A feeling of affection. 
A lovely presence.
An utterance of sentiment.
A truly aloof air. 
A truly casual aura. 
A singular impossibility. 
An inability to remain apathetic. 
A dazzling nightmare. 
A feeling like reality itself would distort and collapse. 
I desired a partner. 
I faced my partner. 
The pleasure of being beaten down. 
The pleasure of being run through. 
The ecstasy of being dismembered. 
Cut into little bits and pieces.
A vital component-stealing
Heart-clutching
Mind-penetrating 
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