"reencountering" poems
Sometimes, I have these dreams
reflecting the images
of my thoughts
That’s why
upon the earliest dawn
can’t help but wither with my loss
Even I cannot understand
what for real occurs inside my mind
Maybe if I just stop lying could
the worlds forbid on me
vanish should
Then, I discovered,
lying is my safe haven;
lies masquerade the real essence
of evil that exists
inside me and all the ones
I stay alive for
But,
who are they?
Does someone with an importance
for me
actually breathes in this place?
Aye,
For sure,
it is
simply
not the other way
around
It might be that I should
take place of the worlds forbid
on me
and
Vanish
Only this and nothing more
Once
upon a midnight dreary
Figures of a life
that never was
or
never will
fled from their concealment
Yes,
same night
as before
While I pondered nearly napping
they would return
Reencountering
the lies I’ve told myself
Everyday
and Always
Suddenly,
There came a tapping
Could it be
The Lord
reaching for my carnal soul,
Already?
The one
from my dreams may be!
Has he
for final
found out?
No; Nein
Niet
Only voices of forever
Endlessness
Merely this and nothing more
Mislead and Delude
Deceive or Perjure
Cheat, even Fool
Why so many
expressions for a word?
Lie
The cause
of my dreamful nights
of the accomplishments
I didn’t deserve
of the illusion
I’ve built around who I thought
cared
just a little
I am
the actual delusional
Here
Even Lenore
weeps for me
right now
No,
it is no concern of her
For I
nothing represent
Will I ever feel the spring
once more?
Quoth the Raven: Nevermore
Will these
the ones who keep fooling me
ever go away?
I guess not
For, fool is fair
as fair is fool
These are only consequences
of yours venom
yours, mine own
Do I deserve it?
Yes
No
Who is to judge?
The Lord?
The one I doubt of
The Serpent?
The one all doubt of
Or the one,
I’ve been deceiving
and lying
and perjuring for
All Existence?
I guess I am not
a rare and radiant
maiden like the others
Nameless here forevermore
That I am certain
Nameless here
Forevermore
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 9:48 PM UTC