Originally written on 26/05/2005.

Hum khud ko ek raat, phir yuhi ek baar, bhool gaye.
Aap nahin to aap ka yaad dilaana hi phir bhool gaye.

Ab to yeh bedaad-e-yaad waqt ke saath sehte sehte,
Khud se daad-e-dard ki umeed-e-intizaar bhool gaye.

Kabhi dhoond te the hum bhi ma'anee apni wajood me,
Lekin raat hui to wajood ka ma'ana hi ab bhool gaye.

Chale the hum na jaane kaha apni ehatimaam-e-yaad ko.
Is ehsaas ne humme roka ke hum gham-e-gharaz bhool gaye.

Humare baat karne par karte hain humare jeene ki tasali.
Koi toh samjhaye ke jeete jeete hum jeena bhool gaye.

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One night, once again, I’ve forgotten myself.
You’re not here so I’ve even forgotten your reminders.

Now after putting up with this injustice of memory, over time
I’ve forgotten to wait for the hope of a justice of sorrow, from myself.

Once I used to search for meanings within my identity
But now when night falls, I’ve forgotten the very meaning of my identity.

I don’t know where I was going to sort out my memories,
But this realisation stopped me that I’ve forgotten the very purpose of my sorrow.

By talking about me, they assure themselves that I am alive.
Somebody explain to them that even though I’m alive, I’ve forgotten how to live.

Maa teri meri yadein boht achi thi
Tu jo bhi kehti thi boht sachi thi,

Yaad hai mujhe aaj bhi wo pal maa
Bimaar mai hoti thi taklif tujhe hua karti thi,

Tu kabhi na bhuli mere khane ka samey maa...
Qki maa tu hi toh khane ki plate mere aggey piche ghumaya karti thi,

Wo teri aloo, pyaz wali khaniya maa
Jisko sunn k sach mai maan liya karti thi,

Kya khub sundarta thi tere bhole se chehre pay maa...
Jo meri saheliya bhi gunn tera hi gaya karti thi,
Maa ...qki teri meri yadein boht achi thi
Tu jo bhi kehti thi boht sachi thi,

Jab pehli baar un chote se hathon se chai bnayi thi maine
Yaad hai , tu sab rishtedaro mai yahi gaya karti thi,

Har baat k liye zidd bht ki Maine tujhse
Par aakhir mai meri khushi k liye haa tu hi bharrti thi,

Bht ladai ki sabne mere liye tujhse maa
Lekin har pal sath khadi tu hi mila karti thi,

Maa teri meri yadein boht achi thi
Tu jo bhi kehti thi boht sachi thi,

Bht si horror movies bhi dekhi tere sath maa aur tu kahani ka pehlu phele hi bta diya karti thi,

Bht hase bhi sath mai roye bhi sath mai
Aaj jab dekhti hu toh ansu apne aap nikal k beh jate hai,
Bachpana samjho ya nadaniya samjho
Par tere hi aggey hua karti thi,

Tu Maa thi ya meri dost thi
Qki tu bhi toh bacho jaise harketin kiya karti thi,

Aaj bhi wahi tera chehra dikhta hai mujhe maa , teri wahi awaaz sunayi deti hai,
Lekin bevas tu hai ya mai hu aisa mnn mera kehta hai maa,

Qki maa teri meri yadein bht achi thi
Sach mai Tu jo bhi kehti thi bht sachi thi.

Wapas se wahi samhe jeena chahti hu tere sath maa..
Par sochti hu tu yaha ayegi ya mai waha au maa,

Sach Drr lagta hai duniya se maa ab
Jee paungi ya tut jaungi mai ab,

Kitni bholi thi maa tu humesha se
Qki jhuti ya sachi sab maan liya karti thi,

Yaad hai mujhe aaj bhi jab scooty meri band hoti thi
Toh kick tu hi mara karti thi,

Wah kya paranthe aur rajma banati thi maa tu
Jo saheliya hi sabse phele khaya karti thi,

Itni sachi aur achi maa thi tu
Warna mujh jaise nalayak bache ko tu hi sambhala karti thi,

Maa dubara se wo maa sabd tere aggey tujhe bolna chahti hu fir se
Kya tu dubara janam legi milne k liye mujhse,

Ek baar toh ake gale lga le maa mujhko
Fir se wahi pyara bacha bnke dikhaungi tujhko,

Yaad hai maa mumma's lil girl ka tattoo maine bnwaya tha tere liye
Lekin jab ghar pauchi toh dekhte hi dil baith gya tha mere liye
Maa tu sda zinda rahegi dil mai mere
Qki Sach keh rahi hu mera wajood hi hai tere liye,

Maa bharosa kar mera
bharosa nahi todungi tera
Ab aa hi jana maa bacha hu tera.

Muhabbat chaiay, lazim hai kay
Saans aay aur jay
Jahan muhabbat chalay, hawa ki manind
Kay buhat tapash hai
Aur dil ki zameen mun kholay haanp rahi hai
Aur nazar kaheen poshida hai
Dil aur bahar
Har taraf
Ikk hi hawa hai
Loo ki manind
Larazti, sansanati ***
Jaisay haddion ko murjha day
Aur thara day saans ki simt ko!!

Kaheen bhe nhn, kuch bhe nhn
Jahan jaon, jahan tharon
Wahan kuch bhe nhn, kabhi bhe nhn.
Ehsaas kahan hai? Yay dil tou ab ikk pinjra hai
Jahan ka makeen bolay tou maut, saans bhe maut, harkat bhe kafan, lafz bhe khatam!

Kuch hai, in dinon, kay shaam ka ilhaam
Meray dil kay darwazon pay
Khafeef ahat say bhe
Maut paida karta hai
Aur iska paida hona
Meray wajood main
Ikk Ah ban kar raqs karta hai.
Kuch hai
Kuch tou hai
Iss shaam main , aaj kal!

Rung-o- boo ki nami, uss ehsaas ka sarood
Kaheen ab samandar paar sakoot ki chadar orhay baitha hai
Aur idhar mera wajood
Bass akhri saans ikk umeed ki aas pay laita thahar sa gya hai...

Teri ishq bhi ajeeb hai
Maarti bhi hai
Bachaati bhi hai
Hasaati bhi hai
Rulaati bhi hai
Taqaat bhi deti hai
Kamzor bhi banaati hai
Kabhi kabhi sochta hoon
Tu haqeeqat hai
Ya mera khwabon ka koi sunehra hissa
Iss beraham duniya may
Kya sahi mainoy humara koi wajood hai
(The above language is a mixture of Urdu and Hindi.)

English Translation

Your love is strange
It kills
It also saves
It makes me laugh
It also makes me cry
It gives me strength
It also weakens me
Sometimes i wonder..
Whether you are a reality
Or just a pleasant figment of my imagination?
In this heartless world
Do we really have any existence in the actual sense?

Aapko paake aisa laga jaise humne apna  khuda paa liya,

Kami zindagi mein nahi hai koi aapko deke rab ne sab de diya.



Zindagi ki har khushi mil gyi hai humein aap mile zindagi mil gayi,

Is dil ki har saans mein aapke dil ki dadhkane hain samayi.



In labon par muskurahat hai sirf aapse ,

Aapko pakar khushnaseeb hain hum bhut kasam se.



In hawao ki sarsarahat mein bhi hai aapka ehsaas,

Fark nahi padta kitne meelon ke ** faasle dil ke ** aap humesha pass.



Aapke naam se poora hota hai humara naam,

Hum humesha hai aapke sirf aapke sanam.



Aapki har khwaiysh poori **,

Sabse jyada khushi milegi humko.



Aapse hai wajood humara,

Dil ki dadhkano ko aapka hai sahara.



Kayenaat ki khwaiysh nahi hai mujhe,

Humari duniya tou hai aapse.



Lafzon ke dehleez par shabd nahi hai koi,

Jo bayan kar sake ki humein aapse kitni mohabbat hoyi.



Sacchi mohabbat aapki shiddat se badhkar ki hai aapse,

Zinda rehne ke liye humein saanso ki nahi zindagi hai aapse.



Labon ke peeche ki khamoshi padh lete **,

Bin dekhe hi humein dil ka haal samjh lete **.



Kaise keh du meri dua ** jati hai beasar,

Jab bhi dil se yaad karun aapko humesha apne pass pau mere humsafar.



Jis kadar aap fikar karte ** humari,

Mil jaati hai khushiyan saari.



Achha lagta hai aapke chehre ki dekh muskurahat,

Aapko khush dekh milti hai is dil ko rahat.



Jaanejaan aap itne pyaare ** bhut acche **,

Kisi ki bhi nazar na lage kabhi aapko.



Ishwar humesha aapko mehfooz rakhe,

Har janam aapki shivani humesha mere shivai ki rahe.

Aapke chehre ki chamak ke saamne  chand bhi lagta hai saada,

Itna khubsurat chehra hai aapka dil ke mandir mein karu sajda.



Behad khushnaseeb hain hum jo jaan ** aap humari,

Zindagi mein aakar bn gye ** aap humari zindagi.



Naraaz na hua karo jaan ek aap hi tou ** humare,

Wajood hai humara sirf aapke sahare.



Har ke zarre zarre mein hai sirf aapka naam,

Aapke bin tou naam bhi humara hai benaam.



Sirf aapke bankar rehna chahte hain janam janam.

Bhut pyaar karte hain aapko sanam khuda kasam.

Uski aankho ke samandar
se utha badal hu mai,
Uska hi wajood khudme lie
Uski hi pyaas bhujane nikla hu mai.

Nhn aayna- e -saaz main go-mago yay kaifiat
Jaisay burg- o -bahar main ** koe chingari
Jiss kay sholon main bujhay yay dil rakh ki soorat
Jisss kay chahray main jalay angari.....

Main wo zaat hon jiss ka koe shahar nhn
Jo jahan chalay wahan aag lagay
Jiss kay bayan main naan zahar naan amar
Jiss kay wajood main dah-kain sab raaz chupay.....

Nhn asbaab koe, nhn imkaan koe
Mere zaat kay hisaab main nhn jaan koe
Phir bhe toofan-e- azam liay chalti hon
Kay meray dard ki intiha ki nhn intiha koe.......