"I was here", the writing on the wall said.

Her cold body lying down on the mat,
Decorated in the lifeless blood
She was drowning in...
Her eyes almost seemed at ease.

Somewhere between the seduction of suicide
And the myriad of regret,
Before she let herself slip
Into the unknown,
She must've realised she'd never feel again

Pretty girl,
Known by all,
And loved by none.  

You chose to make death your saviour

I can still hear your laughter
When I told you life was beautiful.

You were haunted, gentle girl
But you were my secret lover.

Apologies
Promises to new beginnings
second chances
second chances
I gave us another try

Broken
Oh! My stomach
it dropped
it dropped
like the death of a thousand butterflies

Concealment
The real you
no virtue
no truth
only lies

Deception
There were others
other women
other girls
I was just another prize

Excitemnt
You wanted me
my heart
my heart
it leaped with pride

Friendship
We were together
first date
first kiss
you laughed, I sighed

Goodbyes
Your mind changed
unresolved
unexplained
for all my life I'll wonder why

Hesitaion
Should I fight?
with words
with effort
No I keep these feelings inside

Introspection
I want answers
was it me?
was it me?
My insecurities multiply

Jaded
Overwhelmed with fatigue
eyes closed
eyes closed
I sleep off the day though it isnt dignified

Knowledge
to lack experience
sheltered
sheltered
Perhaps Im not as qualified

Lonliness
I reach for
the phone
the phone
Then hang up because its better to hide

Moments
replaying real scenarios
your movements
your smile
My mind now fully occupied

Nothing
are you ok?
its nothing
its nothing
I say! Except for my heart collapsing in like some silent suicide

Opportunities
another suitor approaches
he inquires
he inquires
Doesnt he know Im terrified?

Prospects
He likes me
feelings
feelings
I cant decide

Quiet
praying, hands extended
only silence
only silence
I look up into an empty sky

Rumors
you speak badly
of me
of me
mouth opened wide

Stagnet
affection comes slow
Im shy
Im shy
Men come at me in strides

Tragedy
all my efforts
in vain
in vain
Desires split, disperse, then divide

Unexplored
"True Love Waits"
***
***
Acceptable only when Im someones bride

Vows
made in wine
never again
never again
Words often pledged when I think on you and I

Wasted
all this time
true love
real love
You mean to tell me it died? Was crucified?

Xs
Your new girlfriend
dont stare
dont stare
I turned my face I think I cried

Years
Life goes on
Tick
Tock
Please hurry and pass me by

Z**igzags
Poems wrote in
fragments
lines
Painful rejection glorified

Treasure chest nested in the attic,
Covered with dust and filled with wonder
Locked in lies, sealed with secrets
How long can you remain dormant
Treasure chest golden framed,  wooden block
Draped with an old Afghan
The one my Nana made, with yarn that went on sale
It smells like must and it's coated with cobbwebs
linking my past to my
present
Treasure chest resting on the ragedy wooden floor
The floor I pushed you on, making one long scratch across the room
Leaving an arrow leading me to you
Treasure chest your memories are sweet, yet cruel
When I unlock your case and lift the hood
Shimmering Jade fills the room