I was there?

Love me gentle
Love me right
But don't crush me with the weight of the night

When the lights go out
And the music raises our temperature

Clothes hit the floor
Under you
You will find
What you are looking for

You are the heat of a fever
Charting course in my veins
Even Icarus in this flight
Never felt the pulse of Apollo like this

Dream walkers came to me last night
Took me to the doors of death
Angels without wings
Guarding either side of the door
Singing, "to close to the water, to far from the sun, time is flowing, it cannot be undone."
I knew a friend who passed this way once
His footsteps a path I unable to follow
I turned my palms upward
Eyes in my hands searching
"With eyes to see, and ears to hear, time is ending, know no fear."
The doors opened to me
I heard Solomon singing
The only hallelujah I think God would ever want to hear
A voice made of golden threads
Looking burnt as ash
Against the steps of the throne
I pressed my forehead to the ground
Marble leeching its cold fingers into my thoughts
This is humility
To cry at the foot of God
Aching to pour out the sins of my heart onto the floor
And not one word ever leaving my lips
Will the earth ever settle again
Dust racing for the stars
An emulsion of eternity
Scouring the heavens
I to humble to mercy
To proud for regret

What is this emotionally stable you speak of?

I asked you
If you thought
You were capable of hurting me
You said you weighed 115lb
But a sliver of glass
Cannot weigh more than a few grams
Look what that can do
You are a shattered pane
That is all I feel
Your little slivers under my skin
You are not my mother
But I hear her in your voice
You have a mother's touch
It stings all to familiar
You broke the skin on my face
Open like a ripe peach
I suppose we are all capable of terrible things
But you burdened yours as love
Pressed it into my skin
And let me rot in silence

Maybe unicorns are real...

I have a theory
Angels being God's first and oldest creation
Ancient wonder, ethereal being
Then he created the earth and all within
Plants and dinosaurs
Some angels bore child by woman
Sowing winged seeds into the salt of the earth
Maybe those with old souls
Have angel blood swimming around in mortal veins

Were we not children once
Heavens not breathless
Only myself
Worlds fading
From atmosphere
As quickly
As called into orbit
By name
Compelled to answer
Stars timid
Of their own light
Draw close
Lips of a sinner in prayer
Time has baited her breath
What has caused
Relentless torment
Will your words
Not bury themselves
In the earth
Long after this day
Let my heart burn
As do my cheeks
And my ears
Confidence
Will find me again
The devil
A fool for promises
Jester of his own court
Why does your spirit wane
In this drought
New waters will come
New hopes too
Knowing little of gods
That love much
Ask little
Hearts aching
I am tears
Stinging your cheeks
Let sorrow pass
A world with no worth
Besides souls
Scattered as pennies in the street
Let not your light fade
Words diminish
There is hope still
Jehovah holds skies
Holds mountains
Your plight
Not so small
To slip through his grasp
You came
As a child once
This is not forgotten
You are young
To him still
Young to the earth
Do not act in haste
Love on your tongue
More than kisses
For lips
Hold a flame
For yourself
I knew anguish once
I will not walk
That way again
Praying for new shores
In deepest waters
Unparalleled

lean in to me
seal my mouth
with your wax kiss
I will not part
promising nothing
to these days
though they expect much
of my unrefined soul

I was still dripping my ichor into the only ancient I had found as old as myself
Life seeps through the cracks in my skull, it seems the hum of my prayers has found you with its melodies in the dark
What would you taste that my words could not satisfy
What touch would bring you peace
That the eons in my mind have not already lain you to sleep and tucked you in
What is the edge, when this wanderer has only known falling, grasping for the stars all the way down
It seems to even the foolish that this love be undying in its shallows
As you swim from shore to shoal, that depths would make themselves known to you
With the ache of the earth and all her tears to comfort you
Oh skyline where you meet earth I will find you
This sacrifice has bought us sweet hours on the back of your silence
Coaxing fire from your lungs when I have been so calm
As your storm struggles to find its footing
These are the prints in the sand, these are the whispers for the wind
I will sing them to you, oh keeper of days still behind the lock

I am a ship that set sail
Who knows if I will ever see shore again

Please tell me I am begging you
Which of these thorn covered paths will lead me to you
I have not time to waste to discover the true one
You must show me the way, so I can be on my way
Finding you is of the utmost urgency, quickly
I dare not delay, for time is life, and a single moment spilled
Could be catastrophic to our future, my love

As bad as it was when you left
It was foolish for me to stay

You think these words are sad
I say they are filled with hope
Read between the lines
Finding the lost love
An etch-e-sketch of memories
You say it hurts to hear you cry
I say its just how I get bye
A preparation of a new dawn
How cant you see this is a song
You say I am broken hearted
On this we can agree
But its my heart so leave it to me
I do not walk alone
Though you try to see my path
I tell you in vain
That you must journey back
Turn around and trace your steps
Before the markings fade
I know this trail
It leads to peace
But turn around please
I must walk without you
A journey of a heart
You say I will die on my own
I say is okay I was never alone
I have my God and my soul
And that's enough to keep me whole
We all feel something to an extreme
Some more numb that others
Or at least that's what we make
The world believe
A hollow shell
Grass in the wind
Blown away to the edge
A simple step to the ledge
I cant see the bottom
Oh what a long drop
If I fell
Would I be able to stop
You say don't let go of my hand
But that's the only way you will understand
Letting go is part of life
But how you chose to do it
Will withhold your sleep tonight

The past will last longer than tomorrow

Wishing I knew how fast the stars fly
Across the glass strewn sky

Recent mistakes
And emotions

Drowned out in tears and 30.5% alcohol

Praying they will never re-submerge

I tried to suffocate the pain inside the shell that is my body
but it choked my lifeless instead
so now inside my messed up head
all my cells are dead

my women's logic is about as keen as;
grass that hasn't been mowed in months
and my brain is about as sharp as;
the knife used on the stone table

I shall add my existence
To the passing of this world
And intertwine my small hands
To the universe
Still unwoven in mystery
And clouded in shrouds
Of hope

When oceans drown
And skies fall
Only then will I love you

strawbeery**  
       intoxicating
                     fruity

anger is such a waste of time

When silence is bearable
And when the pin drops

When pain is approachable
And when the day stops

When clouds are dry
And the fall from the sky

When eyes are blind
Only then will I die

The void  called to take me back
Come home to the darkness it screams
I whispered into its expanse of nothingness
A something of a quiet sort
*I belong to the light and sunshine
And nothing you have is me or mine

...but you should be afraid

I feast on your attention

A house poem