"retrospecting" poems
When I am SITTING doing NOTHING
I thinks of my son who had left me void,
When I am WALKING alone in street
I remember my son and time well spent,
When I am COOKING I feel guilty of leaving my son alone at times,
My son who was special
My son who was dependent on me,
My son who left me early.
My son,
For some doctors he was classic example VEGETABLE,
For others he was point of research,
They told her so point blank on my face,
He will not live beyond 10 or 11,
he passed at 11&1/2...!
**
My son, whose passing away,
I could not grieve..
Coz,
he was a LIBERATED SOUL..
I held back my tears
To CELEBRATE his LIFE,
I held back my tears to
HAIL his NEW LIFE.
At times when I am
DOING NOTHING
I spend my time
RETROSPECTING....!!!
**
When people see me DOING NOTHING,
They call me NAMES,
LAZY for some
FREE for some
HAPPY for some
LIBERATED for some
INDEPENDENT for some
LUCKY for some....!!!
Coz'
to cry my heart out
is not just me...!
I FEEL LIKE ASKING -
Do they see ME
-
Shopping,
Watching movies
Enjoying parties
Laughing
Gossiping...
???
**
When I do nothing,
Let me be,
Let me be in memory of my son...
My mind needs no DISTRACTION,
My body needs no REPAIRS,
My face needs no FACIALS,
My hair needs no MASSAGING...!
I am fine by myself
LET ME BE...!!!
**
Sparkle In Wisdom
22/1/2019
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 9:04 AM UTC
Love me
with
your quivering eyes
crack my perception
dazzle my heart
O
Arabian beauty!
save me
save me
from my restless youth
with napping world
I look at everything
like a utopia
Now
your cute love
twisted
like a knife
rolling hills
sizzling sand dunes
bonding
into an Arabian night
O Jasmine my princess
silken tresses
bonfiring
furious fire
breathe in
keep kissing
don't stop
please show me crying eyes
crush my heart
torment me
give me all your burden
purely control me
no walls
let's try to fly
like a Cinderella love
I am finished with you
torque of love
so high
out of control
loaded gun
just try it
**** me
with your
self-delight
with
your naked eyes
jump off the roof
O jasmine! come back to me
into the heavens abode
and
torture my lies
unhinged me with truth
I don't want to be normal
free me
capture me
give
me
plethora of love
till the night candle burn
tremoring void
with your dew's drop
I sense complete roses,
though you carry
daggers in your heart
like an invisible belonging
mirroring me in a mirror
tired footsteps unreward
crying the burden of emptiness
fragile figure
what a void life
lost expectation
diminished potential
to live without you every day is a boring task
at last
A
shattering mirror
blade smiling
in your beautiful venomous peninsula
I am not in pain O dear!
comfort me with
your sweet
darkness
I have mocked my own path many times
Do you know?
you don't know
now I keep
running
running
running
away from reality
as if
death is incredible
but not as life
biting time
everyday
I wake up
and
going
into the quest
of nowhere
retrospecting
recollections
and a gulp of sorrows
I turned my own look back
ecstasy doesn't last
happiness lost
within a second
without her
and a
whispering
screams
river reverberating
my mind
over and over
life is nothing
I don't mean to her
hoping for the day
I will come out of my depression
without her
there is no one
nothing to me
red nails
long fingers
I said lightly to her
let's dive from sky high
and breathe out
diving from sky high
water is cold
depression kissing
bubbling
stop
...
into the heaven
I am looking at you in the mirror
the reality changed, so was I
like an unhinged wild shadows
a hollow soul
I elope
you remain
like a curious beauty
never identified by those who don't assume
cheers!!!
Nov 15, 2018
Nov 15, 2018 at 8:11 PM UTC
Always, think of me, when the moon looks lone and pale
Nebulously sprinting for empty space —
And you sitting under starry universe
Watching those nocturnal games,
Retrospecting life before which many stooped.
Stop not there for the life is long and trials many,
Tribulations its essence, success sneer without them.
Always, think of me, when the moon is lone and pale
gasping wildly for empty space—
May 25, 2019
May 25, 2019 at 7:02 PM UTC