"romaji" poems
oni bonyou
Very Common
tenten ni kaze
yoku naru no darou
hyotto to omou
A breeze after another
Will it get better?
Possibly I think
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 12:46 AM UTC
You know those days --
those sad, miserable, sucker-punched in the heart, sort of days --
when all you want, is for the tears to well out of you?
for your tears to flow, so that at least something comes out?
But it's as though you have no more tears left in you.
Your well is all dried up.
It's a bit like my heart, actually,
The way it's dropping,
so
far
down
in my chest.
(I'm almost worried it'll disappear.)
And I have friends.
I have these wonderful, beautiful, friends of mine -- I have people.
But it feels
as though
I am glass.
fragile.
see-through.
And no matter how I want
to scream, "HELP!"
the words stay sticky, stuck,
in my throat.
And in the end, well.
I'm back all alone.
But I am still breathing.
I am still living.
still wanting to keep on doing those things.
More than anything, I want to push
that darkness,
that fear,
that lingering sadness, swallowing me whole into its abyss --
I want to push it far, far, away.
But all I can do now, is ask:
"How do I get out of here?"
Like that little lost child, whom I have not been in so long.
And hope
for an answer
that will not come.
-- original, typed in romaji --
Korewa,
Nakitakutemo, nakitakutemo,
Ikiru kotoga zenzen mazushikutte,
Mou, namidawa nai.
tte iu kannji.
Nannka, kokoro ga sukoshi zutsu
"chi-nn" to ochiterumitai.
Soshite, tomodachi ga donnani itemo
Jibunnwa fuyou no gurasu
Mou, toumei mitai ni natte
[Tasukete] to iitakutemo
Kotobawa nodo ni tsuikotte,
Owariniwa mata hitoribochida.
Demo, mada ikiterushi,
mada ikitaishi,
Kono kurosa, kono nayamiwa,
Tookuni oshitai.
Daga, maigo no kodomo no youni,
[Douyatte kokokara deruno?]
toshika kikenai.
Mar 15, 2020
Mar 15, 2020 at 10:45 PM UTC