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"twinge" poems
Pinto? No, not the wild-spirited, color-splotched mare with mane streaming like flames-thrown behind in the wind Taking desert inclines with scuffing hooves on rock catching her balance in mesquite curbing? The sage, dust All that nature throws in its pathway to knowledge toward treachery of crosswalks? “P-l-e-a-s-e  don't slow down! Stop signs--? ”No! Just keep going! Don't slow down now!” “They'll hear us coming 3 blocks away!” Pinto? Clogged carburetor--? No one much-mentioned rear-end inferno reputation?? A mere twinge in my signature Woman-without-a-clue “Hey, it runs, right? Gets where we're goin'?” Kids duck in back seat so as not to be seen In the cloud of smoke We make our approach Hiss Spitter, Belch, Pop and-- BANG! --Like a gunshot Kids take cover on street, in backseat duck down so not to be noticed... “Oh Ma!   MA!!! Not right here! Farther down!” ...so not to be seen ...by friends that matter... in this ride from hell! Backfiring Beast-- “Friends” skitter away from what will emerge from the smoke and fumes of high-risk-situation Kids spill out through jammed door to unexpected accolades onto equality's curb of laughter   Public school's wake of exhaust and relief I drive mercifully away Start of another school day
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Aug 7, 2018
Aug 7, 2018 at 1:11 PM UTC
Red Ford Pinto--Nice Body--$500
Hope The grass will not settle Beneath our feet Hope The sun will rise With wondrous oranges And sleep will come Hope That hope is not wasted Tasting a twinge of regret May make hope sweeter Hope That hope is real
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Apr 22, 2015
Apr 22, 2015 at 9:55 PM UTC
Hope
It’s so hard, my love Hard to say, hard to tell With you it’s something of a tale Hard to say, hard to tell The story of us Hard to say, hard to tell Sometimes I wish you could forget about me so you didn’t have to tell the stories Hard to say, hard to tell The stories that bring a slight twinge to your ears and eyes Hard to say, hard to tell I apologize that I’m difficult to get rid of Hard to say, hard to tell
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Feb 24, 2012
Feb 24, 2012 at 1:54 AM UTC
Panda
To us, time does not belong And since reality is wrong... Live with me in legacy You're so close already Residing in memory Only a hearts twinge and without cringe My pleasuring in teaching to uke A warranty insurance for a more creative you Ill stand on the needle of your thread, fixed and stable without dread Get tied up and dragged around by your apron strings Feel the chain around your neck swing as it stings and swings Be what your tongue tastes when taking all varieties of temperature Be the brush you use to finish assignments when they get to be too much As wine deminshes and glass comes clear, take the role of servant, pour countless refill, until you're ready to be bed in achieving complete fulfill Rest assured, If you feel fear or need a mirror, allow me to transform into reflection to tell you how beautiful everything you wear and how to me you are so dear
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Jun 20, 2018
Jun 20, 2018 at 8:23 PM UTC
Legacy Insurance
At the start A bright beginning, A happy union An ignited spark *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Clutching the doll Happily Going everywhere Together *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Out the door Around the house And maybe to see your friend's Pet mouse *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Together forever Best little buds Totally inseparable Just like a shadow *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was there Through all the sunshine The doll was there Through all the rain *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you company Through the smiles Laughing with Your every mile *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you safe Through all those nights And kept those shadowy things At bay *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It dried your tears Through all those times A simple hug Could heal that soul *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It waited for you Every day Until you came back Home *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then something happened; You grew up The waiting became Longer *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The distance widened, Left behind But still it kept on Waiting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You talked less You played less But still it looked on Hopefully *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was stuck In a timeless state But you just kept on Growing *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Soon, you no longer Came to see The doll; it was already Fading *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Forgotten, neglected In its dusty little corner Reminiscing of the times Together, spent *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Wishing you would Come back round To look, or just To care *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept on hoping It kept believing It kept the flame alive, Burning *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* But everyday It kept on dimming The pure white fur With dust, greying *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Time passes Minutes, hours Days. Soon, it's been a year. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* More time passes Just like so, Until you were So fully grown *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Gone were the days Of carefree playing Gone were the days Of chatting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll has faded Right out Your mind You were most preoccupied *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then suddenly You remembered Retraced your steps And found the corner *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You see the little doll You've grown up with A companion, confidant, A friend. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You pick it up But something's different The flame inside Has died *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Hollow eyes stare back At you Cold and frozen Over *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* With a twinge You placed it Back onto A wooden shelf *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Now with the Closing of the door The both of you Were parted *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end*
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Aug 24, 2013
Aug 24, 2013 at 10:44 AM UTC
Growing up -- The Doll
At the start A bright beginning, A happy union An ignited spark *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Clutching the doll Happily Going everywhere Together *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Out the door Around the house And maybe to see your friend's Pet mouse *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Together forever Best little buds Totally inseparable Just like a shadow *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was there Through all the sunshine The doll was there Through all the rain *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you company Through the smiles Laughing with Your every mile *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept you safe Through all those nights And kept those shadowy things At bay *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It dried your tears Through all those times A simple hug Could heal that soul *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It waited for you Every day Until you came back Home *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then something happened; You grew up The waiting became Longer *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The distance widened, Left behind But still it kept on Waiting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You talked less You played less But still it looked on Hopefully *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll was stuck In a timeless state But you just kept on Growing *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Soon, you no longer Came to see The doll; it was already Fading *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Forgotten, neglected In its dusty little corner Reminiscing of the times Together, spent *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Wishing you would Come back round To look, or just To care *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* It kept on hoping It kept believing It kept the flame alive, Burning *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* But everyday It kept on dimming The pure white fur With dust, greying *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Time passes Minutes, hours Days. Soon, it's been a year. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* More time passes Just like so, Until you were So fully grown *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Gone were the days Of carefree playing Gone were the days Of chatting *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* The doll has faded Right out Your mind You were most preoccupied *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Then suddenly You remembered Retraced your steps And found the corner *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You see the little doll You've grown up with A companion, confidant, A friend. *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* You pick it up But something's different The flame inside Has died *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Hollow eyes stare back At you Cold and frozen Over *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* With a twinge You placed it Back onto A wooden shelf *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end* Now with the Closing of the door The both of you Were parted *A little wolf So pure, so bright Loyal till The very end*
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She speaks to me through Winter's night, At the clash of fearless winds and tides. Within whispers of memoired days that passed, I find myself entangled in each others grasp. Like a summer's day I forget the tomorrows, Unworthy challenges, expectancies and sorrows, Letting go of my anger and unattended pain, Her whispers are the only things that keep me sane. I close my eyes to the sound of aquatic gusts, Invisioning the days we've spent sharing eachother's lust. Through a swirl of thought I sit beside you, With petals of flowers falling upon each shoe. My arm grips you tight as if hanging for salvation, Yet still we hold a certain fear of confrontation. We path our way with big and small footsteps, Through unearthed soil, we silently crept. The view was shallow; yellow with blue, I gazed my eyes upon this priceless view. Amongst an ocean of grass and rooted flowers, Lay a lonely rose, purveying endless thorn-showers. How risky and deep and precious the thought, That within grass and sunflowers, a rose has been brought. My hands reach to grip, but my eyes twinge with pain, A sudden push through my lungs, and rush through my veins. I wake up confused, my dream disappears, But you my gray rose, you're always right here.
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Aug 28, 2012
Aug 28, 2012 at 7:35 AM UTC
Gray Rose
The monotony of adolescence is a laughable oxymoron. My mom keeps saying to me, "Caitlin, you're in a state of flux. Just wait." Little does she know I'm waiting for anything to ebb. Flow. Twinge. Any lurch of impulse of life in this constant static lullaby. Maybe I'm just itching to slough off my skin of content and breathe in a fresh new disposition. Become intoxicated in the maybes, and the possibly's. Embracing the oh-wells and the never-enough-times. Eschewing the feeling of everything I've missed by having it near. Having him here. Getting trapped in the crinkles of his smile and the freckles on his shoulders that navigate me to the spots I feel most comfy. Losing regard for the world as I become transfixed in us and our patterns on his couch. Tumble into elation. Quirks transpire the me's and you's into the us's and we's. To think... I was so scared to hold his hand. Not knowing at the time how great his waffles would taste after a night of holding him.
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Sep 23, 2012
Sep 23, 2012 at 4:27 PM UTC
Waffle Days
This morning as I walked along the lakeshore, I fell in love with a wren and later in the day with a mouse the cat had dropped under the dining room table. In the shadows of an autumn evening, I fell for a seamstress still at her machine in the tailor’s window, and later for a bowl of broth, steam rising like smoke from a naval battle. This is the best kind of love, I thought, without recompense, without gifts, or unkind words, without suspicion, or silence on the telephone. The love of the chestnut, the jazz cap and one hand on the wheel. No lust, no slam of the door – the love of the miniature orange tree, the clean white shirt, the hot evening shower, the highway that cuts across Florida. No waiting, no huffiness, or rancor – just a twinge every now and then for the wren who had built her nest on a low branch overhanging the water and for the dead mouse, still dressed in its light brown suit. But my heart is always propped up in a field on its tripod, ready for the next arrow. After I carried the mouse by the tail to a pile of leaves in the woods, I found myself standing at the bathroom sink gazing down affectionately at the soap, so patient and soluble, so at home in its pale green soap dish. I could feel myself falling again as I felt its turning in my wet hands and caught the scent of lavender and stone.
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Mar 1, 2014
Mar 1, 2014 at 11:04 AM UTC
Aimless Love (by Billy Collins)
*I'm unapologetically a bit too sensitive    highly attuned to inanimate feelings the lone Cheerio circling the drain is given    a kindred companion for its journey considerate thought is given to the preferences    of animal crackers...heads or legs bitten first many items are thanked before discarded    others parted with reluctantly if ever a twinge of conscience is felt while pruning    perfectly healthy leaves from house plants objects are arranged in pairs and groups    in a compassionate effort for inclusion The Velveteen Rabbit makes perfect sense to me*
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Feb 16, 2014
Feb 16, 2014 at 12:00 AM UTC
Velveteen Sensitivity
We are groups of people made to hate because of who we love not what we stand for. Did no one listen to your parents? You treat others how you want to be treated not throwing beer bottles and whining when it misses their head not coming at them with a knife because a man is holding a man's hand. We are taught as kids being gay isn't okay. You could be a murderer but you can't love another man. Why? Why can't I love who I love. People would rather have a man dying alone in the hospital because his boyfriend of 35 years isn't his husband than letting love flourish. People would rather **** us off than understand. People would have broken homes where kids come home to beatings their head shoved in an oven ***** molested beaten to a pulp cigars burned out on their arms and hit with beer bottles to the point of being broken than to let a happily loving couple of two men to have that child. They would rather see a red sea of bodies than to allow us to live. People would rather say ****** "fruitcake" *** "fairy" and watch their child slit his wrist for every time he looks at a man and feels a twinge of love than to let him be happy. They would rather torcher and torment children to the point of mental breakdowns rushing blood soar throats living alone on the streets no love pretending. Than to let them be them. People love purple that it means freedom but I like the rainbow. Rainbows have a million colours and not one colour is quite the same hue. No one hates rainbows or the gorgeous colours it has. Not many notice the differences of them so, why can't everyone treat other people like we're rainbows?
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Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 11:16 PM UTC
Rainbow
We are groups of people made to hate because of who we love not what we stand for. Did no one listen to your parents? You treat others how you want to be treated not throwing beer bottles and whining when it misses their head not coming at them with a knife because a man is holding a man's hand. We are taught as kids being gay isn't okay. You could be a murderer but you can't love another man. Why? Why can't I love who I love. People would rather have a man dying alone in the hospital because his boyfriend of 35 years isn't his husband than letting love flourish. People would rather **** us off than understand. People would have broken homes where kids come home to beatings their head shoved in an oven ***** molested beaten to a pulp cigars burned out on their arms and hit with beer bottles to the point of being broken than to let a happily loving couple of two men to have that child. They would rather see a red sea of bodies than to allow us to live. People would rather say ****** "fruitcake" *** "fairy" and watch their child slit his wrist for every time he looks at a man and feels a twinge of love than to let him be happy. They would rather torcher and torment children to the point of mental breakdowns rushing blood soar throats living alone on the streets no love pretending. Than to let them be them. People love purple that it means freedom but I like the rainbow. Rainbows have a million colours and not one colour is quite the same hue. No one hates rainbows or the gorgeous colours it has. Not many notice the differences of them so, why can't everyone treat other people like we're rainbows?
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glasses 'you look beautiful' her teeth are a little yellow, she brushes in the morning. somehow they're still a Colgate white. she mouths Iluvu eyes squint quiet smile arches it's spine and finger caresses the barely stubble of my face. her blonde peach fuzz mini moustache tilts left and kisses false worry, charisma. she takes it as insult when I read line about peach fuzz moustache. obligatory insult *shes a woman, women don't have moustaches haha* she stretches like a resting cat and returns to thought as my suicide hangover crunches into a headache of blind relief relief
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May 19, 2013
May 19, 2013 at 8:59 PM UTC
twinge
We slump on the couch when we return like lifetimes have passed before us. We have to, even though it was only a seven minute walk to the dining hall, because 1) the food was just “weird consistency” (which we tend to say regardless), 2) the light in there yawned indifferently to us (when does it not?), and 3) the reassuring clink of our forks on our plates wasn’t even there this time it was hiding underneath slop and smothered on top by the intruding sound waves (who asked?) of our next-table neighbors’ lives. You made a sly remark about seconds to catch a glimpse of youthful **** She’d gone to get some more baby carrots and cucumber slices to put in her salad maybe (who knows? who cares?) Either way, her youthful **** would make the food taste like something to you. And you described them to us when you sat down again so the slop would taste like something to us (there’s pride in that type of generosity, don’t forget) and (congratulations) we had the faint impression of some sort of ****** there, but we didn’t tell you (it’s easier that way). A cup, a squeeze, a kiss on her ******* yes that could feed our hunger for a night. And tonight was a night like any, so her ******* led us to talk of women, and women led us to talk of love (and the blooming one for the poor ******* as we who lost withstood the vicarious twinge of an addling ****** very different from the first. This one led us to pine for sweets, but the ones we found were dry, so we left the table, left the dining hall, looking around at the others: the lonely, the couples, the blessed lonely couples, and the fortunate friends huddled against everything with open laughter, enjoying the weird consistency like drunk theoretical physicists before they discovered bubbles and inflated eternally meaning when they safeguarded a zoo with a pistol they didn’t know how to use, in Soviet Russia. (So you see?) We have to slump on the couch when we return like lifetimes have passed before us. No one even bothers to pick up a guitar, we leave all four of them strewn on the floor like dead wooden boxes because Dylan or Young or Cash (or whoever) is already in the living room. Any bubbling, inflating, theoretical physicist (any drunk, pistol-packing zookeeper, for that matter) will tell you that. So we slump, comfortably uncomfortable, (at least we’re trying!) feeling their (our) strings plucking. No sounds, no voices. Because we don’t need to hear this that. Not right now. (Not right now).
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Mar 27, 2012
Mar 27, 2012 at 7:33 PM UTC
Slumping in West Adams
We slump on the couch when we return like lifetimes have passed before us. We have to, even though it was only a seven minute walk to the dining hall, because 1) the food was just “weird consistency” (which we tend to say regardless), 2) the light in there yawned indifferently to us (when does it not?), and 3) the reassuring clink of our forks on our plates wasn’t even there this time it was hiding underneath slop and smothered on top by the intruding sound waves (who asked?) of our next-table neighbors’ lives. You made a sly remark about seconds to catch a glimpse of youthful **** She’d gone to get some more baby carrots and cucumber slices to put in her salad maybe (who knows? who cares?) Either way, her youthful **** would make the food taste like something to you. And you described them to us when you sat down again so the slop would taste like something to us (there’s pride in that type of generosity, don’t forget) and (congratulations) we had the faint impression of some sort of ****** there, but we didn’t tell you (it’s easier that way). A cup, a squeeze, a kiss on her ******* yes that could feed our hunger for a night. And tonight was a night like any, so her ******* led us to talk of women, and women led us to talk of love (and the blooming one for the poor ******* as we who lost withstood the vicarious twinge of an addling ****** very different from the first. This one led us to pine for sweets, but the ones we found were dry, so we left the table, left the dining hall, looking around at the others: the lonely, the couples, the blessed lonely couples, and the fortunate friends huddled against everything with open laughter, enjoying the weird consistency like drunk theoretical physicists before they discovered bubbles and inflated eternally meaning when they safeguarded a zoo with a pistol they didn’t know how to use, in Soviet Russia. (So you see?) We have to slump on the couch when we return like lifetimes have passed before us. No one even bothers to pick up a guitar, we leave all four of them strewn on the floor like dead wooden boxes because Dylan or Young or Cash (or whoever) is already in the living room. Any bubbling, inflating, theoretical physicist (any drunk, pistol-packing zookeeper, for that matter) will tell you that. So we slump, comfortably uncomfortable, (at least we’re trying!) feeling their (our) strings plucking. No sounds, no voices. Because we don’t need to hear this that. Not right now. (Not right now).
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if you pause for a moment to look around really, really look and truly see all the beauty in the chaos then suddenly you may catch a glimpse a slight twinge in your soul whispering how absolutely necessary your existence is to the universe the fabric that knits you together flows through each and every spirit that passes every single day
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Feb 2, 2017
Feb 2, 2017 at 10:02 AM UTC
black implies white, self implies other, death implies life
A horrific thunderbolt hit me right at my chest. Oh! what an assault. A hundred carafes of poison or the thousand rounds of bullets would have hurt less than the pain it caused when you abandoned me. But, I tried to deal with it. ‘Move on’, I urged my inner me. ‘I am not a loser. Quitting is never an option’, I tried to pacify the anguish. It did not aid. The palpable twinge troubled more; aww! my delicate heart. To sweep away the woe, I pact with the ***** Alas! Every sip of the nasty tipple ousted heavy flood from my shuddering eyes. I could tell you , love, that was quite a sight. Still the heart pounding, the excruciating truth, still unsolved. I banged my liquor’s glass in sheer dismay. Sane enough to halt the bleeding from the wound, I searched the bandage. Sadly, the wound was in heart. - Bhaskar Dhakal
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Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 6:37 AM UTC
Grievous Separation
just another face in the crowd just another classmate we spoke occasionally, commenting on each other's work Then it happened. A random visit to my slumbering thoughts made cloudy confusion blow away with the dark storm I awoke with a smile on my face hope wrapped around me with a misty twinge of impatience for Tuesday rolling through i'm not ready i can't be ready it's too soon... isn't it? it doesn't matter, he's not interested anyways i don't want a rebound i can't get hurt again silence swept in behind you calmly, coolly, quietly setting things down beside me playful jibes, attentive conversations, shy glances, soft smiles, ending with long walks in the darkening sky bright with city lights heart pounding in my breast, breath slipping past my lips in bursts, butterflies fluttering in my stomach things I had not felt for a long time rose to the front of my mind blooming in my heart stirring with every class spent together The fairytale I longed for may not exist, but you may be the man to help me find something better
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Dec 1, 2012
Dec 1, 2012 at 3:08 AM UTC
Crush
When I saw her for the first time it wasn't admiration It was awe mixed with a twinge of jealousy Her perfection and her confidence intimidated me When I first befriended her it wasn't just adoration It was an obsession and a fixation To be like her in thought and action Till I learnt to be better than her without being enough That was when the insecurity started 'Will I ever be enough?' I wasn't enough at home, not fair enough or smart enough I wasn't witty or flirtatious enough I lacked guts and I lacked the temperament Of a proper twelve-year-old. I was a doormat and a pushover Already coming undone at my seams Trying to emulate perfection through blinded eyes Every day I scoffed and surrendered to my picture of admiration Trying to secure her own admission 'Will I ever be enough?' Then she left me battling my own wars Hers was to conquer new turfs. I waited for a while, finally realizing I was a ship without a captain, left to wander evermore. I caught a new captain in a bystander who counted his lucky stars I admired him for being there for me when I never was. I tried to hold on to an unconsolidated bond of friendship With a raging doubt piercing through my heart 'Will I ever be enough?' Many came telling me my worth. Many left ravaging my already battered heart Many drank my colourless lifeless blood Many left a wretched bluish mark I shrivelled from the inside out Bloating in the nausea of my being Every day trying to put me together Every day losing instead of winning. One day finally I reached out Knowing my salvation lies I put everything behind me and cried out Only to be put on the side. That day I realized my worth When she was hurt by my rejection When she refused to give me a chance When I had never received any ever. My insecurities still lingered But they were a part of me now And I did not know how to do without. I picked up the pieces that meant something to me Even though she was no more there to see Yet I knew that she was never enough Never my horizon, never my turf I had wings to reach farther And my flight has thus Now begun without her. (c) Anavah 2018
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Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 7:18 AM UTC
ENOUGH
When I saw her for the first time it wasn't admiration It was awe mixed with a twinge of jealousy Her perfection and her confidence intimidated me When I first befriended her it wasn't just adoration It was an obsession and a fixation To be like her in thought and action Till I learnt to be better than her without being enough That was when the insecurity started 'Will I ever be enough?' I wasn't enough at home, not fair enough or smart enough I wasn't witty or flirtatious enough I lacked guts and I lacked the temperament Of a proper twelve-year-old. I was a doormat and a pushover Already coming undone at my seams Trying to emulate perfection through blinded eyes Every day I scoffed and surrendered to my picture of admiration Trying to secure her own admission 'Will I ever be enough?' Then she left me battling my own wars Hers was to conquer new turfs. I waited for a while, finally realizing I was a ship without a captain, left to wander evermore. I caught a new captain in a bystander who counted his lucky stars I admired him for being there for me when I never was. I tried to hold on to an unconsolidated bond of friendship With a raging doubt piercing through my heart 'Will I ever be enough?' Many came telling me my worth. Many left ravaging my already battered heart Many drank my colourless lifeless blood Many left a wretched bluish mark I shrivelled from the inside out Bloating in the nausea of my being Every day trying to put me together Every day losing instead of winning. One day finally I reached out Knowing my salvation lies I put everything behind me and cried out Only to be put on the side. That day I realized my worth When she was hurt by my rejection When she refused to give me a chance When I had never received any ever. My insecurities still lingered But they were a part of me now And I did not know how to do without. I picked up the pieces that meant something to me Even though she was no more there to see Yet I knew that she was never enough Never my horizon, never my turf I had wings to reach farther And my flight has thus Now begun without her. (c) Anavah 2018
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Words are lovely but can sometimes be dull depending on your mood. You can make someone fall in love, or break an innocent heart, or have someone jump with glee, or maybe have a poor soul wallow in despair. Words can sometimes sting just as much as it can comfort. So next time you write something down, think twice. You may not be saying something nice.
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Apr 28, 2011
Apr 28, 2011 at 2:47 AM UTC
Twinge
It always seems to be a similar path, this one I go down. strung along, hanging on to the back of jean pockets and holding on to loose hands clinging just gently enough to not be a bother, this is how I love. insecure like a mid day shadow peeking out to make it's presence known quietly, but not too loud as to call attention, like a peach picked up at the market promising sweet no matter how bruised I care only to keep the tastebuds wanting cautious of being too much, constantly afraid that I am, conscious of how easily I could be replaced, one sided like skin meeting ink you will be the tattoo gun and I will be the swollen reminder you will go unharmed while I am marked permanent twinge-yearning, nail-pulling, folding back the flesh. this is how I love and I know how this goes you'll look at other girls and I'll look at you the way the land looked at rain after the first drought you'll give away glimpses of your smile to strangers and I'll give you all of me like it's possible to grow back complete you'll put your arms around hips that aren't mine and I'll feel my own expand with envy you'll toss around the word love and I'll attempt to catch it every time it lands near someone else's feet you'll carry other names in your mouth while yours will be the only one in mine, tucked safely under the tongue you'll provide me reassurance without an asking for it and I'll pretend I don't care about a thing in the world when really it is you who has become my entire universe you'll play me the way that I'm used to and I'll laugh like it's a game I never wanted to win anyway because I hate losing things I love you'll make me swell empty without intending to and I'll make you full with whatever I have to offer you'll inflict sadness unknowingly and I'll make you happy like it's a method for survival, like it's my god **** purpose for existing this is how I love. not too tightly, just soft enough for your liking here I am, programmed for the pleasing I will hang on like a child's fist does a dandelion light enough to keep the stem intact leaving room for your fingers to wrap around praying you wont let go but this is how I love and I know how it goes how it will go destined to meet the ground eventually after being dragged along knowingly I am aware of how it is, the same, always but this is how I love for I do not know any other way
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Jun 29, 2015
Jun 29, 2015 at 5:07 PM UTC
How I Love
It always seems to be a similar path, this one I go down. strung along, hanging on to the back of jean pockets and holding on to loose hands clinging just gently enough to not be a bother, this is how I love. insecure like a mid day shadow peeking out to make it's presence known quietly, but not too loud as to call attention, like a peach picked up at the market promising sweet no matter how bruised I care only to keep the tastebuds wanting cautious of being too much, constantly afraid that I am, conscious of how easily I could be replaced, one sided like skin meeting ink you will be the tattoo gun and I will be the swollen reminder you will go unharmed while I am marked permanent twinge-yearning, nail-pulling, folding back the flesh. this is how I love and I know how this goes you'll look at other girls and I'll look at you the way the land looked at rain after the first drought you'll give away glimpses of your smile to strangers and I'll give you all of me like it's possible to grow back complete you'll put your arms around hips that aren't mine and I'll feel my own expand with envy you'll toss around the word love and I'll attempt to catch it every time it lands near someone else's feet you'll carry other names in your mouth while yours will be the only one in mine, tucked safely under the tongue you'll provide me reassurance without an asking for it and I'll pretend I don't care about a thing in the world when really it is you who has become my entire universe you'll play me the way that I'm used to and I'll laugh like it's a game I never wanted to win anyway because I hate losing things I love you'll make me swell empty without intending to and I'll make you full with whatever I have to offer you'll inflict sadness unknowingly and I'll make you happy like it's a method for survival, like it's my god **** purpose for existing this is how I love. not too tightly, just soft enough for your liking here I am, programmed for the pleasing I will hang on like a child's fist does a dandelion light enough to keep the stem intact leaving room for your fingers to wrap around praying you wont let go but this is how I love and I know how it goes how it will go destined to meet the ground eventually after being dragged along knowingly I am aware of how it is, the same, always but this is how I love for I do not know any other way
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I felt an unusual twinge in my neck as I turned toward you. Heavy breathing signaled morning sleep as my arm reached across your palpitating belly. These casual cuddles, typical of the start of our day emit a warmth unlike sunrays or furnace heat. No use to wake you or tease apart your legs for seldom do we play. That may come after morning news is devoured, bananas peeled and different morning hungers eased. Now i rise to consume small pellets of brown, pink, grey and white chemicals compounded to keep me alive. There is a stillness downstairs with greetings from a well-worn chair contoured to support my soul. Blades whirl overhead churning a breeze my face accepts upon my forehead. Now is my time of meditation, my attempt to listen to whatever god pervades this universe. There will be no answers, no jolts of insight or revelations, only small particles of peace to cover my disquiet. You will lumber down steps with effort accentuated by creaks and moans that are more pronounced each day. Our lips will touch confirming both obligation and willingness to walk beside each other. I wonder if you think there could be more? Could each gaze toward one another be longer? Could I unbutton myself enough to see or would you scold me for such an unrepressed display?
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Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 1:55 PM UTC
Flinty Endurance
****** up paddy's weekly binge, did nothing for poor mary's twinge. she quelled her urge with robbie rasta, who smoked the weed,and **** was faster.  the ***** guru jumped with fright, yo husband early home tonight. don't ye worry, stay in bed, the fockers ****** right off his head.  mary, mary, the drunkard bleats, der is tree people beneath dees sheets, shot op ye dronk i am no cheat, get outa bed an count the feet,  sorry me darlin, der's only four, staggered to the bathroom door, where ye goin? what ye thinkin? to wash me feet, they're fockin stinkin.
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Feb 27, 2010
Feb 27, 2010 at 12:00 PM UTC
****** up paddy
A blinding Hopeless inclination towards a blending of nostalgia And something just a twinge surreal. Too enraptured, perhaps, or too locked inside the senses The search takes me places, to small shards that I don't quite comprehend. Still unsure why, if I can't, or I just don't want to. It's old and familiar Soaking in solitude, rife with memory. Touched lightly by the hem of rose tint, blooming in the spreading flames. As the old wooden paneling, tried as a tinderbox Begins to peel away, affected by the heat. A fire, awakening with the first rays of morning. To warm up the little room, as the walls softly fall, turning to ashes. Revealing the bare frame. And the fauna outside begins to show itself Sprinkled with dew, gently coaxing away the flames. Rooted too close, it would seem As they progress, slowly wither under ash But for now, I still crawl through creation. Hopeless, I'll never recapture... Ignoring new context, engulfed in this fruitless rapture With the past still dancing through my head.
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Jun 27, 2018
Jun 27, 2018 at 3:38 AM UTC
Thursday
I chased down the bustling road when I caught a glimpse of her walking down. Today I stand, impatient; my finger thumping a pithy tune, as she climbs down the stairway, one step at a time. *Time capsules are concealed in objects that we rarely see, and only notice when silence visits and sits in the middle of the room, unpleasently.* Today was on such day, when my foot accidentally brushed a tea cup that had bravely withstood, the anomalies of my childhood, and leaning back on its broken handle took delight, on my sudden emotional plight. *After years of unrelenting boundaries the yearning to jump over, turns into the ultimate goal. Definace, with a vengence, and fury so grave, mars conscience by its senstaions, makes it depraved.* Forgone was the leap that bound my heart with rules of love, loyatly and frienship, for it now only understood, the twinge of ache it gained whenever it recognized, a then familar face. *In a world fantastical, there is order and right. And mistakes are begotten to only be forgotten and set some memories aside.* I held my hand out, on the last stair, she looked up, and in brown eyes, just like mine, I saw days that now defined, our relationship, as mother and daughter. *We talk of  far shores and setting sail, with our two feet firmly rooted in the bay. The anchors aren't pulled, the rigs aren't checked, we are rarely ready, if ever, at our fancy's behest.* In the seconds that she took to step down; seconds in which I re-lived a lifetime, I ran down the same road, the bustling street with the same goal. I held my mother's hand and let go.
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Dec 16, 2012
Dec 16, 2012 at 11:35 PM UTC
Mother & Daughter
I chased down the bustling road when I caught a glimpse of her walking down. Today I stand, impatient; my finger thumping a pithy tune, as she climbs down the stairway, one step at a time. *Time capsules are concealed in objects that we rarely see, and only notice when silence visits and sits in the middle of the room, unpleasently.* Today was on such day, when my foot accidentally brushed a tea cup that had bravely withstood, the anomalies of my childhood, and leaning back on its broken handle took delight, on my sudden emotional plight. *After years of unrelenting boundaries the yearning to jump over, turns into the ultimate goal. Definace, with a vengence, and fury so grave, mars conscience by its senstaions, makes it depraved.* Forgone was the leap that bound my heart with rules of love, loyatly and frienship, for it now only understood, the twinge of ache it gained whenever it recognized, a then familar face. *In a world fantastical, there is order and right. And mistakes are begotten to only be forgotten and set some memories aside.* I held my hand out, on the last stair, she looked up, and in brown eyes, just like mine, I saw days that now defined, our relationship, as mother and daughter. *We talk of  far shores and setting sail, with our two feet firmly rooted in the bay. The anchors aren't pulled, the rigs aren't checked, we are rarely ready, if ever, at our fancy's behest.* In the seconds that she took to step down; seconds in which I re-lived a lifetime, I ran down the same road, the bustling street with the same goal. I held my mother's hand and let go.
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