"villagrana" poems
I sang
The words
Of
Silence
I sang
The words
Of
Pain
I sang
The words
Of
Damnation
I sang
The words
That I
Meant
I remember these words
Vibrating
Inside my throat
Clawing outward
I remember these words
Burns on my arms
Branding me
With names and numbers
Words that soothe
Yet still
Ache
I sang
The words
That
Blind you
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Oct 27, 2018
Oct 27, 2018 at 6:02 PM UTC
Un deseo a cumplir
Realidad se cambio
Mi camino es diferente
Pero realise
Que en esta noche
Hay pura mentiras
Sobre de mis suenos
Cuando quise escapar
No habia puertas
Me dormi en la oscuridad
En la bella noche
Se me cai las lagrimas
En la bella noche
Se me va la esperanza
En la bella noche
Se me va la riza y la luz y compassion
Se me va la felicidad
En este mundo
No te quise decir
Que no existe maravillas
No te queria llenar de desepcion
Yo queria verte feliz
En la bella noche
Se me va las lagrimas
En la bella noche
Se me va la sonrisa
En la bella noche
Se me regresa el depression y angustia
Veine todo mal
En la bella noche
Se me va la fantasia
En la bella noche
Se me va los deseos
En la bella noche
Se va mi juventud y esperanza
No mas queda la realidad
El noche esta lleno de estrellas
Que llena el cielo con poquito de fe
Pero se que todo esto es una mentira
Para traparnos en una fantasia que no tiene nada de vida
Cuando quise escapar
Mis manos levantados
Listo para tumbar todos los paredes
No te quise lastimar
Pero esto es la unica manera
Para escapar de este mundo cruel
No te quise hazer dano
Pero ala mejor es mejor
Que no recuerdas la verdad
De este cruel mundo
Y como nos mentio
Llenando nos de mentiras
Que deseos si se cumple
La bella noche se va callendo
Y nosotros somos que lo tumbo
Con nuestras manos lo vamos a
Destrozar
Quemar
Cambiar
Vamos ser nuestra realidad
En la bella noche
Vamos a garar fe
En la bella noche
Vamos comer las estrella
En la bella noche
Vamos ser la luz que brilla para el futuro
Y crear fantasias
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Sep 10, 2018
Sep 10, 2018 at 11:05 AM UTC
I know that this journey is treacherous
And we might lose our way
But remember
All the pain
All the suffering
That we endured
Our home is now long gone at this point
No reason to shed tears
So remember
All the prayers
All the blessings
Bestowed on us
The road ahead holds many blockades
But we will still march onwards
Just remember
All the promises
All the dreams
That we carry
Even if our bodies are broken down
We will fix each other
Please Remember
All the strength
All the wisdom
That we have crafted
The road underneath is mysterious
Filled with unthinkable questions
But I remember
All the truth
All the words
That you are here in my heart
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 5:01 PM UTC
Like a flower that blooms only in night
Like a small child with cascading tears from their eyes
I always wondered if it will be alright
If I tried to use my smile to hide sorrow
A small shower bathes the flowers in dew
And the smell of earth lulls me to you
Closing my eyes against the harshness of light
All I see are impressions against my lids
Hoping to feel the summer breeze pass by
But all I felt were caresses of goodbye
Try as I might I never succeed and I cried
But someone heard my futile pleas
And that is how you came to me
You held my hand and lead me to wonders
A blush adorned my cheeks as you whispered my name
I wished to only adorned your head with buds
But I **** them with a single touch
Yet you still held my hands in yours
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 11:45 AM UTC
The misery
Ridding up my skin like a disease
The sympathy
Screeching up my ears, till I can't hear
The enemies
Following me but I can't seem to see
My energy
Displaced and diverted for survival
My happiness
Nonexistent since your appearance
My appearance
Don't matter cause I am the baddest batter
I swear
I'll never be an angel or a saint
I promise
That you will forever rue this day
I expect
Everyone I see to be my enemy
© Sofia Villagrana 2021
Dec 20, 2021
Dec 20, 2021 at 6:22 PM UTC
In the past we were otherworldly
But when you get
Older
Bolder
Sainer
I remember everything you have done.
Burning like embers concentrated.
Falling tinder yelling frustrations.
I consume everything you are.
Smoke rising up like pillars in the sky
Thought you were sleeping
Safe and sound, burning in my arms.
Instead, you were gone.
When I gave you shelter with my fire
Ended up suffocating all of my love
Left me smoldering with a broken heart.
Tendrils of smoke slowly dancing.
Ashes floating from deception.
You were nothing after all.
Now we are
Plainer
Colder
Bitter
After you broke this spell with all of your doubt.
Guess we were human after all.
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Apr 4, 2018
Apr 4, 2018 at 5:37 PM UTC
Champagne bottles on the ground
Glitter splattered on walls
Tried to wash it all off
But it has stained the walls
Mascara on my face
Tried to clean the evidence of pain
But it hurts to confront it
I'll leave the wound to fester
Knocking on the door
Oh dear, Oh dear
Leave me alone
I won't come out, I won't come out
Might as well be hell
One more drink, One more drink
Please
Don't watch me, Don't watch me
Leave
Close the door, Close the door
Seclude myself in the cold
Chandeliers swinging, half broken, lights flickering
And I am the one swinging
Trying to make the last chain break into pieces
But it keeps holding on
Why won't it break I just want to fall
Feel my face on the ground
The Chandelier continues to shine while I try to die
I am holding on to dear life
Won't try to save myself though
Might as well try to let go
Maybe the Chandelier will fall, I am not sure
Glasses crackle under the pressure of my hands
Feel bad that I am destroying it
But I need your demise so I can die
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
May 9, 2018
May 9, 2018 at 11:20 AM UTC
When you grabbed me too tightly
When you made me choke
Then you left me, darling
And with your back turned
I tried to reach your throat
I marked you like an animal
You caught me like a hunter
My head became friendly
With your favorite rope
Then you thought me a lesson
Now all I do is float.
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 2:08 PM UTC
It's a turbulent life you have lived
Past is snipping at your heels
As you run past the pain
Remembering all the deceit
Call me when its time
To come home and hold you
Take my hand
And let me guide you
Call me when you know
How to care for yourself
Ease my mind
Take care of yourself
Call me when your memories
Are no longer a maelstrom
Of confusion and lights
But a kaleidoscope
Call Me, Call Me
Call Me when you remember
What you want from life
When you figure out
'Who am I?'
© Sofia Villagrana 2021
Dec 26, 2021
Dec 26, 2021 at 11:06 PM UTC
I walk down this unknown road
But I am not afraid
Of the dark or silence that follows
So I keep walking forward
Arms swinging by my side.
With my head turned
Turned up towards the sky
As I welcome the sun's rays
And the rain that falls
Bathing me in its life.
I've traveled far and wide
But never by myself
This is a new experience
It's a little bit scary and new
But I am not afraid.
The stars twinkle brightly
I remember your eyes
Reflecting back on the memories
Happiness and sadness
I'll hold them in my heart.
Whistling the songs
That you sang during dawn
As we eat breakfast and laughed
Such vivid noises and sights
That I will dream as I travel.
I know this may seem unexpected
But I need to leave the past
So don't be afraid
This is not a goodbye forever
I promise I'll see you later.
© Sofia Villagrana 2021
Dec 20, 2021
Dec 20, 2021 at 6:35 PM UTC
Should we dissolve this?
This game we are playing
Jumping these hurdles
It can be exhausting.
Rocking the boat
Tipping me over the edge
Wanting to see me
Succumb to the waves.
Relationship dissipating
Easygoing on temptation
Dissolving my feelings
No surprises at all.
Easy come easy go
No more favors for you
Closing these doors
And ending this chapter.
© Sofia Villagrana 2020
Mar 17, 2020
Mar 17, 2020 at 5:01 PM UTC
Eyes ahead
Foward and dead
I am unsure of the path I am taking
Hands up high
Reaching towards the sky
Fingertips brushing the morning light
Frizzy hair
Dew on the edges
Blocking my perception of the world
***** feet
From walking on the street
Guided by the cement sidewalk cracks
Mouth agape
Words suffocate
Uneasiness building inside my chest
Fly away
Run before its too late
Better to be hurt than to be caged
© Sofia Villagrana 2021
Dec 31, 2021
Dec 31, 2021 at 11:06 PM UTC
A desire to fulfill
Reality was changed
My path is different
But I realize
That on this night
There are only lies
About my dreams
When I wanted to escape
There were no doors
I slept in the darkness
In the beautiful night
I shed my tears
In the beautiful night
My hope left me
In the beautiful night
I lost the laughter, the light, and compassion
My happiness left me
In this world
I did not mean to tell you
That there are no wonders
I did not want to fill you with deception
I wanted to see you happy
In the beautiful night
My tears leave me
In the beautiful night
My smile evades me
In the beautiful night
Depression and anguish returns
Everything bad comes again
In the beautiful night
My fantasy is gone
In the beautiful night
My wishes leave me
In the beautiful night
My youth and hope are dead
Reality is all that's left
The night is full of stars
That fills the sky with little faith
But I know that all of this is a lie
To trap us in a fantasy that has nothing to of life left
When I wanted to escape
My hands raised
Ready to knock down all the walls
I did not want to hurt you
But this is the only way
To escape from this cruel world
I did not want to hurt you
But maybe this is for the best
That you do not remember the truth
From this cruel world
And how did they lied
Filling us with lies
That wishes do come true
The beautiful night is falling
And we are the cause of it
With our hands, we are going to
Shatter it
Burn it
Change it
We will make our reality
In the beautiful night
We are going to gain faith
In the beautiful night
We'll consume the stars
In the beautiful night
We'll be the light that shines for the future
And create fantasies
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 2:47 PM UTC
Everyday we will smile and play
Windows will shatter across our platters
The morning will come and bid us hello
As you can imagine everyday was fantastic
All of a sudden the world came crashing
Rivers overturn and tress were falling
Echoing around me where sounds of animals screeching
The colors slowly fadding
Light cried goodbye, Night rose awake
Now these forbidden colors washed into grays
I try to tell everyone but no one listened
blinded by their own injustice
Green has been replaced by death
and i try to bring them back to life
all i have are ashes
The world grows form the tinniest of seeds
And blossoms into the flowers that captivates our sights
We pull form the ground and we stop its life
And for what?
To see it die in a glass container in our house
Forbidden colours of a field in full bloom
But not anymore
Greys have blocked the sky's light from reaching them
The world is slowly coming to a screeching halt
Winters are longer and summers are hotter
I wonder if we will survive
Forbidden colours
Of ice in the north and south that are melting away
Into the blues of oceans that are heating
The rush of water that is filling our land into a swamp
People try to fight against something they cannot control
People will like to blame anything at all
But themselves
All of these colours
fade away as we destroy their homes
And become extinct
Have filled the world with ash
Dark and thick like ink
Forbidden colours
Of the ocean blue
Magentas and purples of coral reefs
Red of the uncut redwood forest
Forbidden colours
Of white mountain tops
And cerulean of shining lakes
With underground forest vibrating viridian
Forbidden colours
Meadows that flow of fushia and lavender
Or fields of golden corn
With the rich brown of dirt
Forbidden colours
Of our pink lungs not filled with industrial vile
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 6:15 PM UTC
Take me to the
Back row
Back room
Back door
Touch me
Where I said no
Pretend and act
Like you don't know
That these
Tears
Aches
Cries
Are from you
© Sofia Villagrana 2020
Feb 28, 2020
Feb 28, 2020 at 11:49 AM UTC
Viví en un país de ladrones
Motivados por corazones y pasiones
Robando affection de amores
Dejando parejas quebradas
Pero tu me pedistes mi amor
En ese momento me enamore
De verdad pensasteis que te dejare
Cuando el me ofreció riquezas?
Tu eres todo que he querido
Tengo miedo qe tu te arrepientas
Si lo vas a pensar otra vez
Por favor no me digas
No quiero saber tu epifanía
Dejame vivir en la ignorancia
Cómo viví en en un país de ladrones?
Con gente que ni saben que ellos quieren
Robando todo en su vista
Dejando corazones rotos
Tu me enseñastes que todavía hay bueno
Me dado el regalo de compassion
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
May 2, 2018
May 2, 2018 at 11:23 AM UTC
Deberia saber
Que me dejaras
No mas para que ves
Te la estas buscando
Hacimos pareja
Pero te vi alla
Mucho para aguantar
Tu eras mi vida
Pero la vida no es justo
Era estupida para amar te?
Era tonta ayudar te?
Era ovio a todo lo de mas?
Me calli por tu mentira
Tu nunca me querias
Engañame una y doz veces
Voy a morir en un paradiso
Tu nunca me vas a ver llorar
No hay tiempo a morir
Lo deje quemar
Tu no eres mi preocupacion
Fantasmas de mi pasado regresan
Otro leccion para aprender
Tu nunca me vas a ver llorar
No hay tiempo a morir
© Sofia Villagrana 2020
Feb 21, 2020
Feb 21, 2020 at 11:53 AM UTC
All I felt with you darling
Was a battlefield
Trapped in my mindscape
Trying to find an escape
None of your words soothe me
All I felt was apprehension consuming
These final words were meant to hurt
To act against all the pain you made
The time we have spent
Is now wasted
Laughter that echoed
Is now a hollow sound
How could we let this get this far?
Did we try to change this at all?
It is better if we just leave this alone
Lets not repair a broken soul
I want to thank you for the time given
Now it's time to say goodbye
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Oct 7, 2018
Oct 7, 2018 at 8:07 PM UTC
You wish to turn back time
So you can live a little longer
With the ones you love
But the ache will be stronger
And they will still be gone
So don’t beg for the impossible.
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 11:34 AM UTC
The past is just a lie
Your words will not surmise
To be or not to be
I wish it was that easy
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 11:39 AM UTC
Calling your name so softly, camly
Sleeping on a hospital bed
Barely able to breath.
Wonder how I ended up here?
All I know is that you’re gone.
All around me are faces full of pity.
I got tired of not understanding why.
Why do they all look like they want to cry?
Tears stains on my face with no cause.
Darling, I don’t know why you’re not here but I’ll find you.
Walk into the cold breeze looking for your warmth.
Dancing on top of ledges hoping that you’ll catch me
But I don’t feel your arms wrap around me tightly.
Please don’t shed any tears I’ll be alright
So just smile and pretend we are dancing like when we were young.
You don’t have to wait for me anymore because I am not here
But that’s alright cause I live in your memories.
All right so just, smile please
Smile and hide your tears behind a facade.
And I’ll wait for you
My Forever True Love.
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Apr 25, 2018
Apr 25, 2018 at 11:02 AM UTC
Hanging 'round your place
Days keep passing.
Sitting here for weeks
But don't worry.
Wanted some closure
Where are you going?
Hope you'll come back
Yearning for you.
Please, just stop and listen
Before the sun sets.
Needed some closure
Where are you going?
Can't you see I'm hurting
Just make me happy.
You don't care about me
Waiting here for you.
Give me some closure
Where are you going?
© Sofia Villagrana 2020
Mar 10, 2020
Mar 10, 2020 at 2:01 PM UTC
I never want to be
Alone in space
Closed or open eyes
Half alive or dead
I do not know what I want
Take away life
Cover my mouth
Hands on my heart
Squeeze stronger
Do not be afraid of the present
Certainly you hands
I do not want to hurt you
Some are cutting me
Little by little, sacred
Skin pink to white
Doing me in nothing
Floating in the galaxy
Body is frigid
Skin breaking down
Eyes are not shining
My dead body
Converting into comet
I explode into time
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 8:40 PM UTC
Whistling in the dark
Hoping you won't
Bump into nightmares.
Hush little darling
Don't say a word
Don't want to be heard.
You lie frozen on a meadow of rye
Beyond the horizon, you see a light.
So warm you can't ignore
You try to walk
But stay motionless.
Don't stop walking today
Have to find a way
Out of this purgatory haze.
Your body just can't stay wide awake
So why is this world stuck on days?
Here in the tainted dreams
Monsters of memories
Haunt you as you heal.
Rush into the dusk
Try to find your mom
But she's probably gone.
Snow clouds rise from the sky in armies
You are bleeding from gunshot wounds.
Unsure of who you are
Descending into misery
With conflicted spirits.
You will escape the moment
Realize it's not your fault
Accepting your inner soul.
Know its hard to ignore all the fury
Want to blame somebody for your hurting.
But you need to wake up my darling
Don't let yourself become a story.
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 10:23 PM UTC
Easy
Easy
Keep your heart together
Easy
Don't let them know you're alone
Easy
Put the gun in the drawer, lock it up
Easy
Easy
Take that knife and throw it away
Easy
Lies through clenched teeth
Easy
Burn all your things together
Easy
Easy
Fight and fly to forget
Easy
Hide your body so they'll forget
Easy
It's never going to be that
© Sofia Villagrana 2018
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 8:16 PM UTC