"trapezes" poems
One fleeting chance to catch you between trapezes
Yet my head was bowed, my thoughts immersed
In another dream of another life that i longed to live
A moments lapse careers you to that downward spiral
Through all those safety nets, all those webs we wove
Once so secure borne from our labour, love and toil
Exposed now like a promise of night through a civil dawn
As you fall through each of my declarations of trust
You blow out the candles and knock out the lights
Of celebrations and occasions now shattered like glass
Blackness descending through this never blinking eye
As those moments and time perpetually relive yet resist
The blood still refusing to flow freely through my veins
As i sit and wait for this evening coffee to run cold
That i may embrace the sanctuary of night once more
For I was one that could never dream in the dark
No more than one who could ever make amends
Between those two trapezes that signaled our end
Mar 7, 2017
Mar 7, 2017 at 5:54 PM UTC
I measured the steps
From the back screen door,
Past the rock water well
And the garden plot,
Down the gravel drive.
The crush of stones beneath
Were the sounds of anticipation.
At the end,
The road stretched and ribboned,
Grey, beneath the harvest sun.
I numbered the fence posts
Up to the tree with embedded wire,
Demarcating the next acre.
The telephone poles like guards
With cats-of-nine tails,
Red-winged blackbirds and wrens
Hanging on trapezes, upsidedown,
With rigamortis clutches.
The few cattle stood cooling in the pond,
The chickens pecked the farmyard dung.
Each day my steps imperceptibly decreased,
Speeding up the monotony of my walk.
I missed the sheep shaped clouds,
But saw them move
Across verdant dales,
Following the stream,
Like lambs.
Today, I look out my kitchen window
To see where my son,
My disheartened, lonely boy,
Counts the steps to Brigden Sideroad,
Feeling the gravel
Hard beneath his feet.
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 12:34 PM UTC
Mature in her youth.
Young in her maturity.
Oh, to be sixteen.
Growing old too fast.
But growing up too slowly.
Today: infinite.
Tip-toeing the line
Leaping 'tween the trapezes.
Balancing it all.
Aged so sweetly, loved
So deeply; she is a bud
Blooming in winter.
She is a princess.
High heels, a little black dress.
Face lit up with hope.
Bid old days so long.
She will dance alone no more.
We all go with her.
We all grow with her.
Jan 6, 2013
Jan 6, 2013 at 7:58 PM UTC
Sometimes i wonder
What is this circus
Who are the players
What are the rules
How
How do i become a part of it in the day
And if i ever get detached in the night
when the joker stops smiling and goes back home
Sometimes i wonder
What is real and what is the facade
What am i and what trapezes they want me to pull from
Watching silently
As my instincts fade in between
In between the lights on and the lights off
Sometimes i wonder
What my heart thinks
What is taught in the circus
And the gap that traverses within
And then i wonder
Why
Why and how is that gap so huge
So huge that i cant find the ends of it
On searching all the recesses
This empty huge gap
Between what my heart thinks and what is taught in the circus!
Nov 25, 2019
Nov 25, 2019 at 3:17 PM UTC
as Alice poured her tears into an ocean
I pour myself into him
I surround myself in his arms
for he is a ghost, a specter, absent of the living
whispering in my head
but the blisters on my feet from dancing with him in my dreams are far too real
raw.
to the boy who is taller than trees and brighter than the streetlight that shines through this distorted glass
making this modern glitch in my room
unearthly, unreal, ethereal, untouchable
a virus of humanity, running in real time
I put my juice boxes into briefcases and hope he notices
the hemlines get shorter
the nights get longer
he passes me in the hallway and I watch him go
I sit 130 feet in the air
a carnival, a ferris wheel
pas de cheval
my mind trapezes to him
I grow weary of jumping through hoops
Is he afraid of heights?
am I afraid of falling?
Mar 23, 2016
Mar 23, 2016 at 11:45 PM UTC
Sorrow sweeps
And sorrow swoons
Sorrow decays
the summer blooms,
Love corrupts
Love purrifies
Love lights up
Until you die
Sorrow strikes
Swing trapezes high,
Sorrow croons
Tears pierce the eye,
Love rots slowly,
Like a corpse,
Love takes no prisoners,
Love shows no remorse.
Jan 19, 2013
Jan 19, 2013 at 11:54 PM UTC