"ramains" poems
My sweet misery I think thats what you are ..
You make me feel things i dont understand .. I do things i wouldn't do .. Im a whole different person with you .. I second guess myself when im with you dam i even dream about you ..
ITS ALL ABOUT YOU ..
I think to myself all the time
How can he have this power over my mind?
LOVE IS ??
I really dont know ...
It flips and turns in my head ..
Could i be loving him ? Or could it be lust?
It must be lust i cant be in love ..
Or could i be?
I dont know but all i know it cant happen to me ..
DENIAL !!!
Is that what im in ?
No cant be ! But am i ? Could i be ? Is he ?
MAN JUST LEAVE ME BE !
In my mind i say this cant be me .. But my heart says let it be ...
SHEESH !!!
He's just my sweet misery
I never would have thought that misery could be so sweet it gets so deep it's something i wake up thinking about and sometimes
I cant eat ... Cant drink ... Cant sleep
The feeling of it is so great to explain it would take months .. Months that would trun in to years and soon to explain this misery could be impossible ..
Wow just to think impossible ???
Could it be with this sweet misery that ramains in my mind remain a mystery to my life ??
Dam
Will this go with me to my other life that god has planed for me ??
Man can some one answer these so i could be in peace ???
Or is it for somebody to answer or his?
The one im thinking about .. The one i dream about .. The one i ...
His smile his smell his face his lips against mine his wow wait ...!!??
My sweet misery remains a mystery ...
Nov 8, 2014
Nov 8, 2014 at 7:22 PM UTC
I have found a means to numb myself
To remove what confounded heart is left
For if what remains of it should break
All meaning in my breath will melt and I pray
Nothing will matter but my rage and hatred
...and I suppose what remains of myself
Removed? I fear it is a monster with nothing
To prove... A one eyed thing, a furious storm,
Hell bent to return what pain given / laid to rest.
No love remains if the only gift left is death...
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 5:18 PM UTC
Shadows. Echoes.
Soft light filling the dark spaces in my mind.
Skin to skin.
Humming and colliding.
Think again and make your choices,
for they make you as well.
Resist the urge.
Go against wrong.
Suppress the gagging feeling.
And just let it go.
Impulses are strong.
Emotion or logic?
Don't get carried away.
Choose well.
Your decisions will haunt you forever.
Panic and fear consume you whole.
Your soul is damaged.
Drain the pain or it will subtly **** you.
Murderous and silent
Guilt makes it's way into your heart.
Tearing it apart
and shattering the ramains, the broken pieces.
Trust no one or trust them all.
Your destiny beholds such tortures that you don't seem to know.
Life kills us all.
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 12:48 PM UTC