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Brittany Carter Aug 2011
24
24 redlines across my arm
Safe from pain free from harm
Slowly it seeps out the pain
Let it drain, to keep me sane
12 drops of heaven on the closet floor
I find my weapon and lock the door
Sorry god, just one more slice
Make it deep. forget the price
6 seconds of internal screaming
Praying to the lord some one can hear me
Silence is now my only friend
No more waiting till I can dice again
Everything’s under control.
Sure, the controls are a bit old —
nah, it’s not quite like a dice roll,
it’s all still working, kind of, all told.

Not to worry, everything’s fine,
all systems are still online
even if it looks like some redlines
are warning us of flaws in the design.

Sure, a failure happened before
that had lots of troubles in store,
hordes of red flags that could not be ignored
but were anyway. Led to one or two wars

but it’s OK, we fixed it back then
without needing to count down from ten.
Shut down your doubts, say yes and amen —
What, me worry? That’s our kind of Zen.
Inspired by this photo I took of a decrepit looking utility access point on a semi-abandoned 1970s concrete and aluminum building in Berlin: https://bsky.app/profile/jackgroundhog.bsky.social/post/3lgyhhnr5vc23
Oskar Erikson Aug 2022
We lasted 10 months
to the dot.
it seemed almost comical
how a relationship
could be so self contained.
i wondered-
looking at the freckle on the flat of your hand
whisky coloured on the smooth brown expanse—
if giving too much was really a problem I’d have to solve by myself.
the redlines we’d both crossed
reappeared in your eyes
i couldn’t understand where the stress the pressure summoned itself
begging to blow you up
but I could understand your hopelessness when you said you don’t want me to disappear.

it was only after that early morning walk to Starbucks together where
for fear of
wasting a weekend of sun
mourning
us
i debased myself
holding your hand, putting you piggyback  and running
like if i could make it to the finish line you’d give me a consolation prize and take me back.

watching videos in your halfway home
feeling your heartbeat
slow in my arms
believing it meant
this coldness was going to
melt away and
we’d rematch and be free

Until you spoke so casually
about the life you’d now get to live
unbound & free
the tautness of my heart
snapped me back to reality
cursing until my tears choked me.

i remember
packing myself away
you standing over me asking

“How are you feeling?”

like a taunt
with my fingers
grasping through the clothes
I brought to spend
in the sun
pushed to the back of
the suitcase
I stood and
unleashed all the truths
and half truths
and lies
unspooled
months
of love
in moments
to try to leave you
scarred and raw;

“you never loved me you never meant it really you want to be free you aren’t sick you don’t want to be my friend you don’t know what you want you were lying to me and now you wont even fight for me”

but you stood glacial -
and I realised it  -
was hopeless you had already moved on -
and all ive done was -
sentence myself to exile -
Madness Tachometer

Ugly dealings, foul conditions —
Fiends now rule the global stage.
Darkness thickens with their missions,
Spilling lies and breeding rage.

Waves of falsehood, floods of dumbing —
Idiots in full command.
In this world, depraved and numbing,
Fools oppress with heavy hand.

Brave and honest, wise and grounded —
Even they feel crushed and small:
Evil grows, resistance’s founded —
Sanity’s about to fall.

World of morons, bought and hollow —
That’s the BEAST’s desired fate.
And it’s coming — look and swallow:
Redlines past a hundred rate.



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Madness Tachometer 2

1.
Fools in charge, the brave are drowned —
Evil spins the world around.

2.
Sanity’s a dying spark —
Lies advance, and all goes dark.

3.
Idiot rule, and truth is banned —
Madness tightens its command.

4.
The throttle's jammed, the end is near —
The beast now drives — no brakes, no fear.



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Roses and Storms

"How fresh, how pure the blooming rose..." —
What crap, when all the world’s in flame!
Just one more way the rot still grows:
To drown our minds in pinkish shame.

This rose-fed filth is war's foundation.
Your very soul — the target claimed.
Can’t see the Hell in decoration?
You’ll call the vile divinely named.

It’s total slavery — ***** your roses,
Your tears, your dreams — begin to see:
The storm, the dark — that’s where the truth discloses
The mass hypnosis of the beast’s decree.



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Two-Stroke Engine

Push and burn —
Let it roll!
Lies up front —
Then comes the toll.
First, deception.
Next — the ****:
Second stroke —
The genocide drill.
Mind erased,
Then soul goes black —
Hell’s own engine,
Lie-fed track.



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Two-Stroke Engine 2

1.
Lies ignite — then slaughter flies.
Hell runs smooth on silenced cries.

2.
Two strokes: lie, then execute —
Truth is strangled, mute and brute.

3.
Fuel the beast — deceive, destroy.
Mind and soul are not a toy.



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Two-Stroke Engine 3

1.
Two strokes: the veil, then soul’s collapse —
The void inhales through smoky traps.

2.
Lies spark the wheel, then silence falls —
The spirit fades in engine calls.

3.
Deceit ignites, then shadows churn —
The soul forgets the way to turn.

4.
Mind erased in mechanized breath —
The engine hums the hymn of death.



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Two-Stroke Engine 4

1.
Two strokes — and gone: the inner light.
The link is snapped, no truth in sight.

2.
Engine roars — the Source denied,
A soulless drift in poisoned tide.

3.
A flash of lies — then all goes mute:
Cut from the Root, we serve the brute.

4.
From Source to sludge — the fall is tight.
The soul is scorched in engine-blight.




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Two-Stroke Engine 5

I. Spark
They sold the lie as sacred flame —
We lit the dark, forgot our name.

II. Cut
A hiss, a hum — then silence bled.
The Root was severed. God was dead.

III. Drift
Unanchored minds in circuits spin,
No voice within, no breath, no kin.

IV. Hollow Core
The soul once burned with living truth —
Now runs on fumes, in deathless youth.



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New Fashion

Two forks now dangle from your cap —
To catch the noodles on the flap.
But if you’re sporting a tricorne,
Then bring three forks — stay well-forewarned!

They’re quite the trend — with lies a’pouring,
From “friends” who stab you while adoring,
Without them, fog clouds every glance —
No change ahead, no second chance.

Just lies and lies — in layers stacked,
A powder-dusting lie on crap.
A fork won't pierce the crust, in fact —
You’ll need a pitchfork. That’s the map.

The weight of nonsense breaks your back —
Then stab it deep with pointed tack!
And toss it all — the burden’s fake:
At root of all this BS — Snake.




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New Fashion 2

1.
Forks won't cut it? Get the spikes —
The age of fluff is ruled by tykes.

2.
Too much crap for just one fork —
Time to storm with pitch and torque.

3.
Truth’s too tough? Then stab the fluff —
At root: a lie, disguised as "stuff".

4.
Three forks hang — a fashion tale.
One for each new public fail.

— The End —