"spillings" poems
a storyteller's perspective, steppin' off the ordinary edge, into the unknown
An unsent letter lay on the rustic log cabin floor
A cold wind musta’ blown through the cracks the light comes in,
where it laid fallen, half *** crumbled, yet never a wadded ball;
never an unspoken thrown paper stone, a befallen regret was all.
Silently atilt and leaning against the canted wall's slant
behind the gathered dust a squeaky hinged burl wood door
A timeworn tarnished copper wind up clock roosted,
an old lip smirched coffee cup time stood still;
an empty bottle of gin sat near the bed post headboard
where the ink stains and blotted spillings let the memories in.
Stained pages torn and bent like fallen paper wings
returned to the unread sender … postage due, south a heaven sent ―
A sullied envelope, gnawed and mouse chewed,
for a nest of new beginnings ―
just read: Lydia ... ♡
... followed by a scribbled empty heart
The time aged brown tattered tablet paper left behind
stifled like the unread heart it holds upon the threadbare pages
of smudged tear’s ache and spilled gin
The weathered rock hearth fireplace filled with spent ashes,
hand rolled cigarette butts, traces of an aching lament;
scratched up old vinyl records lay ***** and tired out,
from a time of sweeter fallen fences, a musical bliss, and
a lost angel's abandoned red slinky party dress,
aside a busted off black velvet high-heel stuck sullied
in a hollow knothole in the ancient barn-wood floor
a sparkly pearl pink jewel entangled in a spider web
An unsent letter lay on the rustic cabin floor
A cold wind musta’ blown through the cracks the light gets in
The final unread words silently said:
*"We lost our way,
it all went wrong,
it all turned bad"
..."This is the outcome when someone you love
up and throws you away"
...“I’ll reach out from the inside
I’ll rise up again and do without”
..."You went out into the world
with an untamed hankerin’ ―
like a carefree restless gypsy breeze
and come back worlds apart"*
The Unsent Letter,
just whispered words to the dust in the wind
in quivering ink:
...*"how can I ever unremember you...?
a thrown stone sinks wordlessly as a rock...,
an old wood bucket with a rotten hole the heart,
fallen forgotten, rock bottom as an empty well"*
just signed: ... ❤ August
January 1st, 2017 ... august ... wild is the wind ♡
Jan 1, 2017
Jan 1, 2017 at 12:20 PM UTC
Hail unrequitted love,
ancient poetic rite of passage.
The bullet-burn of countless ant bites
knawing, devouring at young and tender flesh
empties soup-bowl eyes of suppose'd might,
a ringing scream sprawls out of each biological mesh.
You have never felt anything this full-of-feeling.
Never have you been so overcome
with nausea that you have no out
but to *****
You have no choice but to cry:
Yet your sacred spillings prompt
your pen to fly.
May 6, 2010
May 6, 2010 at 8:53 PM UTC
Wildflower yearnings, un-blooming and restless
longing for nothing but sunshine and meadows,
spring mist’d spillings on clover leaf lawns,
weeded temptations dot soon Sunday drives
as tiger lilies line the shoulders calling
in nectar’d phrase and orange sherbet wishes
Her Earth sleeps beneath cold canvas mornings,
foggy breath seeps from shiver’d mouths,
footprints like smiles disappear in tandem,
bundled decency falls to the way side
as foul speak through chattering teeth
vibrate in angst against her endless winter
Still she smiles knowing what rests within,
stuffed in her springtime pocket
of seedlings and smiles, close to her they wait
Squirming for release and peering over edges,
listening for that call of warm temp delight,
tiny parachutes at the ready
Gray skies peer down, frowning on what will become,
sensing they too shall once again hide,
pushed aside by blue sky dreams,
warm breeze’d sonnets sung in harmony,
butterfly dance cards filled…once more
her winter pocket will take inventory
Sighing, she ponders in snow flake tricklings,
grinning at giggles of April anticipation,
flipping another calendar page,
staring out over the stark white landscape
and whispering a promise to all…
“Spring will be here soon”
Feb 26, 2014
Feb 26, 2014 at 8:23 AM UTC
pining and finger-twisting;
watch me weak with wanting you.
your golden-haired laughter,
and your soft-crinkling eyes
do they read the words behind me
(three of them, overused but
achingly true)?
haven't you heard?
well, i won't spoil it, but
they're spilling over, so i'd
brace yourself, if i were
you.
Nov 22, 2011
Nov 22, 2011 at 10:05 PM UTC
deflated dimples
frosted frowns
crusty clowns
and crispy crowns
boiled biddings
cuddle puddles
and fearful fillings
spoiled spillings
double trouble
secret spitting
crepuscular vapor
nicotine taper
look in the mirror
meet your maker
long walk faker
tick tock taker
Sep 13, 2014
Sep 13, 2014 at 11:04 AM UTC
Drowning into a pile of seeds that won't grow anymore,
A strive to my darkness underneath my irrelevant human flesh,
It feeds on rotting blood and my insides,
It Tries to **** out it's Poisonious venom from my bones,
The heavy snaps make it worse as it's letting noise shout,
To conceal my messy spillings,
Wanting you to tell me what to do,
Listening to you In evolves silver and red floor mess,
Crying out and selfishness has to come to mind,
Then where are my magic beans,
Why aren't they moving forward
I poured out so much water,
For you,
Only for you to grow
To photosynthesise
To rise
And your not moving
Your empty
Like the rest of me
Fascinating how I am not surprised
Jun 12, 2018
Jun 12, 2018 at 12:50 AM UTC
Now the time and I are wasted
hell no, I'm trying to be good enough
to save your God **** respect
**** I'm not ready to disprove it
The world minds me when I saw your fault
I dont wanna lie to the lier
even I'm bad but acting be nice to you all
nothing is permanent
not even my heart
you wanna see the ****
so take my soul away
every one looks like innocent ****
no one helps you though
your bamboos are spreading
but let it be in legal
so unethical loyalty
I'm so dizzy
I'm a drunken yard you can spill your ****
and leave like nothing happened
cause your matter doesn't matter
my poor heart.
May 8, 2021
May 8, 2021 at 1:43 PM UTC