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"slouched" poems
Soupy slurred words slide from her lips and drip to the floor, Mixing in with the pool of regurgitated gin and tonic. Her mouth is bitter but her thoughts are true; Only the drunk can tell the truth. Her incoherent words fall to the floor followed closely by her slouched figure and salty tears. She sleeps on the bathroom floor, Soaked in the mess she's created.
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May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 10:02 PM UTC
Hand me another drink
The tide collects it all by morning; The drama and the ***** napalmed across the path. The scenes at second warning for most had been swept away Before they wiped the sand from their shoes. Empty cans of Dutch and Tuborg slouched on the dunes Are tight-lipped about the Velvet Strand's secret ecosystem; An underground microcosm; A peripheral cluster of seething emotions drowned. Memories of those years - although some expired, The vestiges take pride of place - hold a cosmic clump of smells, Tastes, firsts, goosebumps, hangovers, and ends. I never before understood what I was holding on to. Winters down in the shelters nearly killed us but we Huddled through the cold, lit cheap firelogs and Found our oblivion. It didn't take much for me to develop   A stagger - tolerance for a lot of things was learned later. I narrowly recall my first taste of poor judgement and Hazy-headed stargazing. Six cans of Stonehouse Dry cider - most of which ended up on the hillside - Was a ridiculous endeavour that will always be sublime. At the heart of it, I did it to impress a girl; The one every boy has or has had that sticks; Who holds your firsts and your hands and makes Things simple if only for her complexity; The one that never fails to bring upon digression when Pens are involved. Revisiting reminiscence on a jarring note, I think of my Junior Cert exams and a cross-dressed man Exposing himself to two uniformed boys behind the public toilets. This one doesn't stir the joy of the others. This one I wish would dissolve; An ugly, awkward blotch on a childhood. Luckily fondness trumps disgust when recalling that place Because of sunrises and sunsets absorbed from the roof. The Summers spent jumping the gap and drowning in the Heat of the sun were everything. The fugitive sand between our toes and under finger nails Became an accepted nuisance, a part of the territory; A lingering grain or two to drag you back. I miss waking up with the smell of last night's faded fire.
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May 3, 2015
May 3, 2015 at 8:22 PM UTC
Faded Firsts and Firelogs
The tide collects it all by morning; The drama and the ***** napalmed across the path. The scenes at second warning for most had been swept away Before they wiped the sand from their shoes. Empty cans of Dutch and Tuborg slouched on the dunes Are tight-lipped about the Velvet Strand's secret ecosystem; An underground microcosm; A peripheral cluster of seething emotions drowned. Memories of those years - although some expired, The vestiges take pride of place - hold a cosmic clump of smells, Tastes, firsts, goosebumps, hangovers, and ends. I never before understood what I was holding on to. Winters down in the shelters nearly killed us but we Huddled through the cold, lit cheap firelogs and Found our oblivion. It didn't take much for me to develop   A stagger - tolerance for a lot of things was learned later. I narrowly recall my first taste of poor judgement and Hazy-headed stargazing. Six cans of Stonehouse Dry cider - most of which ended up on the hillside - Was a ridiculous endeavour that will always be sublime. At the heart of it, I did it to impress a girl; The one every boy has or has had that sticks; Who holds your firsts and your hands and makes Things simple if only for her complexity; The one that never fails to bring upon digression when Pens are involved. Revisiting reminiscence on a jarring note, I think of my Junior Cert exams and a cross-dressed man Exposing himself to two uniformed boys behind the public toilets. This one doesn't stir the joy of the others. This one I wish would dissolve; An ugly, awkward blotch on a childhood. Luckily fondness trumps disgust when recalling that place Because of sunrises and sunsets absorbed from the roof. The Summers spent jumping the gap and drowning in the Heat of the sun were everything. The fugitive sand between our toes and under finger nails Became an accepted nuisance, a part of the territory; A lingering grain or two to drag you back. I miss waking up with the smell of last night's faded fire.
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*~ **Him sits in an arm chair slouched and relaxed, watching her with a glass of whiskey in his hand** ~ Her lays on the bed naked, long legs spread watching him watching her. ~ **Him asks her to do what he had been dreaming of even before seeing her naked. Beautiful scenery** ~ Her strokes light and feathery, at first delicate fingers tracing up and down while the other hand on her breast tipping her nip ~ **Him mesmerized by the show he takes a sip of whiskey the burn does not compare to the burn growing in his pants** ~ Her dips a finger inside, spreading the glistening liquid found across her inner lips increasing the pressure and moving from side to side ~ **Him doesn’t know where to look as she concentrates on her ****** pulling at the tip she gnaws her bottom lip he settles on her eyes** ~ Her picks up speed, the circles of her fingers smaller and smaller, focusing on her pearl shallow breaths growing rapid as she nears her peak ~ **Him slips out of his shirt he starts to sweat unbuckling his pants to release the growing pressure** ~ Her tilts her hips finding the optimal position to intensify her pleasure ~ **Him holds his breath to hear the gasping of her breath** ~ Her eyes on him, longingly, back arches, head falls back and lips part “Oh God” in heavy breath ~ **Him “Amazing” whispers unsure he said it aloud** ~*
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Jan 10, 2018
Jan 10, 2018 at 8:05 AM UTC
Armchair Whiskey Scene
I could have gone to the cemetery, or back to my high school lab, find him lecturing from a podium, bony finger raised, demagogue of the dead. I could break him down piece by piece, cram him in a duffle, a femur jutting the zipper. Ignore the groan- Skeletons are by nature never satisfied. Instead I found myself in the carnival lot, The dog was long dead, the sign kept guard. Rusty rides slouched like tumbleweeds. Cotton candy in memory- blue tack crunching my teeth. Lewd. Skeletons fixed on poles, spiked up through pelvis and spine. Use **** Grip shoulders. twist. lift. When one slid free, he collapsed into my arms all bone-light, lovely, mine at last. I just brought him home. Sat at the kitchen table. Named him Curly. Zoom howled: WAG’s gone weird! What’s his name? What’s his name? His name is Curly, I said, but I knew his name was You. We drink wine by the pool. He never sips. Sometimes I pour a second glass for the glint. Sometimes he tells me Danny Elfman wants to play his ribs like a xylophone. Sometimes he sighs, he hates Oingo Boingo. I laugh. Obliging. So do I. When the wind kicks up he smells of sugar and rust. Sometimes he rattles the glassware. Sometimes he won’t sit still. Skeletons are by nature never satisfied.
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Sep 25, 2025
Sep 25, 2025 at 12:11 PM UTC
Curly
You think you know me. I think I know you. We know nothing As we move forward Slouched in our office chairs of despair Some moving full throttle, the others stay still Still All in the same place All at the same level The illusion of movement Competitiveness run amok and awry An experiment gone wrong An experiment in our endless longing, our search Our eventual journey As we seek greatness and perfection While shattering the thought of it. We have been taught to question Questions bring greatness Greatness is what we long for Greatness has been subjugated No longer an aspiration, but a trade Not a product of inspiration But a product of greed Art is dead Love is dead All is dead What once was an abstract concept Is now concrete And invisible Nothing A black hole Constructed from the shattered hopes and dreams Of millenials and those who felt like we do throughout history What does "millenial" mean anyway? In every context it encapsulates Consumerism Greed Selfishness Hypocrisy Art is dead Love is dead All is dead And we killed it We dealt the death blow. We lack heart We are the hollow men We are the stuffed men Leaning together Headpiece filled with greatness Greatness comes from accomplishments Accomplishments come from knowledge Knowledge comes from aspiration Aspiration comes from inspiration Inspiration... comes from the metaphysical heart The hollow men had no soul and neither do we We lean together We do not embrace We do not take the next steps Only leaning We lack what we need to see it through We are incapable of maintaining relationships. For our stamina is gone In its place, divorce, infidelity, shallowness relationships based on looks and dreams dreams of perfection based on the wrong definition We are the hollow men We are hollow We are... despairing Despair why would we despair? if we did not care? are we then hollow? if we worry, is that not out of concern? is concern not out of love? does love... not stem from the heart? Sometimes I wonder Can you still have a heart If you have a mind in the way?
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Dec 29, 2013
Dec 29, 2013 at 10:47 PM UTC
State of a Generation
You think you know me. I think I know you. We know nothing As we move forward Slouched in our office chairs of despair Some moving full throttle, the others stay still Still All in the same place All at the same level The illusion of movement Competitiveness run amok and awry An experiment gone wrong An experiment in our endless longing, our search Our eventual journey As we seek greatness and perfection While shattering the thought of it. We have been taught to question Questions bring greatness Greatness is what we long for Greatness has been subjugated No longer an aspiration, but a trade Not a product of inspiration But a product of greed Art is dead Love is dead All is dead What once was an abstract concept Is now concrete And invisible Nothing A black hole Constructed from the shattered hopes and dreams Of millenials and those who felt like we do throughout history What does "millenial" mean anyway? In every context it encapsulates Consumerism Greed Selfishness Hypocrisy Art is dead Love is dead All is dead And we killed it We dealt the death blow. We lack heart We are the hollow men We are the stuffed men Leaning together Headpiece filled with greatness Greatness comes from accomplishments Accomplishments come from knowledge Knowledge comes from aspiration Aspiration comes from inspiration Inspiration... comes from the metaphysical heart The hollow men had no soul and neither do we We lean together We do not embrace We do not take the next steps Only leaning We lack what we need to see it through We are incapable of maintaining relationships. For our stamina is gone In its place, divorce, infidelity, shallowness relationships based on looks and dreams dreams of perfection based on the wrong definition We are the hollow men We are hollow We are... despairing Despair why would we despair? if we did not care? are we then hollow? if we worry, is that not out of concern? is concern not out of love? does love... not stem from the heart? Sometimes I wonder Can you still have a heart If you have a mind in the way?
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I once knew a girl who wore flowers in her hair and hope in her heart she carried herself with a smile and a straight back and she never slouched once or told anyone she was sad she had long brown hair and big brown eyes and she loved the universe, and everything in it she once told me that she wanted to grow up and do everything she didn't say what, she just wanted to do- she wanted to be and I didn't know what she meant but now I do because all I want to do is be, for her because she didn't get to grow up and even though she ended her life, the girl with the flowers in her hair did not **** herself words did; words uttered to hurt and they hurt, they really hurt but she doesn't anymore and even though she's gone, she's not really gone because I see her everywhere I look I see her in the people that were good to her I see her in the leaves that I avoid stepping on, at my childhood home, where she visited for my birthday parties when I pass her house and when I go to our old school I see her in the good in the world she taught me lessons I needed to know and even though she took her own life, she taught me more about living than dying I once knew a girl who wore flowers in her hair and even though she's gone, she's not
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Jun 25, 2013
Jun 25, 2013 at 10:29 PM UTC
I Once Knew A Girl
Above my home where the dark clouds curl into the sky clinging for a home to rest their sleepy depiction, shadowed trees hum sweet lullabies, lonely leaves breathe in the sad song of fallen dimensions, letting its lifeless view roll upon their frame, the chilled breeze sailing in the skyline, as I scramble my way out of a filthy dumpster, a mountain of disintegrating mess covering my broken body, hovering flies surrounding sticky strips of spaghetti, moldy mashed potatoes, and moldy chicken *** pies, while my mind sunk into traveled thoughts, bruised hands pressed against the creases in my forehead, allowing my existence to feel the stranded scars streaming in various mazes, dull eyes flushed with a burning disorder, aching cheeks and chests nestled in darkening chamber corners, buried hips and thighs uprooting in somber blades of grass, thorned, torn, and destroyed in different worlds.  As I stood on the slippery pavement staring at the ruffled scenery in my sight, spinning streetlights thickening into slouched positions, screaming sidewalks spilling sadness and madness in the drenched air, razor-edged buildings inching into crushed centimeters, jumbled meters, ****** yards.  I replayed the sober images in my head, the way my young brown-skinned mom said I would never amount to anything, how I could hear the raged noun ****** sift into the distance, its flaming mechanics accelerating into screeching sounds, the way she hurled her fists at my smashed face, every vibrant language breaking apart, slamming shut into closed infinites, snagged contractions and gerunds diverging into shuddering double spaced negatives, the way she threw my lingering body inside the trash dumpster, her sharp scarlet words, You are no son of mine, ricocheting off savage surfaces, sparking my soul in a calamity of choking diction.
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Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 1:04 PM UTC
You Are No Son Of Mine
Above my home where the dark clouds curl into the sky clinging for a home to rest their sleepy depiction, shadowed trees hum sweet lullabies, lonely leaves breathe in the sad song of fallen dimensions, letting its lifeless view roll upon their frame, the chilled breeze sailing in the skyline, as I scramble my way out of a filthy dumpster, a mountain of disintegrating mess covering my broken body, hovering flies surrounding sticky strips of spaghetti, moldy mashed potatoes, and moldy chicken *** pies, while my mind sunk into traveled thoughts, bruised hands pressed against the creases in my forehead, allowing my existence to feel the stranded scars streaming in various mazes, dull eyes flushed with a burning disorder, aching cheeks and chests nestled in darkening chamber corners, buried hips and thighs uprooting in somber blades of grass, thorned, torn, and destroyed in different worlds.  As I stood on the slippery pavement staring at the ruffled scenery in my sight, spinning streetlights thickening into slouched positions, screaming sidewalks spilling sadness and madness in the drenched air, razor-edged buildings inching into crushed centimeters, jumbled meters, ****** yards.  I replayed the sober images in my head, the way my young brown-skinned mom said I would never amount to anything, how I could hear the raged noun ****** sift into the distance, its flaming mechanics accelerating into screeching sounds, the way she hurled her fists at my smashed face, every vibrant language breaking apart, slamming shut into closed infinites, snagged contractions and gerunds diverging into shuddering double spaced negatives, the way she threw my lingering body inside the trash dumpster, her sharp scarlet words, You are no son of mine, ricocheting off savage surfaces, sparking my soul in a calamity of choking diction.
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Well after the conductor yelled, “All aboard,” and well after all of the tickets were punched; a group of people, who didn’t know one another were all headed north. Little hands turned through pages while larger ones were cupping at the window, trying to get a better view of the night sky. A farmers pasture flashed by, but went unnoticed in the dark. A few seats down slouched a frail grey haired lady, with her hands clasped around a small bouquet of daises.  And across the aisle, towered a man who’s hands could hold a dozen eggs. Alone in the corner was a red dressed woman; doing her best to not spill her coffee. She watched the children next to her fall into an innocent sleep. And ripples echoed in her fingers. She thought about how strange it is that everyone on a train can be going the same direction but have different destinations. And then she thought about how tired the conductor had looked.
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Sep 19, 2014
Sep 19, 2014 at 12:12 AM UTC
Passengers
My back touched the fabric of the couch as I slouched and tilted my head. I let my elbow fell on the armchair as my thumb flew between my lips and my teeth perched on its flesh. My forefinger ran back and forth, restlessly, on my nose bridge as I inhaled the details of your head thrown backward, your hair suspended in midair. some strands draping down your chest, your mouth half open, your secret self and your entire being all seducing my peripheral vision.
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Apr 30, 2013
Apr 30, 2013 at 6:08 PM UTC
Stalking Stars
i. I once knew a girl who wore jeans with ripped holes not a cape, but scraped knees she didn’t believe in smoke signals, instead wrote in the margins of the paper but each time I wanted to drown, she taught me how to swim. ii. She slouched when she walked and had mousy brown hair without pearly white teeth or a figure 8 but when she smiled, my God, was she beautiful. iii. My mother always told me that when I grow up, I could be whatever I wanted. When I told her I wanted to be Wonderwoman, she laughed and said, “someone is already Wonderwoman,” I didn’t know that someone was you. iv. The next time someone pulls your hair or calls you names, remember that there’s only one you who knows how to save my world.
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Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 12:09 AM UTC
wonderwoman
Next door’s cat, alone as they’ve gone away on holiday, slouched on the lawn, our garden. A monochrome tube flops over, turns over, liquorice eyes peer up, a rolling pin kneading the green. Thinks it owns the place, can lounge about wherever it pleases drizzled in June honey, ‘round ours for a week. It knows when I am close, a mewling baby, rises like an overweight man from an armchair and asks to be loved.
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Jun 2, 2013
Jun 2, 2013 at 11:51 AM UTC
Next Door's Cat
Everything feels like nothing, and nothing starts to feel like everything. Everyday. Everyday as I wake up, Nothing ever beats the feeling of inadequacy. Inadequacy to do good Inadequacy as a daughter Inadequacy as a student Inadequacy as a person Inadequacy in feeling good within my own body Inadequacy from feeling good about myself. Everyday feels like an endless loop, you best believe my misery hunts me. But what is inadequacy? Is it scarcity? Deficiency? Insufficiency? A lack thereof? Is it this mindless blob, formless and dark or a mangled form of flesh, eating away at you and your insecurities? Like a virus, it pins you, goes deep inside you and there is never enough antibiotic for you... This inadequacy keeps me up at ungodly hours where the sun howls and moon chirps, the clouds look at us, feigning interest, idly looking but never interacting. This inadequacy lulls me in irregular fever dreams where comfort lies in solitude and loneliness, where the people that surround you, cover their ears, bites their cheek, looks forwards, smiles faintly, but never tries to understanding. My heart wails for the smallest of things. Nothing, nothing becomes everything. My successes make me feel less, still. Everything, everything becomes nothing. I am this inadequate thing, floating around, never seeming to be enough. Inadequate. Because i could not protect myself from those who touch my skin like its free real estate, those clammy hands holding me in a state A state of frenzy that never seems to end Inadequate. That no matter what I do, my past will forever haunt me and define the being I am now that no matter how much I change, and try and try and try to do good, it will never be enough. And those same voices, those same people, they say they scream they tell me, “You should have told me.” “You should have fought back.” “You are a waste of time.” “You are dumb.” “You are nothing.” “You waste your talents for something as this,” And those same people, let go of words That back then would have meant nothing But now it seems to be everything It becomes my identity It becomes my oxygen It becomes the blood that circulates in my body It becomes the endorphins in my brain Nothing becomes everything. And everything that I’ve tried to change, worked hard to achieve, tried to mend, was sorry for, starts to become nothing. But I am tired of feeling like nothing. That everything I do is always inadequate. That it is some form of scarcity, deficiency, insufficiency, a lack thereof. These mindless blobs, or mangled forms of flesh, Like a virus, it pins me, goes deep inside me and there is never enough antibiotic for me... Because instead of listening, to understand, to empathize, they listen so they can jeopardize... Whatever love is left that I could give to myself, Without a shred of doubt, In a warm, bright embrace for myself, in a corner slouched. So, I ask these voices, who are only here to remind how inadequate I am: How do I fight back? How do I be good enough? How do I become less dumb? How do I make nothing stay as nothing? And appreciate everything as everything? Because day by day, this inadequacy I feel, gets really tiring.
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Sep 18, 2020
Sep 18, 2020 at 1:26 PM UTC
INADEQUATE
Everything feels like nothing, and nothing starts to feel like everything. Everyday. Everyday as I wake up, Nothing ever beats the feeling of inadequacy. Inadequacy to do good Inadequacy as a daughter Inadequacy as a student Inadequacy as a person Inadequacy in feeling good within my own body Inadequacy from feeling good about myself. Everyday feels like an endless loop, you best believe my misery hunts me. But what is inadequacy? Is it scarcity? Deficiency? Insufficiency? A lack thereof? Is it this mindless blob, formless and dark or a mangled form of flesh, eating away at you and your insecurities? Like a virus, it pins you, goes deep inside you and there is never enough antibiotic for you... This inadequacy keeps me up at ungodly hours where the sun howls and moon chirps, the clouds look at us, feigning interest, idly looking but never interacting. This inadequacy lulls me in irregular fever dreams where comfort lies in solitude and loneliness, where the people that surround you, cover their ears, bites their cheek, looks forwards, smiles faintly, but never tries to understanding. My heart wails for the smallest of things. Nothing, nothing becomes everything. My successes make me feel less, still. Everything, everything becomes nothing. I am this inadequate thing, floating around, never seeming to be enough. Inadequate. Because i could not protect myself from those who touch my skin like its free real estate, those clammy hands holding me in a state A state of frenzy that never seems to end Inadequate. That no matter what I do, my past will forever haunt me and define the being I am now that no matter how much I change, and try and try and try to do good, it will never be enough. And those same voices, those same people, they say they scream they tell me, “You should have told me.” “You should have fought back.” “You are a waste of time.” “You are dumb.” “You are nothing.” “You waste your talents for something as this,” And those same people, let go of words That back then would have meant nothing But now it seems to be everything It becomes my identity It becomes my oxygen It becomes the blood that circulates in my body It becomes the endorphins in my brain Nothing becomes everything. And everything that I’ve tried to change, worked hard to achieve, tried to mend, was sorry for, starts to become nothing. But I am tired of feeling like nothing. That everything I do is always inadequate. That it is some form of scarcity, deficiency, insufficiency, a lack thereof. These mindless blobs, or mangled forms of flesh, Like a virus, it pins me, goes deep inside me and there is never enough antibiotic for me... Because instead of listening, to understand, to empathize, they listen so they can jeopardize... Whatever love is left that I could give to myself, Without a shred of doubt, In a warm, bright embrace for myself, in a corner slouched. So, I ask these voices, who are only here to remind how inadequate I am: How do I fight back? How do I be good enough? How do I become less dumb? How do I make nothing stay as nothing? And appreciate everything as everything? Because day by day, this inadequacy I feel, gets really tiring.
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I am. I am a cold, crisp autumn field. I am a plush scarf in the breeze, I am omnipresent, and yet never near. I am a crackling fire in a winter freeze. I am crumbling, cold, and free. I am encumbered by the slush and snow. I am waiting toe-to-toe. You have seen me, slouched, burdened, fatigued by the stress of the day, waiting in the back of the bus bay. I am all, and I am more.
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Mar 19, 2021
Mar 19, 2021 at 2:37 PM UTC
Winter Freeze
My back hunches Like a stuffed bookcase in a corner Too full My back laden with possibility I find myself lost in a maze Of what should be tranquility Except you lurk there Your eyes filled with miserable possibility I've watched your pale fingers Turn into twiggy claws And your green eyes The ones that look like the sea Turn cracked and dark Under the light of the grey sun She clutches your shoulder Cackling at how I search For an exit And exit from this maze A maze of possibility Her stature slouched and heavy Her hands cold and grey Stroke your thick hair And I see the disgust in your eyes And taste it on the air I struggle through Getting closer to you Trapped in a maze of Possiblity
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Jan 13, 2013
Jan 13, 2013 at 9:51 PM UTC
Possibility
Not One Hours Rest, Moon Still Standing Nice and Tall Stars Still Hanging on, You Ride Hazily and Lazily to The City Train Station Seeing Faces, Seeing Slouched Shoulders, Seeing Tired Eyes all around you Waiting and Thinking of Home, Observing Yet Constantly Yawning In No Time You Are Propelled Forwards and Out Through the City Limits Metal Container Rattling, No Snooze Alarm for the Rising Sun The City Dissolves into the Back of Your Eyes as You Hit A Tunnel and Enter the Suburban Void Suddenly Fantastic Splotches of Greenery Drift into Sight, Dabs of Golden Light Float Like Dandelion Spores in The Air People Move Up and Down the Carriage Schizophrenically, Fidgeting, Never Considering Sitting Still, Not Even Once Please Just Look Out the Window Outside Battered Tree Trunks Lay Lifelessly in the Middle of Wondrous Sprawling Fields Clouds Ripple Insanely Throughout the Horizon, Livestock Enjoying Themselves While They Still Can What Follows This is a Series of Dilapidated Sheds and Abandoned Roads Leading Up into the Hills so Jagged They Must Have Been Cut by a One Single Colossal Breadknife
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Feb 28, 2019
Feb 28, 2019 at 8:30 AM UTC
Not One Hours Rest
You and I aren’t quite so different, We really aren’t. With every feeding came life, And with every wrinkle, Death, Notarized our finite parchment, Parallel and ultimately mortal. We’ve shared – An experience, any experience And epiphanies congruent pain, The numerous, the humorous. We’ve remembered upon Paths we’ve taken, Together, apart, and in – Eras defined by how we Walked, talked, Slouched, Or slowed to a crawl, Huddled and bled a back. So come the heave, The finality in flame, Make a face for the name, Let the dead man dream And take that memory to the grave, The One, that’s never forgotten Whilst eternal and reciting – “I love you,” I loved every single One Of You.
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Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 11:25 AM UTC
The Perfect Parallels
I was born tall and thin and pink like a ****** steak. I cried until I could run and then ran like a lunatic, screaming peals of laughter and destroying without guilt as kids do- and still I was skinny. I was skinny in elementary school. The other kids took to football and dirt bikes. I was still pink like an underripe tomato. I grew up tall and thin in a world for shorter and fuller people. With crooked teeth and glasses. I was skinny in middle school. When the other kids started to build muscle you could've played my ribs like a xylophone. You still could. I grew up tall and thin and frustrated like a **** I never fit on public busses or in the little plastic desks at school. My feet stuck off the end of my bed. They still do. I slouched and hiked my shoulders up so as not to obstruct others' line of sight. I still do. I was skinny when I first fell in love. What she saw in me, I can't say. I was tall and thin and crooked but I wanted so badly, just for once, to be the right shape for her. She was rather short and had caramel skin. We made an odd couple. I grew up tall and thin, a square peg in a world of round holes. I'm skinny today- a pinkish wisp with a skinny soul tucked away behind dark sunglasses. I was born skinny. And I'll probably die skinny too, and make a tall, thin corpse for a much shorter, wider casket.
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Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 2:34 PM UTC
Skinny
Edie was caught in the claws of copulation. She was attractive, with no roots showing on the top of her scalp. Great **** great *** could hold a conversation. Everyday, she got into her workhouse of a car, more home than her dingy apartment, and drove to her first "appointment." But on this day, the appointment that loomed ahead of her had her shower cold and her face white. She drove past an old movie theatre and an abstract and title company with the fanciest sign in town. It was Edie's favorite. She glanced out the window. A regular ******* standing on the sidewalk was chatting up a woman who looked bored stiff and there was a young man a few jumps away who couldn't hold his liquor. "Pathetic," Edie muttered. An average run-of-the-mill bar slouched behind them and there were ridiculous looking people spilling out the door. But only those who had survived the night before. Across the street, a newspaper dispenser ***** and chained to a light pole stood content as its contents spilled from it's belly like the guts of a dead gazelle. Like the guts of it's readers. Like the guts of a building out an open window. Edie's ******* were sore and hurt after the manhandling of last night. They began with a ***** that got straight to the point and then they did too. He had advertised himself as "sweety but meaty" and Edie discovered later that his genitals were uncircumsized and below average. Oh well. Submission. She had a headache in the morning and no aspirin. Her decision was to stop later and get some. But before then, she had something to take care of. Something big that needed to be handled. Something she hoped would be brief. "Something," she thought, "that's for **** sure." She pulled into a front spot in her black '98 BMW, fixed her make-up, then her hair. Edie closed her eyes, took in a rather large amount of oxygen, exhaled and stepped out of the car. She had a hankering for eggs after all.
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Feb 9, 2011
Feb 9, 2011 at 7:24 PM UTC
Edie's Breakfast Date (Pt. I)
Edie was caught in the claws of copulation. She was attractive, with no roots showing on the top of her scalp. Great **** great *** could hold a conversation. Everyday, she got into her workhouse of a car, more home than her dingy apartment, and drove to her first "appointment." But on this day, the appointment that loomed ahead of her had her shower cold and her face white. She drove past an old movie theatre and an abstract and title company with the fanciest sign in town. It was Edie's favorite. She glanced out the window. A regular ******* standing on the sidewalk was chatting up a woman who looked bored stiff and there was a young man a few jumps away who couldn't hold his liquor. "Pathetic," Edie muttered. An average run-of-the-mill bar slouched behind them and there were ridiculous looking people spilling out the door. But only those who had survived the night before. Across the street, a newspaper dispenser ***** and chained to a light pole stood content as its contents spilled from it's belly like the guts of a dead gazelle. Like the guts of it's readers. Like the guts of a building out an open window. Edie's ******* were sore and hurt after the manhandling of last night. They began with a ***** that got straight to the point and then they did too. He had advertised himself as "sweety but meaty" and Edie discovered later that his genitals were uncircumsized and below average. Oh well. Submission. She had a headache in the morning and no aspirin. Her decision was to stop later and get some. But before then, she had something to take care of. Something big that needed to be handled. Something she hoped would be brief. "Something," she thought, "that's for **** sure." She pulled into a front spot in her black '98 BMW, fixed her make-up, then her hair. Edie closed her eyes, took in a rather large amount of oxygen, exhaled and stepped out of the car. She had a hankering for eggs after all.
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(A class for correctional officers at the local community college) Thirty-six-thousand a year to begin No education or experience required The recruiting posters are pretty, though: Handsome young people uniformed in grey But the poor sergeant can’t control his class His students have their cell ‘phones and their ‘tudes - “Tell Momma to pick me up like I said!” – Slouched in their seats or wandering the halls While dozing over her own telescreen A fat corporal yawns by the soda machine
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Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 3:09 PM UTC
The Future of Texas is in Prison
He sat slouched Against the wall of the McDonald's Vacantly staring At the screen of his smartphone His bag lay next To him Keeping his world Together A spare pair of pants Underwear a luxury Broken shades on his face Drooping like his Body Straining to watch YouTube On the too small screen The only connection To the unreal world He wished He could Go home to
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Feb 4, 2014
Feb 4, 2014 at 9:15 PM UTC
Homelessly Connected
Derick knew what he had done, To earn the impression of delinquency. He had broken the law many times, And fought with people frequently. His mother branded him a danger, To society and himself. His father branded him a stranger, His real son lived upon a shelf. "See this boy here?" his dad would say, Tapping a photograph of young Derick. He remembered that day, When life had been more generic. That was before his father slouched alone, Bottle in palm of hand, Talking to women on the phone, What a role model, what a man. "I see the boy," Derrick said, His voice quiet as night. "But I don't see the man, Who prompted me to fight." Little Derik came across his father, Back then, talking to his women, He managed to anger the man, Who hit him then claimed to be kiddin'. His father flushed with anger, He hit his son in the face. "Don't you dare say that, You know your place!" Derick, he was deemed society's menace, Few cared that his father drove him so, I hope that you will judge less, For you simply never know.
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Apr 13, 2016
Apr 13, 2016 at 9:45 AM UTC
Society's Menace
I Remember THAT Day I remember that day I remember that day THAT DAY………….I FOUND YOU!!! I remember that ******* ****** *** **** YOUR LIFE TYPE OF **** DAY We were both just fifteen years old, so rebellious but shy in our own right minds You were just fifteen years old, when I found you slouched over the steering wheel of your mother’s 1978 Red Ford Pinto YES, that red Ford Pinto with the rusted out, broken muffler, busted right tail light and six dents on the passenger door (that we caused when we were just 13) YES, that red Ford Pinto that your mother insisted on driving us to school in, only to have us insisting on her dropping us off a block early, why, because we were too embarrassed to get caught seen in that “hunk of junk”, “piece of **** red Ford Pinto. I sat down next to you, in that red Ford Pinto, but you breathed not one single breathe out of your blue stained lips. I screamed at you “WAKE THE HELL UP, **** YOU!!” My voice cracked with apology, I was so wrong to yell at you, as thoughtless anger filled my heart with sinful hate. But still not a single breathe passed through your lips. I whispered in your ear “I am sorry” I remember, that day and that single note you left on the dusty, cracked dashboard of that red Ford Pinto. That note with scribbled letters running across the wrinkled white paper and the pen that you dropped on the floorboard. That note that read “I don’t understand WHYYYYYYY” That last letter on that note, that you penned, was flown across the paper as if you didn’t want to leave. THAT LAST letter gouged the wrinkled white paper with remorse and apologies. I felt every syllable that you wrote stapled across my chest as if I was being pierced by a thousand sewing needles that were trying to mend my severed, bleeding heart. I REMEMBER THAT DAY, IN THAT RED FORD PINTO, WHEN I LAID MY HEAD ON YOUR BARE SHOULDER AND HELD YOU CLOSE TO ME. I REMEMBER OUR FINAL EMBRACE. I REMEMBER THAT DAY, IN YOUR MOTHER’S 1978 RED FORD PINTO, WE WERE BOTH JUST FIFTEEN YEARS OLD, SO REBELLIOUS BUT SHY IN OUR OWN RIGHT MINDS, I REMEMBER TAKING MY FINAL BREATHE AS I HEARD THE GARAGE DOOR START TO OPEN.
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Mar 11, 2016
Mar 11, 2016 at 8:39 PM UTC
I Remember THAT Day
I Remember THAT Day I remember that day I remember that day THAT DAY………….I FOUND YOU!!! I remember that ******* ****** *** **** YOUR LIFE TYPE OF **** DAY We were both just fifteen years old, so rebellious but shy in our own right minds You were just fifteen years old, when I found you slouched over the steering wheel of your mother’s 1978 Red Ford Pinto YES, that red Ford Pinto with the rusted out, broken muffler, busted right tail light and six dents on the passenger door (that we caused when we were just 13) YES, that red Ford Pinto that your mother insisted on driving us to school in, only to have us insisting on her dropping us off a block early, why, because we were too embarrassed to get caught seen in that “hunk of junk”, “piece of **** red Ford Pinto. I sat down next to you, in that red Ford Pinto, but you breathed not one single breathe out of your blue stained lips. I screamed at you “WAKE THE HELL UP, **** YOU!!” My voice cracked with apology, I was so wrong to yell at you, as thoughtless anger filled my heart with sinful hate. But still not a single breathe passed through your lips. I whispered in your ear “I am sorry” I remember, that day and that single note you left on the dusty, cracked dashboard of that red Ford Pinto. That note with scribbled letters running across the wrinkled white paper and the pen that you dropped on the floorboard. That note that read “I don’t understand WHYYYYYYY” That last letter on that note, that you penned, was flown across the paper as if you didn’t want to leave. THAT LAST letter gouged the wrinkled white paper with remorse and apologies. I felt every syllable that you wrote stapled across my chest as if I was being pierced by a thousand sewing needles that were trying to mend my severed, bleeding heart. I REMEMBER THAT DAY, IN THAT RED FORD PINTO, WHEN I LAID MY HEAD ON YOUR BARE SHOULDER AND HELD YOU CLOSE TO ME. I REMEMBER OUR FINAL EMBRACE. I REMEMBER THAT DAY, IN YOUR MOTHER’S 1978 RED FORD PINTO, WE WERE BOTH JUST FIFTEEN YEARS OLD, SO REBELLIOUS BUT SHY IN OUR OWN RIGHT MINDS, I REMEMBER TAKING MY FINAL BREATHE AS I HEARD THE GARAGE DOOR START TO OPEN.
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Hunched spines slouched with an air of indifference against backs of rigid chairs Anxious toes tapping on linoleum floors A generation of Attention-Deficit-addled youth, subdued with medication because they think our eyes dart too quickly Minds fluttering more rapid-fire than individual thought can account for What is “unique” when everything stems from mimicry? We think ourselves philosophers (only because we’re naïve enough to make assumptions like that) All that our naked minds can bear is a sliver of the reality we suffocate in We reject conformity by conforming We discard typecast by creating stereotypes We critique and self-doubt and are relentless in our own auto-denigration Yet still, we see ourselves as infinitely superior Because we’re the sum of earth’s 3 billion year journey We’re the product of every galaxy and star-birth We’re a shred of every molecule of humanity We’re the chosen ones, we’re evolution. We’re ragged, fraying edges The living definition of a walking contradiction; hypocrisy in motion Our pens are still doodling in the margins of our notebooks We march to a syncopated beat with heads held high but eyes cast low as we count our steps and avoid stepping on cracks Our heels drag with the showmanship of nonchalance but the eagerness in our fingertips betrays us We’re all just kids caught in the purgatorial limbo of high school We’re all just trying to pretend that we’re more than we are We’re mostly hoping that someday we’ll prove our parents right
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Mar 29, 2013
Mar 29, 2013 at 10:04 PM UTC
Youth
Hunched spines slouched with an air of indifference against backs of rigid chairs Anxious toes tapping on linoleum floors A generation of Attention-Deficit-addled youth, subdued with medication because they think our eyes dart too quickly Minds fluttering more rapid-fire than individual thought can account for What is “unique” when everything stems from mimicry? We think ourselves philosophers (only because we’re naïve enough to make assumptions like that) All that our naked minds can bear is a sliver of the reality we suffocate in We reject conformity by conforming We discard typecast by creating stereotypes We critique and self-doubt and are relentless in our own auto-denigration Yet still, we see ourselves as infinitely superior Because we’re the sum of earth’s 3 billion year journey We’re the product of every galaxy and star-birth We’re a shred of every molecule of humanity We’re the chosen ones, we’re evolution. We’re ragged, fraying edges The living definition of a walking contradiction; hypocrisy in motion Our pens are still doodling in the margins of our notebooks We march to a syncopated beat with heads held high but eyes cast low as we count our steps and avoid stepping on cracks Our heels drag with the showmanship of nonchalance but the eagerness in our fingertips betrays us We’re all just kids caught in the purgatorial limbo of high school We’re all just trying to pretend that we’re more than we are We’re mostly hoping that someday we’ll prove our parents right
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When the sun glowed warm with brighter sheen The Earth that lay inert in drunken sleep Woke up suddenly to greet the glorious dawn Casting aside the blanket of fluffy wool Beams of light thawed and melted the icy crust Leaving the land, bare, bright and new A clean slate for life to make a fresh start And give our Earth a lovely face lift As winter slouched away in staggering steps Spring, came down gracefully on dancing feet Like an ingenious wizard with the Mida’s touch Turning everything into glittering green n’ gold So awesome it is to watch with widening eye The first burgeoning of life with the kiss of spring Every tree n’ every shrub, dressed in sudden sprout of leaves And every plant and every bough bursting into newer buds Daffodils on wayside nodding in blooms of gold Pansies and daisies springing close to passing heels The laburnum and lilacs, getting ready to burst into bloom Flowers yellow, red and blue on every fence and field Butterflies flitting round and round on colorful wings And exotic blooms in gentle breeze swinging their heads The birds that ere migrated to warmer climes Coming back once more to fill the aerial space Sparrows merrily twittering around tiled eaves The robin springing, throwing a livelier note The lark disappearing into the sky of fleecy clouds The swallows shooting out into giddy heights The feathered minstrels, filling the air in riotous rings And Nature covering the Earth in quilts of lovely designs Lovers leave their fireside hearths and coming out To ramble through country paths, hand in hand Oh! Spring has come to wipe away the frosty tear And fill the hearts with overwhelming cheer Let us join this array of happy crowd And sing a song of joy with this mirthful brood
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Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 11:57 AM UTC
Lovesome Spring
When the sun glowed warm with brighter sheen The Earth that lay inert in drunken sleep Woke up suddenly to greet the glorious dawn Casting aside the blanket of fluffy wool Beams of light thawed and melted the icy crust Leaving the land, bare, bright and new A clean slate for life to make a fresh start And give our Earth a lovely face lift As winter slouched away in staggering steps Spring, came down gracefully on dancing feet Like an ingenious wizard with the Mida’s touch Turning everything into glittering green n’ gold So awesome it is to watch with widening eye The first burgeoning of life with the kiss of spring Every tree n’ every shrub, dressed in sudden sprout of leaves And every plant and every bough bursting into newer buds Daffodils on wayside nodding in blooms of gold Pansies and daisies springing close to passing heels The laburnum and lilacs, getting ready to burst into bloom Flowers yellow, red and blue on every fence and field Butterflies flitting round and round on colorful wings And exotic blooms in gentle breeze swinging their heads The birds that ere migrated to warmer climes Coming back once more to fill the aerial space Sparrows merrily twittering around tiled eaves The robin springing, throwing a livelier note The lark disappearing into the sky of fleecy clouds The swallows shooting out into giddy heights The feathered minstrels, filling the air in riotous rings And Nature covering the Earth in quilts of lovely designs Lovers leave their fireside hearths and coming out To ramble through country paths, hand in hand Oh! Spring has come to wipe away the frosty tear And fill the hearts with overwhelming cheer Let us join this array of happy crowd And sing a song of joy with this mirthful brood
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I couldn't take it. Watching people shoveling **** Into their mouths While staring at TV commercials. Some just sat and Stared For a whole 45 minutes Slouched in a chair Mouth opened slightly One hand clutching the opposite arm Looking down at the phone occasionally Like there was something happening. I couldn't do it So I started bringing my books To work. I wasn't trying to be Some intellectual **** I definitely don't look Or talk like one. Then it began. First with the short Mexican girl "Whatchu reading?" "Nausea" "Oh...I wish I could read, buuut...I don't know.. , I get bored, even if its inchressing, ya know?" "You just have to find the right author." "Oh...I don't know...my eyes juss get all blurred after I read a long time..." "Hmm..." Then the old lady "Hey! I always see you reading, you must be a bookworm like me! What are ya reading!?" "Journey To The End Of The Night" Oh, never heard of it, who's the author?!" "This french guy. Celine." "Oh? Ever read Game Of Thrones? I'm reading the series now!" "No." The college graduate girl: "Are you reading Bukowski??" "Yeah, you a fan?" "NO!!! He makes me wanna curl up in bed and DIE!" "Oh..." And some dude asked about Anne Rice " I don't read that **** "What about Poe?" "He's ok, I guess..." Somebody asked about Catcher in the Rye To **** a mockingbird And I wanted to slap her. A manager walked in The **** one "Ray your always reading. It's cool. You seem so ...cultured." I thought about being Drunk Shirtless Screaming And throwing chairs The night before I laughed "Cultured? I don't know about that..." When you see Somebody Transfixed By the power of the word The page The line You Just leave them The hell alone.
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Dec 22, 2015
Dec 22, 2015 at 10:12 PM UTC
Reading In The Break Room
I couldn't take it. Watching people shoveling **** Into their mouths While staring at TV commercials. Some just sat and Stared For a whole 45 minutes Slouched in a chair Mouth opened slightly One hand clutching the opposite arm Looking down at the phone occasionally Like there was something happening. I couldn't do it So I started bringing my books To work. I wasn't trying to be Some intellectual **** I definitely don't look Or talk like one. Then it began. First with the short Mexican girl "Whatchu reading?" "Nausea" "Oh...I wish I could read, buuut...I don't know.. , I get bored, even if its inchressing, ya know?" "You just have to find the right author." "Oh...I don't know...my eyes juss get all blurred after I read a long time..." "Hmm..." Then the old lady "Hey! I always see you reading, you must be a bookworm like me! What are ya reading!?" "Journey To The End Of The Night" Oh, never heard of it, who's the author?!" "This french guy. Celine." "Oh? Ever read Game Of Thrones? I'm reading the series now!" "No." The college graduate girl: "Are you reading Bukowski??" "Yeah, you a fan?" "NO!!! He makes me wanna curl up in bed and DIE!" "Oh..." And some dude asked about Anne Rice " I don't read that **** "What about Poe?" "He's ok, I guess..." Somebody asked about Catcher in the Rye To **** a mockingbird And I wanted to slap her. A manager walked in The **** one "Ray your always reading. It's cool. You seem so ...cultured." I thought about being Drunk Shirtless Screaming And throwing chairs The night before I laughed "Cultured? I don't know about that..." When you see Somebody Transfixed By the power of the word The page The line You Just leave them The hell alone.
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