"scenoirios" poems
Brave
And shaking
And strong
And quaking
I fool myself
Late at night that is
With fantastical scenoirios
Of what may be
Yes
Yes I see
Late at night
Who I want to be
A version of myself
Trapped inside
My head
A fantastical version
A prototype
A clone
An upgrade
Trapped
Picturing confident conversation
Loose chest breathing easily
Fantastical
It feels fantastical
Then I wake up
The feeling gone
The fantastical locked up again
In my tight chest
Anxious and hard to breath
My tight chest and immovable mind
A constant cage
For that fantastical me
All day I think
How different every situation
Would be
With fantastical me
She screams from inside
The tight chest, running mind cage
I hear her scream
She is me
Well a version of me
No one will ever see
We argue all day
But she never wins the fight
She's only allowed to dream at night.
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018 at 2:42 PM UTC