She saw him in awaking dream.
Standing with his head hung low.
She, his mother asked, “Son, Is there something on your mind?”
He replied, “There is.”
“What is it? “
“I've been crying.... ”
“Son, what are your troubles?”
Wiping his tears
He cried, “I caused so much pain.
I can't fix it.
I don’t know what to do...”
Her tears joined his, and cried together
Hugging, swaying, gently rocking.
She looking over his shoulder
A white Light began to part the clouds of rain.
“Son, have you gone to the Light?”
He said “No" with his head on her shoulder
He cried a river of tears.
Her heart melted with love, "Let your troubles wash away. "
"How can I bear the Light?
I murdered me! I took my life! ”
Soothing his brow, she reminded him of his sickness
His depleted body
His tired soul.
The isolation he endured
And his desire - not to be a burden
She spoke of her deep love
Acceptance and appreciation
“Son, I am deeply grateful.
You came to me with
Your sorrow, your pain, your regret, your love.
You fill me with understanding."
You brought my worries relief.
Washing away my pain
You fill my heart with gratitude.
Please, embrace the joy we shared together
The sweet memories.
Heart to heart
Mother & Son hugged in understanding
In forgiveness of their misunderstandings
In the joy of acceptance, gratitude, unconditional love.
"Son, Do you see The Light?
It is opening for you"
He looked up from their embrace,
Sighed and simply said, "Yes."
"Peace be always yours, my dear son."
"Will you forgive me?
I was so lost
Lost in deceptions
Lost in hurt
Lost in pain.
My heart became hard.
I can not bear that I broke your heart."
"Son, please forgive me too.
I feel like I let you down.
I did not know how to reach you.
I cried when I saw the webs that snared you.
Again and again, I reached out and failed.
I could not reach you. I lost you.'
Her heart sank into pain and sadness.
"Mom, your understanding fills my soul.
Because, the truth has opened our hearts."
The Light spoke,
"Be love. Let it go!
The blame, shame, self judgment,
The sadness and fear.
Standing among their ancestors
He stretched out His hand.
"Mom, What do I do?”
Pray with intention
Connect with your heart
Her son spoke to the Light
"Please, forgive me.
I have been deceived
Please Bring me Home to the Safety of Your Arms"
And The Light opened His arms,
"Come unto me, my son."
She looked deeply into her son's eyes
"May my love go with you.
You will always be in my heart
Thank you for laughter.
Thank you for our memories.
Thank you for calling me your 'Akela.'
My Heart is full.
You have touched my life with your love.
Be happy. Be open to Love.”
It was an eternity, within a moment.
That they shared together
Their last embrace.
Looking into his eyes
Then turned and walked toward The Light.
Light's, love opened His arms,
I have been waiting for you....”
And the words of a song danced through their hearts
Oh, no more crying
Oh no more troubles
All has been washed way.....
:My son passed in 2017. This is a dream I had of my son and I, after he passed.
In my dream, he did not want to leave his siblings and I before he could fix the pain he had seen in each of us due to his death. He was feeling guilt, remorse, and wanted to fix the pain he had caused before allowing himself to go to the Light. In this dream we talked and I saw him go to the Light. I share this because I know I am not the only one in life who has felt this pain. I wish to bring a measure of comfort and a gift of understanding and healing.