"souldeep" poems
I have washed my ****** hands
in the hope colored stream
of my own karma;
a futile attempt.
The waters cleansed my hands
But stained my soul with
The leprous audience of
The singularity of my being.
I have waded souldeep
Into the stained waters
Of my own karma;
A quantum baptism.
My sins and triumphs
My denials and truths lain bare,
Visions which burn into the circle
Of all that I was, am, and yet to be.
I have become the hope colored water
Of my own floundering fate.
I am the circle, the enigma;
I stand within and without.
I encompass myself
And wait to be born
Into a new solitude
Of radiant wonder.
Feb 18, 2011
Feb 18, 2011 at 4:57 PM UTC
He,
he is...
he is as close
to me as my skin
through
my pores he
invades
me
awakening
untouched places
marking me thoroughly with his distinctive scent
so I'd
breathe only him
endlessly
his
smile my
silver lining for
grey skies bursting clouds
into golden sunshine
he
glows on me
like the moon and stars
does midnight
sweetfully
he accentuates
my life
spiritually moving me
souldeep into him
I
began
and end
with his existence
to
him
I endlessly
belong
©cj
Jun 5, 2017
Jun 5, 2017 at 7:38 PM UTC
I know...
it must be a good morning
in your part of
the world
here...
here in my
little space on earth
I'm not too sure...
anymore
after...
all this time
in my mind you're
still mine
even if...
you're really not
you'll always hold apart
of my heart
I
wonder...
would it surprise you that
I often have spur-of-the-moments
when I want to talk to you
sometimes... with urgency
probably not
because
it's how we used to be before
I lost that luxury
its
killing me
to know she's taken
over all liberties that came
with being your
lady
silly me...
trying
to orchestrate
a reality where you never existed
actually...
believed I'd live pain free
but...
your
special ring tone
was my wakeup call that had
me singing the blues
on how I lost you
and...
after
all the verses
were sung I wished to God
they'd reverse to when our hearts knew
we were in love
impossible I know...
so...
here...
here I sit
surrounded by all these
memories of us indulging in
each other's time
and mind
and
how...
I
failed
to take one of
many opportunities to say,
'I Love You'
perhaps...
you would've
inhaled the words and
felt what I was feeling souldeep
for you.
instead...
I'm living in
the company of
misery
as
we watch
you in love with her
while she happily lives a life
meant for me
I
guess
truly loving you
means wanting your happiness
even if...
its
not
with
me
©cj
Apr 7, 2017
Apr 7, 2017 at 11:49 PM UTC
midnight's
descend clothed me
in darkness,
stilling
the process of
you giving up on us
but
it was useless
when
dawn's ascend
stripped me naked with
a
vengeance
that ache-quaked
my being
it's
no longer there
your...
sugary, salty taste
that clung to my tongue
long after our ******* sprung
imprints
of your fingertips
were fading fast from my skin
survival
instinct kicked in
summoning daydreams to
pull down my eyelids and project
memorable moments with you
but
souldeep your absence
persistently
abuse my senses
the words,
{{YOU'RE. GONE. FOR. GOOD.}}
beated against
my eardrums resounding thoughts of
your scent, I'll never take in again
or
feel the heat of your kiss
on my lips
each
footstep
taken, led you away
trampling my heart into
an
unrecognizable rhythm
from the way
it used to beat
for only
you
I
feel
the slowing
of your love flow
through my vains and hear the
weakening beeps
I
know
our flat line
is just a matter
of time
love's death is near
and
I
don't know
rather to let us
rest in peace
or
do my best
and try to resurrect
us
©cj
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 2:37 PM UTC