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"recoiled" poems
I awoke into a morbid dream A shadow realm of neither form nor scheme A subdued mirage without shimmer or gleam   A foul abomination In this nightmarish realm of dread Weary souls are tapped and bled Demons feed, Spoil and spread Like dengue in the hearts of men This was surely a prison for the mind Perhaps even beyond even gods reach A place where dark kings rule and black priests preach And life itself has been impeached I writhed and recoiled in primordial plasma   Managing a precise thought in my horror “Is there not some chaperone To guide me through this hell unknown Some charitable entity To which I could bond eternally”
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Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 5:56 PM UTC
The reincarnation of the scorpion
I've been wandering this world. Wandering around, in my thoughts, going anywhere I wanted. Then I met you, my friend, and you taught my anything, anything that came into your mind: Like teaching how to love life and how to appreciate it. How to go on when life seems bad. Then you told me about love, about being in love, loving someone and the difference between. I asked how you knew this difference and you answered that anyone could know. That one only has to get to know people to find out what it is. Yet I still don't know what you meant. Not exactly, anyway. I understand a tiny bit, but not all. Just because I'm too afraid to try and get to know people... After love, friendship was the subject. According to your words, a true friend will always stay by your side. That made me start to wonder if that could be the reason that you never, never recoiled from my frozen heart. The reason you started teaching me. But as I get to know you, more and more, I am starting to believe that I found the difference, this difference between loving and being in love. I found out that my heart... That it's not as frozen as it once was. I think that's because of you; you and you teaching me about life. I've loved you, like I would love a sibling. And you kept going on with teaching, with being my teacher, and that opened my eyes and heart. Now I definitely know the difference, this difference you told me about. I know I loved you as family, a close friend, and now I know that I'm in love with you.
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Sep 4, 2012
Sep 4, 2012 at 12:47 PM UTC
Difference
I've been wandering this world. Wandering around, in my thoughts, going anywhere I wanted. Then I met you, my friend, and you taught my anything, anything that came into your mind: Like teaching how to love life and how to appreciate it. How to go on when life seems bad. Then you told me about love, about being in love, loving someone and the difference between. I asked how you knew this difference and you answered that anyone could know. That one only has to get to know people to find out what it is. Yet I still don't know what you meant. Not exactly, anyway. I understand a tiny bit, but not all. Just because I'm too afraid to try and get to know people... After love, friendship was the subject. According to your words, a true friend will always stay by your side. That made me start to wonder if that could be the reason that you never, never recoiled from my frozen heart. The reason you started teaching me. But as I get to know you, more and more, I am starting to believe that I found the difference, this difference between loving and being in love. I found out that my heart... That it's not as frozen as it once was. I think that's because of you; you and you teaching me about life. I've loved you, like I would love a sibling. And you kept going on with teaching, with being my teacher, and that opened my eyes and heart. Now I definitely know the difference, this difference you told me about. I know I loved you as family, a close friend, and now I know that I'm in love with you.
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It was after we passed Moby’s Dock that Ebony met her first thresher shark He was five feet long or so two feet shark, three feet tail, and had just been pulled from the surf to be proudly displayed by the fisherman who had caught him Ebony stood transfixed her every muscle poised her feathered tail twitched as she leaned closer to inspect and then recoiled from this cold-blooded beauty still dressed in fleetingly iridescent blues and greens and purples - As the sun’s fading beams highlighted the magnificence of this dying shark I mourned his loss that night. The noise and tourists in the Pier’s arcades and bumper cars did not detract from the peacefulness of the Pacific in her chaos for this was August and they would soon go home I watched a distant storm at sea flashing fire against the deepening twilight I stood, and Ebony, gazing at the flashes of lightning My hand felt her softness and warmth as I stroked the waves of her black fur relishing the cool wind on my face listening to the rigging of the boats resting at anchor off the Pier Thinking about thresher sharks Willing them away from this place with its fishermen and cold, baited hooks Cori MacNaughton 13 Sept 2000
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Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 1:11 PM UTC
The Santa Monica Pier
Recoiled in one’s own world The pusillanimous heart beats faintly Holding onto the last thread of hope Among the threadbare fabric of neglect
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Sep 12, 2014
Sep 12, 2014 at 11:50 PM UTC
Neglect
Planes fly into the towers Planes fly from out the craters in the towers Black plumes of smoke choke the sky Windowless planes flying into the towers And now another, now another The towers rattle Planes take-off from in the fire And go off into the city, into the stars into our minds. Planes like laser-lights, jetting off, imprinting themselves into our minds. Over and over and over and over and over and over and over There were as many as 1,000 planes or more. Desks, glass-shards, people  High-heels, telephones, people Falling, smashing down from the towers A Warholian dream  Dying icons on every TV set, 24 hour access On every channel  For months on end On end Headlines recoiled by an antichrist  Rumors he was in Pakistan In Switzerland, at the mall In your mind. The towers burn forever The towers burn forever Frozen in pixels online In our minds.
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Sep 11, 2012
Sep 11, 2012 at 8:51 AM UTC
Telephone
By day he wore a face of stone, a man at work, a man at home. Mid-tier, mid-forties, fading fast, a shadow built to never last. Unseen, unseen, the hours crawled, his name half-heard, his voice forestalled. Reliable. Invisible. Forgettable. Admissible. But night — night gave him another skin, a grinning mask, a skeleton grin. Blurry selfies, pumpkin puns, cheap delights for midnight ones. And they laughed. They saw. He mattered more than the man he’d left behind the door. She answered louder than the rest, late-twenties, lonely, dispossessed. Her laughter quick, replies too fast, his irony returned as gospel, cast. “I know this isn’t you,” she said. “I want the man who hides instead.” He recoiled. Deleted. Ghosted. Fled. But silence is a mask that turns, and absence is a fire that burns. 3:33, the phone alight, a skeleton meme each waiting night. 3:33, a plastic hand, a note enclosed: You’ll understand. 3:33, the offering grows — a pumpkin smashed, its seeds exposed. Her love became a ritual rhyme, his jokes became a curse in time. “You don’t get to leave,” she swore, “You owe me you, forevermore.” And he — the man who sought the crowd, who wanted laughter, not too loud, who craved the gaze but feared the weight, found every mask could seal his fate. No one is innocent here, no one. Not the trickster, not the one undone. He wore deception like a shield, she made obsession her battlefield. Now only one mask still remains — cheap plastic grin through windowpanes. Spoopy, childish, still, absurd, yet sharper than his final word. The curtains gap, the silence bends, a tilted grin that never ends. And he knows, beneath the grin so slight: her mask will never leave the night.
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Sep 22, 2025
Sep 22, 2025 at 4:41 AM UTC
You Owe Me
By day he wore a face of stone, a man at work, a man at home. Mid-tier, mid-forties, fading fast, a shadow built to never last. Unseen, unseen, the hours crawled, his name half-heard, his voice forestalled. Reliable. Invisible. Forgettable. Admissible. But night — night gave him another skin, a grinning mask, a skeleton grin. Blurry selfies, pumpkin puns, cheap delights for midnight ones. And they laughed. They saw. He mattered more than the man he’d left behind the door. She answered louder than the rest, late-twenties, lonely, dispossessed. Her laughter quick, replies too fast, his irony returned as gospel, cast. “I know this isn’t you,” she said. “I want the man who hides instead.” He recoiled. Deleted. Ghosted. Fled. But silence is a mask that turns, and absence is a fire that burns. 3:33, the phone alight, a skeleton meme each waiting night. 3:33, a plastic hand, a note enclosed: You’ll understand. 3:33, the offering grows — a pumpkin smashed, its seeds exposed. Her love became a ritual rhyme, his jokes became a curse in time. “You don’t get to leave,” she swore, “You owe me you, forevermore.” And he — the man who sought the crowd, who wanted laughter, not too loud, who craved the gaze but feared the weight, found every mask could seal his fate. No one is innocent here, no one. Not the trickster, not the one undone. He wore deception like a shield, she made obsession her battlefield. Now only one mask still remains — cheap plastic grin through windowpanes. Spoopy, childish, still, absurd, yet sharper than his final word. The curtains gap, the silence bends, a tilted grin that never ends. And he knows, beneath the grin so slight: her mask will never leave the night.
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The rabbit haunts from a distance, patrolling fields for one to bear witness. Gracefully the tenderfoot stalks, keeping a watchful eye out for Mr.Fox. The creature walks with a slight limp, other animals often call him a gimp. This way, that way, it all seems wrong, keeping time with a lost robin's song. His home constructed as a single story wonder, located within a large tree laying asunder. Family life wasn't right, as fleeting an image as a wayward kite. A field mouse, left without spouse, Stumbled upon the home in a tree, accompanied by a group of songbirds filled with glee. The field mouse was asked to go, the creature in response, simply said no. A man stumbled up, as mad as a hatter, his portly girth made it hard to imagine being any fatter. He spoke of intrinsic right, boundless visions beyond sight. Told the rabbit he had a duty to the mouse, saying it immoral to deprive him of a house. The rabbit, reluctant to accept , found out from the man of the true evils in neglect. He was told that he didn't own the home, it had simply been gifted as a goodwill loan. That meant it was as his as much as the rabbits, regardless of any perspective habits. With that the moused moved in, and brought with him his prized snakeskin. Over a meal the mouse spoke of danger, coming in the form of a wandering stranger. He told the rabbit, this creature travelled light, but usually shrouded in the cover of night. Said the creature was not large in size, though his methods of thievery seemed quite wise. The rabbit recoiled in his chair, as the field mouse offered up a demonic glare. The field mouse grinned from ear to ear, sensing this rabbit's new grasp on fear. Pulling the snakeskin from his sack, the dried shell was quick to crack. The mouse spoke of a brave duel, between him and this monster, which had downed a mule. He used every ounce of his cunning, and sent the legless beat running. It wasn't good enough for the mouse, who was certainly no louse. He tracked the snake for six long hours, through a field of partially bloomed flowers. In the end he killed the snake, then took its skin so listeners knew the tale wasn't fake. He held the skin, I mean the mouse, and said he'd hang the shell within the house. Mr. Rabbit was found dead two days after, his body lay desecrated next to the snakes, hanging from a rafter.
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Sep 3, 2014
Sep 3, 2014 at 1:02 PM UTC
Colonialism (Coquille River, Oregon) (1854)
The rabbit haunts from a distance, patrolling fields for one to bear witness. Gracefully the tenderfoot stalks, keeping a watchful eye out for Mr.Fox. The creature walks with a slight limp, other animals often call him a gimp. This way, that way, it all seems wrong, keeping time with a lost robin's song. His home constructed as a single story wonder, located within a large tree laying asunder. Family life wasn't right, as fleeting an image as a wayward kite. A field mouse, left without spouse, Stumbled upon the home in a tree, accompanied by a group of songbirds filled with glee. The field mouse was asked to go, the creature in response, simply said no. A man stumbled up, as mad as a hatter, his portly girth made it hard to imagine being any fatter. He spoke of intrinsic right, boundless visions beyond sight. Told the rabbit he had a duty to the mouse, saying it immoral to deprive him of a house. The rabbit, reluctant to accept , found out from the man of the true evils in neglect. He was told that he didn't own the home, it had simply been gifted as a goodwill loan. That meant it was as his as much as the rabbits, regardless of any perspective habits. With that the moused moved in, and brought with him his prized snakeskin. Over a meal the mouse spoke of danger, coming in the form of a wandering stranger. He told the rabbit, this creature travelled light, but usually shrouded in the cover of night. Said the creature was not large in size, though his methods of thievery seemed quite wise. The rabbit recoiled in his chair, as the field mouse offered up a demonic glare. The field mouse grinned from ear to ear, sensing this rabbit's new grasp on fear. Pulling the snakeskin from his sack, the dried shell was quick to crack. The mouse spoke of a brave duel, between him and this monster, which had downed a mule. He used every ounce of his cunning, and sent the legless beat running. It wasn't good enough for the mouse, who was certainly no louse. He tracked the snake for six long hours, through a field of partially bloomed flowers. In the end he killed the snake, then took its skin so listeners knew the tale wasn't fake. He held the skin, I mean the mouse, and said he'd hang the shell within the house. Mr. Rabbit was found dead two days after, his body lay desecrated next to the snakes, hanging from a rafter.
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**O, My Creator, Deliver Me From These Inquisitions, Emancipate Me From These Wretched Oppositions, Free Me From The Chains Of My Weary Disposition, Envelop Me Within The Folds Of Your Holy Apparition** *The Sun's Light Dwindled Along The Horizon, Darkness Bruised The Ledges Of The Sky, Summer's Vegetation Recoiled And Fossilized, Within The Dark Soil's Crumbling Underlie* **O, Glorious Divine Being, Act On My Requisition, Extricate My Soul From It's Appalling Malnutrition, This Tattered Mind Is A Degenerating Composition, Let My Spine Sprout Wings To Carry Me To Redefinition** *Stars Emerged From The Depths Of The Heavens, Holes Filtrating The Stale Air Circulating In Slime, Oozing From A Fatal Virus They Referred To As Time*
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Feb 18, 2015
Feb 18, 2015 at 7:08 PM UTC
Aspiration of Emancipation
His mother's dumb face His father's cold drinks It's all fun and games 'Till the happiness sinks He'll walk straight inside Not announcing his presence Stare fear in the eye And inhale killer's essence Walk up to his room And open his door Foreshadowing doom That box on the floor Within it? The metal He stole it for fun The steel 'shakes his settle' In the form of a gun He tugs on the hammer And pulls back the slide Waits 'till the clamor Of anxiety subsides Remembers the beatings His father would lay Remembers the feeding Of lies in the hay He waltzes down stairs With the gun in both hands At the very last step He nervously stands He won't just say 'blam' And pull back the trigger His thoughts make a plan A process much bigger Confronting them both At the small kitchen table He didn't once choke When he said "I am able" He pointed the gun But his resolve soon shattered And in shame, shot himself Saying first "It won't matter!" His plan had recoiled But his mission still stood As the bullet hit oil And caught fire to the wood And the flames licked and climbed And the roof burned and caved And the family died In the fiery blaze And the town down the road Never did realize The church choir sings odes And a young lady cries But never word flew Of the evil within 'Till the killers mind slew Just a boy and his kin
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Apr 22, 2014
Apr 22, 2014 at 2:05 AM UTC
Shantytown Suicide
Took 287 South to a Borders Goin Outta Biz Sale. Books may be anachronisms, relics from yesterdays analog age, but literacy's bankruptcy does have advantages. Take an additional 30% off on any orphans pleading release from the discount racks. Snooping down the literature isle Samuel Beckett's somber face arrested my roving eyeballs. A stern stare printed across 5 spines of his shrink wrapped oeuvre commanded my arm to rise to liberate the face from the dismal shelf. In mid flight my reach was hijacked by a Kris Kringley red snow flaked trim tome standing open face next to earnest Beckett. It was "The Christmas Sweater" by NYT Best Selling Author, Glenn Beck. Clasping at Beck's book, it inflicted a nasty paper cut to my ring finger. My mind recoiled, thinking, "serves you right. Like Martha, I shoulda chosen the better thing." I'll never make that mistake again. Borders Books Riverdale 2/20/11 jbm
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Nov 6, 2011
Nov 6, 2011 at 3:50 PM UTC
Choose The Better Thing
there's this book, a manual, a guide for shrinks ostensibly it aids them in assessing how one thinks to my mind it contains something for everyone to be human is to invariably become undone degrees of  normality, degrees of insane eventually too much knowledge makes the struggle an exercise in vain some gentle ones give up and relinquish trying coping is groping,  thrashing,  lying to thine own self be true unto this missive troubles you'll rue total honesty  impossible to know minuscule fleeting fractile glimpses of the show 'do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth'? I can only promise to try social strictures require we lie I will not swear to something I cannot believe I'm rarely really certain of any given thing;  my doubts know no reprieve When Krishna revealed to Arjuna his entire magnificence Arjuna recoiled in fear to behold such terrible opulence likewise my eyes have been opened to some totality so I view the truth as a comfortable logical fallacy therein is the problem the dilemma defined to tell the 'whole truth' I would most certainly lose my mind
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Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 9:14 PM UTC
something for everyone
Of course I want to see you again, That's the one thing I want the most. Even though you recoiled from me, and left me lost. Them butterflies in my stomach will torture me while I'm thinking on you appearing, And won't go away even after you're gone. They'll end up filling me whole. Then overflow. I think I can handle them butterflies, But what I still can't do, is dealing with the thought of you.
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Oct 17, 2014
Oct 17, 2014 at 2:12 AM UTC
Handling them wicked Butterflies
The woods have become denser Where roots have gone deeper Lost between the intricate mesh Of the branches and that hold Embracing each other in a synergy Here the lost soul is looking for a way To navigate between the labyrinth Ideas and thoughts are not porous Ground realities have become grim Recoiled are the roots deep within Looking to move away from the lacunae As the woods come closer and grasp This soul has no answer to the questions Pertinent doubts are raised No looking away from the harsh world Feeling crushed between two realities A hallucinatory phase feels so real Nothing but prisoners we are Caught between the woods of reality Souls filtered us through travails Here are the sediments seeping Deep into the ground, where roots reclaim
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Apr 1, 2015
Apr 1, 2015 at 1:31 AM UTC
In the Woods
She was the epitome of a good girl Funny, cool and the best friend ever She was smart too , never falling victim to their lies Always precluding hurt and pain but she had always craved something real that thing called love she no longer wanted to elude all the pain and pleasures that came along with it so she waited patiently for her knight to come to rescue her from the state of 'forever alone' and he did come, he was literally what every girl wanted when they were together , gravity no longer existed his very presence made her high when they kissed , megawatts of electricity and passion flowed through their veins But soon he started to withdraw from her He recoiled as if she was dangerous to his wellbeing everything went downhill for them she implored him to talk to her, to work things out after all when you love someone , you just dont give up on them but he refused and they grew apart she borne this for a while but the pain became too much and it all went up in flames he said he needed time to himself , to figure things out all the pressures in his life were too much and he needed time and space he said maybe they would get back together.... she put on a brave face and said goodbye it exhausted her inside , she tried so hard not to cry and so she said sorry to every cracked branch and leaf she passed because she now knew how it felt to be stepped on even after you were broken the pain still lingers , minutes to hours , hours to days It is really true when they say nothing gold can stay.
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Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 4:56 PM UTC
For Chelsea
She was the epitome of a good girl Funny, cool and the best friend ever She was smart too , never falling victim to their lies Always precluding hurt and pain but she had always craved something real that thing called love she no longer wanted to elude all the pain and pleasures that came along with it so she waited patiently for her knight to come to rescue her from the state of 'forever alone' and he did come, he was literally what every girl wanted when they were together , gravity no longer existed his very presence made her high when they kissed , megawatts of electricity and passion flowed through their veins But soon he started to withdraw from her He recoiled as if she was dangerous to his wellbeing everything went downhill for them she implored him to talk to her, to work things out after all when you love someone , you just dont give up on them but he refused and they grew apart she borne this for a while but the pain became too much and it all went up in flames he said he needed time to himself , to figure things out all the pressures in his life were too much and he needed time and space he said maybe they would get back together.... she put on a brave face and said goodbye it exhausted her inside , she tried so hard not to cry and so she said sorry to every cracked branch and leaf she passed because she now knew how it felt to be stepped on even after you were broken the pain still lingers , minutes to hours , hours to days It is really true when they say nothing gold can stay.
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A man three times her size almost twice as old touched her she did not like it recoiled pushed to the bathroom bent over a toilet pain ready to ***** sickening violated never spoken of aloud never will be disgusting she is now wipe away the memory ask her now why she hates herself
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Nov 6, 2012
Nov 6, 2012 at 2:11 AM UTC
Untitled
Del sat on the steps in front of a brick building, smoking a cigarette. She looked more like a thick, young teenage boy that a woman in her mid-twenties. With her track jacket collar pulled up tight around her, she recoiled into herself, slinking back into the steps. She siphoned a long deep inhale of smoke. Andie blew the cigarette smoke through her tightened lips and whistled the smoke at the mirror in front of her. She reviewed her reflection critically with squinting eyes. It was cold and dark in the room except for the hot glow of cigarette and the glare of a bare light bulb without a lampshade. Her skin stood up with goosebumps and her ******* were small and hard.
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Jan 22, 2013
Jan 22, 2013 at 11:54 PM UTC
Room Temperature
I was a new-born when you promised You would carry me anywhere I wanted And at any time I wanted, You promised me safety You promised me freedom. Dedicated and deceptive You had teased me growing up But I never would have predicted How malicious you could be You fooled everyone, even me. Parts of you were destroyed But you always found other ways To stick out, ugly and obscene You screamed at me, you harassed me And everyone else recoiled. You were ruthless, relentless, I needed your permission to leave On the worst days I could do nothing But lie there and seethe. You were always there waiting, Until I was distracted, to capture me Trapping me in a time loop dimension Loop after loop after loop; Like an elaborate knot. My tongue no longer tasted My humanity began to rust Like a corpse and its restless ghost I was dormant but deprived of sleep How could I rest under your glare? Like a deranged anaesthetist You forced me to the very edge I hung over that abyss, wondering If you would let my hand go, or pull me up Until boredom struck again Amidst the beeping and droning machines Serpentine, you still twisted around me Pungent disinfectant; the white-room scent And the pointed metal tips Their shrieking tongues turned to monotone. Well, organs and cells, I had long outgrown you and Your demented, slothful ways What did we have in common Anymore aside from me? But we are bound like conjoined twins As fused together as can be I’d die without you, you’d die without me I aim to live in harmony with you And help you gain a much sunnier hue.
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Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 4:06 AM UTC
Chronic Betrayal
I was a new-born when you promised You would carry me anywhere I wanted And at any time I wanted, You promised me safety You promised me freedom. Dedicated and deceptive You had teased me growing up But I never would have predicted How malicious you could be You fooled everyone, even me. Parts of you were destroyed But you always found other ways To stick out, ugly and obscene You screamed at me, you harassed me And everyone else recoiled. You were ruthless, relentless, I needed your permission to leave On the worst days I could do nothing But lie there and seethe. You were always there waiting, Until I was distracted, to capture me Trapping me in a time loop dimension Loop after loop after loop; Like an elaborate knot. My tongue no longer tasted My humanity began to rust Like a corpse and its restless ghost I was dormant but deprived of sleep How could I rest under your glare? Like a deranged anaesthetist You forced me to the very edge I hung over that abyss, wondering If you would let my hand go, or pull me up Until boredom struck again Amidst the beeping and droning machines Serpentine, you still twisted around me Pungent disinfectant; the white-room scent And the pointed metal tips Their shrieking tongues turned to monotone. Well, organs and cells, I had long outgrown you and Your demented, slothful ways What did we have in common Anymore aside from me? But we are bound like conjoined twins As fused together as can be I’d die without you, you’d die without me I aim to live in harmony with you And help you gain a much sunnier hue.
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The first time I saw a ****** I saw it in the open legs of a smouldering woman pockmarked by bullets, and her curly black hair was pink with brains like worms. Her knees shook spasmodically like spider's when you smush them under your thumb. The first time I saw and held a gun, I yanked it from my father's eternal fingers. His head was open too, and it buzzed in a black rain of flies. They were shooting, and little plumes of dust exploded all around my feet. Whizzing, Banging, a roar of warfare, and I burned myself; the shells kept falling against my skin as I held that AK squeezing and falling as the gun pow'd and recoiled. Little bubbling lakes of skin hurt my arms for days.
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Feb 9, 2012
Feb 9, 2012 at 7:36 PM UTC
Warfare.
I had been keeping a safe emotional distance from her Since she found out about the cutting, the eating disorders and all the rest of the lies I never really could talk to my mother Especially since she doesn't deal With shattered souls Very gently She yells when she doesn't know how to cope And it just makes it worse Because feelings are not logical And she is more of a logic person But she was in my room Talking to me about our plans for tomorrow Who was picking who up where and when etc. And I had a song playing in the background I listened too hard to the lyrics Memories flashed back And I burst into tears At first she did the whole typical of her: Grow up, get over it, stop being overdramatic and attention seeking thing but when she saw my eyes filled with tears her baby daughter's eyes in so much pain she started crying too and I recoiled at her embrace I didn't want her comfort She was never there for me When I really needed her to be And I am fairly unforgiving About things like that But I had been so alone For so long That year, I had spent full days In black clothes And total silence Not speaking to anyone ever at all because everyone hated me No one wanted to be friends With the girl who keeps getting called To the councillor's office And as this song brought me to tears I couldn't take being alone anymore So I let my mother hold me She whisper through choked sobs: are you really still that sad about everything that happened? And I answered in a hollow voice: Mom. You have no idea...how broken I have been. And she never did. Loneliness Is a scarring type of agony
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Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 12:49 PM UTC
How Broken I Have Been
I had been keeping a safe emotional distance from her Since she found out about the cutting, the eating disorders and all the rest of the lies I never really could talk to my mother Especially since she doesn't deal With shattered souls Very gently She yells when she doesn't know how to cope And it just makes it worse Because feelings are not logical And she is more of a logic person But she was in my room Talking to me about our plans for tomorrow Who was picking who up where and when etc. And I had a song playing in the background I listened too hard to the lyrics Memories flashed back And I burst into tears At first she did the whole typical of her: Grow up, get over it, stop being overdramatic and attention seeking thing but when she saw my eyes filled with tears her baby daughter's eyes in so much pain she started crying too and I recoiled at her embrace I didn't want her comfort She was never there for me When I really needed her to be And I am fairly unforgiving About things like that But I had been so alone For so long That year, I had spent full days In black clothes And total silence Not speaking to anyone ever at all because everyone hated me No one wanted to be friends With the girl who keeps getting called To the councillor's office And as this song brought me to tears I couldn't take being alone anymore So I let my mother hold me She whisper through choked sobs: are you really still that sad about everything that happened? And I answered in a hollow voice: Mom. You have no idea...how broken I have been. And she never did. Loneliness Is a scarring type of agony
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Shadows surrounding, pray they not see, pray they not listen, dare i not breathe. Whispers that deafen, and words that reveal, this lucid veil that will not conceal. Hollow and vacant, empty and cold, their blackened eyes upon me now. The night has deadened with a deathly chill, the air so silent, the heart so still. As darkness hastens and light recedes, i turn from myself to a place within. A sanctum of solace where no-one can see, walls without doors, a prison of dreams. Behind the curtain and beyond the walls, a barren waste in a desolate land. Under the stars and endless skies, my solitary shell, a kingdom all mine. Roaming the earth and drifting through time, i wander yet further, so far from this life. But into the distance, reflections like shimmer, refracting rays, the hall of mirrors. Drawn to this place like flies to the light, a spectacle of colour beneath the night. Images flicker and pictures so real, projecting desires and all of my fears. This looking glass that echoes my soul, a baleful glimpse of a life unknown. Of broken thoughts and truths undone, devotions lost, unrequited love. Recoiled in horror, i fall to my knees, with head in my hands, desperation screams. A storm so loud it breaks the heavens, a wind so fierce it shakes the trees. The mirrors shatter and light shines through, returning to myself, a place i once knew. The fallen curtain and the crashing walls, all that was becomes nothing at all. Darkness recedes and whispers fade, the blistering sun upon my face. Distorted visions they disappear, the world around me becoming clear. As everything becomes illuminated, what i've become is emanated. No more the voices and all is clearer, this lucid veil, this two-sided mirror. Reflections surrounding, pray I not see, Pray I not listen, yet I still breathe. Never to change and never to heal, always behind my two-sided veil.
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Oct 7, 2012
Oct 7, 2012 at 7:59 PM UTC
The Lucid Veil
Shadows surrounding, pray they not see, pray they not listen, dare i not breathe. Whispers that deafen, and words that reveal, this lucid veil that will not conceal. Hollow and vacant, empty and cold, their blackened eyes upon me now. The night has deadened with a deathly chill, the air so silent, the heart so still. As darkness hastens and light recedes, i turn from myself to a place within. A sanctum of solace where no-one can see, walls without doors, a prison of dreams. Behind the curtain and beyond the walls, a barren waste in a desolate land. Under the stars and endless skies, my solitary shell, a kingdom all mine. Roaming the earth and drifting through time, i wander yet further, so far from this life. But into the distance, reflections like shimmer, refracting rays, the hall of mirrors. Drawn to this place like flies to the light, a spectacle of colour beneath the night. Images flicker and pictures so real, projecting desires and all of my fears. This looking glass that echoes my soul, a baleful glimpse of a life unknown. Of broken thoughts and truths undone, devotions lost, unrequited love. Recoiled in horror, i fall to my knees, with head in my hands, desperation screams. A storm so loud it breaks the heavens, a wind so fierce it shakes the trees. The mirrors shatter and light shines through, returning to myself, a place i once knew. The fallen curtain and the crashing walls, all that was becomes nothing at all. Darkness recedes and whispers fade, the blistering sun upon my face. Distorted visions they disappear, the world around me becoming clear. As everything becomes illuminated, what i've become is emanated. No more the voices and all is clearer, this lucid veil, this two-sided mirror. Reflections surrounding, pray I not see, Pray I not listen, yet I still breathe. Never to change and never to heal, always behind my two-sided veil.
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He was just a year older, but I, at least three wiser. The Gatekeeper, silently watching ***** Dancing, assuming us at ease, slowly dozed off. Plastic floors, feigning multi-colored concrete, built a vivid castle around us. And there, I found my primary-colored sanctuary, a dungeon to others, with rubber walls. The Giant, just a year older and at least seven inches taller, tore down the castle doors, and away my Damsel flew. No time to react, I watched as the sly-deviled Giant ripped her from limb to limb. My mouth wide in horror, her tiny shoes fell to the ground, her blonde locks not far behind them. And I, the lonely maiden, just one year younger, but wild beyond my years, Let rage turn me to a vicious knight, determined to slay the Giant-turned-Dragon. With scales dragging between my teeth, I found his flesh and tasted sweet victory, a tinge of iron. The Dragon recoiled, agony escaping from his jagged teeth, The Damsel falling from his clutch, to the cold plastic cement. Tears reclaimed the Giant from his vicious reptilian form, and those seven inches meant less as his wailing continued. And I, the valiant maiden-knight, had slain the mighty Giant; who was just one year older, seven inches taller, and knew never to touch my Barbie dolls again.
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Oct 26, 2012
Oct 26, 2012 at 1:54 AM UTC
When I was Five
He turned around to look at her--face to face. "Excuse me?" he asked. He has heard what she said, but the question was only to confirm that his brain had processed that which his ears had just heard. "You know what I said." she shot back quickly. "Nono--tell me again what you..just..said," his voice got lower and his steps quickened with each word. Now they were nose to nose, eye to eye, face to face. She swallowed deeply and confidently said, "Go. **** Yourself." His right hand quickly recoiled back to back-hand-slap her across her beautiful face, but he was quickly foiled by a knee to his groin. "Aaawwwooohhfuck!" he howled. He fell to his knees in agony. The kind of agony where it feels like your stomach is doing somersaults and pirouettes. This gave her the perfect opportunity to finish what she had started. She raised her right hand to strike him. As her hand got higher, her brow became more furrowed. Her hand became a balled-up fist, then quickly struck down on his left temple. His eyes rolled back in his head as his body became limp and collapsed fully to the dirt. She seized the opportunity to kick him violently in his face and upper body with no resistance from him. By the time she had finished her onslaught of kicks, his face looked mangled and bruised. He was bleeding from every orifice on his face. She knew what she had done, and she knew the authorities would be there soon. She surveyed the fields. The wheat was swaying calmly in the wind, and the smell of juniper was being carried from the evergreen forest just south of Old Man Morrison's property. She looked down at him, almost exactly the same way that she had seen him look at her so many times before. With a scowl, she hocked up a disgustingly large *** of spit and shot it directly on to his bloodied face. As the sounds of sirens came audible in the distance, she turned to walk the opposite way from where he laid. "I said...Burger King is way tastier than ******* McDonalds."
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Jan 17, 2014
Jan 17, 2014 at 2:10 PM UTC
Never **** a Shitter--A Short Story
He turned around to look at her--face to face. "Excuse me?" he asked. He has heard what she said, but the question was only to confirm that his brain had processed that which his ears had just heard. "You know what I said." she shot back quickly. "Nono--tell me again what you..just..said," his voice got lower and his steps quickened with each word. Now they were nose to nose, eye to eye, face to face. She swallowed deeply and confidently said, "Go. **** Yourself." His right hand quickly recoiled back to back-hand-slap her across her beautiful face, but he was quickly foiled by a knee to his groin. "Aaawwwooohhfuck!" he howled. He fell to his knees in agony. The kind of agony where it feels like your stomach is doing somersaults and pirouettes. This gave her the perfect opportunity to finish what she had started. She raised her right hand to strike him. As her hand got higher, her brow became more furrowed. Her hand became a balled-up fist, then quickly struck down on his left temple. His eyes rolled back in his head as his body became limp and collapsed fully to the dirt. She seized the opportunity to kick him violently in his face and upper body with no resistance from him. By the time she had finished her onslaught of kicks, his face looked mangled and bruised. He was bleeding from every orifice on his face. She knew what she had done, and she knew the authorities would be there soon. She surveyed the fields. The wheat was swaying calmly in the wind, and the smell of juniper was being carried from the evergreen forest just south of Old Man Morrison's property. She looked down at him, almost exactly the same way that she had seen him look at her so many times before. With a scowl, she hocked up a disgustingly large *** of spit and shot it directly on to his bloodied face. As the sounds of sirens came audible in the distance, she turned to walk the opposite way from where he laid. "I said...Burger King is way tastier than ******* McDonalds."
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They call me Jack! A Jack the Lad a man who likes to go out late. I must confess that I'm a cad and often seen in Aldegate. Whitechapel and Spittlefield are other locations I frequent. Tis where I often draw my yield and nay for that I'll not lament. Inspired by my ill repute, repugnant chanting of my name, I'll seek and find a ********** commencing to secure my fame. Reference books cannot advise what two skilled hands can show. Exacting cuts when I excise, instructing where my blade doth flow. My first, Miss Nichols, I recall, whom blinded by the lure of coin, into my clutches she did fall and she, I did indeed refine. Chapman then I did impress with incision so demanding. Nothing taken to excess an ***** now made outstanding. Stride and Eddowes in one night but fortune demanded I should race. Though well presented to the light, embarrassment is my disgrace. My final lady played the game, Miss Kelly whom at my insistence. She alone recoiled my fame, my very own Piece de Resistance.
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May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 12:57 PM UTC
Jack the Lad
As I began to climb the campus stairs, All alone with a numb ache- A depression blocked those minute vessels, That carries my vital fluid that frequently thins. A kind of a genetic disorder that robs me off- All of my terrible hormones that loses competition, A competition so heroic called youth, That settles the score of my ****** life. A physical length that reduces me to a dwarf, Almost an intelligent ape that snubs too- And cannot have biology with another species, That adores a disqualified creature of its size. What can make me happy? What do I want then? Shall I need those beautiful preachers of opposite genes? Shall I claim their eminence in my life? Or leave them for those eligible bachelors? As I landed my nose in the campus pillars, And nobody cared but me- A stimulus recoiled and resurrected those minute vessels, That carries my vital fluid that became viscous again.
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Oct 29, 2010
Oct 29, 2010 at 2:28 AM UTC
Eligible Bachelors
the rubber burned and made the nerves in her nasal cavity burn and singe. she recoiled from the horrific fumes exhausting from the tires. the day was blackened with smoke that rose past the peaks of the surrounding mountains and up to the stars above.
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Jul 15, 2012
Jul 15, 2012 at 7:49 PM UTC
Tire