"wagers" poems
i am a hopeless romantic
with suicidal antics
that cant seem to love herself
she cant seem to nudge herself
out of depressive episodes
but she has expressive goals
to fall in love
to call on love
for several favors
and she has several wagers
that "this one will be 'the one'"
that what ever is done
can be undone
and that she will be okay
because one day love will fix it all
she is a pathetic romantic
with an optimistic aesthetic
and a manic
personality
Sep 8, 2019
Sep 8, 2019 at 10:17 PM UTC
I
Is the total black, being spoken
From the earth's inside.
There are many kinds of open.
How a diamond comes into a knot of flame
How a sound comes into a word, coloured
By who pays what for speaking.
Some words are open
Like a diamond on glass windows
Singing out within the crash of passing sun
Then there are words like stapled wagers
In a perforated book-buy and sign and tear apart-
And come whatever wills all chances
The stub remains
An ill-pulled tooth with a ragged edge.
Some words live in my throat
Breeding like adders. Others know sun
Seeking like gypsies over my tongue
To explode through my lips
Like young sparrows bursting from shell.
Some words
Bedevil me.
Love is a word another kind of open-
As a diamond comes into a knot of flame
I am black because I come from the earth's inside
Take my word for jewel in your open light.
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We have souls that are plunging off this planet,
in hopes they will be swallowed by the cosmos-
fearing the hurt is never ending,
leads to renovations of existence.
To silence the beating
of a heart,
to end a life.
Morality is stuck behind
the gates of purgatory
& society is too scared of
what will happen
if we use our mouths for
meaningful conversation.
Indeed.
A tourniquet can stop the bleeding,
but can’t do justice for spread of infection,
or the scar serving as a reminder.
People are dying from depression-
faulty chemistry in the brain.
As well as suicide.
It is the crying of phantoms,
never to be heard-
wanting change,
a re-birth,
of the contorted humanity
we proudly call ”life”
Ache that’s carried lifelong,
but never resolved.
Truthfully,
those vague questions
don’t save lives.
Death knows this,
of course.
He is an omniscient force
lingering in the scenery.
Possessing the inability
to tolerate the teasing
and the wagers.
Coming to collect early
because, we’ve begun
to shatter
every fragment
of light
life reflected.
Now,
Darkness makes him feel welcome
and entitled.
KRM
Jun 10, 2018
Jun 10, 2018 at 2:41 AM UTC
I couldn’t sleep. I was lying in bed watching the patterns reflected moonlight made on my ceiling when I heard the faint beep of the kitchen microwave. I smelled popcorn.
I decided to fill up my water bottle and see who was up. I slipped on a thick, terrycloth robe I’d gotten from Lisa last Christmas. It must weigh 15 pounds and it’s so warm and heavy I seldom wear it.
I silently glided into the main room. Leong was standing at one of our two large picture windows staring out at the night. Her left arm cradling a bowl of ultimate-butter popcorn. Anna told me last night that Leong and her long-time boyfriend, who’s back in China, had broken up. They’d been together forever and had been expected to marry.
A bright half-moon was hanging high over campus, an electric ornament on a velvet background, its moonlight glint painted the world, like ice on mountaintops.
“I heard about your breakup,” I said, “what does it mean?” In Leong’s world, who you dated was of family interest. That person had to be approved, their bona fides proven - they had to fit into some long term plan.
“It means I can’t be tamed,” she said, with soft bravado. After a moment, she spoke again, more seriously. “It’s better this way - for now - someday..,” she trailed off.
I understood. All of our hopes are resting on someday, like so many wagers at a casino. I imagined some gambler, stepping up to a betting window, in an old black-and-white movie, saying, ”Gimmie 5 bucks on Someday to win.”
Something in her voice, a brittleness, precluded further questions. I looked at the clock, it read 3:47. I gave her a hug and yawning, filled up my water bottle from the refrigerator's filtered tap.
“See ya.” I whispered and headed off, back to bed. With any luck I could squeeze another hour's sleep out of the morning.
Feb 3, 2022
Feb 3, 2022 at 5:04 AM UTC
As the happy hour crowd
walks down Redwood Street
in its ***** lamp lit haze
they pass by dozens of
cart pushing men in
old bomber jackets
fading into the
unwashed stone beneath
windows newly washed
by minimum wagers.
These men and their
overstuffed suitcases,
their ***** fingernails
and aging shoes,
their cold noses
and heavy breath
seep into the shadows
like long forgotten artifacts
on an antique store’s shelf.
They droop, collecting dust,
begging to be lifted or even
touched.
Some smile and sing
with an overturned hat
patiently expecting
on the street curb.
Some sit, slumped
and seem like
a misshapen lump of clay
in the dark
with plastic cup extended.
The happy hour crowd
coming from UMMC
clad in multicolored
scrubs and pressed
business suits with
golf club cluttered ties
and black silk button down
blouses that block the cool wind
passes them by with the same
glance they give to
lamp posts.
Mar 31, 2010
Mar 31, 2010 at 12:33 PM UTC
Wobbly was wondering?
"What will we wager"
We will wrangle worms
"Winner wins whatever"
Which Worm?
White,
Walnut,
Wheat
We wondered, why wrangle
We walked,
We waited,
We watched
Which wacko would wager wrong,
Wobbly winked, wondering why,
Wanda waited wondering why?
Why wink,
Why worms,
Why, why, why
Would worms win wagers
Without watching weird worms
Wobbly
Wished
Wedding wishes
Which was wonderfully weird,
What would Wanda want?
Wobbly wandered, waiting
Wonderfully wishing.
Wanda's wise words whispered, wobbly
Whooped,
Whooped,
Wailed
With wonderment,what was whispered?
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 2:30 PM UTC
My heart is a squishy stone
I toss out
across this green-gray gloss
mosquitoes skim
but the odds were always slim
it would skip with any vim given
its mix of bulges
and irregular beats
Let’s not mention that
surprising lack of heft
currently keeping it afloat
There it lies not quite flat
a maroon lily pad
I’ll lay piddling wagers
some nomadic creature
can make a home
Maybe the crawdad whose squeak
nothing like a fog-horn warns,
“Frog dress is on the marsh”
I swear I can hear
her bull groaning,
“The slippery *****
can’t stay clothed”
Newly hitched
this bogged-down daddy’s got
a passel of polliwogs to feed
and he needs
the lean of her tender
slimy legs for support
The crickets and I
might inwardly snigger
but from such
small giggles bred
is the manly laugh of strife
and that’s when
my heart slinks slowly back
Sep 14, 2010
Sep 14, 2010 at 8:38 AM UTC
The years make
you place an elegant
portrait in the empty chair
where the colossus
announced to faint
Legislatures
The years make
wagers out of cold space
sounding the hunt
Jan 4, 2012
Jan 4, 2012 at 2:37 PM UTC
Hard, as it gets
inscrutable and scallywag
unfinished statuettes
untamed as any wild stag
un-hegded wagers, bets
Unraveled layer hearts
hardened and inured
unrefined, as better parts
but none the less, are pure
They live among us all
pretending to be tough
heeding the hero's call
as diamonds, in the rough
Apr 3, 2017
Apr 3, 2017 at 2:52 PM UTC
1- Totes inaprope dope smoker swisher toker blunt wrap roper you be like my ole aunt groper
2- She be grabbin ***** on all ya’ll in the Fall by the ball court short shorts and written reports
3- ******* dorks and eatin pork like nanu nanu Mork with a stork baby drop on the porch
4- Carry the torch to the couch jump up ta bounce see a fool to trounce and slap in the head
5- Make him brain dead said I see red in bedrooms full a ***** mothers slack jaw brothers
6- Druther act like one another than smother muthafuckers with rubber maid garbage cans
7- Hand feeding planned partenthood in the hood acting no good wit mad wood ya shoulda
8- Put those down came round and found a pound for slingin, bringing back the Ringling elephants
9- And cellophane wrapper sandwiches ******* snitching on rich kids for gambling small wagers
10- Drunken rage-ers deranged rangers feeding bears strangers and rearranging body parts
11- Carded farters impart special gasses on mass media fascists allowing brash
Feb 8, 2016
Feb 8, 2016 at 5:29 PM UTC
.*who said... that German was, unbefitting to fulfill the concerns for the operatic?! Germans sing the most... nettopern known to man... their baroque reinterpretation... shudders the body to usurp all the ancients' phobias borrowed from the Greeks... goosebumps and... **** like:
freude, schöner götterfunken,
tochter aus elysium,
wir betreten feuertrunken,
himmlische, dein heiligtum!*
but then again...
anemia with the Wagner...
come: walhall..
come Chopin...
and an... orchestra!
you are born, to be lived...
and what questions you have,
are questions indeed,
but they are rudimentary...
and asked,
even if asked at all...
at what could be
beat estimated
the worthy time...
beside the / outside
the mortal script...
known as... life;
how does that feel?
when feeling
perfects
the "art" of the implosion
of thought?
the, missing moral "ought"
of the narrative?
the lost, theta?!
how does, that, "feel"?
all, emotion,
yet, seemingly,
no, thought?
how does that feel...
mother?
ship, micro-cosmos of
quasi-Braille telegraph...
how, does, i, "feel", mother?
the complexity of human expression,
within the confines
of the childish beginning,
culminates in the banal finality of...
that, which, is mortal...
that, which, is mortal...
will always over complicate the sentence...
and make life, almost causeless.
we are all but wagers,
in a game that consist of nothing more
than a win, or a loss...
a game, waging...
falsely perpetuating
a gain... mortality...
and a game waging...
not falsely perpetuating
a loss... again: mortality....
why should i forgive
the bass guitar omission in modern
music?!
Nov 13, 2018
Nov 13, 2018 at 8:36 PM UTC
Simply seeking solace in bouncing thoughts
Feeling warmth in that cold rock
Characterizing an uncharacteristic dribble
Watching it flow with no discourse
Or even disguising a movement to share
A leaf finds its mark now one wagers thought
Dogs bark rattles empty can in alleyway
Moonlight disects that churning in passerbys charts
While blowing winds shift around reason
Heavy hearts languish at the next whistle stop
Many will board to simply stare back
At others who dare when not to park
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 10:10 AM UTC
My devils make good impressions,
Scoring me high-ranking relations
with those of hereditary positions.
The fuel that sustains my First Class livin'
is their series of sinning
like the wagers I'm winnin',
and eluding from arrest for the felony of larceny,
and disporting Molly's spellbinding potency.
My lovin' is expensive
and luckily not at all pensive
Play, though cards are folded
Love, though fingers are crossed
Dance, though eyes are closed
Aug 19, 2014
Aug 19, 2014 at 3:23 AM UTC
Love battles on
The wagers of love wreak havock
Senseless emotions bend us to break
Only to Catch eachother before the fall
Hope fades as fast as it lights the way
Fumbling through love scapes as if some great adventure will call forth in climbing to the pinnacle of the mountain of love only to jump off like lemmings holding heartshaped balloons as if its enough...
Feb 15, 2015
Feb 15, 2015 at 5:11 PM UTC
awkward girls delivering their spoken thoughts
like hand written love notes
perfumed hopes cherished brightly
one of a hundred that stand at the edge of reality
and in the near perfect unison of dropping lovely invitations
to the magazine advertisements man who is supposed to
sweep them off their feet
the manly man who has button down eyes
and a wrinkle-free shirt
to him sex's butter is romance
her temperature dog
haunts her lonely steps
with a eager wag of his ratty tail
his pleasant eye wagers that she will return him for the deposit someday
its for the girl who has everything and a box of candy too
its not in what you have but its measured by how much you reject
sex's butter tastes salty sweet
she has a sidewinder viper gently cradled in her arms
calls it the child of her destiny
sex's butter is her bed and breakfast
an empty conversation
like a small hole in my mind
spilling its useless phrases to be swallowed whole
in the tepid sea of her eye
her hollow laughter two tables away
suddenly as it comes it limply dies away
alarmist by nature
she crafts a tale of woe
to suit her mind
but that tale is an empty eyed charter boat fish
that lay barren and objectified on her dinner plate
basted in sex's butter with a twelve inch whip...
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 9:58 AM UTC
every time I write vividly
can’t end days
yearn for epiphany
malice their succession
I don’t learn more of
p o l i t i c s
m e n in shoes
w a r
f a m i l y
m a n n e r s
r o t t e n
y o u t h
afraid of being water
water that decomposes every day
printed with i-service entropy
if craic makes my soul modern
I’ll wait for apocalypse
wild devours my ashes
each of my tea motes fight
heave my tongue like embers
humpty already fallen
all the king’s economists
still drafting recovery plans—
asks to go to Nyos
for silent rain
on a government grant.
all the king’s economists
can’t put him together again.
enlightening activist futility
writing in a singed library
at my diluted right edge
I fear those who tower over me
what if my decade has passed
making a schedule each day
to be better or to matter
I suffer from anemia
my tea is too sour
gambling them
to pay for meaning—
who taught me to write
and forgot to proofread
when they ask my destiny
I say: transcendence of arcana
would restless lurching
take me to God or Satan
I need to ask someone modern
Sep 28, 2025
Sep 28, 2025 at 6:21 AM UTC
I switched locations but my heart still aches.
Minimum wagers my being. Once I was
freer. Now I just lie on roadsides with a
placard that reads, 'free.'
Aug 17, 2013
Aug 17, 2013 at 12:11 PM UTC
and the long season of pure luck faded
they didn't foresee the jackpots end by date
the fortune was so ominously shaded
bravo's time period did quickly abate
how a quirky wheel of providence can change
rarely does it track in the one pathway
card turns are so bewilderingly strange
when placing wagers there'll be a loss day
expecting the winning streak to endure
tis of they who know nothing of betting
there's always a chance in being insecure
sure things do morph to an adverse setting
gambling pundits are the odd taker's guide
they've a good ken which assess flow of tide
Mar 5, 2018
Mar 5, 2018 at 4:59 PM UTC
Press the pen down to the page,
let the blank ink spill its rage.
Filling endless nothingness with tales
from untold age.
Lose yourself, and lose again.
Let destruction of your soul begin.
Wagers from the devil ringing softly in your ear,
While snow flakes fall from heaven all around the silver sphere.
Remainders of your heart left in public disarray,
reminders from all evil that nothing gold can stay.
Jun 26, 2013
Jun 26, 2013 at 7:53 PM UTC
Can we fit the universe inside our head?
The vastness of everything
Overwhelming
We figure out life
How tempting to know it all
Such life to devote every inch of breath
I feel the soul was meant to thrive
infinite
I feel the soul was meant to find its other half
In love, the wagers are on
We sometimes win
We sometimes lose
In the end,
Love has conquered us
Keeping us in awe
of how we smile
of how we weep
of how we try to find it
What dedication we put into
All the efforts
Transcending the suffering of reality in this world
A consciousness
We are one
We are love
We are the children of the universe
Ergo,
We never die
Aren't these enough to keep us all in awe?
Mar 30, 2016
Mar 30, 2016 at 12:53 PM UTC
Nascent thought provoking
threads flit to and fro
unseen solitary pinball wizard
cavalierly fiddles indiscriminately
leveraging outcome
silently holistic thought fragments
strewn staccoto scattershot
attenuated blitzkrieg
brain storm saturates,
par for course sandtrap engulfs,
chaos reverberates within
besieged cerebral corridor,
quotidian mental onslaught
spurns refugee exodus,
psychological ploy asper viable coping
function forgoes figurative
foothold toe tully forfeited
tenuous grasp slips forcing migration,
Sans psychotic shrapnel
clefts emotional well being,
without rhyme or reason
sense and sensibility rent asunder
rational, overall logical
modus operandi quashed
dealt fatal savage ******
soundless insanity relentlessly pounds
fifty plus shades gray matter
noiselessly bombarding
lofty craft cognitive faculty atelier
strafed emotional rescue
relegated to twilight zone
outer limits house barbed bereft ken
dolled, hallowed, and lobotomized
mined kempf desecrated sacred reliquary
orbits like a neurological asteroid belt
Self healing fragments repelled
despite fervent application grounded
evincing proof of positive thinking
courtesy Norman Vincent Peale
fore gone conclusion crowning
accursed albatross gussied as SPD
(schizoid personality disorder)
undefeated champ decamping forever
within noggin of this mortal male
til death do me part!
May 23, 2018
May 23, 2018 at 6:28 PM UTC
Behind locked doors the Gamblers dare
to cast our fates without a care.
Like puppeteers they pull our strings
and use us as a child’s playthings.
Upon the tables of the gods,
with wagers cast at any odds,
they stand us up in serried rows,
then knock us down like dominoes.
Feb 15, 2019
Feb 15, 2019 at 2:57 PM UTC
4:09 am and I'm not sleeping. Wide awake, wrists open but not quite bleeding. Mind ****** by man vs nature. A young child battles against wits & wagers. I fall in between, because neither of us are sleeping.
Feb 27, 2016
Feb 27, 2016 at 4:12 AM UTC