"stilli" poems
i.
you are the cruelest person I've ever
met but my heart still beats really
fast whenever I think about
you. I'm afraid if I touch
you I'll burst into
flames again. my
hands haven't stopped shaking since you
left and I never got to thank you for teaching me the meaning of the word
hurt. I found my
poems at the bottom of your
garbage can and I still can't
sleep alone. I
kissed you a lot, and sometimes, you kissed me
too.
ii.
your skin rings up memories of moonlight and
granite, a gaping
desert lying open like
it's as vulnerable as
you when it gets
dark. you have a murderous look in your
eye but you never broke a hair on my
head, you saved every phone log of every time I ever
called you. i heard your last girlfriend got arrested for domestic
abuse and you never wrote to tell me. did it
hurt you more than
I could? I hope you found what you were
looking for out there and I hope you never
lose it unless you
want to.
iii.
something about your
eyes makes me want to know everything about the middle of the
night, I watch you
move and I whimper inside my
head. I haven't touched you in what seems like two whole
lifetimes, if I ever even did at
all. I hope I can again some
day. years later and your music stillI makes my ears
raw. I hope that bullet didn't
hurt too bad, I hope
it brought you the happy. I'm sorry I never
could.
iiii.
we are a modern day romeo and juli
et, it took me two
years to realize how lovely your
lips looked and I'm still wrecking
barriers, I'm still
damning christ. my best friend has made it
clear she does not want me as a
sister. I wish they'd let me
love you because you, you are all I've got
left. I might be the bullet but I will never be the
shooter, I'll take everything on
myself. you are so fragile and i am so
sorry.
Jan 23, 2015
Jan 23, 2015 at 11:53 AM UTC
I feel that I fall for
More than I stand for
That's not gonna fly and therefore
I can't join the air force
Killing time
and showing no remorse
allowing life to take its natural course
Of course I failed to see
that effort is the source of sorcery
involved in letting life take form
My real eyes see lies
like mr shakur said
stillI see no changes,
but mr shakur's dead
so many thoughts go running through my head
dreams of people qouting rhymes that I said
When I'm dead
Bury my beside my book of rhymes
so I can write these clever little lines
for all of time
Don't shed
a single tear for me
instead please learn to see
the world for what it is
not what it appears to be
I do this all for free
just to spread some positivity
Cause I believe that positive can live
for all eternity
if we can learn to be
the living form
of poetry
flowing like a river to the ocean
my emotions stream
from me to you so let me say in closing
That I hope they help
to lift your load and let you shed your loathing.
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 1:23 AM UTC
Sadness is killing my own character,
past is now a memory and present is the badest chapter,
nothing is well nothing is fine,
all things are like killing me from behind,
pains and aches now are regular,
it dosent mean that it dosent hurt in today's time and i scream within darkness andmy dreams are now going 2 shatter,
dreams are now lost in the scary dark side of my self,
my books are still in the shelf,
from last year,
and the mask of happiness i wear,
to show that i am all fine and all is going regular as a daily daily servivce,of good things m happening in my life and also from them i love and have care,
but i know it's not more than just a imagination of them,
i know what i am going through and no 1 tries 2 help but when,
they will ask for help i'll do for my past's good character's sake,
still m tryin 2 get up but stilli know it's not possible it's fakeDream...
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 11:39 AM UTC
Ur stare makes me still,
Ur stare kills me...........
when I look around I see u,
your eyes set on me I dare not see,
When I look down I feel u,
Your gaze set on me I dare not move.........
You have bundle of questions in ur look,
U dont speak u only look,
U have appreciation,
u have compassion,
U have care,
u have passion in that gaze of urs....
U make me wonder why u stare,
U make me wonder who is behind those eyes,
U make me wonder why u dont speak,
U make me wonder why do u have to stare,
U make me wonder who u r ?
U make me wonder why u r ?
wherever I go u follow,
I cud feel u,
I cud see u,
Amongst host of crowd I cud make out wherever you are...
U are still on one place,your gaze moves everywhere.....
U follow me,
U make me still,
Ur Gaze Assasinate Me....
I would like to go stillI would like to b killed for that one stare of yours,
I would be there 100 times,
I would be there for u to capture me in ur eyes,
For that one stare of urs............I would be captive for all my life!!
Sparkle in Wisdom
Apr 29, 2018
Apr 29, 2018 at 7:31 AM UTC