First day of school
I see you
Sitting down
Looking at me
My heart racing
My mind shut down
All my sences gone
Your eyes touching mine

One word
Hello
Two syllabes
Five letters
A million ways to fall in love

The first second
Even before
Of course
We were meant to be
I saw you in a dream before that day
Your eyes where as lovely
As sweet
As nice
And *** unique

I tried to hide it
Keep it to my self
I tried
And it worked
A love that hurts
By the knowledge that you felt nothing

Thinking that every second
I could loose you
I try day by day for you to love me
You flurt with others
But I am still here
Why? Dont ask me!

It is your fault
I fell for you the first day
With every word
Every laugh
Every smile
Every time I saw your eyes

Qnd even though this is killing me
I am still here
With this hidden love in my heart
Hoping you love me
Like I love you

Ive been to the dentist

She gave ma a happy pill ME a happy pill, not Ma a happy pill

Tree frogs are my favotire amphibians there so cute ya wanna buy them an ice cream but there aint no bug ice scream

Yes I’m fine than k you

Gosh this is still fun

And they gave me a new toothbrush although I use the super-golly-gee-****-quadro-toothbrush-thing-that-lights-up-and-s­tuff

Yes the pill is wearing off sure
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Why do they all put their hands in my mouth at the same time

Lets see thats four hands

And then they yell at me to relax

But yeah I got a pill qnd I am sooooooooooooooooooo relaxed

My teeth are fine

My teeth are green no wait my teeth or clean because if they were green they wouldn’t be clean

Dr. Joyce is the best

There’s still something to be said for tree frogs

Yes I can walk to the car whoops

Yes I can opine the passenger door

Yes I can belt my seat fashion

Or somethingthis has been fun

Thank you yes six monyhsts…

Opportunities arise,
Anxiety is suppressed.
"Just breathe" you say
   as you walk done the street.
Hoping you arent as transparent
  as a blank white sheet.
A sheet used to cover a kid wanting to seem invisible on Halloween.

You walk in.
The office eyes bore holes in you
   as the whispers "new girl"
You gather yourself qnd mumble
"Dont"
As if to talk to your inner self telling it to stop feeling panic
As if to prove that your able to hold yourself together when opportunities arise.
"Dont!" You shout to that inner being
"Dont!" You yell at the top of you imaginary lungs
As you break down inside you seem to hold your outter being together you sit down.
Your now in your office and yet another day of work and panic.

I assume that you never
Knew the pure love we had
For you,
Your tiny body could not take
The world so we imagine
You went straight to become an angel.

You did not take a breath
Of the air I still breathe as i waited
For your cries,
That made two of us because
I could not breathe as you never
Made a sound.

I assume that you loved your
Mother so much you could
Not bear to be apart from
Her,
That you left to watch over her
In spirit qnd essence,
That she still leaves flowers
For you shows me she misses
You .

Of all the things you will never see
I hope i have seen enough
To know that i tried to live
For you,
That of all the days and every
Night we never had,
That my pain still lives,
As well as my love,
That i will be with you one day
And you can show me
All that i do not know
Of the Heavens and glories.

Your light shines somewhere
Too bright for this world,
I know that when my eyes close
For the final time your
Light will guide me home.

Legend tells of ******* swing
She would sit and laugh and lovely sing
She would sing and smile
To see her men would travel many a mile
Her beauty made men enchanted
Such that they raved and ranted
Men longed for her
Such that they would slur
Her beauty was beyond known
Yet generously sown
For some have beauty
But none have her beauty
The ******* the swing
Who would sit qnd laugh and lovely sing

Every day you play me as a fool you take all my hope and dreams and smash them everyday mom you scream at me for the hard work i do for you dad all you do is scream at my face leaving me with pain deep down all you ***** do is scream at me treat me like im nothing but a ******* joke a fool. You do nothing but call your self family when i have nothing to left to say nothing cause all **** day you scream at me from sun up to sun down



Your choice of words are intresting but your like a bottle of liquir you drink it all day one its gone so is you soul


Havnt you seen your words chase me away

You nothing but a joke your self  playing with fire



Your life is a lie you call your self human when you cant evne control yourself and speak to me me like i am real


I regret to say i think you have nothing you are nothing


Your like a bottle of liquir you drink it all **** day and it empty at the end


Truthfully i am human i have a voice mom and dad you will never understand I DONT GIVE 2 ***** WHAT YOU SAY YOUR ALL ******* WAST OF TIME YOU OVISLY HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO WASTING MY TIME WHEN I AM MARRIED QND HAVE MY OWN FAMILY I REGRET TO SAY I NEVER CARED WHAT YOU SAY I NEVER CARED YOU ONLY LET SCARES THAT RIDE MY BODY DEEPLY


YOU PLAYED ME AS THE FOOL WHEN YOUR NOTHING BUT FOOLS YOUR SELVES

Being called delusional for having a dream that doesn't evolve around you.
Being called a narcissistic for not giving up values and ones self
Had bad leads did  their work it made me better
Dealt with good leads that are supportive Gaining more confidence
Stepping it up filling the void since it needs to done
Doing the work even if others are not satisfied show up, help don't just criticize
Thankful for growing qnd