"shriller" poems
Echoes and re-echoes
Lost in translation
What I say
Ricochet’s from walls
Shriller to the ear
My own voice
Comes back to me
As a big blow
It’s never-ending
My voices do not travel
Beyond the stony resilience
Maybe one day
My words will carry
Enough weight
To crack this resistance
Feb 22, 2015
Feb 22, 2015 at 10:37 AM UTC
Through those long hours of indiscretion
And those long wept nights
I have detested
The constant echoing of that one word
In the alleys of my mind
With each passing second, hour and night
The echoes got
Louder
Shriller
Noisiest
Those echoes of 'undefined'
The echoes of what you left me with
After I offered you all that I was
In my body, soul and mind
You said what we shared was undefined
Transforming my life
Hours of my day and my nights
Into a struggling realm
Where I struggled to find
Some invisible strings that might
Lead me to a ray of light
Where I can start my search for myself
Left by you as 'undefined'.
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 4:23 PM UTC
MIDNIGHT FLICKS OVER INTO TOMORROW
"Henry, Henry...?"
his wife's voice
getting shriller and
shriller
he
doesn't answer
her
can't answer her.
Midnight flicks over
into tomorrow
with a little green click
from fluorescent numbers.
It seems as if
she's in the next room.
A piece of solid
reality but
she's not
only a disembodied voice.
She's been a ghost now
these 20 years.
"Henry, Henry..!"
the parrot says again
so much her it seems
she has been reincarnated
Martha
as Polly.
The parrot growing old
with him.
Edith Piaf sings
on old shellac
"Sans amour on n'est rien du tout!"
The parrot joins in on
every "du tout."
"Coming dear..!" he smiles "...coming!"
the parrot scolds him when it sees him
"So there you are!"
Aug 24, 2017
Aug 24, 2017 at 4:21 PM UTC
Neither freshly downloaded
Nor recently bought.
Old music wafts
Out of the digital sarcophagus
And gently floods
The familiar channels
Of my auditory cortex.
It neither flows on
The unyielding slopes of time
Nor from past to the future.
But on the plains of untime.
Washing against the shores
From myriad mouths
Long after the flood seizes.
A little shriller on the ears
A little baser on the heart
Of old blazers and mothballs
Grainy and sepia
A chunk of frozen time.
Oct 8, 2017
Oct 8, 2017 at 6:16 AM UTC
There go those voices again,
Like being an operator in a
Telephone exchange for the
Mentally insane. The nurses
Take no notice of your pose
Or how you stand with hands
Over your ears telling the soft
Voices to go away. Mother said
It was demons come to take you
Off for being a naughty girl and
That you’d end up in purgatory
If you were lucky or burn in Hell.
She was a swell dame, always out
To spread the blame. Father said
It was a form of dementia, he still
Does, his voice shriller than all the
Rest, telling you what to do and
What is best. The quacks try all
Kinds of things to sort you out,
Even try frying your brains, one
Even tried shafting you, knowing
No one would believe you if you
Sprouted it all out. There is a kind
Of calm once the voices are gone,
A kind of honeymoon without the
Sweaty nights. Kafka speaks to
You often, his dark piercing eyes
Breaking through the gloom, his
Voice soft, gentle, but persistent
Like a leaky tap, but at least he
Speaks sense, not like the others
With their useless crap. There
Is a scent of ***** in the air.
The high windows letting in
Light; better the sadness of
Day, than the madness of night.
Jul 8, 2017
Jul 8, 2017 at 4:58 AM UTC
I say, “Stop,” but she doesn’t stop.
I say, “Leave me alone,” but instead she steps closer, until her nose is touching mine, and maybe I’d think she wants to kiss me if she wasn’t screaming at me instead.
I say, “Stop yelling at me,” but her voice gets louder and shriller and something in me snaps. It’s been two years of silence, two years of leaving voicemails at midnight, apologizing for something I had no idea I’d done wrong. I wished on every star, every dandelion, every 11:11 just to know why, because she’s been my safe zone since we were five and I still don’t understand why it all disappeared. And now she’s telling me that I was charity and her good will ran out.
She says, “It’s her fault.”
She says, “She’s crazy.”
She says, “She tried to **** me.”
Not true.
I lost control. But maybe I don’t want it back.
Aug 20, 2018
Aug 20, 2018 at 7:38 PM UTC