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Toni Payne Feb 2014
Erotica!
Its when other girls want u, I stand confidently
Cos I know I'm your fantasy and your reality
me cooking you meal, you step up to me,
you pull my hair, kiss my neck.
Draw me closer, kiss my lips, down to my navel.
Please Baby don't stop

Erotica!
  Its when you let me aspire to inspire you to take me higher, fulfill my desire.
Memories of you is all I need,
to believe and achieve a ****** so sweet.
I wanna watch u eat, while on your knees, listening to Alicia Keys.
This love is not just for anybody.

Erotica!
Its the way you feel while discovering me
Holding my hands down right next to me
The smell of your cologne,
it urges me to Hold u close and pull u near,
call you my dear cos your kind is so rare

Erotica !
its when u emancipate my body
Liberate my soul
Touch me in all the right places
Excuse my funny faces
I see vanilla skies
When you lick my chocolate thighs
**** I'm feeling so high


Erotica!
Its when ! love you endlessly
And follow u religiously
Don't mislead me
Please just give me
A touch of your lips
As u take swift dips
While I Twist my hips

Erotica!
Its when you are downtown, taking my emotions uptown
My head spinning
Because I'm winning

Erotica!
Its when we do it on the tiles, the rug, on the rooftop, or even the kitchen counter top
Take me to another world, another dimension, I dare mention
the bedroom is too conventional
****! my thinking is irrational!!


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Toni Payne Feb 2014
When love goes wrong whose fault does it become?
I guess it doesn’t matter cos the fact is it’s gone.
I asked love for answers but it gave me none.
I begged it for closure but it gave me none.
Isn’t love meant to last forever? when it doesn’t and your love keeps saying “NEVER”!!!
It leave you hopeless, it leaves you blue, roaming this world, without a clue.
How sweet it would have been if love was good to me.
Like a thief in the night, it stole my dreams,
Confusion sets in, feels like your world is shattered.
The pain is killing because love left you without answers.
You search your soul, all YOU see is an empty hole. ..
How could it leave without telling you what you did not know.
What you did and did not do.
Leaving you spent, without a clue making u feel like a complete fool.
The silence is deafening, wasn’t it meant to be?
You make excuses; my love must surely come back to me.
Vision of perfection, gives hope for a new day.
It could be a mistake; my love was here to stay.
Deep down inside you know the outcome,
you stretch it and stretch it, you quietly hang on.
You thrive on patience, this is real I tell you.
How could you feel this strongly, if it wasn’t meant for you?
How could it start, if it would only break your heart?
You need closure, you need answers.
Your love says never, I won’t give in to your banter.
You ask yourself, if this love wasn’t meant to be, why did it feel so right?
You wanna fight with all your might.
My love must be confused!
You hang on to hope, love can’t be doing this to me.
The promises so sweet, the words still linger,
you hold on in anger, confusion and pain cos love can’t possibly be doing this to me.
Does love take joy in your pain?
Tears flow like pouring rain.
What did I do, you ask once again.
The silence is deafening, your heart is pounding…
Love says “You are HOUNDING!!” Hounding?
You stop to take a deep breath,
how can love treat me so selfishly,
took all my dreams laid them next to me, kicked it in my face,
yet I still longed for its warm embrace.
Holding on so deep, not caring if I look cheap
You look around you, see happy faces, different cases,
you ask yourself,
why is this happening to me?
life so unpredictable, it  gives you no answers.
You hear all the banter,
it adds to your pain,
why won’t they just let me be?
You want to shout, the silence is deafening,
how can they hear me,
you feel caged, hopeless, the pain feels endless…
You scream!
but realize,
you are screaming from a sound proof booth, with no one to hear you,
look what love has done to you.
It took you for a complete fool.
You take a deep breath,
with all you possess,
determination sets in to break free,
you tell yourself, yes love has been unpredictable to me,
but its high time I become unpredictable to it.
You compose yourself, dust off your shoulder, though it was hard, it has also made you bolder.
You feel the calm, the silence once more but this time it’s different.
This time it’s pure.
Love is an emotion that can eat at your soul,
if it doesn’t go right it could **** you slow.
You analyze, socialize, magnetize. Then you realize,
the only cure is not in anger,pain, or resentment.
The only cure for a broken heart is time.
For those of us who believe in true love,
we do it all over again,
being hopeful that this time we will enjoy its gains

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Toni Payne Feb 2014
I met him in the city of angels
Fresh out of school, he was taking a course
His smile so divine, I was glad when he became mine…
Then I let him go…
I should have known it was you
The formal introduction, was so simple
my corporate guy, loved the way he rocked that suit and tie.
The one whose eyes smile when around me
The one who is there when naysayers surround me
I was naive, maybe a bit foolish
I trusted in words was a bit impatient
I should have waited for his next move
As time went by it just happened
Got carried away by the sweet words of another
Now you are gone but definitely not in the arms of another
Your heart now guarded, I sit and ponder
I should have known it was you
Your soft voice when you address me
Your warm touch when you undress me
The taste of your lips, when we kiss
Those are some things I really miss
Sincerity in words and also in action
Compassionate u are, caring, attentive
U wanted the best for me
Supported my hustle
I should have known it was you
But I was carried away,
Carried away by what seemed like a happier life without you.
but I never did find that peace without you
Overtime I began to reason
I saw the truth after many seasons
The sweet words failed me
The promises denied me
Now I’m feeling all alone
Wishing I started my life with you
I know with you I would have a happy home
Though you were never really gone
You kept in touch
But not that much
You let me know that u still cared
I avoided it cos I was scared
Years gone by we meet again
Desire still apparent in your eyes
We sit and talk
You hold my hand
You make me smile
You make me laugh
You kiss my lips
While grabbing my hips
We make sweet love
It feels amazing
You catch me gazing
Thinking to myself
Cud u be back in my life
This journey has been so rife
Cos now I fully realize
In my element I need u
At my best I crave u
With all my soul I respect u
With every breathe I take I love u.
I should have known it was you.
It couldn’t have been anybody but you.



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Toni Payne Feb 2014
In my minds eye I see darkness
I see pain.
The forces around me
They surround me
They try to deprive me
I try to break free.

Their touch is killing
I feel like breathing
I feel like healing
negativity out there demeaning
Not to me, but to he and to she
who dare address me
so quick to judge we

They believe,
Oh yes! they believe….
with their words, they have the power
to cut like a dagger
through my soul
leaving an empty hole?
I dont think so!

A look in their lifes mirror
speak volumes of imperfections
Pretending to be holy
Hmmm! Aint that sum sht homie..

Depression sets in
Aggression manipulates me
She wants me angry, vengeful, hateful
I will not give in

They control my mind
grab me from behind
My soul feels caged
I need to break free
I need to be me

I cannot conform
Who needs a reform
The voices, they come around me
Asking me to clean my surroundings

I hate this place,
I feel misplaced
I shout through my veils of lace
I don’t feel like cleaning this sh
t hole
So shut your pie hole, you as*hole!

In my white walls I wish you could see
What it takes to really be me
Allow me make my mistakes
Allow me do what it takes
Allow me… even if I break

I’m close to the key
I need to break free
Free from this *******
Mental, Emotional, Physical
Yes, they surround me
I need to break free.

The sound of metal through the silence
It rings like keys
I need to break free
In my white walls you can’t understand me
It takes a lot to really be me

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