I tired shrooms, Beer, and LSD,
Aint nothing better or can compare to ****,
Showed me how to zone out and fly,
See the world different as my worries pass by,
Showed me my life is a book as i turned a page,
Still having trouble when my demons come out the cage,
And the devil talks to me and tells me about his life,
How fun it was to take away actors, teens, fathers, and even wives,
All of these dreams i have when i close my eyes,
Everything I love slowly dies,
He tells me to not look for love cause its hard to find,
But dont worry cause i will always be in the back of your mind,
But baby i been feeling free since my birth,
Thinking of how it is when i finally leave earth,
But please baby dont worry about me,
Even tho i have issuse and worries that you cant see.

I hear the voices
My head is exploding
Why don't they leave me

Here, There, There and here
They are not leaving me be
I hear the voices

I can't be like this
They overlap each other
I don't like voices

In my white room i stand
thoughts of madness abound.
My reality diffrent from yours
as I'm your angel of death,
granted many wishes, I have
sent them all to a better place.

Screams of joy they gave me
with there last breath, in there
reality victims they are called
and the sreams I heard, were
screams of their death choked
out of them until there was no
more breath at all.

But in my reality i now stand in
my heaven, which is white all
around as the voices said i would
end, in my jacket i stand listening
to my vocies my only friends.

I FEEL SO ALONE

    MY LUNGS WONT LET ME SCREAM

              SO MAYBE I CAN SCREAM THROUGH TYPED WORDS ON A BLANK PAGE

        I FELL SO ALONE

WITH YOUR ARMS WRAPPED AROUND MY WAIST
  
        I CANT TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, BUT MY BODY WONT LET ME CARESS YOU

I FEEL SO ALONE

EVEN THOUGH YOUR WARMTH TRIES TO PRY ITS WAY THROUGH MY SKIN SNEAKING ITS WAY TO MY BLOOD STREAM

IM STILL IN PAIN, I THOUGHT YOU WOULD WASH IT ALL AWAY WITH THE SWIPE OF YOUR HAND AS YOU DO WITH MY SHEDDING TEARS

I FEEL SO ALONE

       ALL THE VOCIES IN MY HEAD

AND I CANT BREATHE IM SUFFOCATING

ALL THE LIES. ALL THE EYES. ALL THESE CRIES.

CHOKE US TILL WERE NUMB.

Voices
Voices that no one can hear
Voices that only call for me
Voices that I hear from the moment i open my eyes until i close them
These voices are here from the time i wake up in the morning until i go to sleep that night
Dreams are where i escape but they arent always a safe place
I can have dreams where the vocies are at their loudest
They are undisturbed
They arent disrupted
They arent put on the back burner
Theyre loud and clear
Voices are hard to block out in a dream
In these dreams i see nothing but darkness
I cant see ahead of me to the side of me or behind me
But boy can i hear
I can hear these voices loud and clear
Those are the times i wake feeling like i never slept at all
Bone tired
Body heavy
No motivation
Asking why God why am I awake
I have to dust off one of the old masks and wear it for the day
I have no walls up no barriers
The voices are free to play
Im drowning
Drowning in a sea of voices
The sirens are singing to me telling me to jump and i did
Im falling down the rabbit hole like my name is Alice
Tumbling down down down
To the part of my soul i leave untouched
To the part of my soul where my demons play
This is the demons homes and they want me to stay
They ask arent i tired
They say take a break
They say give in give up
They say we're never going away
They tell me to stay
They tell me to play
They tell me to give it all away
But i have to focus on the surface
I have to remember what's above the surface
I have to be like Ariel and always go to the surface
I have to find my way back bc i have people that love me
Plans left untouched
Dreams i have yet to achieve
It's time to wake up