hard-
cold-
angry-
bi polar
has been
my
personality
for
years
now.
pick...
pick
pick...
pick.
it only
takes
one
memory
and,
i
arrive
OUTSIDE
myself
once
again,
always
knowing
how.
pick...
pick
pick....
pick,
everyday
i
pick at
my
scabs
my
wounds
my
past.
i wait
for
loose
gravel
under
my feet
to
scuttle
at
long
last.
one
time
in life,
i
was a
child
that
saw
life
as an
everyday
playground.
now?
i
pick....
pick
pick....
pick.
i
wait
to discard
this
defeated
frown.
i
wait
for
my
life
to drown.
i
wait
for
them to
come
leave
tears
upon my
cemetary
mound.
i...
i wait
for
death-
and
my
childhood
to
once
again
be
found.
i...
i wait
for
MY
death-
to
no
longer
make
a sound.