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Robin Carretti Aug 2018
Here comes the sun little darling's
We all get burned
 Is it your turn
     "U-Turn"
Oh! Where I thou
"Green light Diner"
It's telling us to Go
    *       *       *
The Earth beauty faces
I will be your direct sunlight
In plain sight to the daylight
her blossom tree
All I ask come for me
Her face could eat
The divine flower laced

French brie
Tie a yellow ribbon on me
We have so much to see
Let it be sun-face Moms
apple pies
The Sun  "Watchtower"
Someone knocks you off
Your "Bill" on the Ice Queen

The Goddess rodeo waitress
She got you roped in between
The cigarette 1940 case hostess
             "Rose"
I suppose the sunflowers every booth
her smile sets in place

The stain-glass window Notre Dame
Rock and roll hall of fame
The earth kids rainbow chalk
Sun-fun treetops like a beanstalk
Napoleon Elementary Watson
New Jersey Diner capital admission
The Peking duck *** luck

European beauty hunter's menu
Any luck this will be awhile sip "Starbucks"

1-Antipasti cute Shiba Uni
2-Consomme Chicken soup
3-Sun-face to the soul fruit loop
4-Chicken pepper Salsa
Sun-face lights up Visa
5-Hearts of Artichokes Mona Lisa
6-Soy ginger salmon
My sun worshiper man

Fish tacos hummus
St Thomas
Rome was not build
In one day
The windpipes and
the tablecloths Oh! yikes
Full of dream pipes

Sun tan stripes and zebras
Couscous salad big star dipper
Egyptian Gods camels back
Sun-face diner no time
for the sun-chip snack
Diners from 1920-1940
Sun-face air force dresses

Medieval times two swords
Holy lords Easter parades
" Ice-cream Spumoni"
Dinner in the sky
Robin red breast fly
Italian artwork Coliseum
Look up in the sky
It's a bird shaped
Paper plane bad romance
going insane

Waffle House  jukebox rock and roll
Hall of fame whats in a food name
Cowboy steaks American Flags
Cajun chicken legs fruits and figs
At the caboose Ladybird jet lag
Valentine Diner chairs
got footloose homemade goose

Purple rain Prince maple
pancakes
Bananas and strawberry fields
lake sun in shape of a snowflake
Forest Gump changes to
Presidential Trump
Vitamin C  honey bunches of Oats

Yummy floats of egg cream
Open table Sun-face dream
Eggs light she's not finished
over easy
Pristine of carrots with
artful daisies
Thanksgiving turkey

Rings of napkins holding
A time well-bred marriage
Well known landmarks of
Carats
Long ago time she saw the light
Daylight Knight like a scale to weight

Whispers of wine and grapes
Sun face courtesan love escape
Sun Faces trillion times mansion
Sun-faces never go out of fashion
Sun faces and dinner places the best in the world eat heartily Drive in and Diners all over the world have a medieval touch with the Vikings and melodies from the heart  of the surface  her smile will always be there everywhere she goes the Diners place her with Rose
The lion had just lost his dear wife,
Madam lioness a couple of years ago,
She was in the prime of her life,
When she succumbed to deathly udder cancer,
Mr. Lion grieved with all energy of the bereaved beast
To make it worse, he was also terminally ill
Of the vicious lung cancer, boring his windpipes,
That when he respired sweet music came out,
Like classical xylophones of eyeless Mehrun Yurin,

His sons were away commanding respective territories
Each son a territory in the order of traditional monarchy,
No one was to cook for the sick lion, don’t mention washing,
Hence the sons hired the squirrel alias madam Caroline,
She cooked as she did all other chores in the palace,
She was good in a concocting a matchless soup
From white mushrooms and cured goat’s meet,

As Caroline cooked she also sampled by tasting for her perfection
This little by little tasting made her to increase the strength,
Her skin became smooth, her buttocks swell
Her tail became shorter and steady, but very clean,
Her skin very oily and comely, exuding no evil smell,
Her walking style purged to majestic fashion
Even the type of songs she sang
Were not peasant spirituals,
Mr. Hyena wondered and wondered;
Is the squirrel pregnant?

Only to discover she was not,
But she has a new job;
Of cooking for the sick king lion,
Hyena also heard from the public domain
That she often cooks, goat meat and mushrooms,
But the ram tail twice in week; Tuesday and Sunday,
Jealousy and bigotry, malice and prejudice ganged up at once
And gripped the hyena simultaneously,
And swore to himself that come anything;
Spells of sunshine or blizzards of snow,
He must and must; root out the squirrel
From the palace kitchen,

That bright morning he went to the palace,
Singing a Christian song in praise of Lazarus,
Who resurrected from the dead,
He entered the palace still singing,
He commanded every to stand, put off the laurels,
For he wants to pray for the sick,
He made long and noisy circumlocutions of a prayer,
With regular stamping of feet and amen,
Commanding the devil of cancer to leave,
The lungs of the king, the mighty lion.


He said final amen and all sat down
Two sons of the king, the young lions,
Were all in somber moods, their father was sick,

From the kitchen, the squirrel surfaced,
With goats meat on a metallic platter,
He served the sick lion first,
Then each of them present,
On the first taste of food,
Hyena lost control of nerves
His tail jumped out of the white trouser
That he was wearing that day,
He ate voraciously with a crazy appetite,
No such delicious food had ever crossed his way.

He cleared his food first as expected,
Then he kept mum like a stooge,
Only wagging his long tail
His long tongue hanging out
Flagging in avarice like leaves of banana,
When all others stopped eating,
Hyena began in form of a question,
To which the lion’s family listened
Indeed with kingly caution;
Am asking you the king,
Why is Madam Caroline the squirrel,
Eating your food everyday,
And you are dying of a treatable disease,
To which she has the medicine,
Why is she betraying you?
To such a simple death?

All the lions plus the sick one
Jumped to the squirrel with all horror,
For the squirrel to bring the cure
Or the be killed first be the lion dies,
She pleaded for a minute to bring the drug,
Hyena in full gear of happiness
As his friend chews misfortune,

She blamed her small body size to be the  barrier
To bringing the medicine for king lion,
But nonetheless medicine was available,
Lions roared tell us! Where is the medicine?
In a soft voice the squirrel said;
The only cure for this disease of the king,
Is a fresh liver of a male hyena!

The hyena was frozen with surprise,
Like any other foolish bigot,
He begged to leave as his time was over,
No answer came to his request,
Other than abysmal darkness
Of violent death gulfing his body,
King lion drunk Hyena’s blood
In addition to the liver
On the squirrel’s instructions,
The lion became well
And began walking strong,
Out of this joy
King lion  promoted the squirrel
To be a minister of health
In the kings palace.
Sarina Sep 2013
I was born to a woman who smoked cigarettes
and since I was a child, I tried to inhale blueberries until they
stalled my windpipe.

My mother taught me that word –
windpipe – after she coughed for hours upon hours. I
was so happy that day, imagining how I must have swallowed
windchimes for the doctors who helped birth me
in December’s final snow –
how I hoped they believed I sounded pretty, although

covered in that sop adults call life juice. Life juice sounds nice
but I had known babies who
came just as sticky as me and never got to breathe.

Windchimes, you know, the things
beautiful ladies in ankle-length dresses hang outside,
my daddy lived thirteen hours down the interstate and I knew
somehow that he owned one.

In my dreams, I touched it
and pulled on it. I twisted the copper-ends up like my
momma’s hair and pretended we were with my dad by some
lake where the breezes are heavy enough and I
am small enough for them to carry me up, up, and away.

Everyone insisted that windpipes are inside
while windchimes stay out –

I fixed that problem, too. I tried three times to plant chimes in
my ears, unglue parts of the skin there from myself
to make room for dangly jewelry. A tiny
slit was all I needed, but it would not stay open for long

and I never got to swing my head
pretend I possessed the ability to create music like how God
let my momma grow smoke. I never got to exhale.
Miranda Mar 2014
THE SNOW IS FALLING FAST
THAN I CAN CATCH IT.
YOU BROKE THE DOOR HANDLE ON MY HEART AND THEN PUT YOUR MUDDY FEET ON MY COUCH.
YOU LEFT ALL THE LIGHTS ON AND THE STOVE, HOT TO THE TOUCH. ******* YOU, I AM BURNING FROM THE INSIDE OUT, BUT IT WOULDNT FEEL LIKE HOME WITHOUT YOU.
YOU BECAME A PERMANENT FIXTURE: THE FIREPLACE TO MY COLD HOMELESS HEART. I COULD NOT TEAR MYSELF AWAY. I'D TURN BLUE WITHOUT YOU; I THINK YOU'RE MY AIR. I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO FROM HERE. MY HANDS SHAKE FOR YOU, ACHE FOR YOU, AND I AM SO LONELY.

EVEN IF YOU WERE HERE YOU'D BE GONE; THAT'S WHY I DON'T BOTHER CALLING.
YOU KISSED ME GOODNIGHT ONCE MY FRESHMAN YEAR, AND LEFT ME TO ROT IN THIS FLESH WHILE YOU SILENTLY TURNED SILVER INTO GOLD.

YOU MELTED MY HEART JUST TO LEAVE IT IN A PUDDLE FOR ME TO SLIP IN ON MY WAY OUT THE DOOR.
I CHASED TAIL LIGHTS THAT I THOUGH WERE YOURS. AS IT TURNED OUT, IT WAS ONLY A STRANGER STARING BACK AT ME WITH SCARED, PITYING EYES. I LEFT WITHOUT A WORD.

YOU MADE MY BLOOD TURN FROM SACRED TO TAINTED AND I CANNOT SACRIFICE ANYMORE OF MYSELF TO YOU. I AM SHAMBLES OF THE PERSON I USED TO BE.
YOU LOOK AT ME WITH EYES OF DISGUST AND ANGUISH AND I CANNOT TEAR MY WRISTS OPEN TO GIVE YOU MORE BLOOD BECAUSE ITS NOT FLOWING ITS ALL STUCK IN THE HEART THAT YOU HAVE IN YOUR BACK POCKET. IM SURPRISED YOUR JEANS DONT LOOK RUSTED FROM ALL THE IRON STAINS DRIED IN THEM.
BOY, YOU'VE GOT A PRETTY SMILE, BUT I CAN SEE THE MESS UNDER YOUR DARK CLOTHES AND SOFT EYES; YOU HAVE A ****** MESS WHERE YOUR HEART SHOULD BE. YOU'RE JUST AS HURT AS ME. RIBS SLUNG ABOUT, CLOTTED   WOUNDS, BUT YOU ARE HERE, ARMS OPEN, WITH THAT DEADLY SMILE READY TO CONTINUE THE CYCLE OF PAIN WITH ME.
BY GOD, YOURE JUST LIKE CIGARETTES. JUST LIKE ******* NICOTINE HAS ME ADDICTED, I CANT GET ENOUGH OF YOU. YOU TAINT ME IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE AND ALL MY FRIENDS CAN SEE IT BUT ME. YOU COULD SPARE MY LIFE BUT I DONT THINK I WANT YOU TOO. YOU HAVENT EVEN LEFT MY BED AND MY EPIDERMIS SCREAMS YOUR NAME.
I FIND TRACES OF YOU EVERYWHERE, YOU ****. I'VE STORED YOUR KISSES IN THE DIPS OF MY COLLARBONES, AND ALL THE WORDS YOU WHISPERED TO ME THOSE NIGHTS ALONE ARE ENGRAVED IN MY SKIN. I THINK I HATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME.
BUT I HATE ME MORE BECAUSE I LET YOU STAY. THE SAD TRUTH IS THOSE LIES YOU POURED INTO ME ARE THE ONLY THINGS THAT KEEP ME WARM AT NIGHT WHILE YOURE AWAY. DONT YOU DARE WALK AWAY FROM ME YOU NEED ME LIKE I NEED YOU. AS I AM DEPENDENT UPON YOUR KISSES YOU ARE DESPERATE FOR MY SANITY AND CLARITY AND GOD ******* ****** MY BODY.
WE ARE MAGNETS AND CHEMICALS; WE ARE NEEDLES AND HEROINE. I NEED YOU. YOU MAKE ME FEEL GOOD, BUT SO WRONG LATER. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN THE FINGERPRINTS YOU LEFT ON MY BARE HIPS FADE?
YOU THOUGHT SOMEONE ELSE COULD TAKE YOUR SPOT BUT UNDERNEATH THIS OUTER LAYER OF ME LIES YOUR NAME RIGHT NEXT TO 'PROPERTY OF' AND THE STACK OF RAY BRADBURY BOOKS THAT JUST KEEPS GROWING, SOMEWHAT LIKE YOUR EGO, NOTHING LIKE YOUR MIND. I SHOULDVE LET YOU DROWN IN THAT LAKE IN THE SEVENTH GRADE BUT YOU SCREAMED LOUD AND MY CONSCIOUS SCREAMED LOUDER
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY WHEN YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME? I CAN'T SAY 'I LOVE YOU TOO,' BECAUSE I HATE TALKING TO YOUR WALL OF A BEING. WE NEVER SPEAK: YOU LIE, AND I PLAY ALONG. I COUNTED EVERY SCAR ON MY BODY ALL SO I COULD KEEP TRACK OF THE ONES YOU MAKE.

YOU STARTED WITH KNICKS ACROSS MY THIGHS WHERE YOU DUG YOUR FINGERS INTO MY SKIN; I WAS TOO IN LOVE TO CARE.
THE GUARDS AROUND YOUR HEART SHOT ME IN THE FOREHEAD EVERY TIME I GOT CLOSE AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS LOVE I DONT KNOW IF I WAS WRONG OR NOT BUT GOD DID IT FEEL GOOD WHEN YOU'D SHOW ME HOW MUCH YOUD MISS ME WHEN ID LEAVE.
I NEVER HAD TO TEACH ME ABOUT YOURSELF; I KNEW YOU LIKE A LOST LANGUAGE. I THOUGH LOVE WAS A LOST ART ALL ITS OWN BUT THEN I MET YOU AND SAW IT WAS VERY MUCH ALIVE, BUT VERY DIFFERENT.
AS MUCH AS I THINK I KNOW YOU I DONT, YOUR LIKE LATIN AND GERMAN ALL IN ONE. THEY SAY FRENCH IS THE LANGUAGE OF LOVE BUT IF THATS TRUE IM ****** BECAUSE IM IN SPANISH 2. MAKE SURE YOU SHARPEN YOUR TEETH BEFORE BITTING DEEP INTO ME. I WANNA SEE THE BLOOD WHILE IT SPILLS OUT
MAKE A NEST OUT OF MY STERNUM -- EAT ME WHOLE. I WANT TO KEEP YOU ALIVE IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE. DARLING, YOU'RE LOOKING QUITE PALE.
JESUS CHRIST YOUR DARK HAIR AND PALE SKIN REMIND ME OF THE VAMPIRE THAT YOU ARE, YOU **** EVERYTHING GOOD OUT OF MY BODY WITH HUNGRY EYES AND A THIRSTY SOUL. I WISH YOU WOULD LEAVE VUT I CANT BREATHE WITHOUT YOU AND MY ABDOMEN PAINS ME WHEN YOU LOOK TO HARD AT SOMEONE ELSE
I CHANGED MYSELF TO BE WHAT YOU WANTED AND YOU STILL CAST ME ASIDE. IT ONLY MADE ME TRY HARDER.
THE WIND HISSED HARD THAT NIGHT BUT MY WINDPIPES, GOD MY WINDPIPES SCRATCHED A TUNE SO VIVID, THE WHOLE NEIGHBORHOOD GOT A DEPICTION OF WHAT I WANTED.
I STOPPED TALKING AFTER THAT. I WAS SILENT FOR A YEAR. I WANTED TO SEE IF THE SILENCE WOULD BETRAY YOUR SECRETS, THE ONES I SO DESPERATELY WANTED TO HEAR.
BUT THEYRE MORE STUBBORN THEN YOU ARE. IF THERE WERE PLACES FOR THE SILENT GAME YOU BE CROWNED KING 10 YEARS RUNNING. YOUR KISSES ARE MUCH LESS BITTER BUT ONLY AFTER BEING DROWNED IN WHISKEY AND STALE BREAD
I LOVED THAT TASTE. IT REMINDED ME OF HOME: THE HOLE YOUR ARMS MAKE WHEN YOU HOLD ME. I COULDN'T EVER LET YOU GO.
EVEN IF I TRIED TO LEAVE NOBODY WOULD WANT THIS BROKEN DOWN SHACK I CALL A BODY. YOURE LIKE LIQUID NITROGEN, NO SMELL BUT IF I TOUCH YOU ITS BURN MY FINGERS OFF.
NOTHING SEEMS RIGHT. I CAN'T SEE YOU ANYMORE I CANT FEEL YOU YOUVE GONE AWAY
I KNEW THIS WAS BOUND TO HAPPEN EVEN THOUGH WE WERE BOUND BY THE BOND OF LOVE YOU WERE A MASTER OF DISGUISE AND I WAS A FOOL
I WAS WILLING TO PLAY THE GAME THAT I KNEW I WOULD LOSE -- THIS IS ALL FOR YOU
it was only ever for you
I can not fathom doing things for myself
they don't turn out very nicely
they end in me lying on the bathroom floor
kissing my bruised knees and crying out the gods wondering who's even real.
i wish i knew what to say, what to do, to be okay again, but i don't. i'm drowning in pools of things i never said to you; they just slip out of my mouth, silently. i've never been so scared in my life.
A collab by a close friend Kristen and I.
Tea Jun 2015
with every breath i took
my lungs filled with you;
and for every second that
your heart was closed to me
I taught myself how to breathe
again.
I lost all self respect waiting for you to come around
but I don't write about you anymore.
galatea Jun 2014
Behind the house with the fragmented windows
and the corroded pipes
and the cobwebs and ages under the stairs,
she buried herself
under the earth and grime
until the roots contained her decayed soul
and encased around her brittle scarred limbs.
Until the dirt crept down her windpipes,
until her tarnished lungs were suffused
with ashes and dirt.
Until roots replaced her veins and
smothered her cracked ribcage.
Behind the house with the fragmented windows,
under the grass and gravel,
that was rougher than
her mother’s dispirited retorts,
where she once capered and skipped, and never thought
would become her grave.
By the ethereal creatures she played with
in her younger and more susceptible years.
Dig up her bones but leave her soul.
Who would ever want cruel contaminated beauty
as a periphery for such a fouled soul?
It was when she stopped falling asleep on the way home,
when her nightlight ceased to make her feel safe,
when a lover’s unlawful kisses replaced her family’s amity,
when a lover’s lethal passion parted her lethal loneliness,
when home became a person and not a place,
was when she buried herself
behind the house with the fragmented windows.
I moved out of my childhood home a few months ago. I feel as if I had buried my innocence in that house.
Claire Waters Nov 2013
finally started the novel he told me to write 3 years ago that i never wrote because i was too busy being depressed and wasting my potential over him which he would’ve never wanted. for maza, for you, sincerely liv tyler and lacey chabert’s love child

*pre:

right now, we’re floating in space, and i can’t think of anything. no that’s a lie, i conjugate things in negative too much. we’re floating in space, and i can think of everything, our bodies are pulling us like taffy in a loop-de-loop like kansas tornadoes and like cotton candy makers and wheels spinning across invisible pavement.

but i wonder if it is pavement? eventually there must be pavement. that makes sense, right? when you’re falling, eventually, you’ll hit the ground, right? that’s life. that’s reality. i say these things to you so much. and you look at me with that face. you don’t have to say anything. your slightly open mouth is reality. your lip biting is reality. your hands, so i hold on to them and pretend we’re padlocked together and nothing could ever break our hands from one another because you’re all i know right now. you’re all that’s real. i’m so scared of what reality will be when you’re not here. what is any of this, without your hands?

and now, we’re just freestyling in nothing, an out of control merry-go-round accident machine malfunction explosion fwoosh. i’m dead and i’m still waiting to gag on cold metal splitting bone. reality. reality, right? suddenly the hard seering pain seems so appealing. i turn my head to look at you and it feels slow motion executed too quickly, snapped neck swung sideways like a dog desperately shaking off it’s fleas, i know your eyes are on the other side of this so i keep pushing for seconds and hours to turn against gravity and look at you.

except your hands, i don’t know where they went. i thought they were there a minute ago, in mine. i saw them. i swear, they were warm like beds. i lay my palms in them and you held on so tightly that i’m sure you weren’t part of the decision making process in this ‘letting go’ thing. letting go, did you let go? did you free your hands from me? did i hold on too tight? was our velocity not enough? my weight was so feeble i couldn’t manage to hold you down from being ****** into the void?

my brain is still trying to put the calculations together. when did you let go? where did you go? i try to imagine you spinning besides me still but everything is empty. we have no momentum. the darkness is arid, quiet. i feel like a shell. i wish there was a shore for me to break against. i want to call your name but i know it’ll be crushed out of my mouth if i try to speak, so i clamp my teeth together and grab my body, and spin, spin, spin. alone. i can’t cry. the tears would creep into my eyelashes and float into the sky. is there any sky? is there anything at all?

i keep denying. i argue with the world, stiff bodied and silent. everything seems like so much for one person to take on. i’m not good at remembering i am being, i am a being. as in i am being right here, right now. everything. nothing. where did your hands go? reality: the wind whapping the screen windows, hissing in the drain pipe. reality. cold, i say. too cold, my body says. cold like a brain freeze. no, it’s not too cold, i insist again. it’s crackly and comes in bursts of shivering down your spine. that’s what it is. yes. just a slight shivering. no, my mind says, chilling. and i tell myself, it would be the wrong thing to do, to embrace that darkness, right? right? and no one will answer me.

i try to scream and my lungs are filled with the yawning roiling nothing, like salt water washing into my mouth. i choke on the feeling and remember telling you that story about sounding like a strangled chicken when i try to roll my r’s in spanish class. you laugh somewhere and i scream again. it feels good, choking. choking yourself to…nothing. there’s so much everything pent up in that sound forcing itself out of my windpipes. and the earth does not rumble beneath; the silence says you belong to me. humming it over and over, pulling. you belong to nothing. you belong with nothing you belong as nothing. i can’t fathom this kind of anti-gravity. i thought we had everything. was i wrong? i don’t feel like everything, right now. i don’t feel anything.

so, i ask the darkness, this is it? the echo is swallowed. i can’t even hear my own voice. is this it? is this everything? i clamp onto my upper arms, squeezing the muscles tense. keep spinning. keep spinning. don’t speak or it will swallow you. keep spinning. there is no meaning. i don’t know why you let go. does it matter now? spinning. real. what is that? spinning.
new chapters will come, i'm working on it. this writing is a pure investment of untapped emotions, and that's all i want it to be for now, so i'm not going to pressure myself to go chapter by chapter, i'll just write it and hopefully you'll enjoy haha.
Jennifer Marie Dec 2010
We stood in the darkness, sharp air
                     piercing our windpipes, and rubbed
                     our hands together. Your eyes trailed across
the empty skyline, life fading from behind azure pupils.
I brushed back my hair, breathed – the white smoke
                     spiraling up 34th street and into our old bedroom,
                     over the paisley bedspread where she stretched.
Her gold curls laughed, bounced, and then stopped abruptly.
                     My hazel bewilderment met her manicured eyebrows.
                                           I knew.
                                          She realized.
So I moved toward her shadow, and she blinked. I reached
                     across her petite frame, and left the ring on our old
                     bedside table. But I took
                                           the flashlight,
                                           because I am still afraid of the dark.
- From Love Letter
sycokitten Nov 2011
My mind is filled with screaming thoughts, all swirling in a torrent of relentless negative ideas, that wish to fill me with the panic i've come to know on a more than intamate level.
I've started to realise they're muffuled.. as though i'm unconciously smothering these intruders, tresspassing of course being an extremely high offense in this world i don't quite remember creating.
Just sitting here listening through the fog as they try to rant at me all of the quaint little pessimisms they can think of, their voices growing quiet as i slowly steal their oxygen. What a murderer i've become, pressing upon the windpipes of my anxiety , so emotionless and uncaring, as if such a violent act were nothing out of the ordinary in here.
i know what you all must be thinking, because of course some of the voices are having the same ideas.. "She's snapped!" well perhaps i have, i'm not entirely sure about anything at the moment, but if i'm essicently killing a type of pain, then doesn't that make me benevolent rather than malevolent? fixing by destroying the main alements.
Shouldn't that mean i'm healing rather than breaking?

.
miranda Mar 2013
i know
that it is easy
to feel mediocre
and alone.
but at 30,000 feet
the world is so small
that you can count
the waves of the ocean on your fingers.

do you know
that it is hard
to let you see
what i've found?
breathing is easy
when you are above the clouds.

our love is trapped in the clutches of time-
seized in a moment,
lost in my windpipes,
i am busy catching your breath.

we can cut through the atmosphere.
meet me by the moon
to listen to the morning murmur.
i can only offer you so many escapes.

it's too hard to fix you.
why shouldn't i hide
if i am the bad guy?
and all you want to do
is say goodbye.

i etched eternity into your cracked skin.
i traced familiarity into your bruised bones.
but i am not a savior
nor an angel, it was
merely good timing.

atlas did nothing to deserve this.
even the divine must suffer
even the divine must fall
under the weight of the world.

all we have is each other.
asphyxiated and astringent,
each kiss is an exchanging exhale,
and our lungs convicts.

we'll dig our way out together.
i have only hurt you in secret.
i have only hurt myself in stupor.
but i tried, at least i tried.
i am trying.
Robyn Neymour Jan 2011
Conquering the mind is the human that is unseen,
And we become victims of our thoughts.
Hearts' unable to speak,
Though their emotions burst out,
Like black paint getting thrown on white walls.

Then they call out to us "Color Blind".
Cool, challenging, optimistic thoughts,
Unable to defend the bruised eyes and the fearful fingers,
That brush gently along the rough edges of its challenge,
Success to the forgotten soul,
Rings like a loud echo following a vacant darkness.

Indeed the delight of brokenness,
Is treasured and stored in the back of the mind,
Calling out to its very best friend, “Hopelessness”.
Heart still unable to speak out loud,
Almost unable to move.

Then suction takes place.
The impurities begin to dance and mingle,
With those major veins in the heart,
And the bruised eyes,
Finally express the bed of painful roses.

Every gulp that is take,
Feels like rusty iron filled with ******,
Sliding down our windpipes,
That feels like its directly to the heart.
A blizzard that we could never see our way out of,
Until it passes over.

© Robyn G Neymour
© Robyn G Neymour
Pearson Bolt Aug 2013
though i’ve never smoked a cigarette
i’ve always loved the smell of tobacco.

it reminds me of shows in seedy concert halls
and the gum my father chewed to get sober

minty-fresh nicorette replacing the scent
of the wine that imbued his every breath.

i recall my grandpa, the way he sat on the porch, surrounded
by nana’s garden, listening to the songs of birds

the stub of his last cigarette, poised between frail fingers.
as it withered, he withered with it.

their walls stained yellow from the nicotine
like some vintage sepia photograph.

through synesthetic memories, i can taste the
way cigarette smoke wafted through the summer air when

my friends and i sat on our back porch, reminiscing,
nostalgia suffocating, tightening its grip like a vise about our windpipes.

i’ve never even smoked a cigarette
but they always remind me of who i used to be

before i lost what was left of my innocence.
Eriko Mar 2016
just know,
        light footed boy
                     faint hearted girl,
glory morning dew
teared umbrella

bristling in the
fierce passion erupting like piano keys
          ignited by the spark
          of shared candles

dotting the palaces
         our maddening pursuit
                     love
                                      
                                           the soreness bristling
                                                on the bottom of my feet  
         my coarse voice
         and tired windpipes

                                                                                     my love for you ceased,
                                                                                        teared by the ricochet
                                                                                    of my failed daydreams
goodbye
Lendon Partain Oct 2018
this is hell because I say it is.
I'm goin to die inside of it
now you cant stop me cuz the tourniquets,
not your hands upon.
mine it is.

safe treasure to lie on
I stay here in the masking tape
taped up against it.
holding close till death's quiescence
escape is impossible
the collapse of body is
take in step
depth torn from ones ***** creates humans.
we cream humans out of our windpipes
through the words we hate the words we love and the words we ingest creating years long relationships that **** ourselves and our partners and our health and happiness
all for you little miscreants
we sound bite

death falls upon head bands
death holds its hand waist span for creeping death on our limits of bands measure expanding fissure on my backs expanse of nerves
they torture true \

every day with every move
these kids spill their hate
I gave them from the feelings
I felt they inherited with every song that I soothed them with
I hate this
I **** and peel my skin I slip my slime I steal life from every hoove I walk around the animals life
I slave a forth from my head
I tithe this tax
I slurp it all up to invigorate from the death I
feel I **** my self.

death to the dishonor I have done myself

have I grown true humans, ill never let
my self, off of the hook that if shoved in my pelt,
will I lose all the worth and the building I've dealt,
to the structure the skeleton of this tower I've built.

till it crumbles,

till its stagnant.
There's a cigarette burnt black coffee filtered voice that i use but don't own
and as many cigarettes and cups as i push past empty lines
it's that other drink and smoke that own my windpipes.
That's a lie;
I've never filtered any tangible thoughts out of those two sources
and serenity aint my friend in any kind of aggravated blissful stupor.

So it must be the early morning toilet scene that caresses my inspiration as i fill it's desperation
Francie Lynch Jan 2016
Don't die from old age,
It's illegal.
You'll be arrested,
Jailed for a life sentence
With no parole.
You must die from cancer,
Pnemonia
Or some other acceptable
And legal disease,
But not old age
With blunt sight,
Withering bascilli in windpipes,
Conflicted consciousness
With
Unsteady steps.
These must be symptoms
Of a greater malaise.
So,
Take heart,
You cannot die from old age.
It's illegal in N. America to die from old age.
Nabs Dec 2015
By : Nabs

At dusk, I woke up to find that my whole body alight with pain
From the very tip of my hair
To the very tip of my toe
A pain that struck me deep as it is rooted in me

My head feels like it is not my own
Where my thought are filled with images
Where they took every single memories
Just to replay it over and over again

Although it is some specific memories that they play

( I should have known it was you)

They are images of you
Either the way your eyes disperse the light
Glinting with rainbows as you laugh
Or the tingling of your voice when you speak

Or the little quirks that you have
How you scratch your head when you're confused
Or how you tighten your fist and hold it close to you when you are in anger
Or how you look pained every time someone mention your father

Even my subconsciousness was not safe from you
How in the nights you seep into my dream
And how my mind seem to speak your name with reverence
As if you are a saint and i am a sinner begging for forgiveness

Not to mention
My head feels like it know you more that I know my self
How my consciousness remember every single way your body move
How you react
How you never seem to notice how breath taking you are

You do take my breath away, you know
You make lungs constrict
My throat sore and my windpipes clogs
My chest ache

Just from seeing you brush a stray strand out of your face

( No wonder I always choke)

I know now that you are poisonous
Because often you made my mind sluggish
How you made my tongue numb
Struggling to just say something

I feel like I could die from just being in your presence

Some how, I wouldn't mind that

You seem to have taken over the control
Of the beating of my heart
It is not mine anymore
You took it from me

And i'll let you do it any day

How do I not realize that you poison me?
That you attacked me

No

I couldn't say attack when I, my self are a part of perpetrating the crime

I let you poison me with your kindness
And I succumb to it
Kindness is very lethal I find
Very potent

You are causing an infection
Spreading across my heart
Making it rot
The stench is cloyingly sweet with a hint of pain

I think I know what poisoned me

You make my heart a bruised little thing
Banging across my rib cage
Sometimes I can feel it to thump so hard
I wonder if there are fractures littering my ribs

It is a miracle I do not get a stroke
With the way my hearth clenches
Every so often just by a single word you said
No matter how un important it is

There is something growing inside my body and I know I am diseased

I'm going to be erratic soon, at the rate this is spreading

The rate this is spreading

Why

I know you planted some seeds inside of me
And how it is growing in my body
The pain is caused by them
How it is thriving alive, and ******* me dry

******* life out of my marrows
Making me prone to bend and break
To bend and beg
For you, I would do it in a heart beat

Why do you do this to me?

You do not intend this for me
As I do not intend to succumb in the first place
But intentions will always be intentions
If we do not manage to realize it

One of my symptoms is butterflies in my stomach
How did the caterpillars get in there?
How did my stomach turned into their cocoon?
It does not feel beautiful, the butterflies in the making

They feel like acid and agitation

Now I am trembling

You make my whole body quake
My bone to ache and shake
It is as if you made them corrode,
Maybe that's why my knees shake just because of you

How it will always tremble
How you make my hands tremors
How psychosomatic it is
And I seemed to caught this sickness right to the bone

Maybe I tremble because you are more than I can handle

You with your kindness
Your attempt to become normal
Your fear of closed space
And how you would unconsciously scratch the silvering wound across your heart

Maybe because yours do not rot, you infected me and rotted mine instead

( There is something wrong with my eyes)

As i said, not only that you have took over my heart you also took over my mind

I seemed to still do not mind

My whole body is trembling
My lips quivering
I feel my eyes are watering
I feel my temperature rising

I feel horrible and yet I do not mind this pain
This high fever I am in
Comfort me some how, even if i know that
if I do not get well soon this might **** me

If I do not get it treated, it will **** me

But I am still hesitant to cure it
I do not want to be diagnosed
I do not want to
I do not want to

I am infected

(There's something trying to get out of my stomach)

I am trembling again
And you saw me trembling
You saw me
You smiled, and a snip could be heard

There are a string broken and it might me my sanity

Why do you deny that there was an earthquake
Why do you always deny that
Why
Why

Why do i still got close to you despite knowing
That the episentrum was you

You are a natural disaster
An epidemic
Spreading disease in your wake
You couldnt help it

No one could help being them self

You know I feel pain all over my body
But sometimes the pain felt so intense
That it renders me numb
How do I still exist in this paradoxes of mine

( I fear my liver have stop trying to purge this toxic away)

You make all my nerve go alight
I feel like i am burning
Ashes, ashes is what left of me
I have nothing left of me

You burned me down

But why do i feel so cold?

Yet, I do not mind
Because even as my heart is aching and in pain
Even if my whole body is black and blue
My body is not mine anymore

That was your betrayal, wasnt it?

(At least i still could bask in your presence)
You made me betray my self
(Such exquisite pain you cause me, i want more)
Why do you keep smiling as if you know nothing?

Maybe you do not know anything

(My legs just gave out and I am on my knees)

The poison is muddling my mind
I am poisoned
I already said that
I am trembling again

The butterflies got out of their cocoon today.

They were beautiful, and red with my blood

I still do not mind

You betray me
You causes pain to me
You poisoned me

I still do not mind

You smiled again today
It was like my medicine
I feel like i am addicted
You smile like you were happy with the way i am

I fumble with words now
There is something wrong with my eye
I cannot see clearly
Everything is blurry and tinted

(You said my eyes were beautiful)

I was happy but now I am sick

Why

My legs and hand do not properly work anymore
I feel like someone just pierce giant big hooks in them
Because i keep being pulled
I keep going back to you

My body is not my own, it is infected

You poison me and then you put parasites didn't you?
I was fine
Did you think your poison was a cure?
I did not have anything wrong with me

I did not
Now i do

( I can feel my mind crashing down, it feels like freedom)

The fever is going up again
My words are hazy
My arms taste sweet
I feel disoriented

Why do you need my to be like this?
Wipe that smile of yours
Wipe it
Please

(Please)

I am addicted to you
Your whole presence
I do not mind
What do i not mind?

I am sick, i am going crazy
You drive me crazy
You infected me and you rot me
I still do not mind

(There are tears dripping down my eyes, it is black)

I do not mind

(My heart just gave out)

I just diagnosed my self today

There is a paper thin difference between hate and love

I think it is the latter

I am such a liar
This was made in span of 3 days.
Its made when I was feeling quite ******.
Anthony Caceres Dec 2014
Its a tricky word to say
Trying to force it out of my mouth is like swimming in a lava bay
Impossible
Not available

No, no its to soon
Or is it to late?
Every night i'm with you
gazing at the moon
Every night we make love,
Our souls, await
For a time
For a place


Looking into your soul
Is like staring into my own
from dusk till dawn
from day till night
I have to to say this word that strangles my windpipes
But which L-word do you want me to mutter?
Large?
Language?
Luck?
I got it!

I'm in lesbians with you
Inspired by Scott Pilgrim vs the World.
I hear the tick
and the click
and the beat of the drum

the sound of thudding
within my ear drums

It beats loudly
as the music strums
Softly and slowly
your voice hums

a beautiful tune

I must have assumed
that beautiful tune
was your heart beat
making music for me

You must have been amused

Now all the chords have been broken
The violin plays the saddest song tonight
Forever entwined within the notes
radiating from your subtle lies

This is the part in the chorus
where I fall to my knees
and plea for a different reprise

Kindly ask my heart
for the sense and sensibility
To start a new life

Those masterful musical notes
you wrote, are deeply embedded
Within a monstrosity of tangled
windpipes and heart valves
© 2013 Christina Jackson
Feel Jul 2015
You sang to me
Your voice lingers
in the stillness of the air
and it travels
in the the quietness of the night
seeping through every inch of solitude
on a cloud of soft melody
that cuts through finely
and enters the cracks of my heart.

You sang to me
Your priceless expression
when you force your voice
out of your lungs
eyes closed and hands squeezed
as you mouth the lyrics
that matches the darkest secret
in your deepest jar of hearts

You sang to me
the walls heard you
as the meanings of every note
sank deep inside my soul
as it tries to decipher meanings
like a rubik's cube
twisting, turning, looking
into your cryptic eyes
for a sign.

You sang to me
that voice I shall never forget
the veins on your neck
as the song of despair
travels through your windpipes
will forever be scarred
in my memory
how it pops up searching for me
how it expands as your blood
searches for me in your head
how it flows indefinitely.

You sang to me
heaven awoke and hell broke loose
because I remember the songs
the choice
the timing
the kiss
the accentuated lyrics
the duet
the melodic waves of sounds
that completes the vagueness
of the room,
the darkness
of our hearts,
with an unbiased
yet unspoken
sets of words.

But you sang to me
and that was enough.
Labyrinth Mar 2014
Dear ******,
I have a comparison for you,
You are like a cigarette,
Tempting, poisoning,
But extremely addictive.

You are the cigarette that takes the lungs of young innocent girls,
Revealing yourself from a packet consisting pictures of revolting warnings,
But still, those young inquisitive girls take you,
Thinking, 'it won't hurt just to try a little bit'.

******* in firmly at the filter,
Until the burning dry substance begins to go transform,
Into a thick grey cloud it turns,
Dangerously slithering down her fresh flourishing windpipes.

At first, it feels a little foreign,
But after each cigarette she devours,
She becomes more obsessed, needy,
And damaged.

Soon, the tobacco is the red blood running through her veins,
And like any other of your soiled victims,
She desperately tries to call for help,
And she really wants to stop.

But you drag her...
You drag her further,
And further into the blinding smoke until she can't breath no more,
She can't breath the fresh, virginal air that those beautiful, god-made trees release every, single, day.

And when she's lying in those pure white sheets,
Sunlight illuminating through the crystal clear windows,
The trees singing their last beauteous melody for her youthful soul,
You are inside that wicked packet, waiting for your next victim.
For the girl who's been hurt by that malevolent ***.
18.03.2014
James Tee Dec 2014
Theres a Baptist church frame
empty of hearts and joy
plenty of sky above
like  an empty pool of coy
its energy is vague
its people once were alive
tourniquet windpipes alive in the velvet hide
they sung the words of richness
danced on illness
war chains like rains
flooding brains for some mystical temptation.
They severely wanted a way not to die,
so much that life solidified.
And took them.
They thought they had colourful plans
of cloud street *** pits
hundred yard flower gardens
manicured by a tanned super freak
of atomic wisdom.
Till a sharp bit of plasma burned them to the floor.
It was a summers eve 1957.
The breeze let off a little steam and sent them straight to heaven.
The night sings through
Tree leave windpipes
With mild cool breeze

In the front yard
On white sand
The night paints
With silvery paint,
Borrowed from the moon

Night invites me out
With its enticing wonders
Seen on the CCTV

I wish I know
How to repair
My wheelchair
rachel Aug 2014
I laid down
He laid next to me.  
My face was in the pillow but I knew he was facing me.
I told him he was stupid
He told me I was more stupid
We battled like this
With raspy voices
Windpipes drenched in alcohol
The lingering aftermath of **** in his lungs
I could hear it in his voice.
That rasp was the most beautiful sound to me
In that moment and in every dream I've ever had of that moment.
I just never thought it would be him.

Our battle drifted off as he fell asleep
His last words were uttered in a raspy daze
"You're an idiot..."
And with that he put his arm around me, resting his hand on my arm.  
I felt warm
Cradled in the most complicated and innocent moment I've ever experienced.

I didn't fall asleep that night
Akemi Apr 2022
hallucinations of wildflowers and flooding windpipes
yesterday
a fig
today
a bell jar
covid day 2
Eriko May 2015
another attempt at this
this soliloquy
oh, hello
I haven't realized you were there
my feelings are everywhere
I ponder of decadency
curses, blank verses
my idiocy worthless
wander for that
drop of sanity
restrictions soon born
from nonsense jurisdiction  
thoughtless truths
aspired from fiction
try desperately to wade through
diction to carry my weight
to wade through all this hate
crates beaten blind too straight
a compass to identity
I need to find my way
I cannot possibly begin to say
how astray we are from amenity
my journey in adolescence
I feel like once before
a child of eight  
I dreamt of terrible
marvelous skates
weaving simplicity
complexity in outer space
rocket ships realities traced
now to spines of crates
drowning to the lid, lost salty straits
yet what is once
will never begin again
look at me now, eight
I live to see light of day
and end with kissing white *****
of those medallion ivory gates
filthy green dollars
as they clip my windpipes
to hush our voices gone hoarse
in constant delay
smothered so we stray breathless,
worthless in constant replay
a desolate lampshade
shattered shards of what
remained of eight year old dreams
a second chance too late
a second path too vain
my liberty to express
those wooden crates, open
passionately
constantly drift astray
in those seas of dismay
have no fear for me
the stars will now
guide me the way  
it's going to be okay,
my precious eight
zebra Aug 2017
ID
father does not rule for long
he is the wicked child's plaything
id's robot slave
a sacrificial money machine
he is baby ghoul dressed
in a costume of culture
regulated by the iron fist of war
the world souls industry

he's made to ware a uniform
with little silver spiked buttons
drawn rigid to the throat
windpipes nag
and cruel shoes shinning
decorated in a suit of fire
that feels like a shredded
hair shirt
with a power choker tie
and a nifty haircut
costumed
a real cloths horse

he seeks the approval of the sold out
and had his wings pulled off
long before he had whiskers
another workin stiff
buying his freedom
one insult at a time

fathers loyalty rests with the child
that's where evil pleasures lurk
first comes the devil
daddies real father
he is
the old man
chaos his name
a bodiless monster
a disorganized dream work
with seething expectations
a somatic octopus
a grabbing insatiable hunger bucket

daddy was born tomorrow
to get along and go along
to listen and obey
a reluctant inmate

daddy says
you gotta suffer
so you don't have to suffer

we all end up
****** dry
like bone moths

cowards huddled
or homeless dread
and quickly dead
krm Aug 2017
Spoke with an angel in a nightmare,
her voice out of tune with the weather,
she weeps so pretty,
but when she sings.
Time stops & the bones,
of the waking world shatter.
Forlorn,
eerie,
soprano soundescapes
the windpipes,
an eclipse forms from her wallowed pout.

The pouring of light emphasizes on
sorrowful words spoken,
the world places a sympathetic ear to
the chest of the sky.
The pounding doesn't stop.

Sky is slate,
a skulking cat,
with slit eyes.
The introduction of a silver tressed girl
and her delight
for crimson,
red and sheets of whiteForeign
fables pour from
the wrists,
dripping down the elbow.
A pirouetting figure,
with dandelion wisp limbs,
struts past to sing of her disease.

Legs swing in the urge to
jut off a 1,000ft building,
the chilly breeze used to be endearing,
but once you're screaming-
"You are my sunshine,"
in a desolate parking lot.
Wearing happiness
under the eyelids,and a powdered capsule between the lips.

Telephone wires no better than a noose,
choke back everything you want to say.
Weep into the static sound,
nobody's listening.
nobody wants to know-
what's on your mind.

Grabbing at thin air,
mistaking it for potential
or meaning.
Angle the reflection of the mirror properly--
there's a hollowed out torso with;
protruding bones,
that absently cut the days into,
hours, minutes and seconds.
I wanted to break my jaw this week,
I'm not using it for anything.
But chewing my words to never be regurgitated
into anything but rejected suicide notes.
Those letters never fit well,
and the phrases are cliché.
Atleast all those wadded ***** of paper
are weightless in the winds,
like the wings she wore upon her back.
That I desperately wanted
and the red inked margins—
wounds I haven't the courage to make.
So I've cut myself to pieces,
rearranged them more than once,
And just break
and break
and break
and break
and break
Trapped, cascaded down upon
That which does there lie along,
I saw the creatures that torture within,
At night they creep in mind, in sin.
My tongue is limited by lack of words,
My head is full of monstrous lore,
A battle inside, the clash of swords,
My body riddled to all but gore,
They haunt my dreams and awakened hours still,
My darkest nights they do yet fill,
Sluggish tongues with eyes cut out,
They yet speak and see to me thereout,
Throats cut deep to their weakened spines,
Windpipes whistling through words entwined,
Trauma to triage, wounded lay
Score by score screaming for day.
No hope.
No peace.
Violence
Til life does cease.
Rae Feb 2019
You had me in a corner for awhile..
falling for all the same routines time after time and I let you keep me there..
how does it feel?
When you are the one ignored?
when you are the one pushed to the edge of breaking?
when you are battered and bruised begging for mercy and none comes?
How does your poison taste dear love?
Is it a familiar taste?
Or has no one ever dared to put it to you?
Does it trickle into your thoughts in every waking second or is it a prickly numbness refusing to leave you?
Can you feel it eating away at your pride? The way it ate at mine for so long? Does it catch in your breath crush your windpipes until you feel the darkness surrounding you?
Tell me love does it hurt?
Not a poem again but a well needed vent.
kbww Jul 2019
Soak this throat in poison
wait for haunted gasping breath.
Fear triggers the notion
that I might survive this death.
Heavy sunken depressed chest,
windpipes start to burst.
Chorus plays from chords in test,
shrills have been rehearsed.
Skin held up as hostage
to the blooming of false wounds.
Blood betrayed and caustic,
crimson black hypnotic hues.
Eyes roll like dice inside
a floppy falling head.
Final breaths discreetly hide
regretful words of dread.
Open to the world in blue,
lips no longer tremble.
Scars explain the tried and true
existence now dissembled.
Know this flesh contained no hope,
this chest held no new light.
Better death and I elope,
so we can cease this fight.

~kb
Fluffy, fuzzy, full grown adult,
she groans as she stretches.
Marks flowing out.
Every ditch, all the trenches,
you may start to doubt.

Early morning chills
and after noon siestas,
midnight thrills
and raving fiestas.
She whips them out still.

Cute, cuddly, captivating sight,
she drags me back to bed.
Crushing windpipes, she holds me tight.
The bags of her eyes lit and embedded,
her imperfections, my delight.

Tag-a-longs
and weekends away,
movie marathons
and the down the driveway.
Absent only when at play.

Bashful, budding bravely,
herself allowing comfort.
Brisk winds, I dive for safety.
I plot revenge, her days are numbered.
Our duals are aloft, crazy.

Night sky gazing
And role playing games,
Fandom crazing
And thinking of names.
For me their all amazing.

Dreamy, daring, lacking dramas,
We waste the day away at lay.
What honeymoon, perhaps the Bahamas?
I drape an arm, her skin like clay.
God, she looks good in pajamas.

— The End —