"tenancies" poems
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Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 10:07 AM UTC
I laugh a lot.
I laugh at myself because I am hard stuck to find the beauty in the poetry
but somehow to others words flow like vicious currents rip through ugly ducklings never to be grown to beautiful swans down the river Delta,
the Nile,
we call it emotion, this the true beauty of the words is always flowing page to mouth to mouth to ear,
honey water to be digested by the soul and mind
and some breast stroke some and some do the butterfly and some just fuckin' drown...
so you could say to some poetry is no laughing matter...
yet here I titter like a child because I cant help but wonder if Daniel's saying penance or just stuttering the word *****
So I laugh
I laugh and laugh and laugh I laugh at myself I definitely laugh at you people
I ha ha ha my course thoughts, outwards reflecting anger passion, turning it away
with the yip yawing of jaws and gums flapping in celestial proportions of denial
snorts and giggles push back emotion drowning out any semblance of fear or hate
because who's to say I can handle it,
call it sociopathic tenancies but I'll make it make belief because we just cant handle the fairy tale we live in
we cant handle that there might be no happily ever afters and we cant handle that we dont have a Prince charming to take care of us
but instead the crown is Crown Royal and you love it, love the burn down your throat,
something to keep you alive something to keep you awake but aren’t the two just one of the same anyway?
What is each day but a dream if automation takes you over rides you out like a machine and pushes 100110101.
So I ask you,
I ask you to listen to the words and the voice,
swim down the river any way you want just get your feet wet because living on dry land is living in fear
But more importantly I ask me
I ask me to do what I asked you to do, but how can I trust me to do what I told you to do when I hardly connect the concept of we and have used it but once in my work, though I am no different than you!
Because what are we if not all the same?
Dec 18, 2013
Dec 18, 2013 at 9:53 PM UTC
In the minutes and hours flying by
Interlaced in their quiet chaos
I find myself wondering,
Amidst this storm of experience,
On moments past
I find it curious
How in these long expanses of time
I become jealous of those
Who can find the seconds instead
Living for the moments which matter
I drive sometimes
Late at night
And as the street lights illuminate me
However fleetingly
I imagine those moments
As memories
Ones I haven't had the honor to savor
I sometimes lose control
Of this concept of time
I allow it to dictate my position
And I forget
About these moments
Almost naïve
In why I was ever jealous of them
I see a shallow rim of water
In the wake of my path
But most times I don't see the ripples
Around individual steps
I look down and suddenly
All that exists is a line of disturbed water
Supposedly where I had stepped before
I hope I find these moments
These steps
These seconds
Illuminated by arbitrary street lights
Standing in the wake of these ripples
But this time
Savoring their individual tenancies
Interlaced in their quiet chaos
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 2:32 PM UTC
Yesterday I really wanted to die
Now I understand why so many get high
They get to forget-
I still haven't found a way to do so yet
I have found a way to not let my tears escape
By taking a blade to my skin,
It allows me to keep my mind off emotional pain
And focus on my physical pain
Depression is like a disease
but we hide it oh so cleverly that no one sees
I tried to tell my father
But it ended up being the day I lost all respect for him
He told me it was a phase
He said I'm overreacting
But I never told him that I tried to take my own life-
Sometime's I wonder if it would even matter if I had been successful
Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 8:53 AM UTC
******* write a love poem
That's all your minds can do
Shed a tear and wonder why
Your poetry will never make me cry
What's the point of poetry
To only follow primitive tenancies
So write a ******* love poem
If that's the deepest you can be
Tell a tale and whine and wail
How your emotions are suffocating
***** and moan and disgustingly drone
About how your drowning in the deepest sea
Or please shut your hole and just go home
Don't want to hear your love poetry
Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 10:42 AM UTC
Children are...
rather innocent creatures
Or at least,
I,
in my protected, childhood of fairy tales
Princesses and superheroes and talking frogs
Was
My third grade diary when asked to name something precious
-Family
Unlike toys unbreaking
Keeps you happy and safe
Rather,
precocious I was at that
but still too much
-Naive
As I still am,
of course
See, the thing about adolescence
Is
Hormones raging, from crushes to bullying to acting out
The time when we
Think
We're out of the Naive
Quite dangerous, really
Since, we're really Not
A whole butload of
"adult"
stuff I'll probably
Be subject to and
May have been earlier if not for
My reclusive tenancies
and lazy ways
and protected life
I say it,
In a careless manner
Trying to look cool, even in poetry
But, like, it's going to happen
I'm going to come face
to face
Have to make
a choice
And it's nothing to be intimidated about
I tell myself
Still,
Truly a question
to consider,
I'm assuming,
one day I'll mature
And when that day comes...
Will I still be the little girl
With the two bouncing pigtails
Scrunched up face
Pencil too tight grip
Recreating
Oval eyes, smiley lips, long hair
My nth drawing of a girl?
Mind uncluttered
with what could be
what should be
what would be
Only, what is
And what I want
Hmm...
But as the clock strikes twelve another day has gone by
and it's well past time for me to go to bed
Another year, past
More time gone by
More memories to reminisce about
But...
Also more to look forward to
Dec 10, 2018
Dec 10, 2018 at 12:11 AM UTC
i have not seen it in the
surge of the next moment. it arrived like a letter from complete anonymity to the familiar gape in the doorstep.
i wish sometimes, now that i am
full with age yet none the wiser,
i were a bottle of wine sitting in hermetic space, where no breaths could go in and out of, as disconsolate light trudges the finite spaces its fingers like a taut grip to a gun, able to drain completely of its poisons.
i have you in my blood
and sometimes its immortality
coils into morbid contortions.
a rally of aches, scraping the sinews well and accurate, paring them of their pretensions, this kinship.
i have you in my mind
and sometimes when the impetus
galvanizes me into stolid incitations, my voice lifts and then vanishes into its shy desolations and without sound,
i pass through the deluge of
all this - of i being you,
and you, being me.
i have you sometimes in my eyes,
when these two brown planets
wax in their postulations,
nebulae of emotions explode
into tiny aggregations and now,
i am a lone star in its celestial ambulation through protruding shards of our battlements.
i have you in this warm fount
and sometimes, like a dog
choosing its memory, i sometimes
wish to forget my station and elude its equanimities and only have in my dull mind, where all
the bones are kept and
guard them in the midnight where they shape themselves into
massive morphemes digging deeper to soft skin and mangled, looking
down on me like a prey caught in a hawk's periphery and lunged at,
where all aches are awakened
with recalcitrance, casting
me away from my own tenancies.
i have not seen this in the
coming of the next moment -
we were firstly, laughing at
the smallness of things, sharing
light and other affectations,
until we came in the way
of our trains and closed their
stations, looking for
a place to go now, anywhere
but home.
Sep 18, 2015
Sep 18, 2015 at 2:32 AM UTC
Imagining a beginning
winning the battle but not the war
I paint doors on walls and
walls on doors
more for them to complain about
can't be in and
don't want to be out.
Electric trains fry your brains
but they'll blame it on your mobile
while they build more trains to
fry more brains and
everyone goes senile.
Meanwhile in corporation tenancies
men will be thankful for
girls with their hair in curlers
(That's a bit sixties)
Remember the new wave before the next new wave washed it away
feels like yesterday but when was that ?
Feb 5, 2017
Feb 5, 2017 at 6:07 AM UTC