Walk away, Leave everything unsaid,
Pretend i'm dead.
The worst part being that I genuinely cared for you,
It seems it's not mutual,
I get it. (I guess?)
**** do I hate trying to get sleep & when I finally do,
your in my dreams & all my anger presses repeat.
I can't get my mind around it,
It just doesn't make sense,
after everything we shared,
You're just going to fall back?
Funny because if I remember correctly,
You know every detail about me.
I bet if I walked up to you & asked you a question,
My favorite part about it all,
Is that you moved on.
She has blonde hair,
& pale skin as well.
I sound like the Joker when I laugh,
Knowing & asking God to forgive me,
For my next sin.
Nothing against her but I have some questions.
Does she know your dark past?
Does she know what you've been through?
I don't think you mentioned it.
I loved your innocence & purity,
so I held most of mine.
She already had it with her last,
but if that's how you like it,
I don't mean to be bitter,
I'm just stuck at this pace.
Look me in my eyes.
Tell me everything we ever had is gone.
This whole **** tragedy is pulling my worst out,
Yet I don't understand.
Why do I care for you?
When I'm sure you wouldn't mind if I were dead.
But yet you told me & I quote,
"Remember when I said I don’t know my parents birthdays?
I wasn’t actually kidding,
I don’t even know the date of there deaths,
but for some reason I manage to remember most of the things you tell me or that you do"
Is what you said.
It's like now you don't want to work on us.
It's like you are okay with throwing us in the dust.
Is it because I was toxic back then,
While I was depressed &
Tried to fashion a belt twice or thrice around my neck.
I really do hate it when you compare me to then,
Like i'm not already better?
I'm not sure if there is a higher power but,
I pray for you everyday.
You are my first & only ever love.
Yet i'm in the wrong but,
Don't forget I don't stand here alone.
Just had to release how I felt. Feel free to comment and critique.