I look out the window
Watching the rain
The world’s full of sorrow
Darkness and pain
They always ask
Why I listen to music
Its how I escape
This life makes me sick
I know life ain’t easy
I know that it’s hard
But with each passing day
I’m falling apart.
Seeing tears in the eyes of my mother
Knowing my parents never worthy of my brother
Some days my only hope
Is to run away
Cuz no one can cope
With all this crap everyday
Watching my parents struggle with bills
Yeah, we got welfare money, but still
Them $200 a month ain’t enough
And where’s Rashad when you need him the most?
Spending all his money on useless stuff
And every day I watch Sophia grow
Into a strong, caring woman
A helpless little girl no more
And every time Papa and Enzo fought
I’d hide in the room with her
Cuz in the end, she’s all I got.
Without Rashad at home
Mama and Papa depend on Enzo
To help pay all the loans
But Enzo has other plans to do
He’s trying to go to South America
For at least a year or two
Said it’s his way of becoming a man
Of course Mama and Papa aren’t happy
But I'm gonna do the best I can
To fill that gap of my brothers
I'll focus on my education
Cuz all I want is a smile from my mother
I won’t make the same mistake as Rashad
And God protect Enzo, and Sophia too.
Cuz she’s the best I ever had
And to Mama and Papa:
I know life ain’t easy
I know that it’s hard
But as long as you got family
You will never be apart.
♥