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"uprooting" poems
there's a fisherman down by the sea sitting on the wharf watching the sun sink into the western sky a frown frames his house he looks out the window at his pole, gear and especially that of his net emptiness metaphors that weigh on him uprooting his garden a garden of no delight one lonely row of forget me not and regret all wilting his foundation lost never found or realized he pauses runs his hand over his pole like a belt without any notches his grip slipping into the abyss as the last of the orange sinks bleeds also at where the sea  meets the sky where his day slowly turns to night somewhere out there he sees his image in nature's mirror at his crossroads for deeply and some may say shallowly he looks onto the sea one last time and he means what he says and throws his fishing gear in tears welling in his eye as he watches his teddybear sink lips gurgling seemingly asking why ... why he answers back there were no fish or bites in his lonely sea or wind at his back ... there his window opens wider the sea not singing or dancing he sees the ambient light correlations ... here Logan Robertson 7/06/2018
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Jul 6, 2018
Jul 6, 2018 at 8:20 PM UTC
Here
She seems pretty queer Yes she does Something odd Something peculiar Is it in her insouciance Is it in her audacity Is it in her pirouettes Spun with such vivacity Is it in her defiance Is it in her nonrepentance Is it in her reveling so free A form full of glee Sometimes impetuous All times ingenuous Aflame with passion An immersive intoxication Cracking down on this mystery A perplexing dichotomy Let's remove the misfitting pieces In sync with commonplace notions Alas what dismantling of a girl at peace with her pieces What uprooting of a girl at home in her body
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Sep 13, 2018
Sep 13, 2018 at 1:22 AM UTC
At Peace With Her Pieces
"Found poem", all the text lifted from a tourist pamphlet picked up in Crete, only very slightly edited. There are daily buses starting from Chania to the head of the gorge, which is called Xyloskalo. Buses say on the front "Omalos" and depart from the central bus station. By taking any of the morning buses you get to Xyloskalo after one and a half hours. At Xyloskalo there is a tourist pavilion where you can get meals, drinks, and which has only seven beds for staying overnight. For those wishing to spend the night on the Omalos plateau there is another possibility, that of staying at Omalos village itself, five kilometres before Xyloskalo, where are two cafés providing several beds. From there you get any of the morning buses starting from Chania to the head of the gorge. The length of the gorge is sixteen kilometres, and you need five to six hours to walk through it. There is plenty of drinking water all along the gorge. Tennis shoes or walking boots are recommended. Camping, overnight staying, smoking, hunting, cutting and uprooting plants are forbidden. At the mouth of the gorge is Aghia Rouméli village, which provides restaurants and accommodation. From there you take boats either to Sfakía (duration: one hour) or to Soughia and Paleochora. Remember that the last boat to Sfakía is at 17 hours, which connects with the last bus to Chania at 18 hours. Duration of the bus trip: two hours.
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May 9, 2016
May 9, 2016 at 10:40 AM UTC
How to make the walk through the Samaria gorge *
Above my home where the dark clouds curl into the sky clinging for a home to rest their sleepy depiction, shadowed trees hum sweet lullabies, lonely leaves breathe in the sad song of fallen dimensions, letting its lifeless view roll upon their frame, the chilled breeze sailing in the skyline, as I scramble my way out of a filthy dumpster, a mountain of disintegrating mess covering my broken body, hovering flies surrounding sticky strips of spaghetti, moldy mashed potatoes, and moldy chicken *** pies, while my mind sunk into traveled thoughts, bruised hands pressed against the creases in my forehead, allowing my existence to feel the stranded scars streaming in various mazes, dull eyes flushed with a burning disorder, aching cheeks and chests nestled in darkening chamber corners, buried hips and thighs uprooting in somber blades of grass, thorned, torn, and destroyed in different worlds.  As I stood on the slippery pavement staring at the ruffled scenery in my sight, spinning streetlights thickening into slouched positions, screaming sidewalks spilling sadness and madness in the drenched air, razor-edged buildings inching into crushed centimeters, jumbled meters, ****** yards.  I replayed the sober images in my head, the way my young brown-skinned mom said I would never amount to anything, how I could hear the raged noun ****** sift into the distance, its flaming mechanics accelerating into screeching sounds, the way she hurled her fists at my smashed face, every vibrant language breaking apart, slamming shut into closed infinites, snagged contractions and gerunds diverging into shuddering double spaced negatives, the way she threw my lingering body inside the trash dumpster, her sharp scarlet words, You are no son of mine, ricocheting off savage surfaces, sparking my soul in a calamity of choking diction.
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Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 1:04 PM UTC
You Are No Son Of Mine
Above my home where the dark clouds curl into the sky clinging for a home to rest their sleepy depiction, shadowed trees hum sweet lullabies, lonely leaves breathe in the sad song of fallen dimensions, letting its lifeless view roll upon their frame, the chilled breeze sailing in the skyline, as I scramble my way out of a filthy dumpster, a mountain of disintegrating mess covering my broken body, hovering flies surrounding sticky strips of spaghetti, moldy mashed potatoes, and moldy chicken *** pies, while my mind sunk into traveled thoughts, bruised hands pressed against the creases in my forehead, allowing my existence to feel the stranded scars streaming in various mazes, dull eyes flushed with a burning disorder, aching cheeks and chests nestled in darkening chamber corners, buried hips and thighs uprooting in somber blades of grass, thorned, torn, and destroyed in different worlds.  As I stood on the slippery pavement staring at the ruffled scenery in my sight, spinning streetlights thickening into slouched positions, screaming sidewalks spilling sadness and madness in the drenched air, razor-edged buildings inching into crushed centimeters, jumbled meters, ****** yards.  I replayed the sober images in my head, the way my young brown-skinned mom said I would never amount to anything, how I could hear the raged noun ****** sift into the distance, its flaming mechanics accelerating into screeching sounds, the way she hurled her fists at my smashed face, every vibrant language breaking apart, slamming shut into closed infinites, snagged contractions and gerunds diverging into shuddering double spaced negatives, the way she threw my lingering body inside the trash dumpster, her sharp scarlet words, You are no son of mine, ricocheting off savage surfaces, sparking my soul in a calamity of choking diction.
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i'm not sure who planted this seed inside all of our heads whispering quietly _”stop feeling so much"_ who made the assumption that feelings = weakness? because those two terms have never been seamless to dip into your depths with no feelings oppressed takes the kind of courage most fear cant be fed weakness evolves from putting all of your energy into building up the walls that block the flow of life that was meant _to move you_ further into the depths of the you you didn’t know you never knew to feel and i mean, to really _feeeel_ every ounce of this human experience comes with a bravery that most resist it breaks you apart shakes you down uprooting all that’s been to guide you from within to let this life overcome you with whatever emotions it may, while being proud of it too? now, _that_ is strength that is the _weakness pouring out of you_
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Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 1:34 AM UTC
uprooting
What an honor It would be To inspire someone Lost and suffering Trapped in their own mind Of relentless criticism Who would have guessed the semicolon Would hold such symbolism This desire I have To change just one life May not affect the world But it would ease their strife Because I know what it’s like to be exhausted At the end of every day With no other reason than the constant war Of keeping my demons at bay How incredible it would be To stop measuring my self worth By judgments and comparisons With everyone else on earth To stop unearthing past mistakes Then uprooting the pleasant memories And throwing them aside As a gardener does with vexatious weeds Constantly tortured by little things Until it's miserable to survive Sweetheart don't you realize It's a privilege to be alive Why is it we search for happiness Like its something waiting to be found When it is only from the inside That we can turn our thoughts around My dear, please don't give in You don't have to feel this way The demons may be frightening But you have the final say No matter what they say to you It's you who has control Don't let them turn your soft, kind heart Into a numb black hole The numb black hole I know it well Then waves of pain Like an ocean swell Just as tides come and go Your darkness will too As long as you keep fighting The whole way through Keep your thoughts positive It is your mind you must transform For there are always blue skies After every storm Your sorrows may not be gone for good But you have a bright future ahead Inspire others to change their thoughts And dry the tears they’ve shed
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Apr 22, 2016
Apr 22, 2016 at 3:25 AM UTC
Brighter Days Ahead
What an honor It would be To inspire someone Lost and suffering Trapped in their own mind Of relentless criticism Who would have guessed the semicolon Would hold such symbolism This desire I have To change just one life May not affect the world But it would ease their strife Because I know what it’s like to be exhausted At the end of every day With no other reason than the constant war Of keeping my demons at bay How incredible it would be To stop measuring my self worth By judgments and comparisons With everyone else on earth To stop unearthing past mistakes Then uprooting the pleasant memories And throwing them aside As a gardener does with vexatious weeds Constantly tortured by little things Until it's miserable to survive Sweetheart don't you realize It's a privilege to be alive Why is it we search for happiness Like its something waiting to be found When it is only from the inside That we can turn our thoughts around My dear, please don't give in You don't have to feel this way The demons may be frightening But you have the final say No matter what they say to you It's you who has control Don't let them turn your soft, kind heart Into a numb black hole The numb black hole I know it well Then waves of pain Like an ocean swell Just as tides come and go Your darkness will too As long as you keep fighting The whole way through Keep your thoughts positive It is your mind you must transform For there are always blue skies After every storm Your sorrows may not be gone for good But you have a bright future ahead Inspire others to change their thoughts And dry the tears they’ve shed
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*you have wandered into my heart without wiping your feet, and have planted your garden with some peregrine seed, uprooting suspicion to feed the roots you know i need. not the slightest premonition hinting at this fires ignition, with harmonies conspicuous, it brought me to a full fruition. you make me become me, scraping tar from ancient condition a reassessment of the needs, a very natural division. and though many of my deeds, however morbid they may be fade from your conscious recognition; oh my true soul, you've made free. so you may walk upon my heart. tread heavily, with boots of lead, for you have become the reason for it to even bother to beat.*
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Nov 1, 2012
Nov 1, 2012 at 11:53 AM UTC
welcome home
Dear Poet Friends, Delhi is well known for its Dust Storms during the hot and humid month of May & June, and the absence of rain! This poem was composed in the Month of May 2008, and posted on ‘Poetfreak.com'.  Hope you like the same. Thanks, - Raj                        DUST  STORM All through the sultry and humid day, The sky had grown angry and reddish grey! And the evening suddenly became very still, As an eerie silence crept there in! When suddenly from the sky came rushing out, Making a prolonged whistling and gushing sound, As if some beastly hounds have been let out, - There came the raging, ravaging, Dust Storm! Lashing the tree tops and smashing window panes , Uprooting old trees by road side and lanes! Ravaging and railing with its destructive force, Blew the angry and relentless dust storm! As papers and packets and old withered leaves, Flew around like thread-less kites on this hot Summer's eve! All my collected thoughts, desires, and dreams, Flew helter-skelter with the winds up high, Like rudderless ships without direction, With the whirlwind in its maddening motion. With dust in my hair, in my eyes and mouth, As the sand storm raged all around and about! When after some time like a spent out force, The storm abated as night drew close. With dust in my hair, in my eyes and mouth, But a pleasant coolness prevailed all around! Dust Am I, And To Dust I Shall Return, ** Once I wake up from my Earthly trance! And with the raging dust storm I shall rage one day, To join up in its maddening dance in the month of May!                     ---Raj Nandy, New Delhi.
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Jun 22, 2016
Jun 22, 2016 at 11:36 AM UTC
DUST STORM !
Dear Poet Friends, Delhi is well known for its Dust Storms during the hot and humid month of May & June, and the absence of rain! This poem was composed in the Month of May 2008, and posted on ‘Poetfreak.com'.  Hope you like the same. Thanks, - Raj                        DUST  STORM All through the sultry and humid day, The sky had grown angry and reddish grey! And the evening suddenly became very still, As an eerie silence crept there in! When suddenly from the sky came rushing out, Making a prolonged whistling and gushing sound, As if some beastly hounds have been let out, - There came the raging, ravaging, Dust Storm! Lashing the tree tops and smashing window panes , Uprooting old trees by road side and lanes! Ravaging and railing with its destructive force, Blew the angry and relentless dust storm! As papers and packets and old withered leaves, Flew around like thread-less kites on this hot Summer's eve! All my collected thoughts, desires, and dreams, Flew helter-skelter with the winds up high, Like rudderless ships without direction, With the whirlwind in its maddening motion. With dust in my hair, in my eyes and mouth, As the sand storm raged all around and about! When after some time like a spent out force, The storm abated as night drew close. With dust in my hair, in my eyes and mouth, But a pleasant coolness prevailed all around! Dust Am I, And To Dust I Shall Return, ** Once I wake up from my Earthly trance! And with the raging dust storm I shall rage one day, To join up in its maddening dance in the month of May!                     ---Raj Nandy, New Delhi.
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You’re all over me Soaking me Like hard rain Steady Cleansing Removing the scars From my heart One by one You’re revitalizing And fun Full of surprise Grounding me Then uprooting me Rooting for me Moving me Making me think And think A little wink **** smile And I’m putty To play with awhile completely content A puppy on his back Begging for more Not a care in the world Just a girl And her eyes The goddess of the butterflies
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Feb 6, 2012
Feb 6, 2012 at 7:22 PM UTC
goddess
there is something about the way they leave with hands still deep in the heart of me but what hurts the most is how easy it seems, like the effortless act of wind uprooting seeds i guess some storms are born just for shaking away what’s not deep but the blames not on me for seasons change and soon spring came to wash the blame i bloomed away all due to pain and light shined too through parts i knew you took the moment i met you and from these holes my branches grew resilient to the heat of june and now they reach up to the moon and harbor light to shine and swoon the ones who come to love me new but leave me wild when they're through i smile every time they do as it's your shadow dancing too
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May 5, 2018
May 5, 2018 at 5:16 AM UTC
the way they leave
__|small gee for god; big bee for byron|__ Strikes a chord with you, does it? This shambling poverty of thought, Insta-rated and underwhelming; Thank god for Byron. __|keats versus shelley|__ Sparing no injury to his phthisicky frame, Keats lies atop a make-believe of cherry trees Searching among the clouds For wealth, health and a Grecian urn, While Shelley does Venice And blows himself a hookah. __|o poesy! for thee I grasp my pen|__ Panning the wayward sky for inspiration, A hope, a word, a beginning; A versification so ecstatic as to transfix the senses and pierce the heart, A lightning phrase capable of uprooting all commonality, As outrageous a miracle in the minds of men as crucified immortality. __|requiem|__ Unlike the wilting rose which has no higher calling Than to bloom and die upon the stem, And having relinquished its last perfumed petal Retreat from memory again, I fear that I shall linger, Tethered to this eternal moment By shudd’ring will and breath combined, A brighter shade of myself than what of me I have left behind.
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Apr 16, 2021
Apr 16, 2021 at 4:21 PM UTC
ROMANTIC NOTIONS: A DIGRESSION
*This dream is a sloppy forest and you are the bird who broods in a labyrinth of trees. Time revolts, the cage of sleep fractures with the flutters of my eyelids. I feel mortified for uprooting trees one by one from navels of the earth only to see you safe at home. Now the greens lay under my feet and the sun looks blue with your screaming feathers scattered across the sky.*
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Apr 2, 2017
Apr 2, 2017 at 1:13 PM UTC
Homeless
The mountains are silent serene solid in their poise. Birds laugh in the branches over those living each day spirits borrowed at the prelude to all creation. Take heart, love will hold us together uprooting discontent from the soil of our dreams, a diligent gardener devoted to maintaining all which is beautiful, all that is ugly yet magnificent. And We with tangled souls are deemed the unlucky ones, who've arrived at the revelation of our own insignifcance in the greater scheme. This unknown plan (This is but the beggining) (a cosmic comedy). In the afterbirth of your re-emergence You are cleansed and pure but this is not the cause of this unending cycle. Hope exists inside you a lighthouse of levity no force can deconstruct. It is part of your humanity, much in the same way you are a part of me and I You.
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Sep 20, 2012
Sep 20, 2012 at 9:46 AM UTC
Particulate Connectivity
Sun of love is shining Blinding the face of hate Uprooting evil trees Planting rainbows in the sky It's time to worship To adore at the shrine of love To bury hate in infernal grave. It takes an orchestra To make a symphony It takes efforts to love When love flows in rivers Banks of life are flooded with glory All is covered by and thrilled in beauty. What compares to thee O Love? Nothing and nothing Let your music flows O Love And'll dance to the Nirvana!
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Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 1:46 AM UTC
ODE TO LOVE
We’re under a vast illusion. Somewhere along the line we came under this impression and somehow we think that we’ll always have it all together. Always have all of our strings wrapped perfectly around one finger. That the earth will always spin the right way. That the weight of the metaphorical world won’t tip our planet’s axis .2 centimeters to the right, uprooting the ground from underneath of all of us suddenly and all at once the balances shift, Kristallnacht. A German word. It means, simply, Crystal night. The night of broken glass. The night of broken people and shards of lives. The night everything fell apart, suddenly and all at once the scales re-arranged themselves, Kristallnacht. Mid-way into a thousand year reign of 12 years. The end of the beginning and the beginning of the end. The definition of destruction and the physical representation of a bubbling and spontaneous hatred. You see, we’re under a vast illusion. We think that the world will always look this way, That we’ll always be young forever. You see, she used to run through meadows, picking wildflowers and daisies, blowing dandelions and making carefree wishes. Running barefoot, arms splayed out, heart all akimbo through fields of forget-me-nots, singing about how he loves her, loves her not. Not a care in the world. Then the riots started and she couldn’t explain why the meadow she used to run in was suddenly full of stones with names tattooed on the front with a date. Overnight, the balances shifted and that 6 year old girl seemed to age 10 years. She saw it all. Beautiful faces, beautiful minds. She saw the world fall apart like fluttering hearts and butterfly wings at midnight. People coming back together in a huddle of broken promises and forgotten hallelujahs. A 1000 year reign cut short. She saw the end of the world as she knew it. Saw the careless hatred decimate her carefree meadow of daisies. She began to sing a new song. Picked a handful of forget-me-nots and chose to love like she did before the night the world ended.
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Apr 21, 2016
Apr 21, 2016 at 4:59 PM UTC
The Night the World Ended
We’re under a vast illusion. Somewhere along the line we came under this impression and somehow we think that we’ll always have it all together. Always have all of our strings wrapped perfectly around one finger. That the earth will always spin the right way. That the weight of the metaphorical world won’t tip our planet’s axis .2 centimeters to the right, uprooting the ground from underneath of all of us suddenly and all at once the balances shift, Kristallnacht. A German word. It means, simply, Crystal night. The night of broken glass. The night of broken people and shards of lives. The night everything fell apart, suddenly and all at once the scales re-arranged themselves, Kristallnacht. Mid-way into a thousand year reign of 12 years. The end of the beginning and the beginning of the end. The definition of destruction and the physical representation of a bubbling and spontaneous hatred. You see, we’re under a vast illusion. We think that the world will always look this way, That we’ll always be young forever. You see, she used to run through meadows, picking wildflowers and daisies, blowing dandelions and making carefree wishes. Running barefoot, arms splayed out, heart all akimbo through fields of forget-me-nots, singing about how he loves her, loves her not. Not a care in the world. Then the riots started and she couldn’t explain why the meadow she used to run in was suddenly full of stones with names tattooed on the front with a date. Overnight, the balances shifted and that 6 year old girl seemed to age 10 years. She saw it all. Beautiful faces, beautiful minds. She saw the world fall apart like fluttering hearts and butterfly wings at midnight. People coming back together in a huddle of broken promises and forgotten hallelujahs. A 1000 year reign cut short. She saw the end of the world as she knew it. Saw the careless hatred decimate her carefree meadow of daisies. She began to sing a new song. Picked a handful of forget-me-nots and chose to love like she did before the night the world ended.
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We are Mother Earth We are the soil into which ideas grow their roots These dendritic webs of words reach for nutritious extrapolations, anchored answers that ground, keeping the rain from washing them away and the wind from uprooting them from the dirt. They sprout out of us as we nurture them until they blossom into another.
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Sep 20, 2014
Sep 20, 2014 at 10:10 AM UTC
Blossoming Trees
Of terrible storms that broke through the town Strangling, uprooting trees, slicing away Homes, a gurgling pulsating fury of air and rain That lasted four days. Unremitting, It brought huge waves in its wake From the tormented sea. All along the assaulted Coast people choked and drowned, Their corpses tipped Onto beaches huddled between ravaged furniture And drying plastic shopping bags, Swollen limbs nibbled at by fish and ***** And scattered throughout the streets Picked at by dogs, A feast that set them up For the coming cold weather. Fleeing birds Squalling overhead in clamorous flocks, plucked From the sky and shattered on rocks; The cats had a field day until Becoming engulfed too in marauding waves Deluging the land. Foxes screamed from the hopeless Shelter of water saturated dens; Only jagged ruins remained, Futile gestures to a once-only god. Towns inland were wrecked by the hurricane bursts And all fell silent as the storm Fled like a Viking raider back into the sea, dragging its Spoils.
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Apr 24, 2016
Apr 24, 2016 at 5:31 AM UTC
STORMS
I pour myself out becoming a water to drench this land and the fields beyond. My words dig-- tilling the soil, the moments, uprooting what threatens the growth, bestowing the change to the fields beyond. Autumn will tinge the world I once viewed as green and new. But as the green grows in a familiarity tainted by ennui, we hold our breath against the cold promise of harvest and wish to grow, as well. October is for waiting. As a foreigner transplanted in this flatland, I ponder any small, crucial detail I've forgotten and wait for our joy to grow gold.
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Oct 6, 2013
Oct 6, 2013 at 10:40 PM UTC
October is for Waiting (or "The Fields Beyond")
The sun beams down lighting up my face and warming my skin Coaxing my eyes shut to leave the physical world Letting the natural world fill my veins The wild wind refreshes my lungs Replenishing my whole inner being My mind goes to a wonderful place to take a break from the ever crazy reality My body begins to weigh down sinking into earths comforting ground Natures lullaby soothes me to drift off into unconsciousness The land of dreams and wonderful things, hopefully With nature surrounding me and cloaking me in divine bliss Only allowing the subconscious to bring to life beautiful scenes Flowered trees, fields of green, skies painted picture perfect blue, the air smells and tastes of honeydew, birds sing along to natures tune, the rivers move to the beat of Mother Nature’s heart A natural awakening brings back my soul from its deep sleep Slowly uprooting my body from Mother Natures’ loving grasp She infused me with her energy to help me through the unnatural world we live in I can't wait for the sun to coax me again to close my eyes and appreciate her beautiful essence once more
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Nov 8, 2012
Nov 8, 2012 at 12:54 AM UTC
Mother Nature
I'm sitting in the library before school, talking and laughing like any other day when you reach over and pick up a book on overcoming anorexia. You hold the nonthreatening orange-and-purple cover in your hands that I once thought were gentle and scoff, saying, "People with anorexia are so stupid." Our friends sitting around us agree and laugh and joke about it while I sit in mute horror and suppressed panic and dig my fingernails into my skin until someone asks why I'm not laughing. Why am I not laughing? I am not laughing at the disease that consumed my life for nearly a year, that ripped and clawed its way into my mind and through my veins like an addiction, like a freight train gone off the tracks, out of control and spinning and uprooting everything crucial and meaningful and burying it it flames, turning it to ashes. I am not laughing at the nights I spent crying and hating myself while I felt the lining of my stomach try to consume itself in a poor replacement of the sustenance I was denying myself while I again dug my fingernails into my skin, pins holding a dead butterfly to its morbid display. I am not laughing at the thoughts that constantly filled my head of death and disaster and pain of wishing them upon myself of making them happen of letting myself shrink and shed the space that I believed I did not deserve to occupy. I am not laughing at the thoughts that after two years still plague me- is my stomach sticking out? do you really deserve breakfast? your thighs are too big your hips too wide I count fewer ribs each day you are fat fatfatfatfatfatfat worthless fat useless fat pathetic fat you deserve to die fat. I am not laughing at my choice of slow suicide that I made the agonizing choice to save myself from. I am not laughing at the book that I myself read at every torturous bite of food I took at every painful step of recovery. I am not laughing because I will not take away every moment I felt strong for not relapsing, every prayer I pled every tear I shed, every time I decided that I did not want to die anymore. I am not laughing. I am leaving.
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Dec 30, 2013
Dec 30, 2013 at 4:10 PM UTC
I Am Not Laughing
I'm sitting in the library before school, talking and laughing like any other day when you reach over and pick up a book on overcoming anorexia. You hold the nonthreatening orange-and-purple cover in your hands that I once thought were gentle and scoff, saying, "People with anorexia are so stupid." Our friends sitting around us agree and laugh and joke about it while I sit in mute horror and suppressed panic and dig my fingernails into my skin until someone asks why I'm not laughing. Why am I not laughing? I am not laughing at the disease that consumed my life for nearly a year, that ripped and clawed its way into my mind and through my veins like an addiction, like a freight train gone off the tracks, out of control and spinning and uprooting everything crucial and meaningful and burying it it flames, turning it to ashes. I am not laughing at the nights I spent crying and hating myself while I felt the lining of my stomach try to consume itself in a poor replacement of the sustenance I was denying myself while I again dug my fingernails into my skin, pins holding a dead butterfly to its morbid display. I am not laughing at the thoughts that constantly filled my head of death and disaster and pain of wishing them upon myself of making them happen of letting myself shrink and shed the space that I believed I did not deserve to occupy. I am not laughing at the thoughts that after two years still plague me- is my stomach sticking out? do you really deserve breakfast? your thighs are too big your hips too wide I count fewer ribs each day you are fat fatfatfatfatfatfat worthless fat useless fat pathetic fat you deserve to die fat. I am not laughing at my choice of slow suicide that I made the agonizing choice to save myself from. I am not laughing at the book that I myself read at every torturous bite of food I took at every painful step of recovery. I am not laughing because I will not take away every moment I felt strong for not relapsing, every prayer I pled every tear I shed, every time I decided that I did not want to die anymore. I am not laughing. I am leaving.
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hearts unhinge shutter, shattered words swiftly bitter twisted, uprooting love
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Sep 16, 2012
Sep 16, 2012 at 9:16 PM UTC
Tornado speak - 10w
Been a while sorry I am behind on reads, overly buzzed busier reading these; ~Hearts Of All~~ *I Try Might... With much mightly...* In My Own Sorting of Trance!!! Dancing In LOVE's Joyly Fun Seeking Thine Rightfully Divined Kiss's Thine Divine All Willing Alrighty Got \/ . . And Out of *Ode Baseless Fearful Trances Hypnotic Spell's* Broken Freed ~Of IT ALL~ Abusively Already Leave's If You Let It Be!! \/ S o . . \/ . . . This is my remedy need too; ~~Solutions Want Need Of Their Remedies As Much, As A True Remedy Wants Their Need Of Solutions.~~ More Right Better Than needing selfishly sought wants any day, Who How!!! ~One by for one by two of each others just for starters.~ ~~Love seeks need always as need is calling of Love too truly!!!~~ Is this not then for each others better of the seeding, growing than shoving else of each other's else's ~Thine Divine Bliss's off!!!~~ Uprooting and or smothering one way or any other!! Overly too close to call home to or, From when more too eerily at all!!! Nice though so well thee, WRITE OF ALL!!! Very Touching Real Deep!! So well you All Do Speak!! Now too I am remembering as much as Eye Try ever to believe how ever tender forgiving, And understanding can be, be endlessly!!!!! *It's offensive defensive covering, Of self hate to hard to conceive,* That can will to go on in such like ways, Death walking till blood stops pumping, ~Does not sound like the plan,    That We Inwardly Receive!!~~ *Too many lies from to many partners, In preference-ing of ganging together, In our latest smash successes so oft, Momentary and addictive pleasures. So shallow freaky speaky creepy as, Much is dead just above ground!!!* Oooh ouch!!! Please!!!   ~SELF,            OTHER~~   ~FORGIVENESS       BREATHE ~~ \             /   <3<3<3    #&#    :):)    !!!    !!    !    .    .    .    Ty ALL,   \     /    .    .    L    O    V    E    .    .    R    \/     .     .       ~Sa Sa~       ~Ra~        :):)         :)
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Nov 29, 2012
Nov 29, 2012 at 8:01 PM UTC
My Need's Deep Of ALL!!!
Been a while sorry I am behind on reads, overly buzzed busier reading these; ~Hearts Of All~~ *I Try Might... With much mightly...* In My Own Sorting of Trance!!! Dancing In LOVE's Joyly Fun Seeking Thine Rightfully Divined Kiss's Thine Divine All Willing Alrighty Got \/ . . And Out of *Ode Baseless Fearful Trances Hypnotic Spell's* Broken Freed ~Of IT ALL~ Abusively Already Leave's If You Let It Be!! \/ S o . . \/ . . . This is my remedy need too; ~~Solutions Want Need Of Their Remedies As Much, As A True Remedy Wants Their Need Of Solutions.~~ More Right Better Than needing selfishly sought wants any day, Who How!!! ~One by for one by two of each others just for starters.~ ~~Love seeks need always as need is calling of Love too truly!!!~~ Is this not then for each others better of the seeding, growing than shoving else of each other's else's ~Thine Divine Bliss's off!!!~~ Uprooting and or smothering one way or any other!! Overly too close to call home to or, From when more too eerily at all!!! Nice though so well thee, WRITE OF ALL!!! Very Touching Real Deep!! So well you All Do Speak!! Now too I am remembering as much as Eye Try ever to believe how ever tender forgiving, And understanding can be, be endlessly!!!!! *It's offensive defensive covering, Of self hate to hard to conceive,* That can will to go on in such like ways, Death walking till blood stops pumping, ~Does not sound like the plan,    That We Inwardly Receive!!~~ *Too many lies from to many partners, In preference-ing of ganging together, In our latest smash successes so oft, Momentary and addictive pleasures. So shallow freaky speaky creepy as, Much is dead just above ground!!!* Oooh ouch!!! Please!!!   ~SELF,            OTHER~~   ~FORGIVENESS       BREATHE ~~ \             /   <3<3<3    #&#    :):)    !!!    !!    !    .    .    .    Ty ALL,   \     /    .    .    L    O    V    E    .    .    R    \/     .     .       ~Sa Sa~       ~Ra~        :):)         :)
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You were never the kind Of person Who could Get comfortable, who could settle down. I felt the uprooting. You set fire to this house You let the smoke rise, Before you warned me of danger. Only when you were safe, Could I be warned. By then it was too late. I had already suffocated.
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Sep 28, 2014
Sep 28, 2014 at 10:49 AM UTC
Casualties
Breaking waves, folding in river bends (meandering) with an effortless grace Cupids mouth, foaming to return - broken and filling up the landscape. Cracked horseshoes waltzing across a vibrating brain, all the worlds night quartz, cutting drunk into your Green city. Banishing a sense of self uprooting positivity, displacing our discontempt - boil out the water from the soup of human condition. Boredoms grace. We're rotting, lizards tongues wearing the past, skin deep Imbued. a morbid relocation of entrance authority, a fee Reflecting light off your face always leading back, back towards a tabletop nausea. Caked in powder, i make my way over - licking my finger and rubbing away at the cracks formed years ago wandering in and out of Escher's wet dream, hoping to settle mind and body numbed and lethargic, medicine doesn't help. An open patio door, grooming in the whisped brown dawn - 7.34am God's rags, crisp displacing particles against the mountain lip red light brewing in the observers mind. Cubes of water pushing through into tomorrows wake all unwrapping like 1,000 words diluted into one second. I'm tired appetite gone graven, knowledge of the inside of my mouth encyclopedic and (almost) boring. It's closed again at the crux of abandon, the skies youthful, built from wood, holding up the trees. Excess - child's play for Atlas. Rogue, electric Blue. Mollusc in hand living, lipless just outside the geopolitical borders heading back towards maturity. Nihil, projects objectivity, sycamore due, borders as happiness combed our soft necks. A situation is only what you make of it, we're all in on this living together in leaves - by roadsides making homes where we sleep. The sky is on fire exploding into fruition as hot chlorine licks against unwashed belly buttons and hair going blind and stripping back it breaks you.
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Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 6:27 PM UTC
Majestic 12
Breaking waves, folding in river bends (meandering) with an effortless grace Cupids mouth, foaming to return - broken and filling up the landscape. Cracked horseshoes waltzing across a vibrating brain, all the worlds night quartz, cutting drunk into your Green city. Banishing a sense of self uprooting positivity, displacing our discontempt - boil out the water from the soup of human condition. Boredoms grace. We're rotting, lizards tongues wearing the past, skin deep Imbued. a morbid relocation of entrance authority, a fee Reflecting light off your face always leading back, back towards a tabletop nausea. Caked in powder, i make my way over - licking my finger and rubbing away at the cracks formed years ago wandering in and out of Escher's wet dream, hoping to settle mind and body numbed and lethargic, medicine doesn't help. An open patio door, grooming in the whisped brown dawn - 7.34am God's rags, crisp displacing particles against the mountain lip red light brewing in the observers mind. Cubes of water pushing through into tomorrows wake all unwrapping like 1,000 words diluted into one second. I'm tired appetite gone graven, knowledge of the inside of my mouth encyclopedic and (almost) boring. It's closed again at the crux of abandon, the skies youthful, built from wood, holding up the trees. Excess - child's play for Atlas. Rogue, electric Blue. Mollusc in hand living, lipless just outside the geopolitical borders heading back towards maturity. Nihil, projects objectivity, sycamore due, borders as happiness combed our soft necks. A situation is only what you make of it, we're all in on this living together in leaves - by roadsides making homes where we sleep. The sky is on fire exploding into fruition as hot chlorine licks against unwashed belly buttons and hair going blind and stripping back it breaks you.
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