It had been 3 or so years
Since my first meeting her eyes
I wish not to shed anymore tears
My history with her has its lows and highs

I must address that she isn’t mine
Although I wish she was
I won’t cry and whine
Nor shall I claw her heart with my paws

Don’t write me a love song about heart break
Sing the sadness you felt late at night
Breathe you pain to create
Show me the broken pieces of your heart you
Locked away
Sleep beside the ghost of the lover who
Left you years ago but you can’t seem to get over
Remenice by the fire of all the couple photos
And make me feel like i can love again
Make me forget i was the one who got hurt

I don't have that much love left to give
I don't have that much time left to live
Its become so daunting & arduous
In a constant war with Lucifer,
Yet before he departs he brings a parting gift

Turned to substances in search of Bliss
Even so the pain still persists
Life is a fog that I cannot simply dismiss
No relief to be found,
Lost for eternity wandering forever in the mist

Desperate for a sense of peace & solace
Spiting God wishing I had never even exist
Instantaneously filled with regret but unable to resist
In the mirror stands my executioner,
Maniacally laughing as I tremble in his midst

Felt an itch right beneath my fist
Scratched & clawed until I slit my wrist
Now I'm sure you got the gist
Blood covers the entire ground,
Not a single spot missed

Thoughts of where things went amiss
Begin to cry and remenice
As I plunge deeper into the abyss
Loss of any type consciousness
Now I truly understand pure Bliss

Salutations,
With a kiss


-Ajm