I wake up to the sun kissing my skin
The silence slowly drowning me
Filling my lungs with emptiness
My room is flooded with old thoughts, tattered teddy bears, and torn up photographs
The past,
just makes me laugh
Old feelings, riseing from the dead  
Tierd
Forgotten
Mistreated
Used and Abused
The past should of left me, body and soul in tangle, my heart dismantled; insanity , in shambles.
But my heart still beats hard and strong, I'm still smiling on  because I know I've done nothing wrong
I look at the past and I laugh because I know that life as a glass doll was a delicate one, my world like your snow globe shaking the life out of me as you please, disguising destruction with a sweet melody.  
You shattered me.
Took the pieces and left them in the dirt.
But darling they sank down into the earth ,
and although they have not been glued back together, I am still whole
I've grown up and my pieces have turned into roses radiating sweetness, painted in love.
So
I'd like you to know,
that I plan on growing 1,000 feet tall
Stealing your sunshine
and starry nights, inhaling all of your moonlight
Honey I'm going to tower over this world and make it my garden
My pieces
Blooming daisy's and lilacs , strength and integrity
No, I am happy to say
The past hasn't drove me down the road of insanity.

I love you my beautiful angel with your shining eyes, i can,t stop my heart beating for you, i can,t take my eyes from you, everytime i look at you i see the sun riseing i your eyes, everytime i look at the sky i see your face, in your heart i can read the love what have no end, everytime is raining outside i close my eyes and i call your name, i love you in every way, i love the way you are, i love you for what you are and for the big love what you give me all the time, my dear angel one day maybe the world will be against us but nothing can,t stay between us, i,ll love you forever as you are, i,ll stay close to you even if you are so far, always remember that my love for you will never end even if you are so far, you,ll always be the sun what will shine in my life.

to hold the universe
    i left my mind        
and
the edge of spirit
                      became the
                       boundary line.
   the whole
                       is hidden
                                     in the darkness.


i die to live
    with the hope
over having hold over angels..

yesterday, i courted your way...
believing that the riseing ashes
would bring an unimaginel glory.

Now, once again
i'm  on a mission.

now i can move ahead,
   not staying home in stead.

what do  you do.. you do it well.  you
live and learn,
be pulled this way and to be pulled that way.
and what's the alternative.... lay down a die.

Time in and time out, always in a rush trying to do everything all at one time, never slowing down to see the smoke and fire they are starting. The signs always pointing in the right direction, but you always want to go the wrong opposite way. Trying to prove that your way is always right, but is sadly wrong!
With smoke riseing like a cigarette burning, as I watch, I wonder how much more it will take before, like all sparks in a dry forest, set into flames and the end will leave destruction and pain.