"uncomprehendable" poems
separated by subtle differences-
left raw, untouched, and misunderstood
so I am going to stir my thoughts under my cover, security hood
I don't know how to approach a topic of conversation out of context
relationship missing administration codecs
sitting here mislead, pretty much rendered useless
uncomprehendable how we keep choosing to do this
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 4:37 PM UTC
Echos expand the ice crystals in my mind
Coronas of galactic dust feed into my pupils
My eyes are moons leaking white fire
My heart explodes into a supernova for it cannot bear the things I did to you
The guilt kills the sun inside my chest
The guilt is Jupiter and my vision is a slave, for auspicious moons have not gravity to compete with astronomical planets
Here my limbs are constellations that drift from one another
Here my fingers bend into uncomprehendable wavelengths
Here I float, empty, into space.
When I saw what could have been
what would have been
and what is now
I became an Earthen Absense.
Oct 29, 2017
Oct 29, 2017 at 6:25 PM UTC
Death caught her young,
While a tumor grew in her head it felt as though one was growing in my heart,
A mere child let in eternal peril!
Her inevitable end brought my never ending damnation,
How dare the supposed god end a life before it began,
At only seven barely knowing the true horrors,
I watched as the life perished in her eyes,
As she became incapable of self-care I became incapable of tears,
Even in her demise I could not cry,
I was as cold as her purple lifeless body,
Her casket open while people in black shed tears,
As only a child I could not comprehend the hurt
But now I carry it with me everywhere,
A I watched her body put into the ground that pain the one I was uncapable of then now fills me,
Each visitation a constant reminder of the dear child lost,
I lost a friend,A mother lost her daughter and some just lost hope,
There became pain in my world once death entered
And though I could not shed tears for my beloved friend then I do now,
Because now I see all that I lost and all that could've been oh so different.
Jan 12, 2012
Jan 12, 2012 at 2:43 PM UTC
Love is amazing,
No doubt.
Just be careful,
It willget you hurt if you're not.
So be careful.
Conspicous love is uncomprehendable.
Don't tell me it's not true,
I have proof.
Feb 5, 2011
Feb 5, 2011 at 2:44 PM UTC
Last nights memories went spindling down the toilet.
Literally splinding down the toilet
And I wish I understood them before they left
I wish I could remember your hot breath on my neck
Or your hand in between my thighs
I'm never one to take risks
But I wish I played this one safe
It's not fun waking up and not remembering a mutual effort to escape
The realities of life
the post anxiety regrets just aren't worth the uncomprehendable fun
I'll sit the next one out
In effort to string together the last round
I'm regretting something I don't even remember
Isn't that funny how it works
Apr 9, 2017
Apr 9, 2017 at 7:21 PM UTC
Language is unrealistically beautiful,
Its captivating, the way only certain things can be expressed in one language and not the other
This means of communication, so much so like the concrete slab that you place over the gap to save yourself, revives the most insane parts of your mind. You begin to access your own psyche in such a way that is uncomprehendable because your perspective is so widely spread that the possibilities for anything is infinitely limitless. Language, communication, creation and our thoughts are the first and foremost foundations of our outlets, which without, we would cease to exist
Apr 17, 2015
Apr 17, 2015 at 9:50 PM UTC
Falling for me will result
in pages of uncomprehendable poetry
filled with made up words
tears
and maybe some blood
May 20, 2013
May 20, 2013 at 4:22 PM UTC
Your love
Is incomprehensible
Your sacrifice
Is massive
Especially
For a broken soul
Like mine
There you hung
In unimaginable pain
With spikes through your hands
And feet
Gravity pulled at you
Begging you to fall
Wanting you to collapse on the ground
But there you staid
With the muscles in your hands tearing
The bones grinding and crunching
You felt alone
As you hung there
With the bashing words
They spat at you
You could have come down
From the ****** hard cross
You didn't have to suffer
With blood in your eyes
And dried blood lacing your feet and hands
I imagine the wood was rough
Stabing you in the back and arms and legs
How did you do it
Only once did you cry out
Calling to your Father
Begging for our forgiveness
How could you do that
How did you not feel hate
Resentment
Anger
Towards the beings you were trying to save
What were you thinking
Did you feel all the sin
Of the imperfect human race
Of past, present, and future
Did you feel depression
Anger
Lust
Terror
Did the entire spectrum of human emotion run across your mind
Did you think of your mother
Or your father
Maybe you brothers and sisters
As you hung on the dried out tree
Did you think of the disciples
Of the one who sold you out
The one who disowned you
Did you feel anger towards them
Or pity
Did you want to scream out
Did you want to cry
Did the air in your lungs
Become forced
As your life slowed to a stop
When you died
Where did you go
Did you fall to Hell
To the hungry, firery flames
Did you continue to suffer
For me
For us
For the whole of humanity
What happened after death
When you were in the grips of Satan
Did he torture you
For three days
Where you finally relieved
When you rose from the dead
Or did you find annoyance instead
At the disbelief
Of mere humans
Did you lose your patience
Trying to help us
Understand your immaculate power
Were you upset
When you left the world
Especially knowing
How broken it is
Was it difficult to leave
When they all begged you to stay
When you knew of their pain
Of the trouble that lied ahead
It's uncomprehendable
To know what it was like
To understand why
You'd want to save humanity
Because humanity is destructive
Humanity is broken
Humanity is almost lost
Yet you choose to die for us
To save us
To protect us from the fires of Hell
I don't understand
Your desire to save us
To love us
To protect us
But thank you
Thank you for everything
Even if it doesn't make sense
And we don't deserve it
Thank you
Jul 3, 2016
Jul 3, 2016 at 1:04 PM UTC
When I was young
My mother painted
My grandmother as distant
And preoccupied with trivial matters.
A woman who could never
Even if she were interested
Understand me.
“That’s just Grandma Mary.”
We could roll our eyes together
After opening the pink dress or sewing kit
She had sent me in the mail.
“That’s just how she is.”
My mother would sigh.
But as I grew I came to realize,
I’m not distant and uncomprehendable.
The only thing that kept
My grandmother from understanding me
Was years of space.
The picture my mother had been painting
Was never of me and my grandma,
But instead of my mother
And her mother.
Nov 23, 2016
Nov 23, 2016 at 2:12 PM UTC
dragonlit backpack
shining on my wet hands
i dipped in the river
of my dreams.
i felt them fading
swept away like dust in the wind-
i didn’t try to hold on because
i was living as i just woke up.
i lay there thinking
of new things
like kisses and hugs
and dreamy laughs and hair.
i wondered about nothing in particular
as i lay on my bed
slightly dizzy and waiting patiently
without words, only images
to wake up well.
so i woke up and i stumbled
as the blood dropped through my body
from my brain
and i felt awaker and forgetting
of the uncomfort just before,
after i had washed my face with
cold water.
some time later
a flash of silver and green
against a blue transparent
transpiring sea
still
with low thin clouds
and streams of blue reflection
glimmering gently and safely
against the beating of my heart
which i did not feel consciously.
i had just woke up
and i was thinking about my day.
what i have to do,
yet without stress.
harness
and live up
only the best stepping
when you’re not dizzily pushing
and scraped knees and elbows (unscarily)
past the high stems and bush flowers.
see, there are flowers
even there.
dragon
light,
be mine,
is mine.
is me.
i love my dragon spirit
and i’ll walk across these
stones this year even better.
even further, faster, harder work is my achievement to
be
me! oh what a feeling
and joy to live
and have
and experience
and see.
isn’t it great when your eyes don’t blur out
when you’re thinking
(it’s a cycle- i’m tired and i blur and get caught in my thoughts
then i waste time and sleep late and am tired again)
so this year i’m stepping with more skill
and like the still water i’m peaceful gentle and strong.
too beautiful to stare at too long because it’s uncomprehendable
beyond my comprehension and perhaps i shouldn’t waste time
trying to comprehend at all, not that i had.
yet it was some strange feeling to consciously know
something was out of my reach.
at least it is there, it is enough that i live with it.
i will slowly understand the fullness of it
of living
this is a metaphor perhaps.
dragonlike soul lionlike soul catlike soul
human soul
i’m living!
Feb 5, 2017
Feb 5, 2017 at 9:06 AM UTC