xacto knife
glovebox
ambien
bedside table
bathtub 
full
there is a note on my desk that i wrote and i have never gone this far
there is a knife beside the bathtub and i have never gone this far
there are text messages that i sent i have never gone this far
i wondered if my closet shelves could hold the weight of my body and an extension cord and i have never gone this far 
i always liked the trapeze at the circus maybe thats how i shou 

i was asked if i had a plan or wrote a note last time by the nice nurse with blue scrubs on
i had never gone that far
i am far
gone