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"resignation" poems
Masters of the Universe, tender me thy resignation, if but for a day, a millennia, no matter how measured, any being, you, purported supreme or otherwise, are tired in ways hard to comprehend *tender me thy responsibilities and dilemmas, have studied your resignations, solutions that provide no resolution...* I can do better. Why? not obligated by parenthood, rules of randomness superimposed, all I got is human kindness the eyesight that colors kindness, tolerates no injustice, milky white light, no longer recognize "there for the grace of God go you and I" have no name, but if you need one for me, call me <human>
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Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 8:01 AM UTC
Masters of the Universe...Tender Me Thy Resignation
Precarious Life Migration in the Age of Globalization Various Strife Cessation in the wage of translation Starvation in our under age narration Is opportunity worth the cost Bifurcation of our to be nations Will we make it across Vicariously rife Location of our permanent vacation Hilarious fife Hesitation in the living wage stagnation Resignation of our own home nation Will anything become lost Frustration in this age of relocation Will we make it across Gregarious life Migration in the age of inflation Precarious Life Stagflation been gauged with low expectations Automation when we enrage damnation It shall be worth the cost Fixation on a whole new acclimation Will we make it across
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Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC
2. Ballade
Strong winds may uproot you Unsettle your stoic resignation You will be shaken and stirred Lot of ponderings and doubts In the middle of nowhere When gravity does not give hope Become a fearless traveler Encounter the strong winds No matter where you settle Continue to spread your roots, deeper Your soul is still with you Nothing can stop you from reliving Every unsettling episode Will teach you to be more resilient
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Jun 19, 2015
Jun 19, 2015 at 11:18 AM UTC
Strong Winds
I love you because the Earth turns round the sun because the North wind blows north sometimes because the Pope is Catholic and most Rabbis Jewish because winters flow into spring and the air clears after a storm because only my love for you despite the charms of gravity keeps me from falling off the Earth into another dimension I love you because it is the natural order of things I love you like the habit I picked up in college of sleeping through lectures or saying I’m sorry when I get stopped for speeding because I drink a glass of water in the morning and chain-smoke cigarettes all through the day because I take my coffee Black and my milk with chocolate because you keep my feet warm through my life a mess I love you because I don’t want it any other way I am helpless in m love for you It makes me so happy to hear you call my name I am amazed you can resist locking me in an echo chamber where your voice reverberates through the four walls sending me into spasmatic ecstasy I love you because it’s been so good for so long that if I didn’t love you I’d have to be born again and that is not a theological statement I am pitiful in my love for you The Dells tell me Love is so simple the thought though of you sends indescribably delicious multitudinous thrills throughout and through-in my body I love you because no two snowflakes are alike and it is possible if you stand tippy-toe to walk between the raindrops I love you because I am afraid of the dark and can’t sleep in the light because I rub my eyes when I wake up in the morning and find you there because you with all your magic powers were determined that I should love you because there was nothing for you but that I would love you I love you because you made me want to love you more than I love my privacy my freedom my commitments and responsibilities I love you 'cause I changed my life to love you because you saw me one friday afternoon and decided that I would love you I love you I love you I love you
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May 21, 2013
May 21, 2013 at 10:21 AM UTC
RESIGNATION
I love you because the Earth turns round the sun because the North wind blows north sometimes because the Pope is Catholic and most Rabbis Jewish because winters flow into spring and the air clears after a storm because only my love for you despite the charms of gravity keeps me from falling off the Earth into another dimension I love you because it is the natural order of things I love you like the habit I picked up in college of sleeping through lectures or saying I’m sorry when I get stopped for speeding because I drink a glass of water in the morning and chain-smoke cigarettes all through the day because I take my coffee Black and my milk with chocolate because you keep my feet warm through my life a mess I love you because I don’t want it any other way I am helpless in m love for you It makes me so happy to hear you call my name I am amazed you can resist locking me in an echo chamber where your voice reverberates through the four walls sending me into spasmatic ecstasy I love you because it’s been so good for so long that if I didn’t love you I’d have to be born again and that is not a theological statement I am pitiful in my love for you The Dells tell me Love is so simple the thought though of you sends indescribably delicious multitudinous thrills throughout and through-in my body I love you because no two snowflakes are alike and it is possible if you stand tippy-toe to walk between the raindrops I love you because I am afraid of the dark and can’t sleep in the light because I rub my eyes when I wake up in the morning and find you there because you with all your magic powers were determined that I should love you because there was nothing for you but that I would love you I love you because you made me want to love you more than I love my privacy my freedom my commitments and responsibilities I love you 'cause I changed my life to love you because you saw me one friday afternoon and decided that I would love you I love you I love you I love you
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Found myself at a dental clinic... He was the best there was. Unorthodox and eccentric, But to the specialised craft, he was boss. Ran through the bits and bobs Like any normally would. The poking and prodding and the mandible X-rays. Everything cold and clinical, so was the mood. Strange was what happened next... Specialist and I then stood facing each other. He leaned close and pressed his palms against my rib cage. Held them there over a few breaths before it was over. Then a brief chat, small talk initiated by the man. Bespectacled and exceedingly chatty, small in stature. Talks of politics and odd human behaviours... What started off as friendly turned into a heated banter. I then realised that along with his decorated credentials, Was his propensity to be condescending and arrogant. Him being the best, I thought I could let it all slide, But soon enough I opted out of being a willing participant. Couldn't stand his abrasive cockiness! I snapped out of being cordial and passive thought. I wanted him to just stop talking! I went, "Well, are you going to fix my teeth or not?!" He was stunned momentarily... I suppose he hadn't seen that coming. Then his features softened to a blank I could almost read the unspoken words he was conjuring. With an exasperated sigh of resignation, He uttered his next words swollen with regret "There's no need...for you only have four years left." It dawned upon me that my timer has been set. And then I woke up...
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Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 2:21 PM UTC
Strange Dream
Rage, relentless shackles tortuously restricting the beat of my sole drum Wailing child, aged’s bell, muffled canine whimper beckon Tempered resignation and guilt overwhelm anger, their bidding masters me Unequivocal love, they want and need me, as I they
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Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 9:29 AM UTC
RESPONSIBILITY
it is cold seeping in my bones and hot air on a summer's day it is warm excitement and carefully calculated disinterest: all at the same time it is confusion, joy and resignation, mixed together in a melting *** made of the last rays of hope filtering in
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Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 2:12 AM UTC
crush
You softly whisper to yourself, love’s music ends right here As you put away your tender heart’s violin So utterly sincere in your resignation to quietly exist To never play your heart’s violin again You hear the sweetest music played around you every day With no desire to join in with your own sound So quietly existing in this world of your resignation Such a sense of peace, you have found Then one day when you awaken, the worlds a bit too still You sit and wistfully stare at your heart’s violin Think about your resignation and the peace you found within And ever so quickly, you turn away again The world keeps on a moving, not only quiet but so dark No longer do you hear any music played Makes you begin to wonder if this peace you’ve found within Is also, what made the music fade The solitude and peace found in this bittersweet release Has now become your heart’s only friend You resign to the fact that your violin you must play If you want to hear the music once again
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Jul 13, 2010
Jul 13, 2010 at 11:23 AM UTC
Your Heart's Violin
Over the surging tides and the mountain kingdoms, Over the pastoral valleys and the meadows, Over the cities with their factory darkness, Over the lands where peace is still a power, Over all these and all this planet carries A power broods, invisible monarch, a stranger To some, but by many trusted. Man's a believer Until corrupted. This huge trusted power Is spirit. He moves in the muscle of the world, In continual creation. He burns the tides, he shines From the matchless skies. He is the day's surrender. Recognize him in the eye of the angry tiger, In the sign of a child stepping at last into sleep, In whatever touches, graces and confesses, In hopes fulfilled or forgotten, in promises Kept, in the resignation of old men - This spirit, this power, this holder together of space Is about, is aware, is working in your breathing. But most he is the need that shows in hunger And in the tears shed in the lonely fastness. And in sorrow after anger.
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A Chorus
When they get to the aquarium, the kid asks if they have a Great White shark exhibit. The volunteer says no, we don’t. The kid asks, “Why? are you afraid he might try to eat people?” The volunteer chuckles at this and tells him no. no aquarium has successfully held a Great White shark live for more than a few days. You see, in order to stay alive, Great Whites and other sharks, like hammerheads, swim on their own continuously through the ocean, never stopping, never slowing, tramping a perpetual journey with many miles to go before they finally reach “sleep”. If they stop, the oxygen rich water around them no longer flows over their gills and into their bodies and they suffocate from the strain of being at rest. So they keep going, like lost children searching for their parents in a very large amusement park. This need to keep moving, this need for space, has made it extremely difficult to keep them in our meager glass human death cages. When the Monterey bay aquarium managed to capture a juvenile that didn’t thrash itself to death like the adult sharks they netted before, it bashed its head against the tank’s sturdy walls until the shock of being dragged out of its home and put in the equivalent of a coffin killed it. But, the volunteer continued cheerfully, we have other kinds of sharks here. We have zebra sharks, which don’t need to swim nonstop. In their natural habitat, they just lie on the ocean floor all day. The kid agrees to go see them The zebra sharks are not lying on the floor nor do they look like zebras. They swim slowly past him, leopard spots dotting their ridges on their backs, their fins, their long tails. “They’re called zebra sharks because of the zebra like patterns of the juveniles,” the volunteer explains. The ones we have here are adults.When they become adults, they get the spots and those ridges you see. Sometimes people mistake them for leopard sharks, which are a totally different species.” The kid stares at the zebra sharks for a full ten minutes, looking for a sign of resignation at being called something they weren’t anymore, at collectively being referred to by a childhood nickname they had long outgrown. They did not seem to care. He gets bored and goes to other exhibits, the split fin flashlight fish blinking on and off in their darkened tank, the touch pool, the medusa jellyfish with their trailing tentacles. But the sharks are what he remembers when he leaves, and they’re what he remember when he returns three months later, six months later, two years later, three, five, ten, this is what stays with him, the sharks in our tanks and the sharks in the ocean.
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Jun 16, 2017
Jun 16, 2017 at 2:20 AM UTC
At the aquarium.
When they get to the aquarium, the kid asks if they have a Great White shark exhibit. The volunteer says no, we don’t. The kid asks, “Why? are you afraid he might try to eat people?” The volunteer chuckles at this and tells him no. no aquarium has successfully held a Great White shark live for more than a few days. You see, in order to stay alive, Great Whites and other sharks, like hammerheads, swim on their own continuously through the ocean, never stopping, never slowing, tramping a perpetual journey with many miles to go before they finally reach “sleep”. If they stop, the oxygen rich water around them no longer flows over their gills and into their bodies and they suffocate from the strain of being at rest. So they keep going, like lost children searching for their parents in a very large amusement park. This need to keep moving, this need for space, has made it extremely difficult to keep them in our meager glass human death cages. When the Monterey bay aquarium managed to capture a juvenile that didn’t thrash itself to death like the adult sharks they netted before, it bashed its head against the tank’s sturdy walls until the shock of being dragged out of its home and put in the equivalent of a coffin killed it. But, the volunteer continued cheerfully, we have other kinds of sharks here. We have zebra sharks, which don’t need to swim nonstop. In their natural habitat, they just lie on the ocean floor all day. The kid agrees to go see them The zebra sharks are not lying on the floor nor do they look like zebras. They swim slowly past him, leopard spots dotting their ridges on their backs, their fins, their long tails. “They’re called zebra sharks because of the zebra like patterns of the juveniles,” the volunteer explains. The ones we have here are adults.When they become adults, they get the spots and those ridges you see. Sometimes people mistake them for leopard sharks, which are a totally different species.” The kid stares at the zebra sharks for a full ten minutes, looking for a sign of resignation at being called something they weren’t anymore, at collectively being referred to by a childhood nickname they had long outgrown. They did not seem to care. He gets bored and goes to other exhibits, the split fin flashlight fish blinking on and off in their darkened tank, the touch pool, the medusa jellyfish with their trailing tentacles. But the sharks are what he remembers when he leaves, and they’re what he remember when he returns three months later, six months later, two years later, three, five, ten, this is what stays with him, the sharks in our tanks and the sharks in the ocean.
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She bolts awake from nightmare’s fear Her mind fumbles for the mask Its visage calm, gaze cool and clear Once in place no one will ask Exhausted from her restless night Escape routes all slammed shut The knots already pulling tight Deep down inside her gut The enemy stand at their station They circle round her bed Anticipating her annihilation The demons in her head Her feet are not yet on the floor But the battle has begun Another endless day of war She must fight, she cannot run She glances quickly in the glass Haunted eyes she cannot meet The enemy charge takes the pass Her soul in forced retreat The mask will serve her well today Its rigid smile conceals The terror barely held at bay The torment that she feels She plants her banner on the mound Though hopelessness holds sway She grits her teeth and holds her ground But the ******** make her pay All day the battle rages on But the mask remains in place Though at her feet hell’s chasms yawn The world sees not a trace The conflict ebbs, her shoulders slump No victory is claimed She turns for home, trailing blood Count her among the maimed Return to camp yields no respite Command’s duties have no end Cares for her troops into the night Strength's last measure she will spend All her charges now in bed Mask in hidden place she keeps In resignation bows her head And midst the dark, in silence weeps Now when the camp lies silent In night’s hush no pennant streams She braces for coming violence And girds for bloodshed in her dreams
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Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 10:27 PM UTC
Endure
She bolts awake from nightmare’s fear Her mind fumbles for the mask Its visage calm, gaze cool and clear Once in place no one will ask Exhausted from her restless night Escape routes all slammed shut The knots already pulling tight Deep down inside her gut The enemy stand at their station They circle round her bed Anticipating her annihilation The demons in her head Her feet are not yet on the floor But the battle has begun Another endless day of war She must fight, she cannot run She glances quickly in the glass Haunted eyes she cannot meet The enemy charge takes the pass Her soul in forced retreat The mask will serve her well today Its rigid smile conceals The terror barely held at bay The torment that she feels She plants her banner on the mound Though hopelessness holds sway She grits her teeth and holds her ground But the ******** make her pay All day the battle rages on But the mask remains in place Though at her feet hell’s chasms yawn The world sees not a trace The conflict ebbs, her shoulders slump No victory is claimed She turns for home, trailing blood Count her among the maimed Return to camp yields no respite Command’s duties have no end Cares for her troops into the night Strength's last measure she will spend All her charges now in bed Mask in hidden place she keeps In resignation bows her head And midst the dark, in silence weeps Now when the camp lies silent In night’s hush no pennant streams She braces for coming violence And girds for bloodshed in her dreams
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The first duty of the State Should be sanitation, Not defense, nor cyber-security. Drain the swamps. **** the vermin. Wash & sweep the streets. Let us forgive his past shenanigans. A vote for ****** is a Vote for cleanliness. After all: next to Godliness. (American politician **Anthony ****** former member of the U.S. House of Representatives from New York City, was involved in a ****** scandal related to sexting, or sending explicit ****** material by cell phone. On June 16, 2011, ****** announced his intention to resign from Congress with his official resignation occurring on June 23, 2011.)
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Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 10:39 PM UTC
“Weinergate Redux”
I'm surprised we're having a picnic on the east wing! Our company almost never gives us anything! Underpaid with no benefits makes this picnic even better To think I was going to give in my resignation letter With so many hamburgers, hot dogs, and more, It's a fast food restaurant galore! A table packed full with yummies. Today, a lot of beef will be in tummies. People reaching for their plates The caterers come out of their waits One by one, they serve each voracious goer For a pay that probably couldn't get any lower Janice comes, with her broken polish and nails And a scream a joy echos out like whales She's so drunk, oh my god haha she's so wired It's the unpaid overtime or another threat of being fired Poor thing... we finish our girl talk and problems on my mind, I begin to walk Feeling my appetite begin to poke me, I bite into my hamburger with resounding glee Nipping the bread, it's fluff presses against my lips I close my eyes, as my senses go in dips The precious aroma of divine baked bread As my tongue and bun are set to wed. Each bud met with delicious waters of steak The ketchup creating a dreamy, saucy lake Scrumptious, delicious Incredible, nutritious...? It doesn't matter, I've met my goal And the taste, goodness it makes my mind roll Forgetting everything while I finish the rest Golly, this food is the best
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Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 3:52 PM UTC
Company Picnic
Closure invents a reason to let go; that hoped-for last **** is anything but Life is cataclysmic. Seizing an imagined moment in a now that ends before its beginning signifies a slavery to transience so complete and pervasive that words heave and shudder in its withering folly Timeless puzzles are incompletable by artifice; rather, resignation to disparate pieces, and identification with neither the pieces that didn't fit, nor those that did The period does not complete the sentence. The sentence ends when it is finished.
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Aug 25, 2014
Aug 25, 2014 at 4:58 PM UTC
Closure Is A Lie
invisible isotopes gently rain down onto the chins of infants we whisk them away with soft kisses tiny irradiated dust flakes float onto boutonniereless lapels we brush them off with fresh carnations Oak leaves blown from denuding limbs by soft puffs of radioactive plumes are shaken from our door mats green grass sprinkled with Strontium 90 is mowed and mixed into our compost piles the pristine waters of March are laced with uranium tainted iodine it coolly slakes our piqued thirst the rouge rose gilded with a golden plush of soft plutonium is plucked to adorn late evening dinner tables and exchanged by sweethearts as amorous gestures of resignation between condemned lovers Oakland 3/28/11 jbm
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Nov 5, 2011
Nov 5, 2011 at 9:27 PM UTC
A Gilded Rose
Two frowns wait for the other to speak: One long and melancholy, The other expectant, so fraught and weak. The boy looks to his dog as though to his lover: “I wish I could give you everything you wanted; Life only interferes.” His mate saunters on, lays low So he fears, in resignation, “What is it that keeps your devotion so clear?” She, silent, in anticipation “I do not know,” he responded. “But it is not here.” So the blank canvas continued to be: His mate continued sniffling unknowingly.
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May 26, 2014
May 26, 2014 at 11:02 AM UTC
Partner
Upon my face, a mask Carved with confidence And riddled with resolve. Upon my face, a sneer That says I can see Past the cynicism. Upon my face, the sort of "I can handle it" That picks people's noses Up from their smartphones. Upon my face, a mask Smoothed to the demands Of a society that can't tell Success from suffering Or defeat from resignation Because it's too busy Swooning over the dream At the end And won't wake up long enough To admire the journey. A society that I conform to Because what other voices Are telling me anything different? Upon my face, a lie.
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Feb 6, 2015
Feb 6, 2015 at 12:01 PM UTC
The Mask
A shadow with darkened eyes. She's fine. She says she is just fine. Her lips say everything is right. Even her eyes have learned to lie. But the sunlight strikes the lenses, And just once she lets me see, just once, The hazel wound behind her veil. She begs for me to understand, But fights so hard to blind me. Just for a little while I see The quiet acceptance of a dying world, A growing, inexpressed hatred of mankind. A terror of inadequacy, never being enough. A silent resignation of just how much less she is. Resent for the blame, the debt of an unknown people, A plea to just forget the shame of her own sullied hands. She's dying for someone to know, To have no more to hide, To abandon logic and composure And forget what is expected, which she cannot fulfill. Who says that she is now free? Who can claim she was ever bound? But reason makes her stop, And pretend the world's alive. To hide her weakness deeper In order to survive. To illuse the populace to thinking she rose above. She steps out of the sunlight. The glimpse is gone, Her insecurity erased. Once again, a paradigm of confidence and self-worth. The mask is on, the shroud let down. No one could ever doubt her. No one will see the child with hazel eyes. If you asked her, she'd deny it. Just a child with hazel eyes. Even in confession, she finds a way to hide. I have left the mirror.
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Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 12:31 PM UTC
Hazel Eyes
your words make me ache as far as a torch stretched between murky- blank pages do not wait to scrawl your truths until heavy resignation creeps over my head like a dark shawl do not wait -                          - I miss                          everything and nothing                          and (god                          **** it) the philosopher was right in assuming a search for completion leads only to a sort of frustrated compassionate silence,                                            so                                       tired of being tired of growing                                       weary with assumptions,                                       mad libs of the spirit, only                                       fill in the line with whatever                                       you dream might be,                 no let me know you, the real uncensored and true (I can love) you I feel like a child being spelled at to keep the F-I-L-I-B-U-S-T-E-R for adult ears only but even though I admit the fact                            - I know next to nothing my heart desperately wishes to know you, everything.
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Apr 18, 2012
Apr 18, 2012 at 10:13 PM UTC
Moderately Sophisticated Plea
your words make me ache as far as a torch stretched between murky- blank pages do not wait to scrawl your truths until heavy resignation creeps over my head like a dark shawl do not wait -                          - I miss                          everything and nothing                          and (god                          **** it) the philosopher was right in assuming a search for completion leads only to a sort of frustrated compassionate silence,                                            so                                       tired of being tired of growing                                       weary with assumptions,                                       mad libs of the spirit, only                                       fill in the line with whatever                                       you dream might be,                 no let me know you, the real uncensored and true (I can love) you I feel like a child being spelled at to keep the F-I-L-I-B-U-S-T-E-R for adult ears only but even though I admit the fact                            - I know next to nothing my heart desperately wishes to know you, everything.
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Through lines attach themselves to me I'm a zip line zipping through the canopy. Zip lines through lines My life in dots and dashes. There was that darkness before I was born don't remember much about that. Parents were through lines for a long while then they died grandparents before they all had their time through lines zip lines strings the true string theory. Homesickness, school, bullies, too the Sunday Night Blues riding those zip lines through lines what are you gonna do they aren't leaving you. ************ Resignation private fantasies too private to tell through lines too on  the old zip line. The voices in your mind that's been a through line through and through. Poverty that was true too that's what happens when you peak too soon and you're a late bloomer too. Children, the through lines children of children and you too through lines zipping through along the old zip line. Poetry, a through line sharing secrets sacred circles those are through lines too. Body parts hearts, limbs, lungs, guts and toes though those tonsils had to go. Every breath Every heart beat. My through lines your through lines we all got'em parallel points on parallel lines I can't say I know we sometimes together zip along that same highway then one will fade and one will go away. But where we all meet each day, I can say, in the molecules of every breath we take.
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Sep 9, 2014
Sep 9, 2014 at 12:01 PM UTC
Through Lines
Holding down a button Until everything turns Black as pitch Is just like clutching Someone's throat Until they can't Move another inch. So much life and vibrance Flashes across this screen, Yet it seems to tear happiness apart At its fragile seams. Technology is quick, It's capabilities are ample, Yet my mind has gone slow From ingesting only samples. As such, It is time for me to quickly depart, For using you has made me Everything but Smart.
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Oct 9, 2017
Oct 9, 2017 at 7:45 PM UTC
A Silent Resignation
When she brushed his hand aside, he had to think;
 to search the heart, adrift in the body, to find a way that would make things clear, but all that came was a breath of air
, and it carried with it some words,
 spoken with resignation, that spelled a plea:
      “don’t make me beg”, he said. Half a world away, a man rested beside a woman.
 she looked up at him and brushed his hand
 along her breast.
 when it came to rest, at last
, along a thigh and probed between,
 she brushed his hand aside, and breathed
 a breath of air that said,
 “don’t…” a moment passed, maybe three.
 “make me beg…”, she whispered. 20 September 2013
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Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 6:20 PM UTC
don't make me beg
I think I understand hookups and one-night stands now. The key to moving on is to replace all that stood before until there stands nothing that may cause you to unravel. Moment by moment, conversation by conversation,   I replace the replays, I can't bear the thought of another touching me, like I'm not yours. I got another ring today, all big and loose. It's funny how I picked this one, it keeps slipping off my fingers like you did. It's been two months since I last wore your ring. I don't see a difference between them, it feels the same on my thumb. and that should be the end of it, but oh well, I guess it isn't. I walked to the grocery store, paused at an aisle, took my time frowning over chocolate bars. You used to get me Munch, and so I picked the Mars bar. I don't skip meals now, (well, most days I don't) and in place of our routine conversations, I play a random show. I drown noise with noise. My days are decent. I'm surrounded by mindless jibber jabber. I participate. I paste a bright smile. “You look well now,” they say, “Well, I am” I reply. And I am fine. (I think I am?) 9/10 times I am. Then in a random mundane moment, memories of you resurface like a ring light and in that single moment, I let myself crumble. “I don't want him back. He's changed now. So have you and so what? If it's meant to be, it'll be. He's the love of my life. Well don't let him in, when (not if) he comes back. Do it from love, not for it. You deserve happiness. Both of you do. You want love. You are love. The ocean doesn't look for its water, Why will you look for what you have? It is what it is. and this too shall pass.” So on and so forth my inner monologue goes on, and I stare at my phone wondering if I can conjure you from my thoughts. I am kinder now. With myself, and everyone around. I wish I were kinder to you, but I was just a child. I know you're proud, and I am of you too. Do you think I can sculpt my favourite version of you? Wait, no. I already did that, I loved all of you and then everything fell apart. My thoughts swirl and I let them play. Incantations in my head Obligatory 3 am, weary sighs, contempt and rage. Oh, so much rage. Where is the calming lull of sleep, when you need it to sedate your despair? Resignation sets in, I play a familiar game. I ask the universe and unbiasedly it delivers the same day. "Universe, give me a sign, I'm really done this time. Yellow flowers if he's coming back, Dandelions if he's not. Universe let me move on. This is the last time, " In my version of He loves me, he loves me not I break flowers, not petals. I look for answers in colours and not action, And then I saw a dozen Dandelions.
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Jan 17, 2024
Jan 17, 2024 at 4:40 PM UTC
Sunflowers and Chrysanthemums
I think I understand hookups and one-night stands now. The key to moving on is to replace all that stood before until there stands nothing that may cause you to unravel. Moment by moment, conversation by conversation,   I replace the replays, I can't bear the thought of another touching me, like I'm not yours. I got another ring today, all big and loose. It's funny how I picked this one, it keeps slipping off my fingers like you did. It's been two months since I last wore your ring. I don't see a difference between them, it feels the same on my thumb. and that should be the end of it, but oh well, I guess it isn't. I walked to the grocery store, paused at an aisle, took my time frowning over chocolate bars. You used to get me Munch, and so I picked the Mars bar. I don't skip meals now, (well, most days I don't) and in place of our routine conversations, I play a random show. I drown noise with noise. My days are decent. I'm surrounded by mindless jibber jabber. I participate. I paste a bright smile. “You look well now,” they say, “Well, I am” I reply. And I am fine. (I think I am?) 9/10 times I am. Then in a random mundane moment, memories of you resurface like a ring light and in that single moment, I let myself crumble. “I don't want him back. He's changed now. So have you and so what? If it's meant to be, it'll be. He's the love of my life. Well don't let him in, when (not if) he comes back. Do it from love, not for it. You deserve happiness. Both of you do. You want love. You are love. The ocean doesn't look for its water, Why will you look for what you have? It is what it is. and this too shall pass.” So on and so forth my inner monologue goes on, and I stare at my phone wondering if I can conjure you from my thoughts. I am kinder now. With myself, and everyone around. I wish I were kinder to you, but I was just a child. I know you're proud, and I am of you too. Do you think I can sculpt my favourite version of you? Wait, no. I already did that, I loved all of you and then everything fell apart. My thoughts swirl and I let them play. Incantations in my head Obligatory 3 am, weary sighs, contempt and rage. Oh, so much rage. Where is the calming lull of sleep, when you need it to sedate your despair? Resignation sets in, I play a familiar game. I ask the universe and unbiasedly it delivers the same day. "Universe, give me a sign, I'm really done this time. Yellow flowers if he's coming back, Dandelions if he's not. Universe let me move on. This is the last time, " In my version of He loves me, he loves me not I break flowers, not petals. I look for answers in colours and not action, And then I saw a dozen Dandelions.
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Well now, I used to teach. I mean, I still do, but it's only for their benefit now, isn't it? It's like the doctors and the greengrocers and the streetsweepers and librarians, still going through the motions while they take recordings and what have you. I guess we should be glad that they're interested in the way we lived, you know, before they arrived. But my kids, you know, they're all actors. They might learn the odd piece of arcane knowledge but I can tell they know they don't need it. No, no, I'm no rebel I don't want any trouble. Things are better since they arrived, of course they are. I mean, their technology - we couldn't have come up with that in a million years. And they're very polite. I have a colleague who says this is because they feel guilty about their success, but I don't know about that. Things were bad for a while, but I guess maybe that was our fault. We didn't know how to react. We adjusted poorly. It's hard to accept that you're, you know, obsolete. Even me, you know. For a while there I was, well, I was drinking a little too much. It was hard, seeing the school destroyed. They've done a good job with the facsimile though. even smells the same. Yup, can't complain. Can't complain.
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Jan 24, 2012
Jan 24, 2012 at 3:46 PM UTC
Resignation
Up went the roar of the crowd, Ascending, volumes above, beyond The everyday murmur of pestering silence. A futile struggle to withstand its force, Like a vast wave, rogue and raging, Slamming nature, a slap in the face of feebleness, This crowd roars… Not anger, not anguish, or grief, But a prideful scream of declaration; The masses make it known, and known again, Fists raised, pulverizing the air to a beat Of human design, of togetherness, of solidarity In the fight for those like us, a howl, This crowd roars… Stampeding feet berate the beaten earth, Invigorated legs supporting pounding hearts, To a beat, rolling with the flow, Energy infusing the soul, encased in flesh, bone, and blood; Marching onward, forward, processional strides Declaring and making it known with battle cries, This crowd roars… Shouts of proclamation echo the strident resistance With thunder, earth-quaking, walls crumbling, chains shattering With thunder, dancing against the discordant system; Proud warriors raising flags of protest Amidst the roar, roister, and riots, rising reactionaries Refusing submission, declining resignation, This crowd roars… Bounded together, by blood, by common cause, Mingling masses of forgotten arise with a vocal Outcry, intense, pulsing from the core (of us) Like an infestation, infuriated, a torrent swarm (of us) Flowing upwards, eroding all obstructions. Declare, proclaim, announce, request, demand, This crowd roars…
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Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 12:31 AM UTC
The Roar of the Crowd