People I have taken for granted
in my past still affect me
                                                 NOW.

But in my defence
                                                            I .

Would like to change things
                                                                  AT LAST.

So I would like to say sorry and
                                                                        DREAM.

Dream all the people that I have effected
                                                                                 AND RELISE WE WOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN.

The room wore darkness and he fit right in. His voice was cold and that's how they all knew of him.  He was lost and didn't know where he was going. All he knew was life was not much to him.  People feared the way he looked even down to his grin.  Then she came along and enjoyed the way his nosed was smushed and that his voice was like smoke exhaling from within.  She was the moon that little up his dark sky,  she was the reason his stars came back to life.  She gave him a purpose and for that he was great full,  the towns people become to understand he was a good hearted man for he was so faithful.  It only takes one to relise your light just to make you understand you can outshine any darkness,  even in the deapth of the night.

I'll be honest,
I'm scaired of you,
Not of your perthetic **** of a body,
But you are mentally intimidating,
You have the ability to manipulate people against me,
You believe you are mentally superior,
More popular,
More mature,
And you know I rely on you.

Tell me,
When I no longer rely on you,
And you make me lose my rag,
How superior will you be?
When I tear you limb from limb,
And there is nothing you can do,
You are helpless and hopeless,
Only then will you relise,
that you have made my life hell.

I am so lost and there's not a road that leads back
I continued down a dark path  constantly veering  of the track.
I kept walking through the darkness leaving broken pieces of me behind
A trail of bread crums that no one will ever find
Stumbling through the shawdows
Making all the same mistakes
Tumbling round and round until my sanity finally breaks
I have reached a destination but my mind has taken its toll
I met so many demons they finally tainted my soul
Im at a cross roads i hault and stand still
I no longer have the energy no strengh Nor the will
I fall down to my knees and place my hands over my head
I relise im just a empty vessle because inside i am dead

I NEED TO TELL YOU
HOW I FEEL
YOU NEED TO KNOW
THAT ABOVE THE WORLD
IS HOW HIGH YOU USED TO PUT ME
AND HOW MUCH MORE
I HAD PUT IN
LIKE PINS AND NEEDLES
THERE IS NOTHING LIKE
NOT KNOWING THE DESTRUSTION OF THE FALL
WHEN I AM DROPED FROM YOUR TOWER
TO KNOW THAT EVERYTHING I KNEW ABOUT GOD
WILL BE CONTINUED AFTER MY BODY HITS THE FLOOR
I'M VERY SURE
BEFORE I CAN STAND UP TO BE A WOMAN
WHEN I STAND UP
DEATH IS IN MY FACE
I CAN FALL JUST LIKE THAT
RIGHT BEFORE YOUR PLACE
BEFORE WE RESOLVE OUR
COMTAMINATED ATROCITIES
BEFORE WE MAKE KNUCKLES CLASH
BEFORE OUR THROUTS STING WITH ANIMOSITY
AND WORDS BRAKE THE RULES OF POETRY
AND BEFORE WE CAN SAY HOW MUCH HATE HAS COMPELLED LOVE TO ESCAPE US
MY NERVES WILL GO BLANK
BEFORE I CAN SEE THE FEAR IN YOUR EYES
WHEN YOU RELISE
WHAT YOU HAD DONE
WILL NEVER BE RELIVED AGAIN TO FIX
MY FAITH IN YOU WILL TIRE
MY BELIEFES SCATTERED
THE PASTENCE LIVES IN YOUR MIND BUT YOU BOUGHT OUT FROM ME
THE PRESENT IS
A DAMAGED GIFT
TOMORROW IS;
UGLY THOUGHTS
AS WELL AS BESIDE YOU
IS COMPLICATED CARNIVAL
YET I LOVE YOU LIKE A SICK
LAMB
OUT OF THE COUNTLESS DOGS
YOU ARE A REAL MAN
LIVING MAD YET CAPABLE
WHEN WE NTERTWINE MAN AND WOMAN WE ARE ROMANIC PASTELS IN OUR EMPIRE
WHILE AROUND US CRUMBLES OUR MONUEMNT
WE WEEP TO STICH
ONLY TO BREAK AND *****
SO RIGHT NOW
RIGHT HERE
BEFORE YOU SHUT ME DOWN
IF YOU COULD MEET ME HALF WAY
NOT ACROSS THE SKY
BUT EYE TO EYE
WHEN I STAND UP
STAY STILL
HEAR ME
AND WALK AWAY.

(INCREDIBLE INK- TEAM JAGUAR HAWAII)
© Copyright 2014 S.T. PARISH Rebel of Eden

When im stood beside you, I know you're really there
Because i see your face lit in the darkest place and then i think of you...
Think of you when i am sad
Think of all the times we spent together
I thught you were my friend
But then you lost me
Or i lost you
You were there for me
I was there for you
We was always there
When we needed it most
But then that day came
And your eyes as red as blood
Came twords me
I was scared
I was terrified
I thught to myself "What?"
Then you stopped and stared
I didn't speak
Because i was afraid
What had i done
What was you going to do
I stood
And sung
And reminded you that you were safe
And you
You told me that you didn't care
You didn't want to talk
You didnt want to be there for me anymore
But alongside all that
I stayed loyal to you
Kind to you
A friend to you
Hoping that someday, you would come back
I guess i wasnt thinking
Because never did you ever come back to me
You just left and watched me walk
And suffer the pain you had caused me
You laughed at me
And took my life from me
Because i was scard
For life
And you did nothin to save me
You hated me
I hated you
You found me
And asked
Why was i sad
I said, because of you
You shut me out
Wouldnt let me in
Locked me out and threw away the key
You didnt relise what you had done to me
But it hurt, a lot
And yet, i always stayed a friend to you
And i always will.

Life has taught us that love does not consist of stareing deep into each other eyes but it has taught us to look with our eyes deep inside an relise that this ones a big surprise.

Pretty girls who spend hours looking in the mirror
With nothing but fear in their eyes
Because they can't seem to relise
The beauty that goes deeper than the words
Can describe.
The beauty that has been carved into their souls
Only to be baracated by the evergrowing darkness
That can only grow
Until it becomes their whole life.

As I contemplate the starry sky.
An angry dragon breathes fire, ready to fly.
As the fire engulfs the earth beneath me,
I am already 10 feet high, the golden flames are all I can see.
We fly away from this mess of land.
The dragon flies lower, my feet touching the cool surface of the sea.
I don’t want this ride to end, I don’t won’t to land.
But every beautiful thing comes to an end.
We have arrived at never land. My heart beats rapidly in excitement of meeting a friend.
I guess all ending are in fact beginnings.

As I regard never land,
I relise that all the tales are true,
Everyone is young with a juvenile hue.
Time ticks incredibly slow.
Worry less Kids are swimming in the lake’s flow.
My heart aches for the youth back home.
The ones whom the lands of stress are all they can roam.

Peter Pan -an old friend who always forgets me- skips my way,
He stops in his path looking at me quizzically “why are you so gray?”
The lost boys walk towards us,
Before I get the chance to discuss
The lost boys begin to chant:

“In never land you are forever free,
With absolutely nothing to rant!
For In these lands you can swim and eat your weight in glee!
We are all young and carefree”
“You might have no wings,” they sing
“But you can forever use the fairy dust.
In these lands there are no sins such as lust.
You can swim the lake or the ocean as you wish,
Be careful from the mermaids but the fish!
O the fish! They’re all your friends.
Speaking of friends, here is a friendly advice : always take with you a magnifying lens,
For this land is full of wonders that are worth to be discovered !
And whatever it is that you have uncovered,
Share it with the lost boys!
We love new things, we love toys!”
Their voices fade as they move away.

I guess I can get used to waking up in this land everyday.
But the youth back home.
It’s almost like they’re kept away by a gnome.
Kept hidden from this beauteous ground.
Left to bleed from their souls wound.

Life is beautiful. There is so much joy, elation, love, friendship, compassion, and inspiration that comes with the creation of life. Tiny tots so fresh so young love everything and the world throws open its gates to welcome such purity and bright white joy. Little kids transform the world around them into a paradise of wonderful colors. Painting their imagination across the sky. They are whatever they want to be. A rock star, a super hero, a dinosaur hunter, a princess, a knight you name it and I garentie some child already has. Teenagers see the world around them once the colors of child hood have faded. They try to paint them again but only result in jealousy, self doubt, fear, pain, and uncertainty because life certainly hasn’t been like this before. They also are told they can be anything they want to be doctors, lawyers, dropouts, criminals, husbands, and wives they watch as the color fades from view and relise that death is also beautiful.

I want you to relise the bad choices you made
If you didn't treat me so wrong i would have stayed
I was deep in love but your true colours started to show
Manipulation was your invitation and making me feel so  low
You wanted the power and everything your own way
I started to see the darkness your love for me fade away
You held yourself up high
you throught your hold on me was strong
So self centered and in denile
you couldnt see you were  in the wrong
I grew tired of the lies
sick of all the games
Being used and abused and you calling me names
You just wanted me to be a slave
You wanted me to obey
But i started to notice you would belittling me
In everything you would say
You wanted to be a king
I wanted to be your queen
Not a loyal peasant
That you could demean
I wanted your love not a broken heart
But you must of had cruel intentions
set from the start

Endless, the light of darkness,
Rise, again rise 
Who dare to speak out,
life is dust
And there is no stop after a brief rest

Endless, the light of mysterious soul
Rise, and rise again
Why do the shades of melancholy freeze
illuminating the warped convictions of a 
perverted crash?

Light once knocked 
at the stony tomb of your conscience 
calling out your name. 
Light once allowed,
the light of the resurrection,
Travels with velocity at morning silence.

Follow her, please follow her:
Believe, and believe it  into your soul
Nothing to you is lost
Tell her the truth,
there is a real crash.
Resurrection but relise.

What we have for nothing, lived, suffered!
What was created must perish,
What perished, rise again.

I still look for you
despite the years it's been
beyond the time you last touched my skin
I still long for you

Looking for that spark we had in others
and coming up empty
because none will compare to you

I still miss you
and feel like I'm still crying in the rain
as you drove away

away from me
away from us
away from what could have been

so I hope
pray that one day you'll relise
that despite how you view yourself
that you are still loved

unconditionally
unchanged
everlasting

you still have my heart
and one day I hope we meet again
even if it is to see you one last time